Chapter 541 I Know You Will Be Unhappy

Li Yue smiled bitterly.

Is she ignorant?

She doesn't know.

During her time in the countryside, she was most afraid of anything having to do with money.

She was also afraid that others would ask why her parents divorced.

She was also afraid that someone would ask why she followed her father instead of her mother.

She was even more afraid that someone would ask why her sister followed her mother.

Every problem was like a sharp knife stabbing into her heart, causing her to bleed.

Ten-year-old Li Yue just looked at the stars in the sky, tears falling down his face, with confusion in his eyes.

"Why do my parents not love me? Is there something I haven't done well enough?"

Li Yue smiled faintly and asked, "Does it matter whether they love you or not?"

Ten-year-old Li Yue choked up, not knowing how to answer this question.

Li Yue reached out and touched his childhood self's head. "It doesn't matter. In fact, it's enough for us to love ourselves. It doesn't matter whether others love us or not."

"Don't think about whether there is something wrong with you, and don't be so cautious to please them. It doesn't matter whether they like you or not. You have to like yourself."

When she was ten years old, she had been deceiving herself and finding many excuses for her parents in her mind.

I always tell myself in my heart that they actually love me.

But in the adult world, there is adult helplessness.

She told herself that it was not that her parents didn't love her, but she couldn't understand why she was always the one not chosen when faced with a choice.

I also don’t understand why there are always other things more important than myself.

She had been deceiving herself for a long time, and the people around her had brainwashed her.

She brainwashed herself like this.

In fact, when he was thirty years old, although Li Yue understood in his heart, he was still unwilling to admit that he was the one who was not loved by his parents.

But she can deceive herself for a while, but she cannot deceive herself for a lifetime.

She used to deceive herself all the time and nothing happened.

Now that I see my past self again, I don’t want to be that liar anymore.

Ten-year-old Li Yue opened her eyes wide. In her opinion, the words spoken by her future self subverted her cognition.

How can people not care whether their parents love them?

"But...but children who are not loved by their parents are very pitiful..."

Ten-year-old Li Yue lowered his head and spoke every word carefully.

Li Yue smiled and said, "Yes, children who are not loved by their parents are pitiful."

"But it is most pitiful that they do not love their own children."

Even more pitiful are those who do not love themselves but desperately desire others to love them.

Li Yue knew that he was such a pitiful person.

When the ten-year-old girl heard this, she was stunned for a long time.

It wasn't until a fallen leaf blew on her that she raised her head and asked, "My parents don't love me anymore. Can I love myself?"

"My parents don't love me, so no one else will love me either."

Hearing his ten-year-old self say this, the thirty-year-old Li Yue was stunned.

She recalled a question her best friend had asked when she was extremely angry because she was always having love attacks.

——Why do you always want a man to love you? Can't you live without a man's love?

——Even if he is a piece of trash, you don’t care, you just want him to love you, but he doesn’t take you seriously at all!

——Why do you care so much about whether a man loves you or not? If he doesn't love you, will you die?

——If no one loves you, just love yourself. Is your brain clogged with shit? Don’t you understand such a simple truth?

At that time, she looked at her furious best friend, lowered her head silently, and said nothing.

She didn't answer her best friend.

Because she herself doesn't know why she craves other people's love so much?

Why can't she love herself if others don't love her?

Why must she pin her hopes on others?

But now, she seemed to understand.

Because she had believed since she was ten years old that if her parents didn't love her, no one in the world would love her anymore.

She thinks she is the worst person and no one will like her or love her.

On the other hand, she also hoped that there would really be a savior in this world who could save her from danger like the prince in the fairy tale.

She watched too many idol dramas and read too many fairy tales when she was a child.

There are many princesses in fairy tales who had more miserable childhoods than her.

They will always face countless sufferings in their lives.

But no matter what, there will always be a prince who will lead them out of the quagmire.

When she was a child, she was naive and thought that the stories in fairy tales were true, so she always hoped that a prince would fall from the sky.

Later, when I grew up, although I knew that the stories in fairy tales were all fake, I still couldn't help but imagine that someone loved her like a prince loves a princess.

However, now that she was standing in front of her ten-year-old self, she felt that her previous thoughts were ridiculous.

She gently stroked her ten-year-old self's head and said, "You said that if your parents don't love you, then you have no right to love yourself. Then can I ask you a question?"

Ten-year-old Li Yue was stunned. "What's the problem?"

The evening wind blew dark clouds that covered the moon in the sky, and dead leaves fluttered to the ground. Li Yue reached out his hand and caught a fallen leaf.

She looked at the stars in the sky and said softly, "If you were sure that your parents didn't love you, would you give up your life?"

"Would you not want to live just because your parents don't love you?"

I thought I would have thought about it when I was younger.

Unexpectedly, after hearing this, the ten-year-old Li Yue said without thinking: "Of course not!"

Li Yue turned his head and looked down, meeting the gaze of his ten-year-old self. A rare smile finally appeared in his eyes.

"Why?" she asked.

The 10-year-old me answered without hesitation: "Because I still have a lot of fun places to go, a lot of beautiful dresses to wear, and a lot of things I haven't eaten that I really want to eat."

"Jia Jia and I have made an appointment to visit her grandmother's house during the summer vacation!"

The world of children at that time was so small. Apart from teachers, parents and friends, there was only food, play and beautiful clothes.

But even these are enough.

Li Yue just smiled and looked at his former self with gentle eyes.

There was even some relief in her eyes.

"Look, you actually have things you want to do."

"In fact, when you are born, you are a completely independent person. Whether your parents love you or not, it cannot affect the fact that you are completely your own."

People say that unhappy people spend their entire lives healing their childhood.

Lucky people use their childhood to heal their lives.

This is true, but also wrong.

"Yueyue, the love of your parents can become your motivation and confidence to move forward, but you can't let the desire to be loved dominate yourself just to get this love."

She wondered if these words would seem too obscure to her ten-year-old self.

I don't know if these words would have seemed too preachy and unpleasant to my old self.

But she had been deceiving herself all along, and now that she had suddenly returned to the past, she didn't want to let her former self go down the same old path.

But my younger self suddenly held her hand and nodded slowly to her.

"Okay, I will learn to love myself the most like you said. No matter whether my parents like me or not, no matter whether others like me or not in the future, I will love myself well."

Some of the words and phrases spoken by 30-year-old Li Yue would sound strange and difficult to understand to 10-year-old Li Yue.

But ten-year-old Li Yue not only has ears, she also has eyes and a heart.

She can watch and sense the emotions of adults.

"I know that you said this to me because you suffered a lot and were wronged a lot while growing up."

"You must have had a long period of time when you didn't like yourself. That period made you very unhappy. You must have been working hard to make your parents like you."

"You must have been very unhappy during that time."

Because Mom and Dad don't like her, probably just like she doesn't like snakes.

No matter what the snake did, she would never like the snake.

"Because you had a very hard and sad time, you don't want me to be sad like you in the future, right?"

Ten-year-old Li Yue is a child, but she is not a fool.

Moreover, whether children or adults, they all have the instinct to seek benefits and avoid harm.

Adults will not do anything that is against their own interests.

Children will not do anything that makes them unhappy.

If you worry every day about whether your parents love you or not, you will be very unhappy and sad in the future.

So the ten-year-old Li Yue simply kicked this problem out of his life.