"My child, my child!" I cried out as I woke up.
"Xin'er, you're awake." You was overjoyed to see me awake.
I ignored You and went straight to my stomach with both hands. My slightly protruding belly was now completely flat.
"Where is my baby?" Tears streamed down my face. I grabbed the blanket in disbelief and looked at my belly.
My stomach was exposed to the air, and its still flatness stung my eyes.
"How could this be... How could this be... Where is my child?!" I screamed and cried.
"Xin'er, you can have more children in the future." Youyi hugged me to comfort me.
"It's all my fault. I shouldn't have let Master come out to see us." It was Feng Su's voice, but the familiar voice had become somewhat low and hoarse.
"Sister, I'm sorry, it's all my fault." It was Hao's voice, delicate and soft, tinged with tears, as he sobbed softly.
I closed my eyes and let the tears stream down my face.
Who can I blame? It's all my fault. The child is gone, it's all my fault.
"Xin'er, don't be sad."
I leaned against You's chest and cried silently, as if I couldn't hear a single word they said.
I don't know how long I stayed in You's arms. I slowly got up from You's embrace. I had almost finished crying, and all that was left was my dry face and sore eyes.
"Xin'er," You called softly.
I stared blankly at You's face. Her eyes were also a little red. The baby was gone; You must be just as heartbroken as I was.
"You." My voice was extremely hoarse from crying for so long. "I'm sorry, I couldn't protect our child."
"It's not your fault," You said, holding my hand. "I'm partly to blame too."
I fought back the urge to cry again, "Child, how did you die?"
After a moment of silence, a hand stroked my face. "Xin'er, rest for a while. I'll tell you about these things later."
I grabbed You's sleeve. "No, tell me now."
I can roughly guess that it must be related to Liu Lieyu. Is this the gift he mentioned before he left?
Does Liu Lieyu have no heart? How could he bear to do this to a living, breathing child?!
After a moment of silence, he slowly spoke, "Liu Lieyu left something in your belly before he left, which killed the child."
"What is that?" I clenched my fists tightly.
He remained silent, unable to bring himself to speak.
"What is it?" I raised my voice again and asked once more.
"Snakes." You closed her eyes, unable to bear looking at me. "Three little snakes devoured the fetus completely."
I felt a chill run down my spine, thinking that there were three little snakes inside my stomach that were eating my child.
"Ugh." A wave of nausea rose in my throat, and I leaned over the bed and dry heaved. I don't know if it was just my imagination, but I even felt that my mouth was full of the fishy smell of snake.
"Xin'er, I've already taken out and disposed of the snake." You quickly patted my back gently and held a glass of water to my lips.
I waved my hand in refusal; I couldn't drink a single drop of water.
I can't believe the pain my child went through, being devoured by three little snakes.
It's all my fault, it's all my fault.
The tears I had just stopped started flowing again. I hated Liu Lieyu so much, I wished I could make him experience such pain too.
"Xin'er." You hugged me. "It's all my fault. I shouldn't have left you so easily. If I had arrived earlier, this wouldn't have happened."
"It's not your fault." I touched You's face. "It's all because I was too willful."
My tears blurred my vision, preventing me from seeing Qingyou's face.
I grieved for several days after losing my child.
You has been by my side these past few days, staying with me every step of the way. She comforted me when I cried and fed me water when I was thirsty.
I would wake up in the middle of the night and find myself nestled in You's arms.
Several significant battles have broken out in the past few days, and You hasn't been by my side to accompany me. She has entrusted all matters to Feng Su.
Feng Su was aware that I had been in a bad mood these past few days, so she hadn't bothered us.
Feng Su and Hao realized they had gotten into trouble this time. They knelt by my bedside several times after the incident until I woke up, at which point I told them to get up.
Ultimately, this is my own fault; it has little to do with them.
They both felt extremely guilty, believing it was all their fault.
"You, are you alright keeping me company these past few days?" My emotions have calmed down a lot now. Being sad is useless; the most important thing is to take revenge.
"It's okay, I'll stay with you longer."
"I'm fine now." I put my arm around You's waist and buried my face in the sore spot on You's chest.
You didn't say anything, she just tightened her grip on my hand.
"Really." I looked up at You's face and gently kissed her chin. "Go ahead, we still need to avenge our child."
"Are you really sure you can do it?" You was still a little worried.
"Yes, I'm ready." I nodded emphatically.
"Okay." You stood up and prepared to leave.
I suddenly reached out and tugged at You's sleeve. "I want to go too."
You stopped and turned to look at me. "Xin'er, you haven't fully recovered yet..."
"Please," I pleaded, tears welling up in my eyes again. "I'll go crazy if I stay here."
"Okay." You nodded slightly and bent down to wipe away the tears from the corners of my eyes. "Don't cry."
After I got ready, You took me out.
We came out just as a major battle had ended, and many people on the front lines were cleaning up the battlefield and treating the wounded. The air was thick with the smell of blood.
Perhaps because my child is gone, I felt no discomfort in my body this time, and I walked calmly through the tents of all sizes.
"Xin'er, where are you going?" You asked, following beside me.
"I want to go and see Guixu's camp."
"Xin'er." You grabbed my arm, not letting me leave, her expression extremely worried.
I suddenly smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'm fine. I won't do anything reckless. I just want to take a look from a distance."
"I'll take you there."
You escorted me all the way to a small hill not far from the Guixu military camp, where we stopped.
I silently gazed at the distant military camp, desperately suppressing the urge to rush in and tear Liu Lieyu to pieces.
I pinched my hand hard, as if I couldn't feel the pain.
"Xin'er." You pried my tightly clenched hand open.
"Let's go back." I glanced at the military base in the distance and then looked away.
"good."
I followed You back to our military camp. You originally intended to escort me back to my tent.
I insisted on not going back. "Whatever you want to do, I'll go with you. I won't bother you."
You had no choice but to compromise and take me with you.
I don't want to go back to being stuck in one place. I want to go to the front lines and fight the enemy when the next war breaks out.
Although I cannot personally kill my enemy Liu Lieyu, I can still do my part. I no longer have children and have nothing to worry about.
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