Chapter 135
Thinking of this, Liu Ziming showed a very happy smile. If it were not for the inconvenient occasion, he really wanted to shout out loud, "Who understands, my family members? The hospital leaders must have discovered that I am better than Shi Ye, so they gave up on him and chose me. This is the result of my years of hard work."
Jiang Zhinian looked at Shi Ye worriedly. She didn't know why Shi Ye didn't get the exchange spot, but she was worried that Shi Ye would be unhappy, so she couldn't help but silently hold Shi Ye's hand.
Zheng Chengfei was sitting diagonally behind Shi Ye and the others. When he saw Liu Ziming coming over, he knew that this guy was definitely not a good person. Before Shi Ye could say anything, he jumped up and beat Liu Ziming on the head. "What are you showing off for? Shi Ye didn't even apply for this exchange quota. If his wife wasn't pregnant, how could you think such a good thing would happen to you? You took advantage of others' opportunity and then hide away to be happy. You dare to show off here? You are so shameless."
Liu Ziming's face turned pale. He really didn't know that Shi Ye actually gave up such an important exchange opportunity for his wife.
"What are you talking about? Even if he gave up on his own, it's because he wasn't in his right mind. How can I say I'm taking advantage of him? It's obvious that he can't figure it out. He'll regret it later. I want to see who's the one crying in the corner when I come back from the United States."
Because he lost face, Liu Ziming said something harsh and ran away with his plate, not giving Zheng Chengfei a chance to fight back, which made Zheng Chengfei so angry that his face turned green.
"Shi Ye, look at that villain's face. Damn, I'm so angry..."
He lowered his head and saw Shi Ye's cold face, then looked at Jiang Zhinian's shocked and uneasy expression, and shouted in his heart, "Oh no!" It seemed that he had disturbed Shi Ye's lair.
He cleared his throat, looked up at the sky, and walked away as if nothing had happened, leaving Shi Ye raising his eyes and looking at Jiang Zhinian quietly.
"Shi Ye, is what he said true? Did you really give up the opportunity to study abroad?" As an outsider, Jiang Zhinian didn't quite understand the specific value of this opportunity, but she knew that the country attached great importance to this kind of foreign gold-plating. Just like in their school, if an English teacher has studied abroad, both the students' parents and the school will pay more attention to it and publicize it vigorously.
Shi Ye sighed. He had kept it a secret from Jiang Zhinian before because he knew that with her personality, she would definitely try her best to persuade him to go. What she feared most was that she would cause trouble for him or hold him back.
"Yes, but it's not a very important position."
"Well, can you still make up your report now? Is it the deadline?"
"The specific list has been released." The registration deadline has long passed.
Jiang Zhinian's face turned pale for a moment. She poked the plate with her chopsticks, her eyes looking a little anxious. This was the first time Shi Ye saw this expression on Jiang Zhinian's face.
Regret, blame, self-reproach, sadness, if all negative emotions from light to heavy are different shades of black, then the black on Jiang Zhinian's head at this moment must be the darkest black in the world.
She opened her mouth to say something, but considering that there were so many people around, she swallowed it back. However, emotions always need an outlet, and if they can't be expressed in words, they can only turn into tears.
Shi Ye looked at Jiang Zhinian's tears, and for the first time, he felt an indescribable, touching feeling in his heart.
A person's tears are shed only for you, pure and transparent.
Like amber wrapped in bubbles, it is amazing and fascinating. In a corner of the noisy cafeteria, Shi Ye raised his hand and gently wiped away the tears on Jiang Zhinian's cheek.
"Don't cry. If you have any dissatisfaction, you can raise it."
"I'm not dissatisfied..."
Jiang Zhinian took out a tissue, lowered her head and turned her back to wipe it. She didn't dare to speak again, for fear that she would break down emotionally and be discovered by the people around her.
She had no appetite to continue eating. She just wanted to calm herself down and think things through. At this moment, her brain seemed to be filled with paste, without any logic or rationality. She waved her hand to signal Shi Ye not to follow her, and left the cafeteria with her bag.
But how could Shi Ye not follow? He took Jiang Zhinian's arm and led him to a small path behind the cafeteria: "Let's talk it out, otherwise you won't be able to attend class properly this afternoon."
He had a feeling that Jiang Zhinian's face at this moment would keep appearing in his mind, making it impossible for him to concentrate in the afternoon, but he didn't want that to happen, so he had to solve the problem now.
"If you're angry with me, you can say it out loud. Don't keep it to yourself."
When they were alone, Jiang Zhinian's emotions suddenly became uncontrollable. She threw herself into Shi Ye's arms and sobbed, "Shi Ye, I'm not mad at you, I just..."
I just feel very uncomfortable, and even a little inexplicably guilty. Why did Shi Ye miss such a good opportunity because of me?
"You really don't have to consider me, you can go, it's such a good opportunity..." Jiang Zhinian held it in for a long time, and the rest of the words were stuck in her throat. She originally wanted to say "It's a pity to miss it", "I'm sad to hold you back", "I don't want you to give up anything for me", but when her mind went through all these words, she found that deep in her heart, there was only one voice clamoring, that is -
"I'm afraid you'll regret it."
I'm afraid that many years from now, every time you feel unhappy, you will think of what you gave up for me and the children. I don't want this to become a black spot in our relationship. It's not big and not obvious, but every time I notice it, I feel uncomfortable.
"I don't regret it." Shi Ye breathed a sigh of relief. As long as she wasn't angry with him for hiding it from her, it would be fine. As for regret, he had never considered this issue. "I said, I won't regret my choice."
However, not having regrets does not mean that one is 100% convinced of this choice at every moment. Jiang Zhinian closed his eyes and sighed helplessly.
"I know you're like that, but... you know what? I'd rather you not consider me and the child, and just be a selfish, ambitious person, focusing solely on your career."
I would rather you owe me, feel guilty about it for the rest of your life, and then make amends twice as much as I can, than for me to owe you unintentionally.
I'm afraid I can't pay it back.
Shi Ye frowned and looked at her: "I can't do that."
He hopes to be a responsible father instead of shifting all the parenting responsibilities to the mother or even others.
He sighed, "When I decided not to apply for a place, Uncle Wen and Uncle Liu both advised me. Uncle Liu even suggested taking you to live with him, and they would be responsible for taking care of you throughout your pregnancy, delivery, postpartum care, and childcare."
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