No plan, no heavy love, no love
Random and excessive love
touch れてくれるだけでいいよ
You just need to feel it.
——Quoted from -obsession-たかやん
-1-
Just like she never thought she could have such a magical creature as a "boyfriend", M never thought she could have such a thing as a "seventh wedding anniversary".
...What on earth is this thing?! It must be a magical derivative that only appears after a magical evolution of a magical creature!
M couldn't understand it.
-2-
She was full of confusion about her own marriage. She was confused when she met her boyfriend, confused when she left him, and confused every time she accidentally glanced at the ring on her finger during a mission - yes, she also wore a ring at work. Anyway, no undead in the system world dared to equate "M wearing a ring on her ring finger" with "M is married".
Yes, M never deliberately hides anything.
During this period, all colleagues who had a conversation with her knew that she had a fixed object (toy).
...After all, M has received W's teachings through words and deeds, and her attitude towards relationships and marriage is actually surprisingly honest. To say that she hates it is actually closer to keeping a distance from it, and "respect" accounts for a large proportion of "keeping a distance from it".
-3-
No matter how casually you date, you will never erase the memory of your regular dating partner;
No matter how boring the marriage is, I will never take off the ring on my finger or cancel a planned dinner.
Never.
Even M quite likes to talk about P with those colleagues. If any of those cowardly ghosts dares to ask "What does the ring on your hand mean?", M will definitely answer very frankly "Oh, I married him" -
But no, who would think M could get married.
-4-
This is outrageous.
M himself doesn't realize it.
…even though she wore her ring obediently both on and off duty, even though she told almost every colleague who dared approach her, “I recently have a cute and innocent child.”…
Every time she saw the wedding ring, she thought it was outrageous.
[I'm married] is outrageous.
Oh, it’s not that M thinks his marriage partner is outrageous.
-5-
...Well, he is actually quite outrageous.
But it’s not the kind of outrageous feeling of “I actually want to marry something like this”. On the contrary, M often feels the outrageous feeling of “He actually wants to marry something like me”.
Although she often says "Who else would you want besides me", M feels from the bottom of her heart that her husband's qualifications in all aspects can completely beat the male competition in the human world.
He is rich, talented, has a good temper, loves to laugh, looks sunny and handsome, has a great height and figure, and loves sports and art very much.
-6-
M especially likes watching him skateboarding, which may be the reason why her boyfriend never takes her skateboarding: every time she stands by, she can't watch for more than five minutes before she comes over and pulls him into the bedroom.
Her husband, a kid who really loves skateboarding, found it annoying.
When his wife pressed him on the bed and undressed him, he would complain with an extremely distressed expression every time, "You said you wanted to play so I brought you here. Can't there be a time when we can just learn skateboarding?"
M doesn't think so. Isn't the purpose of her going out with her boyfriend to fully appreciate him and then drag him into the bedroom to have a good sleep?
-7-
If you just want to learn skateboarding, just find a coach. Why look for a partner?
Objects are for sleeping.
…We’re already married, so why can’t we sleep with our spouse?! M should sleep with him/her with a clear conscience! Sleep with him/her whenever he/she wants!
-8-
Because of what she had experienced, M was equally disgusted by all male humans, but this did not include her husband.
From a secular human perspective, she actually doesn't care much about financial conditions: if he buys her delicious food and fun things, she will use them, and if she has no food or clothes in the horror world after work, she will continue to live on the streets.
What's more, as far as appearance was concerned, she really wasn't that attracted by his blue eyes that conformed to the standard aesthetic.
She always felt that it should be a more beautiful color.
...But even if we put aside money and looks, he still has too many advantages.
Even a picky and mean witch like M would think that her child is a "clean and cute" person, not to mention those female humans in the human world who have to struggle to pan for gold among all kinds of vulgar males and hope to find a reliable partner.
...Wow, if they discovered such a cute child in her family, wouldn't those females rush over with green eyes?
-9-
M is very vigilant.
How could a banshee who has been wandering and living alone for years not be vigilant?
Moreover, she had actually seen how her sister charmed those suitors, and how U played with eight women at the same time in the mission world.
She would never underestimate the fighting power of female humans.
Sometimes her husband was as pure as a fool. He would be extremely happy if she said a few perfunctory and casual "Yeah, I like it". Wouldn't the high-intensity sugar-coated bullets from female humans make him dizzy and unconscious?
So M believed her husband would be attacked whenever he was exposed to the mate-seeking gaze of females. He was too vulnerable to attack. Attack in every sense of the word.
Moreover, she did not think her husband had the ability to resist this at all—
How many times had he been forced by her to fulfill his marital duties, and which time had he succeeded in resisting?
-10-
The guy was so weak that she had to carefully check his back and neck after every time she finished, to prevent herself from being too excited and losing control of her strength and scratching him until he bled.
-11-
...This was not a considerate gesture of concern, because M had really scratched him until he bled.
She was very tired from work that time and was in a bad mood when she came to see him. She was more reckless than ever when they made love. When her mind was most confused, she did not control her inhuman strength.
[At least there's a stupid little dog here], she seemed to think so, leaving a mark on his back viciously.
-12-
There were seven or eight long bloodstains.
But the guy didn't say a word.
Not even a groan.
The Banshee didn't smell the blood at all - how could she have the time to pay attention to the smell of blood when doing something like this? M's nose was full of his new bed sheet softener. She still remembers that it smelled like vanilla ice cream that day.
Or rather, every time she came to him, she would indulge in such reckless sex - just to forget the smell of blood that followed her like a shadow.
-13-
His clothes, sheets, quilt and hair all smelled amazing, much more effective than alcohol.
-14-
...That time too, I just dragged him around and did whatever I wanted, until the terrible, irritating and boring things were completely dispelled, and there was no longer any unpleasant smell of blood in my nose.
After that, M felt a little tired, so she fell asleep. When she opened her eyes about half an hour later, she saw him neatly dressed and tying his tie in front of the mirror.
"...You're still working so late?"
"There's urgent overtime."
"Oh... then keep up the good work. Bye."
"Bye-Bye."
-15-
He locked the door and left. M lay alone for a while, hugging the other person's pillow and quilt.
...After feeling that it was boring, I put on my clothes and left.
It's strange. I used to think vanilla ice cream flavored fabric softener smelled amazing, but now I think it's just so-so.
M rarely stayed overnight at his place. She had her own job and responsibilities, and she supported the safety of the world alone. She was busy and tired.
She also didn't want to act like a girl who was afraid of loneliness in front of an extremely weak ordinary human.
-16-
M has spent too long guarding the system world, and she herself doesn't know why she is so determined to guard it, just like she herself doesn't understand why in the position division of the maintenance department, there is always a vacant [P] in the subordinate column marked [M].
-17-
The 26 positions and responsibilities of the maintenance department were set when the system world was first established. There will be new employees, but there will never be new positions.
It was ordered by her at that time.
[M] and [W] were the employee names that were agreed upon with my sister from the beginning, but in the initial system background, M seemed to have taken several full names at that time.
The full name after [W] is [Wuwan], and the full name displayed for [M] is [Maniac], which she named self-deprecatingly. M can understand her decision when she retrieves the file.
But, there is a P.
The third employee in the maintenance department had a hidden full name ID, [P], and the background full name was [Prisoner].
-18-
M didn't understand why he had to give a special full name to positions other than his own and his sister's when the system world was first created.
She also didn't understand. Of the 26 positions in the maintenance department, not even her sister's W was assigned the same responsibilities as her M. Yet, the only subordinate position, the only colleague position, the only vacant position besides her in the "Horror Maintenance Department"...
It is determined [P].
-19-
Just like she was absolutely certain at that time that someone would follow her, enter the system world, and walk with her.
So, extra, special, from the beginning -
The only empty seat was set aside at the nearest location.
P．
prisoner.
-20-
...M today doesn’t understand.
The time was so long that she really couldn't remember what happened at the beginning of her birth, nor could she remember whether she had ever met the [Prisoner].
Anyway, the nearest vacant position to her can only be occupied by an employee after she personally interviews and approves it.
Without her permission, no one is qualified to become P——M couldn't understand why her self long ago was crazy enough to leave a space so close, but she had the right to refuse all the undead from becoming [P].
As long as this position remains vacant, there will always be only her in the Horror Maintenance Department, and she will never need anyone else.
No one can become the initially set [P].
M doesn't understand, M can't think, but——
M will never allow it.
-twenty one-
Whether she has memory or not, her actions are always direct and firm.
Even if a prisoner has completely crushed himself, there will always be a vacant position for him in the system world, and next to the position there is a powerful guard who is eyeing him covetously. She will never allow anyone to occupy this position, and will never allow anyone to become a "prisoner" beside her.
Although she had long forgotten the reason.
-twenty two-
...So, for M, who is too accustomed to taking direct action, she never needs to understand the reason.
She got dressed and left that day, but somehow ended up back the next day.
-twenty three-
She didn't need to understand thoughts like "I feel a little guilty, maybe I need to apologize to him for my attitude last night. I seemed to have not said a word since I walked in the door that night, and his expression was also very cold after we were done."
She walked straight into her husband's house with a bag of vanilla ice cream she had snatched from the robot clerk.
She looked around and found that he was not at home, so she followed the signs to find the way out.
-twenty four-
...After all, he is her husband, weak and simple. Every world hides complex and dark dangers. As a banshee, giving him a special mark to prevent him from being dragged into a horror game by some twisted undead - is it normal?
So M followed the signs directly to the hospital.
She found her husband sitting on a bench receiving an IV drip due to a low-grade fever, with one hand flipping through a document filled with numbers.
-25-
M walked over and snatched the document away.
She cursed: "Don't you have any idea about your own weak constitution? You are a weak and stupid ordinary human! You went to work overtime in the middle of the night and now you have a fever, right -"
Her husband looked up, a look of surprise on his face.
He seemed quite confused by her presence.
"How did you find this place? My colleague brought me here unconscious an hour ago. You shouldn't have his contact information... Wait, didn't you leave? Why are you here..."
This isn't the night we agreed on, why are you here?
Although I want to be in an immersive relationship, this is not the time I planned... I thought marrying a guy like you wouldn't interfere with my normal work and life.
-26-
Fortunately, M can't read minds, otherwise she would have pulled out the needle and thrown the bottle on the spot.
-27-
"Send! Send! Your colleagues sent you to the hospital unconscious. It's just a crappy job, isn't it? As for you, you're just a fragile human being. Tell me who your boss is who forced you to work overtime."
“It’s not all because of overtime.”
Her husband calmly explained, "My wound became inflamed, and I didn't get enough rest, which caused a low-grade fever. My boss is an innocent human being, please don't kill him."
"What wound is inflamed? Where did you come from—"
"You caught it last night. Just wrapped it in several layers of gauze and gave it a tetanus shot. Here, here."
“…”
-28-
Damn.
-29-
Looking at the seven or eight bloody scars, the roaring M fell silent and sat down next to him.
Covering face.
"……It's fine."
Her husband suddenly spoke, his tone gentle, as if he wasn't really angry with her. "I just didn't expect such a minor wound to cause such a serious problem... The human body is truly too fragile... I was negligent this time. I will carefully clean the wound next time."
Damn.
M said, "No apologies. This is my fault. I'm sorry."
"Your fault? What's your fault? I just neglected to treat a wound."
"...Where is the doctor who treated your wound?"
"In the opposite department. Don't kill him."
"...Why would I kill a doctor for no apparent reason?! Just shut up and sit here and get your IV!"
-30-
oh.
P watched her get up from the bench with her face covered, walk into the department opposite, and sit in front of the doctor. Her back looked particularly dejected, and she kept nodding, which seemed to be mixed with the constant "I'm sorry".
...How strange.
It was only one day since she came to see me yesterday. Is her work very heavy? After venting her stress, she accumulated so much stress again in less than 24 hours?
He had seen M irritable, angry, crazy, and indifferent, but he had never seen her so depressed.
Usually, she would appear again about half a month after coming to see him, carrying accumulated fatigue and bad mood, and her mind was full of sex to vent stress.
-31-
Is the work over there really hard?
...Forget it. Even if we are friends, we can't interfere with each other's work and life any further. That's too much.
-32-
P thought about it, looked away, and closed his eyes to rest.
...It's so troublesome.
Although he longed for freedom, he never envied "ordinary life". After all, the ordinary human body is really troublesome.
His original body was much more convenient. No matter how weak he was, it was impossible for him to leave bloody marks because of her scratches. At most, there would be white or red marks.
By the way, she'd only done this with non-humans, hadn't she? She'd never learned how to control her strength around a human partner?
If he didn't know her well, but was an ordinary human being, he would definitely send her to prison or research institute.
Oh, so stupid.
-33-
Find a suitable reason.
How should I explain this to my colleagues? "My wife accidentally gave me this scar while we were having sex" is strange no matter how I think about it. Everyone would be aware of something unusual. If I'm not careful, M's inhuman characteristics will be exposed, and who knows what will attract... I remember that recently, a few guys who were eager for the flesh and blood of the Banshee were very close to the coordinates of this world... My colleague sent me here and then went to the company, but today's work is a bit complicated. I guess she will be back here in twenty minutes to discuss a suitable solution with me... After all, that colleague is new and not very experienced in the business...
P, who had his eyes closed resting, frowned when he was suddenly patted on the top of his head.
Coming back so soon.
"I'm sorry." He opened his eyes and said, "Even if we're colleagues, ma'am, please keep your distance from me."
-34-
M stared at him expressionlessly.
"Which female colleague do you think it is?"
“…”
P was stunned for a moment, then he subconsciously said: "Why haven't you left yet?"
-35-
"My colleague will be back in about ten minutes. Go quickly and don't let her see you."
We agreed not to interfere with work and life.
-36-
M: “…”
M clenched his fists and remained silent for thirty seconds, telling himself that this was an ordinary, fragile human being who was still on an IV drip.
…Fuck it.
Fuck him!!
"I'm not going anywhere!" M roared, clutching the doctor's instructions he had just memorized. "I'm your wife! Where do you think I'm going to go after leaving this miserable woman with a low-grade fever and wrapped in gauze on a bench?!"
"Ah, aren't you busy with work..."
"No matter how busy I am at work, I will come when you are this sick!!"
"But you are not only good at night..."
"Do you think I'm a beast?!"
-37-
"Wait a minute." Her husband's expression suddenly became serious, as if he had been enlightened. "Yes, I'm not sure if your fever symptoms now are contagious to you, so you'd better not ask for anything in the hospital. Since you can't provide this, you'd better leave..."
M: “…”
M: "Why do you always chase me away?!"
-38-
"No. You came to see me, but you can't have sex with me. What are you still doing here?"
“…”
-39-
M opened his mouth and closed it again.
She was almost fainting from anger.
But her bad habit of never thinking made her almost faint from anger and she had no idea why she was fainting from anger.
-40-
“I, I, I…”
"Okay. Go ahead and do your work. I'll take care of myself so you don't get infected next time you come. Hurry up, hurry up, or you'll be seen by others."
“…”
"Didn't we agree to stay away from work? If my colleagues see you, I'll definitely have to introduce you, which will definitely be troublesome for you... Sometimes I'll even have to start bringing you to company dinners..."
“…”
-41-
M threw the medical instructions and medicine at him with an innocent look on his face and turned away.
She was really afraid that if she stayed any longer, she would pull out his IV drip and kill him.
…Fuck it! Fuck it!!
-42-
This is hopeless—it's outrageous—she's so innocent and cute, and I love her so much for everything she says and does—but sometimes she makes inexplicably irritating remarks—what's wrong with her—
Even if we agreed not to interfere with work and not reveal our identities when we got married, there's no need to be so honest to this extent! !
At times like this, why not just tell your colleagues openly, "My wife is here to visit me," and then shut up and accept her rare, somewhat guilty care?
...It is simply, simply, simply a magical animal!!
-43-
About fifteen minutes after M left, the new female colleague ran into the hospital panting.
Compared to before, she seemed to have put on some light makeup and changed into a new dress.
He was holding a thermos in his hand.
"Senior, sorry for the wait. I..."
Just as she was about to sit down, the senior who was sitting quietly receiving an IV drip suddenly waved his hand.
"Please sit further away."
He said politely, "My wife just sat in this seat."
“…Oh. I just cooked this…”
"No, thank you for your kindness. My wife just bought some porridge. Look, she threw it on my knees."
"……oh."
-44-
The female colleague sat stiffly in the farthest seat, feeling that all her careful preparations for makeup and dress were in vain.
…Although there have been rumors in the company that this senior only wears a wedding ring to avoid harassment, his wife has never been seen and there are no photos, so he is still a single stock worth pursuing…
But could the densely written medical record above the bag be a fake by the person who was receiving an IV drip in his right hand?
Her little thoughts were completely gone, leaving only embarrassment.
-45-
After sitting in silence for a long time, the senior suddenly asked:
"If your best friend throws something in your face, what's usually the reason?"
"...Huh? A friend threw something? Uh, that must have made her angry when we were out playing together before..."
"I see."
-46-
Sure enough, he was angry because he couldn't play.
P frowned, looked at the IV drip on the back of his hand, and sighed again at the troublesome and weak human body.
You really have to take good care of your health.
This was the first time she came to him and she didn't get any sexual outlet at all. She didn't know how to calm down.
-47-
M, who was almost mad at him this time, went to see him again a month later and received the rare and enthusiastic service from his partner.
It's really rare. It turns out that a positive, enthusiastic and strong object is completely different from a object that performs obligations calmly and semi-forcedly.
...So she was immediately and completely coaxed into submission, completely forgetting the time when she almost fainted from anger a month ago.
-48-
I felt dazed after finishing it.
...Speaking of which, this is a very magical thing. Since they started dating and got married, she has never experienced such passion from her partner during sex.
Really... well... how should I put it...
Very fragrant.
...And he's never been enthusiastic or proactive about this kind of thing before?! That's impossible! This guy keeps saying he likes me and is obsessed with me?!
Impossible, impossible... Hahaha... He's just an ordinary male human after all... He must be super obsessed with sex... This time he just performed exceptionally well...
-49-
P came over after taking a shower: "Are you okay?"
M came back to his senses: "Oh... um. Um. Um, you..."
Is your back wound okay? I should have restrained myself earlier...
"It's fine now. It was a special case before, but now I'm healthy."
"...That's good. Haha."
Well, as expected, as long as she could roll properly in the sheets, she would calm down.
-50-
P was completely relieved. He hung up the clean towel, walked to the other side of the bed and got under the quilt.
M was still a little dazed, and when he lay down on the other side, she remained in bed without moving.
This was not an exception. Although she rarely stayed overnight in the past, she would always linger for a while.
P thought for a moment and said, "There are candies and cash on the first layer of the bedside table drawer, and there are takeout orders on the second layer. If you want to order takeout, remember to go to the restaurant and keep your voice down. I'm going to sleep and I have to go to work tomorrow."
“…Oh, okay.”
-51-
So P turned off the bedside lamp on his side and closed his eyes to sleep.
M: “…”
M was in a daze for a while, then she turned her head and glanced at his back.
It was the back of someone sleeping with his back to her.
...It's been a month. I guess they changed the sheet softener. I just took a shower. Maybe it's the new shower gel...
-52-
M wanted to smell it a little, so she rubbed her feet, quietly moved over, and put her head against his neck.
It didn't feel like it was enough after he put his head on it, so he put his hands and feet on it as well, like a cat preparing to climb to the top of a snowy mountain.
P: "..."
P: "I'm going to bed, I have a meeting at seven tomorrow morning."
M was stunned for a moment, not quite understanding why he repeated this: "Oh."
P was a little annoyed and helpless: "Wasn't that enough just now? I don't want to do it again tonight. Do you want me to give you a blowjob?"
“…No, I don’t want to…”
You can't say that you just want to smell the scent of your new shower gel.
M thought naively, it sounds weird.
But it's so comfortable to cling to his back like this, it feels different from when we were doing it...
"If we're not going to do it, then why are you touching me? Stop it, I want to sleep."
“…”
"Why aren't you leaving? Or did you misremember the direction of the bedside table? The bedside table with the takeout flyer and the money is on your side, not on my back. How can you be so stupid in a place like this?"
“…”
-53-
M's confused state was immediately broken, and she became expressionless again.
"I'm going to do it. I'm going to do the whole thing. Turn over. Now. Right now."
“…”
"If you don't turn over I'll strangle you right now."
“…”
"I'll count to three, one, two..."!
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