Chapter 41
Miel could sense that there was more than one kind of magic attached to this yellow crystal ring.
He was not in the mood to explore what else it could do besides storing things.
He took out everything from the ring and spread it out on the bed.
Some gold coins, two daggers, a rapier, a short bow, 12 arrows, a complete set of lockpicking tools, some bandages, 4 black candles, an oil lamp, two sets of clean clothes, a set of old leather armor, a map of the Liye continent, some food, a water skin, a book with a black cover and a silver title, and a colorful stone.
Miel ignored the book for the moment and picked up the stone.
The surface of the stone is not smooth and emits a warm light.
The moment he picked it up, Miel had the illusion that he was holding someone's hand.
C'Suana took the initiative to explain his confusion: "This is a memory stone. Inside is a world created based on memory. By touching it, you can freely enter and exit this world and explore it. Your follower truly possesses incredible magic."
"Magic?" Miel looked confused.
Although I don't know why Rocas from another timeline can travel through time and space, he should not be able to use magic. After all, he, like me, had his magic pool stolen by Bros.
Is it because of that book?
Miel looked at the book that looked very similar to the "Forbidden Book" and saw the following content written in Latin on its black cover - Book of Sacrifice.
The title of this book looks bad at first glance.
How did Rocas come into possession of this book? Did he also go to the bookstore that Burrows frequented?
There shouldn't be anything wrong with that bookstore... Although it seems that the owner knows nothing about it.
Miel put the Book of Sacrifice into his family ring, then clutched Rocas's memory stone: "I'm going in."
"Okay, I'll accompany you." Csuana continued to hold Miel's left hand with his right hand and leaned his body against his arm.
Miel didn't like any touch from strangers, but because there was no offense in Csuanna's touch, and he had just comforted her, Miel didn't show any resistance, and relaxed her whole body, allowing him to come closer.
I closed my eyes and just as I had the thought of entering the memory stone, the surrounding environment changed.
He appeared in...the dark sewer.
The moment I opened my eyes, before I could even see my surroundings clearly, I was engulfed by the fear engraved deep in my soul. My throat felt like it was being strangled, and I couldn't breathe. My legs went weak, and my body fell backwards uncontrollably.
However, just before Miel was about to lose his balance, an arm gently wrapped around his waist. At the same time, countless familiar balls of light appeared in his field of vision, illuminating the way ahead.
"Don't be afraid, I'm here." C'Suana's voice appeared in his ears.
He put one arm around Miel's waist and raised the other hand, with a soft light in his palm.
"Thank you." Miel instinctively thanked him, and at the same time couldn't help thinking - Anna really has all of Lola's memories...
He's like Lola with a sudden emotional awakening.
Although his physique is not the type that Miel likes, if Miel only looks at the physique, he will not resist Lyon.
Yes, Miel likes men who are bigger than herself and have beautiful muscles.
Anna's figure is similar to Miel's, which makes Miel feel a little sorry... But his face, it must be said, every incarnation of Cthulhu, every face, is perfect, without a single flaw.
"This isn't the sewers of Snow City." Miel forced himself to shift his attention away from Anna and assess the environment he was in. "The structure, the smell, everything is different."
As soon as he finished speaking, Leon’s voice sounded behind him: “Go forward, turn right, there is the person you are looking for.”
The cold tone, however, was guiding him.
The "person" that Lyon mentioned was obviously Rocas.
Sewers, Rocas... Miel recalled his not-so-pleasant first meeting with the half-elf and was unsure whether he should move forward.
Without waiting for him to make a decision, Anna hooked his arm and led him forward, asking as they walked, "Why did you come in too? Who will defend outside then?"
——The question was from Leon.
Leon snorted coldly: “Who cares?”
"If Miel gets hurt or loses something, you can prepare for amputation," Anna threatened.
Leon: "He's not important enough for me to give up my flying ability for him."
Anna: "You talk as if I can't fly without wings."
Leon: "You can't represent Cthulhu."
Anna: "You too, thank you."
Miel: “…”
Mier thought he was about to understand, but now, he suddenly didn't understand anymore.
Both Leon and Lola said that they could represent Cthulhu, but now, Leon and Anna accused each other of not being able to represent Cthulhu.
So, can the incarnation of Cthulhu really represent Cthulhu?
As Miel was led forward by Anna, he couldn't help but think from another perspective -
Can my consciousness represent me?
The answer is "of course".
But if there is another me, can he represent me?
Miel: “…”
"Miye, don't think too much." Csuanna suddenly spoke, interrupting Miye's confused thoughts.
"You're in so much pain because you think too much." Csuanna said as he released Miel's arm and gently stroked the back of his head. "Do you need me to teach you what to do?"
"How?" Miel asked.
He didn't need Anna's answer, but he was curious about what kind of answer Anna would give.
Then, under his curious gaze, Anna spoke: "Never forget that your Lord is the great Cthulhu, and so is your lover. As your Lord and your lover, Cthulhu will treat you gently. Anyone who treats you badly is not Cthulhu."
"So, Lola is Cthulhu, I am Cthulhu, and Leon is not. Do you understand?"
Miel was silent for a moment, then burst into laughter.
"Ha ha……"
What a cunning answer...
However, if he was really allowed to think like this, it would indeed make his brain a lot easier.
"What are you teaching him without permission?" Leon protested unhappily from behind. "Why should he decide whether it's good for him or not?"
Anna: "If it's not up to him, then is it up to you? You're not even Cthulhu, so don't talk nonsense here. Go back to reality and protect Miel's body."
Leon: “…”
Anna was not polite at all when she spoke to Leon.
If it were someone else, Leon would have to give the other person a "psychological shock"... Oh, but he wouldn't do that after splitting up with Anna.
But even if he didn't fight with Anna, he didn't even say a word of rebuttal, which made Miel feel very abnormal.
Even more unusual is...
After about five seconds of silence, Leon spoke again, uttering a few syllables very quietly: "Protect."
What?
Miel heard it clearly, but didn't understand it.
Ana, standing by, translated for Leon: "He said, 'protected'. Meaning, he is protecting you well. I... He set up a barrier in the hotel room. No one can get in except my avatar."
"Oh, I see." Miel nodded to show that he understood.
He noticed that when Anna said that Leon set up the barrier, he first used "I" and then changed to "he".
Obviously, to Anna, what Leon does is what he does.
Although he catered to his own cognition and pretended that he and Leon were different people, it was true—all incarnations of Cthulhu were Cthulhu.
After a moment of silence, Miel tentatively called out, "Lola."
"Hmm?" Anna responded, and it took a while for him to react. A dazed look appeared on his face for a moment, "...What happened to Lola?"
Miel kind of understood why Leon would get mad every time he called Lola. It was like someone calling someone "Miel" in front of him.
It's obviously my name...
It’s hard to imagine what kind of mood Anna was in, as she even pretended to have a split personality to coax him.
"Nothing, I just suddenly wanted to call you by this name." Miel said tentatively, "Will you hate it?"
"No, after all, it's my first name besides my real name and Cthulhu, so it's very memorable." Anna smiled, "My Miel is really gentle. Is it because you realized that I've always been by your side and didn't want to ignore me that you suddenly called me by this name?"
"But it doesn't matter. I don't feel confused." Anna said as she took Miel's hand and tapped his index finger with her thumb. "This is Alice."
Then the middle finger: "This is Elizabeth."
Then the ring finger: "This is Gerald."
"I said, hey, Alice, you're so beautiful. You know I was talking about your index finger, not you, my Miel."
Miel understood what Anna meant - if the name Lola was bound to the tentacles of Cthulhu, and the name Leon was bound to the wings of Cthulhu, then when he said Lola, Anna knew that he was talking about the tentacles of Cthulhu, not Cthulhu.
But Lola said that if he could only move one tentacle, he would not know where his consciousness came from, just like humans and elves cannot tell whether a certain idea of theirs comes from the left brain or the right brain.
So, unlike naming your fingers, this is naming the left and right brain respectively, and no matter which name is given, the left and right brains think it is their own name.
That's why when Anna heard the name "Lola" suddenly and unexpectedly, he thought someone was calling him.
Miel sighed.
He still didn't know how to face the different incarnations of Cthulhu.
He didn't know if he could rely on Anna as Lola, nor did he know how to ease the relationship between himself and Leon.
But at least, he thoroughly understood one thing—all incarnations of Cthulhu can indeed represent Cthulhu.
The Cthulhu who wants to study humans is Cthulhu, the Cthulhu who hugs him and comforts him is Cthulhu, and the Cthulhu who makes him kneel is also Cthulhu.
Since they are all Cthulhu, there is no need for corresponding incarnations when revisiting old accounts.
Miel flipped over as he said: "Cthulhu, if I satisfied your desire to dominate me that night, what would you do?"
“…”
Upon hearing this question, both Anna and Leon fell into a subtle silence.
After turning a corner, we were about to arrive at where Rocas was.
Anna finally spoke: "I'm sorry."
He apologized first, then continued: "I was wrong that night, I have reflected on it, I reflected on it all night... Although I think if you bow to me so easily, you will not be the Miel who slapped me three times, but if you really bow your head, I do intend to satisfy you."
"I know what you want better than my tentacles. I'll use my body, not just my hands."
"I missed an opportunity to perform well and failed to satisfy both of us, so I really regret it."
Miel: “…”
Even though I already understood that all avatars were Cthulhu, it still felt strange to hear these words from Anna...
And it sounded like Anna was speaking from the perspective of the tyrant that night and Leon who was thrown out by Lola.
He should also have Lola's memories.
Miel tentatively confirmed: "Are you not satisfied? I should have told you all the answers in that way."
"Who cares about the answers?" Anna's voice suddenly rose, but he regained his composure the next second. "Indeed, I am curious about the answers to those questions, but the answers don't have to be told by others. In fact, before that, I already had the answers in my heart, I just wanted to make a final confirmation, but this is not important to me. What is important is-"
He stopped, first held Miel's hands, then folded them together and supported them with his left hand, and then raised his right hand and tentatively touched Miel's face.
Miel didn't hide, but just lowered his eyelashes, not daring to look him in the eye, not knowing what expression to show when looking at each other.
"Miel, my Miel." Anna sighed softly as she stroked Miel's cheek. "Your beauty, your fragility, your strength, your struggle, all touch my heart. Even if you're not in my sight, my mind is filled with you, like an impure pollution that swallows me up, drowns me, and makes me fall into an abyss, unable to extricate myself. I just want to touch you, to touch you more intimately, that's all."
Miel: “…”
For a moment, Miel sighed in his heart - I really wish Lola had said this to me.
But then he realized two things.
First of all, Lola can't speak. If Lola could speak, she wouldn't be Lola anymore.
Secondly, both Lola and Anna are Cthulhu.
These words were spoken to him by Cthulhu.
"My love for you began with Lola, was destroyed by Leon, and now it is up to Anna to rebuild it." Csuanna hugged Miel in her arms.
Miel did not resist and accepted it passively.
Anna doesn't have the big size of Lola and Leon, nor the dangerous aura of Leon, but his attack is very proactive, so proactive that Miel is at a loss. He can only lower his bottom line again and again and let him continue to invade his territory.
Holding hands, hugging, and touching heads.
This avatar had touched him more than Lola and Leon combined.
After hugging for a while, Anna tentatively asked in Miel's ear: "I want to kiss you, can I?"
"...maybe...not." Miel almost squeezed out these words from between his teeth.
He dreamed of kissing Lola. He knew Anna could represent Lola, and kissing him was the same as kissing Lola, but, but...
Sure enough, it still doesn't work.
His reason told him that all incarnations were one person, but his emotions could not accept it.
Especially since there is a Leon watching behind him.
Thinking of Leon, Miel couldn't help but ask Anna: "Now that you have merged with your wings, will you still press me against the wall and pinch my chin?"
Anna: “…”
Leon: “…”
"Um... well..." Anna let go of Miel and continued walking forward with his arm hooked. He hesitated guiltily before responding, "Honestly, I can't guarantee it, because my desire to dominate you is real. That's why I refuse to merge with any incarnation again."
"The moment we split was like waking from a chaotic dream. I felt lucid, regretful, and desperately wanted to prove something, to make amends. I have to admit, before the split, I really intended to pretend to be Lola to prove to you that Lola and I were one. Lola had always been by your side, and you didn't need to search for her in the abyss. But after the split, I regretted it. What an arrogant and pathetic thought."
"Rather than playing a part of me just to have your full love, I hope you can fall in love with all of me. I definitely can't do it in a short period of time, but I will try my best to make you fall in love with more of me slowly. As for the parts that you really can't love, I will kick them away first."
Leon: “…”
Miel didn't need to turn around to imagine the expression on the face of the man with wings behind him.
After the split, Lyon became much quieter, and always gave Miel the feeling that he was suppressed by Anna.
Does it turn out that the brain is still capable of controlling the limbs?
Miel suddenly wanted to play a trick on Leon. He tentatively revealed his willfulness to Anna: "Cthulhu, can you let your wings repeat what you just said? Starting with 'I hope you can fall in love with all of me.'"
Anna: “…”
Leon: “…”
Anna: "...It's not impossible?"
Leon: "If you kneel down and beg me."
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The author has something to say: Miel: Can you perform that again?
Leon: Which one?
Miel: I hope you can fall in love with all of me.
Leon: ...My brain cannot represent Cthulhu.
Anna: I really want my wings to be amputated.
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