Chapter 40
Miel sat stiffly on the edge of the bed, his mind blank, unable to think about who was holding him.
Although I know that this high elf with long pink curly hair and a thinner figure than Lola and Leon is also one of the incarnations of Cthulhu, but... he is clearly an incarnation split from Leon's body, why does he have such a personality?
"Miel, I'm sorry." The pink-haired man continued to caress the back of Miel's head to comfort him, while apologizing in his ear with a gentle voice, "It's because I love you too much and care too much about your attitude towards me, so we've been quarreling. But I've figured it out. Since each of me is me, then each of me can love you alone and be loved by you alone."
Miel:?
Did he just...be confessed to?
Cthulion frowned and stepped forward.
Miel looked up instinctively, but before he could say anything, he saw the pink-haired man holding him suddenly let go, stood up, turned around, walked to Cthulion, and raised his hand to pinch his arm.
Cthulion paused and stood there in silence.
This picture...
Miel thought of Cthulion pinching his arm to suppress his anger - could this incarnation be the one responsible for the pinching?
No, it's too confusing, I can't think or understand.
After a delicate silence, Cthulion spoke, his voice and tone icy cold. "Yes, I regret this. It's a boring game. No matter the outcome, it can't change the fact that 'I am Cthulhu,' but I have deeply realized that further division is a mistake."
"Yeah, I've been making the wrong decisions." The pink-haired man responded, "Do you know why? It's because of you, my stupid wings. It's your arrogance that has soured my love for Miel."
"So, before my tentacles return, I won't merge with any other incarnation." He said, turned around, and hugged Miel again. "Miel, don't be afraid. I'm here. I won't allow anyone to hurt you, whether it's your body, your soul, or your dignity. I promised you."
Miel pursed his lips, wanting to say something but not knowing what to say.
He didn't even know what to call the person in front of him?
As if he knew his dilemma, the pink-haired man spoke again and said: "By the way, in order to make it easier for you to distinguish between me and Leon, you can call me Anna, or Csuanna."
Miel: “…”
Leon had just said that all names other than "Cthulhu" should not exist, but the incarnation that split from his body gave itself a new name right away.
Sure enough, Leon exploded on the spot when he heard this: "You! My..."
However, he barely opened his mouth when C'Suana interrupted him with a laugh. "Your what? Your brain? Don't be ridiculous. Do you think a mere pair of wings can influence my thoughts? Wings should only do what wings are supposed to do, providing the ability to fly. In my opinion, you're no better than my tentacles. At least they know how to make Miel feel comfortable."
Miel looked at the two men nervously, afraid that they would fight.
However, to his surprise, after C'suanna finished speaking, C'thulion said nothing and did nothing. He just stood there with his arms folded and a frown on his face.
Csuanna came and sat down next to Miel, folded his arms, and then said in a very unhappy tone: "I'm tired of Miel's coldness towards me. I'm tired of sitting alone on the roof, waiting impatiently, and the suffocating regret afterwards."
"I've already had enough unbearable memories. I don't want to create more. I'll use better methods to gain Miel's trust and love. And you, my wings, continue to sit on your high throne and overlook our beautiful love!"
Cthulion tutted, his face showing a mixture of anger and embarrassment. "Shut up! You... I... I don't understand what you're saying. He's my agent, my property, and he should be crawling at my feet..."
"But this will hurt him. You know it will hurt him, but you still enjoy the pleasure of dominating him. How terrible!" C'Suana retorted, "Have you forgotten the oath you swore to protect him? Protecting him is not just about protecting his body. His mental state is very dangerous, so—"
Therefore, I should treat him more gently.
【Let him surrender willingly.】
[Whether as his god or his lover.]
After standing there in silence for a while, Cthulion took two steps back and sat down at the table.
C'Suana turned to look at Miel beside him and softened his tone again, "Sorry, did I scare you? This is the first time I've cared so much about someone other than myself. I'm inexperienced, so I've been a little confused lately, constantly arguing with myself."
"...always?" Miel was a little concerned about this word.
Does that mean that Leon and Lola also quarreled, or... before the split, Anna and Leon were also quarreling?
C'Suana's response was, "There's nothing I can't say. My care for you makes me want to meet all your needs, but my pride won't allow me to do so. I won't let you lead me by the nose. I want you to bow your head, show weakness to me, and submit to me. But the consequence of doing so is that you resist me, and I lose you."
"Miel, I'm sorry. Really, I'm sorry." He said as he took Miel's hand.
Perhaps because his movements were so gentle and his apology was so sincere, Miel did not resist his touch, and even let his slender fingers slide between his fingers and clasp the back of his hand.
"My tentacles respect you enough to get us off to a good start, but they rely too much on their tentacles to sense your emotions. They only know what you want when your emotions fluctuate, and they can't satisfy you well."
"Don't worry, I will make up for his shortcomings."
"Like right now, I know you want a hug."
As Csuana continued to hold Miel's left hand with his right, he turned around and used his left hand to hug Miel's body to his chest. He put his lips close to his slender ear and whispered in his ear: "Rocas in this timeline is doing well. He is alive and well, enjoying the care you give him as his master. Not only do you owe him nothing, but you also helped him escape from his slavery. You have done well enough."
"As for Rocas from another timeline, he waited until the end of his life to seek your help. He obviously knew that you didn't owe him anything. On the contrary, it was he who almost put you in danger. Therefore, you don't need to feel any guilt about his death."
"But I know that emotions cannot be dissipated simply by being aware of them, just like my anger, which must be suppressed through pain."
"It's okay, cry if you want to, say whatever you want to say, I'm here, right by your side."
Miel's body was a little tense at first, but under Csuanna's constant comfort, he relaxed as if surrendering, and finally lay on Csuanna like a puddle of mud.
C'suanna does have a keen sense of emotions that C'thulora does not have.
Although his long speech made Miel unconsciously recall the night when they fulfilled their promise, the tyrant who made him kneel down and asked him "why?", but...
Miel had to admit that he needed this hug now, he needed someone like Anna to understand him and comfort him.
Miel did not cry, nor did he say anything to Anna, but he relaxed his body and closed his eyes. He let Anna hold him and comfort him like a close partner.
Leon frowned as he looked at it, his eyes seemed to say - why?
But he just frowned and watched, without saying anything, taking any action, or interfering with Anna's comfort to Mielle, or Mielle's acceptance of this comfort.
After the split, Lyon retained his arrogance but became more taciturn.
After a while, Anna gently asked Miel: "Do you feel better, my Miel?"
Miel said "hmm".
"Then, how about we check Rocas's memories together?" Anna suggested. "Lola hasn't woken up yet. Even if she did, it would take time for her to come out of the abyss. Instead of sitting here waiting for her, why not first see who Rocas wants you to help him save? Knowing what he wants you to do for him will put you at ease. What do you think?"
Miel really wanted to check Rocas's memory as soon as possible to know who Rocas wanted him to save, otherwise he would be like a kite with a broken string and unable to find his landing point.
But before that…
He raised his blue eyes and looked at Anna.
He didn't know enough about this incarnation of Cthulhu, but he could clearly feel his differences from Lola and his similarities with Leon.
Unlike Lola - he not only has a keen sense of emotions, but also has a much more mature understanding of emotions than Lola. The reason why he is gentle to her is no longer just being cautious about a beautiful bubble, but really taking care of his feelings and emotions.
Similar to Leon—he was also a king, but a gentle one. He had a strong sense of dominance that Lola didn't have. He not only provided her with emotional and emotional support, but also gently guided her on what to do next.
It is hard to imagine that such an incarnation, which is much more mature than Lola and Leon, was split from Leon's body.
Miel was curious about this incarnation.
Miel wanted to know more about him.
So, he tentatively asked: "Excuse me, but may I ask which part of the great Cthulhu's body you are?"
"Good question. Strictly speaking, it should be one thousandth of the brain, or 0.1 percent. Although it is a very small part, it is a very important part. The three magic spells related to the mind are what I taught you." Anna replied.
Miel knew he was talking about "mind shock," "memory extraction," and "nightmare."
Unexpectedly...
I thought Anna was Leon's vassal, but it turns out that he seems to be more important to the great Cthulhu than Leon?
At least for Miel, brains are much more important than wings...even though he doesn't have wings.
"Any other questions? No matter how tricky the question is, I am willing to answer it. After all, it's my Miel who asked it." Anna smiled.
After Miel looked at him, he felt a little awkward for some reason and instinctively glanced away.
This was a feeling he had never had when looking into Lola's eyes, let alone when looking into Leon's.
When he looked into Leon's eyes, he always felt a sense of panic, as if he were being stared at by a predator. In order to avoid being truly mistaken for prey, he would defensively return his gaze without flinching.
When she met Lola's gaze, she would look deep into his eyes because she wanted to explore his thoughts.
But Anna's gaze...
There was a subtle sense of aggression that was completely different from Lyon.
It doesn't seem like a predator is targeting her, but more like... a passionate admirer's pursuit?
"Are you shy? So cute." Anna smiled and raised her hand, gently lifting the hair on the side of Miel's face behind her ear.
Miel only felt a burst of heat where he touched, and the heat quickly spread from the tip of his ear to half of his face.
Miel turned his head as if he had been electrocuted to avoid Anna's hand. His long ears trembled slightly, and his heartbeat became uncontrollable for a while.
……strangeness?
The one he likes is Lola, his other half is Lola, and he cannot betray Lola.
But Anna is also Cthulhu... Anna has all of Lola's memories, all of his memories...
Such a mess... Such a mess... Such a mess...
Miel's thoughts and emotions were in a mess.
"Sorry, I shouldn't have teased you." Anna withdrew his hand, but still held Miel's left hand with his right hand to prevent him from escaping.
"I was really too impatient. I should have given you more time." Anna's tone was filled with guilt. "You know, Miel, I have a lot of things I want to say to you, but the only one who is qualified to say them to you right now is Lola. So, I will tell you when you can rely on me like you rely on Lola. I can wait. I have enough patience. After all, I'm not Leon."
Leon: “…”
"Okay." Miel turned his head and glanced at Anna, but he was a little cautious, afraid to meet his eyes again.
He forced himself not to think about the relationship between himself and the many incarnations of Cthulhu for the time being, and opened the palm of his right hand to reveal the yellow crystal ring.
"Then, accompany me to check Rocas's memories."
Miel was not sure whether these memories contained Rocas's privacy. Perhaps he should not have let Anna watch them with him, but thinking of Rocas's miserable appearance at the end, he really did not have the courage to face his heavy life alone.
To this, Anna responded: "As you wish, my Miel."
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Author's words: Leon: I have a lot to say, but my language organization skills are gone [covering my face with laughter and tears]
Anna: Yes, it’s me [dog head holding a rose]
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