Lan Yi's silence
He probably has his own reasons for not telling me, but I also think he should speak up. He might feel embarrassed in front of me, but since things have come to this point, he shouldn't back down. I believe he must speak out; it's a matter of self-respect. Not speaking out is simply hurting himself.
In the café within the system space, Lu Yin held Lan Yi's hand tightly, her fingertips gently tracing the old scar on the inside of his wrist, her voice trembling slightly: "Lan Yi, these past two years... have you stopped liking me?"
Lan Yi's pupils contracted slightly, his Adam's apple bobbed, and after a moment of silence, he slowly raised his head, his eyes filled with weariness and helplessness, his voice low and hoarse: "Lu Yin, I've never disliked you. These past two years, I've become indifferent, not because of someone new, but because..."
He paused, his voice trembling slightly, "The car accident two years ago cost me so much. I'm afraid of losing you again, afraid of losing you like I lost Xiaoxue. So, I chose to run away, using indifference to protect myself, and to protect you."
Tears welled up in Lu Yin's eyes as she gripped his hand tightly: "Lan Yi, why won't you talk? Why did you lock yourself away?"
Lan Yi's fingertips gently traced her cheek, his voice trembling slightly, "Because I don't want you to see my vulnerable side. I don't want you to worry, and I especially don't want you to suffer because of my past." He paused, a resolute glint in his eyes, "But today, I want to tell you, I've never disliked you. In my heart, there's only you. Lu Yin, I'm back, and this time, I won't leave you alone again."
A system notification softly sounded in their ears: "Emotional value +20%, target Lan Yi's emotional value has increased to 75%." Lan Yi's palm was burning hot as he gently held Lu Yin's hand: "Lu Yin, it was my mistake to run away these past two years. But my heart has never changed."
"Really? If you don't like running away, then you should face it bravely, instead of hiding in the shadows and waiting for me to come to you. I feel you lack masculinity, you seem a bit unreal, and you won't admit it. And if it's a small matter, you should treat it properly, instead of just digging a hole and hiding inside, where there's no sunlight because I'm trying to find my way. Please wake up. I've thought about it; maybe you didn't really like me that you've become like this. Maybe I'm just being delusional." Lu Yin said this because she was both angry and sad, and she didn't feel she could give him many chances. She hoped he could change for the better.
"I understand. Whether I love you or not is my own business, maybe. But I can't say I don't care about you, because when I'm with you, I get jealous and nervous. It wouldn't be right if you said you didn't like me, but a lot has happened these past few years, and I should be dealing with my own things. Although I don't like to care too much about others, I at least care about you, right? Tell me honestly. If you feel you don't love me anymore, then so be it, as long as you have no regrets. I think I did like you, but you can't believe me, since we might not be very close, right?" Lan Yi spoke with complex emotions.
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