Before I could finish my words, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my arm, and then my whole body suddenly became weak.
"Xiaoshan!" Lan Feng held me in her arms and dragged me to lie down on the hospital bed.
It was only then that I saw clearly the needle in the doctor's hand.
The doctor looked at me helplessly and apologized: "I'm sorry, I just want you to calm down."
child……
I opened my mouth, but no sound came out.
The doctor must have understood my lip movements and sighed softly, "Your health was already poor, and then you suddenly got food poisoning, which affected the fetus. When you went into the operating room yesterday, the baby was already gone."
When I heard this fact from the doctor in person, it was like a bolt from the blue, and my mind went blank for a moment.
The doctor looked at me sympathetically and told Lan Feng, "Don't let her get too emotional. Comfort her."
I stared blankly at the snow-white wall in front of me, feeling a chill in my heart.
I couldn't help but think of the dream I had when I was in a coma. Was that my baby saying goodbye to me?
My eyes were hot, but I couldn't cry.
I looked at Lan Feng numbly. Compared to her red eyes from crying, I felt that no emotion could express the pain in my heart at that moment.
"Xiaoshan, if you feel bad, just cry. Crying might make you feel better."
At this moment, I could no longer hear any comfort. I closed my eyes and tried hard to suppress the pain in my heart, but a strong sense of self-blame surged in my heart.
Why am I such a glutton! Why did I eat those two pieces of cake?!
If I hadn't bought the cake yesterday, if I hadn't eaten those two pieces of cake yesterday, would my child have stayed with me?
Why am I so greedy? I can't even protect an unborn child. I'm not worthy of being a mother!
I whispered to Lan Feng, "You guys go out, I want to be alone."
Lan Feng didn't insist on staying, respecting my wishes, but before leaving, she couldn't help but give me a few words of advice: "Xiaoshan, you will have children in the future. You still have plenty of opportunities in your life, but you must not do anything stupid."
Lan Feng was afraid that I wouldn't be able to bear the blow and commit suicide.
I sneered at myself and shook my head at her, indicating that I couldn't do it.
Only then did Lan Feng walk out of the ward.
I took the phone from the bedside table, opened the photo album, and looked at the ultrasound images in the album. I couldn't help but think of the day of the examination.
I was so looking forward to the birth of this little guy. I thought it was the best gift God had given me and the greatest comfort I had in recent times.
But why? Why didn't God let me keep this child?
Looking at the ultrasound picture, I couldn't control my tears and reached out to touch the phone screen, as if I could feel the child.
I murmured an apology to him: "I'm sorry...it's my fault that I didn't protect you..."
I held my phone in my hands for a long time, looked at it, and cried for a long time. I don’t remember how I finally fell into a deep sleep.
When I woke up again, it was already the next morning.
Lan Feng was still guarding my bedside. At this time, the door of the ward was pushed open, and Qiu Qiu and Ge Liwen hurried in.
As soon as she saw me, Qiu Qiu burst into tears out of heartache.
Lan Feng tactfully stepped aside and said, "You guys chat, I'll go out and buy her something to eat."
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