Chapter 298
Now, even when he's faced something incredibly sad, he's calm. When they first got together, he'd be a bit frantic and violent when he was upset, but not anymore. As long as he's back, he's gentle. Back then, her stress relief was limited; she just wanted him to sleep as much as he could, and he'd slowly get better. Even if they were both tormented to the point of wanting to die, that would be enough. Now, that's not necessary. Like right now, she wants him to nestle in her arms, and he'll slowly get better. Even if he doesn't say it, she can tell.
Every time this happened, she felt particularly frustrated and felt like a waste. She was reluctant to kill him, but she couldn't do anything.
Wang Jiazhi had a rebellious nature, and she certainly had the resources to be so. Born beautiful and intelligent, she was meticulous in her studies, always striving for excellence, especially since she could achieve it. She consistently topped her grades from childhood to adulthood. University was a place filled with talented people, so while achieving top marks was somewhat challenging, her achievements were still impressive. She was also gifted, and whether it was writing, painting, housework, or cooking, she would achieve astonishing results with just a little effort.
Even in that small circle, she only admitted that she was an idiot in terms of emotional intelligence and judging people. In other aspects, she felt that she still crushed them.
But when she was with him, she felt like a useless person, being dragged along in everything, with no initiative at all. She didn't understand his problems, and she couldn't help him with his troubles and pain. She couldn't even figure out why he was upset. He wouldn't tell her, and even if he did, she wouldn't understand.
She felt like a parasite. He gave her everything, and she had nothing to give him. She felt so useless.
She also knew that this was due to the long-term differences in class and environment, and no matter how strong she was, she couldn't change anything. But the result was like this, and she just felt useless.
She reached out and touched his hair. Was her only use now just as a body? Give him a child, sleep with him, and then nothing more.
She once had confidence due to her academic and talent achievements. But her life changed completely after she entered university. From then on, she was plagued by a terrible sense of failure that continues to this day.
After all, what you learn from books is always shallow. After experiencing that circle, she realized that she was too bookish and did not understand the treacherous nature of human beings. As soon as she stepped into society, she was completely destroyed. But she also thought that people's talents are limited. If they are more outstanding in one aspect, they may be very bad in another. It's like she felt that her ability to survive in this chaotic world is far inferior to that of people in a small circle. She would rather starve to death than do anything that harms the world. People in a small circle will do anything for their own selfish desires. Her idea is not bad. After all, people who do things with conscience have a hard time living, especially in such a chaotic world, it is even more terrifying.
She was a complete wreck as a spy, feeling like she was nothing when it came to practical work. She didn't realize how many people were far behind her when they first started. Even after three years of professional training, they still weren't as good as she was, relying on her own learning through reading extracurricular books, watching novels, and watching movies.
Especially this time when he got sick, he was already worried, and she couldn't help him at all, and he had to worry about the person who had lost weight. She was basically not able to help but make things worse, and this made her feel guilty for a long time.
She remembered hearing a story from a classmate at the time: a woman, only forty years old and a kind person, who was constantly annoyed by her mother-in-law. By the time she discovered the tumor, it was already very advanced. She had kept it a secret from her parents, but her father eventually found out. Upon learning that his daughter was dying, her father became distraught and distressed. The woman, so ill she could barely walk, had to take her father to the doctor, running around all by herself. Within a year, she died.
At that time, Wang Jiazhi felt that the saying that marrying a good wife brings prosperity to three generations also applied to finding a husband. There's another explanation for why men remain young until death. No matter how old they are, their minds, tempers, and sense of responsibility remain the same as those of children. And even among children of the same age, girls tend to be more sensible than boys.
Marrying the wrong person will not only ruin your own life, but also bring disaster to your descendants.
She looked at him again. He had always been too proud and self-confident in his life, always believing that everything depended on himself, and even had a nonchalant attitude towards marriage. If only he had been more patient when he was younger and carefully found a good person among his classmates and colleagues, someone who could help him with his career and have a relationship with him, and they could always support each other and help each other through thick and thin, why was he like this now?
Aren't *** and his wife a good couple? No matter what, at least they support each other throughout their lives and have a deep love and affection. Or perhaps, if he had found someone suitable and someone had advised him, he might not have chosen this path at all.
She recalled the time in Hong Kong when he said he was going to be promoted and Mrs. Yi was so happy that she almost jumped for joy. She certainly didn't know at the time that her husband was on a path of no return.
He woke up at six o'clock and saw her with her eyes open, purring her fur and asking her to go to sleep. He got up and went out.
She whimpered and said she wanted to cling to him for a while longer. When it was time to leave, she got up to clean him up, combing his hair and tying his tie.
Sometimes she liked to playfully tease him, tying her tie so tightly it felt like strangling a kitten or puppy. At first, she would have been courting death by doing that. Now, it didn't matter; it was just a little flirtation.
He taught her how to tie a tie, and there are several ways to do it.
In fact, she knew how to tie a tie, but she pretended not to know how in front of him. It was also a thing in her previous life. After joining Lao Wu and his team, in addition to learning what they trained her, she also thought that there were some extra things she needed to learn. She imagined what kind of living habits a married woman had, and one of them was tying a tie. Of course she had to know how to tie a tie after having a husband, but she was embarrassed to learn from Lao Wu and Kuang Yumin. There was a small tailor shop in the alley, and there was a nine-year-old girl at home who knew how to tie a tie. Wang Jiazhi gave her some snacks and asked her to teach her. After all, she was close to them, and the little girl knew how to tie a tie in several ways. Wang Jiazhi worked diligently and mastered four ways to tie a tie.
Later, when he was getting dressed, he motioned for her to tie his tie. She remained calm on the surface, but was actually very excited.
She expertly tied his tie, a satisfied smile on her face. Her heart was already blossoming with joy, a kind of elation and pride, like finding she'd hit the right answer on a crucial question on a major exam. Sure enough, her thoughts were right. Old Wu and Kuang Yumin were truly careless, completely oblivious to detail.
But when I looked up, I saw that his expression had become very ugly, with a kind of anger that was secretly competing with him.
She was stunned and asked awkwardly, "What... happened?"
Without a word, the guy ripped off his tie, pushed her down onto the bed, and started doing that again. He still had the energy to torment her once more.
Later she thought, maybe because she was so skilled at tying a tie, she must have tied it for her husband many times at home, so the rumors of their breakup were all fake, so he was angry.
This person is really something. Just because she has a bad relationship doesn’t mean she doesn’t know how to tie a tie.
Even if she knew how to fight in this life, she would pretend that she couldn't and asked him to teach her how to do it.
At that time, he was indeed angry because of this. He thought that the people over there even asked her to learn something as trivial as tying a tie. How on earth did they teach her to serve a man, and how did they teach her in such detail? Just thinking about it made him furious!
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