Chapter 464: How Nice to Be a Couple
When Yan Hao said this, his tone was tired and full of guilt, and he seemed unable to continue.
"It's okay, just say it." Cheng Xiaoyu said in a dry voice, which gave him some courage.
She knew that Yan Hao and Xia Nan had not broken up, and she had become numb to the various things that had happened between them afterwards.
Now, Cheng Xiaoyu just wants to hear the real Yan Hao.
He continued speaking.
Xia Nan came to his house again, but refused to have sex with him because she said that when her boyfriend came back, he would find traces of her having sex with another man.
Even though her boyfriend doesn't love her, Xia Nan still doesn't want him to think that she is a cheating woman.
Yan Hao was very angry and pushed her down on the bed roughly, mocking her for being a whore and wanting to be a virtuous woman.
Xia Nan also retorted, saying, "Aren't you the same?"
Yan Hao said, that’s fine, I’m done anyway, let’s die together, it’s so nice to be a pair of dogs and bitches.
So, they rolled together again, as if to take revenge on someone, and they used each other's bodies to vent their dissatisfaction.
It was this time that Yan Hao came to his senses.
Desire made him sink into depravity and compromise, and eventually he lost himself.
He and Xia Nan have already walked infinitely towards an abyss from which there is no turning back.
But they still want to be good people in a hypocritical manner. One wants to play the role of a loyal and docile good wife, and the other wants to play the role of a loving and loyal good man.
After finishing his story with Xia Nan, Yan Hao slowly exhaled and said to Cheng Xiaoyu on the other end of the phone in a hoarse voice:
"Over the years, your parents have been so kind to me that I thought it was my duty to treat you well. Since you like me, of course I have to make you happy. This has always been my logic. This kindness has filled me with guilt, and I have been unable to see my own heart clearly. Now I have hurt myself and you even more. Xiaoyu, I will not pester you anymore and make you sick. I will let you go, and I will let myself go. As for the kindness that my uncle and aunt have shown me, I will repay them in other ways."
Cheng Xiaoyu uttered a dry sound after a long while: "Are you done?"
"sorry……"
She smiled bleakly and looked up at the sky.
"never mind."
The pale moonlight shone on her coldly. She had never felt so cold as today, as if her soul had been pulled out, whipped, and then stuffed back in bloody.
After a moment, she quietly said to Yan Hao: "So, in fact, you have never loved me, right?"
Her voice was soft and calm, without her usual hysteria and sharpness.
Yan Hao did not answer. Only his heavy breathing could be heard in the receiver. He used his silence instead of answering.
She had never loved, never. Everything was a well-intentioned scam. But she couldn't blame anyone. She had to bear the misplaced feelings and the hurt heart by herself.
Cheng Xiaoyu sniffed and said with relief: "Okay, I understand now."
It seems that Yan Hao must have felt very uncomfortable after being suppressed for so many years.
Having an affair with that woman behind her back might be the only rebellious thing Yan Hao has ever done in his life.
It was because his parents had done so much for him that he couldn't bear to hurt her, so he stayed with her, but in the end he hurt her even more deeply.
No wonder people say that there is no right or wrong in the world of love. Now Cheng Xiaoyu finally understands. She thought sadly, her eyes red.
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