Shu Ying didn't know when this longing would end.
The passing of her parents had become a deep-seated worry for her, and she couldn't bear to forget the scene in her dream.
Shu Ying was gripped by a deep panic.
"Mom and Dad, I know you wouldn't want to see me so down. As your daughter, I have to be outstanding, but I really miss you. Where can I go to see you again?"
Outside, she could hear the voices of other women talking, and Shu Ying's face was already covered in tears without her noticing.
Actually, she had been deliberately avoiding sad topics during this period, but today's dream completely immersed her in sadness, and she couldn't pull herself out of it.
Actually, she hadn't slept for very long, but the dream felt very real. Xie Mingzhu hadn't woken up yet.
She hasn't been getting enough rest lately because she's been preoccupied with the results of her personal paternity test. Her complexion has been getting worse these past two days, but today she finally got a satisfactory answer, and she can finally get some extra sleep.
Downstairs remained quiet. Shu Ying simply burrowed herself under the covers, as if only then could she feel safe.
The curtains in the room were half-drawn, allowing only a little light to filter in. She thought of her parents in her dream, the two of them as kind as ever. They seemed never to be angry, and no matter what mistakes she made, they would always give her earnest advice. Their excellent upbringing had benefited her throughout her life.
When Xie Zhiyan pushed open the door and came in, he saw Shu Ying lying on the bed with red, swollen eyes from crying. Her hair was slightly disheveled, and she seemed like a completely different person compared to her usual calm and composed self.
He was stunned for a moment, one hand on the doorknob. After realizing what was happening, he immediately stepped forward. Xie Zhiyan quickly walked over, and the edge of the bed dented. Shu Ying met his gaze with red and swollen eyes.
A single glance reminded Xie Zhiyan of the dream he had in the hotel.
He gently patted Shuying's back with one hand, "Yingying, why are you crying so sadly all of a sudden? Did someone bully you?"
His brows were furrowed tightly. "If you're not comfortable staying here, you can tell me. As long as I can handle it, you don't need to get involved."
The thing he could least bear to see in his life was Shuying shed tears.
Seeing her so heartbroken and sad now is like seeing the person from my dream.
Holding her dying child, Shu Ying pleaded with God for another chance, hoping for a miracle to help her child recover. The two of them huddled in the cowshed, oblivious to the torrential rain outside. In the drafty house, only Shu Ying's desperate questions could be heard.
She didn't know where he was or when he would return, but in that impoverished countryside, she was definitely different from her vibrant self now.
Even though it was just a dream, Xie Zhiyan still didn't dare to think about it too much. Even now, he often feels that his life is not realistic. The aftereffects of that dream are too serious, and the feelings of gain and loss also affect him.
Even knowing that they already had two children, Xie Zhiyan still felt a wave of fear whenever he thought about how he almost lost Shuying.
They had gone through countless hardships to reunite, and Shu Ying had suffered a lot of grievances raising the child alone. Now that he was able to provide a good life for them, he would never again stand by and watch Shu Ying suffer and shed tears over anything.
Any unspeakable suffering a woman endures stems from a man's inaction.
If no one cared, Shu Ying might have recovered quickly, but the concern in Xie Zhiyan's voice made her feel even more wronged.
Her tears flowed uncontrollably, and upon seeing the person beside her, she tightly hugged Xie Zhiyan's neck, answering in a choked voice.
"It's nothing, I just had a dream. I dreamt about my parents. I haven't seen them for a long time, and I've almost forgotten what they look like. In the dream, it seemed like they just went out for a short while and brought back my favorite food. My dad and mom have never changed."
Her voice grew increasingly low, and her eyes became increasingly red.
Although she had a period of studying away from home on her own, she had a very good relationship with her parents since childhood. She was pampered as a child, so Shuying could understand their good intentions.
During her time abroad, she was forced to separate from her parents, but she maintained a regular correspondence with them every month. Although they couldn't meet often, they could at least exchange photos to express their longing for each other.
This day is different from the past. She doesn't even know where to look for them. She doesn't know if there will be an afterlife. But she can never repay her parents for what they gave her throughout their lives.
“My mother is a very beautiful woman. She always looks at me with a smile. She said that she has never regretted having only me as her daughter. She and my father want to give me the best of everything in the world. Zhiyan, you don’t know, although our family’s conditions are relatively better, my mother is really working very hard. She has her own career to do, but on the other hand, she also has to take care of me personally.”
Even now, when he thinks back to the time he lived with his parents, it is still the past he most wants to go back to.
She always had regrets in her heart. Even with a second chance, she still couldn't save her parents.
The tree may wish to be still, but the wind will not cease; the child may wish to care for his parents, but they will no longer be there.
At this moment, Shu Ying deeply understood the meaning of those words.
"And my dad, actually, when we got married, he was so nervous he couldn't sleep. He was worried that I would be bullied if I got married so early, and he felt guilty for not being able to keep me at home longer. He knew you were a good person, but he still tried his best to help me find a way out."
Now that I think about it, it's been a long time since she married Xie Zhiyan.
From the moment her father handed her over to Xie Zhiyan, it was as if a mission had been passed between the two men.
That scene has gradually faded in Shu Ying's mind, but she still often looks through those old photos.
The death of her parents was a great blow to her, but she still had to move on.
Shu Ying cried for a long time, until her temples were throbbing, before she sniffed and gently released Xie Zhiyan.
"I'm fine now, it's just that dream I had that's bothering me. You usually don't come back around this time, why are you back today?"
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