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The first moment I regained consciousness, I felt difficulty breathing.
I wanted to take a deep breath, but I seemed to have no strength. I couldn't take a full breath and almost suffocated.
Slow down, lower your expectations, and you will know that you won't die this way, but it will just be very uncomfortable.
Xing Chen felt pain all over his body, and even opening his eyes became difficult.
He tried again and again, and finally saw the light he had felt before.
But unexpectedly, I saw another person.
When Nan Ke saw him open his eyes, he immediately leaned forward and gently stroked his forehead.
"Are you awake? Are you feeling unwell? Do you want some water or something to eat?"
Her voice was so gentle that Xing Chen was immersed in it, unwilling to face reality and said nothing.
"What's wrong? Where do you feel uncomfortable? Don't be silent, don't scare me."
Xing Chen answered her hoarsely: "My whole body hurts."
He said, “I want to go home.”
Nan Ke was stunned.
Then he gently stroked his head: "Okay, you can go back when you feel better."
She said: "We still have to observe for a while."
Nan Ke asked him if he wanted to drink some water or eat anything.
"I want to eat xiaolongbao."
Nan Ke was stunned for a while, then suddenly laughed.
"It's really rare. You act like a spoiled child even when you're sick. I've never seen you like this before."
She sighed, "But the conditions here are limited. I probably won't be able to buy delicious dumplings. I'll make you some hospital food later. You'll have to make do with it for now."
Now it was Xing Chen's turn to be stunned. He suddenly forgot what he had just said and done.
But what should I say and do now?
What time is this?
He found himself as if he were sick and confused.
Nan Ke poured him some hot water and fed him little by little.
Then, looking at him in a daze, she said, "I'll send a message to Mogo first. He's very concerned about you and said that if you wake up, you must tell him as soon as possible."
"Mogo?"
Xing Chen frowned slightly.
He remembered.
He took a deep breath and breathed a sigh of relief.
It turns out that he has been with Nan Ke for several years.
After sending the message, Nan Ke stared at him.
"What’s wrong with you?"
Xing Chen held his forehead and found himself a little funny.
"I just thought... I was back to the time when I first confessed to you. I actually forgot we were already together."
Nan Ke was stunned for a moment, not knowing what to say, and could only smile helplessly.
"I think you are confused."
Xing Chen looked at her tenderly.
"I suppose so."
Actually not.
Xing Chen thought that the fundamental reason for his memory disorder was that even though he had confirmed his relationship with Nan Ke, he had never stopped worrying about gains and losses.
That's why after he fell ill, he had the illusion of returning to the beginning, when he was still someone other than Nan Ke, the scariest time in his life.
"You've been sleeping for a long time. I'll go find you something to eat."
After Nan Ke left, Xing Chen looked around and realized that this seemed to be the town's hospital.
So... Nan Ke came to see him? Put down her work?
Xing Chen slapped his head in annoyance, feeling that he had gotten into trouble.
Soon, Nan Ke came back.
"The food here looks... well, it's a good thing you're not picky about food."
Xing Chen is not picky about food, but the guilt makes him have no appetite.
He ate absentmindedly while listening to Nan Ke talk.
Nan Ke said that this was already the second day. The night before, Mogo found that he seemed sick, touched his head to confirm that he had a fever, and then found a way to send him to the hospital.
"Then how did you get here? Isn't the road impassable?"
"I took a small road because the main road was blocked. Someone on a motorcycle took me in through the small road."
Xing Chen felt even more guilty. "I didn't expect him to contact you, nor did I expect that I would end up in the hospital."
He said, "I'm sorry."
There was no trace of impatience or reluctance to make this trip on Nan Ke's face.
"I knew you were sick and trapped here, but I didn't care. That's too much, isn't it? Who do you think I am?"
Xing Chen lowered his head slightly: "Have I delayed you?"
"No."
Nan Ke paused: "But I have to go back before dark, I have work tomorrow."
Xing Chen subconsciously wanted to say that everything was fine on his side, and if Nan Ke wanted to leave for something, he could leave immediately.
But he couldn't bear to do it.
Xing Chen's heart was filled with sweetness and loss. The former was because he confirmed that the person in front of him was not a dream and they had been together for a long time, and the latter... was because he always felt that there was something between him and Nan Ke.
"Your illness this time is not accidental. I listened to what Mogo said, and combined with the doctor's diagnosis, I think you have had a low-grade fever for several days. Why don't you take care of your body?"
Xing Chen thought for a moment, "I didn't feel any discomfort...I was normal the past few days."
Nan Ke folded her arms and tilted her head to look at him: "Mo Ge said you were in a bad mood. Didn't you feel it, or was your illness caused by your mood?"
Xing Chen was speechless: "Does he know you very well? He tells you everything."
Nan Ke smiled, but also seemed a little speechless.
"You're still jealous at this time. Your character is indeed very good, Teacher Xing."
Xing Chen didn't feel embarrassed, he was indeed a jealous person.
He would feel resentful towards any opposite sex who appeared around Nan Ke, not to mention that Mogo's appearance was really worrying.
Moreover, they had met before and now they were acquaintances.
Nan Ke asked him: "Is it because of that trending search?"
Xing Chen didn't answer.
She asked again: "Is it because of Han Qin?"
Xing Chen still didn't say anything.
Nan Ke spoke to himself: "I think that's probably the reason."
Xing Chen was like a sculpture, silent and motionless.
Nan Ke pinched his face.
"I can't stay here for long. Are you sure you don't want to talk to me? I don't know when we'll meet next time."
Xing Chen's eyes immediately turned red: "I feel so useless."
Nan Ke stared at him intently, looking him up and down.
"She has a nice face, a decent figure, and her academics, looks, and moral standards are all high-quality. Where did you get this assessment?"
Xing Chen looked at her and asked, "Will you always like me?"
Nan Ke stopped pinching his chin.
His overly serious look immediately made Nan Ke's careless attitude subside.
She withdrew her hand: "It's hard to say what will happen in the future. I shouldn't promise you something I'm not sure of, but right now, I like you."
Xing Chen felt neither happy nor sad.
This is Nan Ke’s standard answer.
He has thought of it.
"If you no longer like me, all the things you say about my strengths will become worthless."
This time it was Nan Ke's turn to be speechless.
She always knew that Xing Chen thought a lot, especially about things related to her.
She knew that Xing Chen's love was obsessive and resolute. She knew it after hearing his confession for the first time.
Even though I knew it, I still accepted him, and at the same time accepted his paranoia and anxiety.
Nan Ke once thought that she had the responsibility to protect everything related to him. After all, these things only grew because of her.
But when did it start?
She forgot her responsibilities.
I no longer care about these things.
She forgot that when Xing Chen felt insecure, he would get sick, get angry with herself, and become lifeless.
Now Xing Chen's words made her remember it again.
What arises at this moment is not a sense of responsibility, but... the thought of retreating.
Nan Ke found himself becoming timid.
Why?
Can feelings really deteriorate?
She always knew that once Xing Chen lost her love, he would completely deny himself.
But why am I still tired of his fried eggs and annoyed by seeing him so familiar with his own territory?
Nan Ke wondered if she subconsciously no longer cared about Xing Chen.
No.
If I didn't care about him, I wouldn't be here now.
"I remember I told you that your life shouldn't revolve around me, and shouldn't be centered around me."
Nan Ke looked at Xing Chen and sighed softly: "I still say the same thing now."
Xing Chen didn't say anything. Nan Ke smiled helplessly and said, "It seems like you won't listen now, right?"
Nan Ke thought about it and thought that there were some problems between them.
But I realized that I was facing a patient at that time, and it was really inappropriate to talk about this matter at this time.
Finally held back.
Nan Ke felt very distressed when he saw Xing Chen exhausting himself bit by bit.
But it’s different from the heartache I felt before.
She didn't dare make any promises at this time, as she was worried that she couldn't do it.
In fact, you can trick him.
But Nan Ke was unwilling to deceive Xing Chen.
No one in this world knows better than her what an excellent and good man he is.
After a while, Mogo came.
I realized the atmosphere was not right and tried to lighten it with a joke, but failed.
He forgot that he had never belonged to the atmosphere group.
"The counselor wanted to come see you, but he's a little busy and can't leave. He asked me to give him a message to express his concern."
Mo Ge glanced at Nan Ke, then said to Xing Chen, "Actually, he knew your girlfriend was coming and wanted to come and see her, but those two wouldn't let him go because they thought he was trying to slack off."
Those two refer to the other two counselors.
Xing Chen twitched the corner of his mouth.
He looked at Nan Ke and said, "The way out is not easy either. Let Mogo take you there."
Mogo's scalp tingled. Was Xing Chen... chasing people away? What was he doing? What were they doing?
Nan Ke refused.
"You'd better take the small road. You'll have to get there by locals on motorcycles. Mogo... forget it. If anything happens to him, it will be your fault."
Xing Chen looked at Nan Ke reluctantly, and Mo Ge could see that he was reluctant to leave.
But he didn't understand why he was so reluctant.
When she is around, just say nice things to her, kiss her, and hug her. Why should you let her go?
At the same time, Mogo discovered that Nan Ke also saw Xing Chen's reluctance.
She said, "What about you? Do you want to come with me?"
Seeing Xing Chen in a daze, Nan Ke smiled.
"Have you forgotten?"
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