Caught off guard, I met her gaze and after a long pause replied, "Do I have such an option in my life? Lu Jia or Wang Lei?"
"Can't you really feel Leilei's affection for you?... It's a pity that she's a prostitute, she's not good enough for you, so after you got Lu Jia as your girlfriend, she didn't even have the confidence to ask you out for a meal occasionally... She always says that every time she sees you with Lu Jia, she feels particularly inferior!"
I took a deep drag of my cigarette and replied, "Maybe I'm a very realistic person too."
"But in Leilei's eyes, you were a good man she could entrust her life to... Michael, there are some things I really don't know whether I should tell you, after all, Leilei is dead, but if I don't say them, I can't help but want to cry whenever I think of what Leilei said to me!"
Taozi wiped away her tears with the hand holding the cigarette, but the word "death" sent chills down my spine, and I instinctively didn't want to hear her continue. I had a premonition that what Wang Lei said to her would break my heart!
After Taozi calmed down a bit, she asked me again, "Can you tell me honestly, if Leilei were still alive, would you really bring her to Dali and make her your woman? Or even marry her?"
I looked at the peach, but couldn't say a word.
Peach shed tears again, but smiled and said, "I feel sorry for Leilei, but I can't blame you... She dreamed too big of a dream!"
I remained silent because what Taozi was talking about was something I didn't want to face, because I knew that the woman I loved was Lu Jia... and love shouldn't be a result obtained through calculating what you give.
However, I can't tell whether the reason I haven't fallen in love with Wang Lei despite knowing her for so long is because of her profession. Apart from her profession, she is almost a perfect woman.
I finally spoke to Peach, saying, "Regardless of whether there's something deeper than friendship between us, I've come to Dali. She's a woman who changed my life, and I'll remember her for the rest of my life."
Peach smiled and replied, "At least you still have some conscience... I hope you know that compared to Lu Jia, Wang Lei is more worthy of your love... She won't leave you because you don't have money, and she won't ask you for a house or a car before marriage. She will only silently accompany you in your struggles, and she can even endure the despair of living in a big city better than you."
"Isn't this a reflection of your inner self?"
This time, it was Peach who fell silent, and her silence was the answer... Although she kept saying that she didn't need love, deep down she still longed for a love that she would give her all for, which is why she spoke up for Wang Lei.
She desperately wanted to find the answer from me: she would marry Wang Lei, because Wang Lei was a mirror reflecting her own situation. Unfortunately, everyone has a pragmatic side!
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