She whispered to me, "...I understand patients' feelings better than anyone else...They can be vulnerable, they can overthink, they can complicate simple problems, and they can feel like the whole world is dark...But if you treat your heart like a river, you will gradually let go...Because no matter how dirty the stains that fall into your heart, time and the flowing water will wash them away...You have to try to open your heart; only when the sunshine shines in will your river surface shimmer."
"I don't want to hear these inspirational quotes... They don't work for me. I'm like stagnant water, stinking to death!"
Ye Zhi bit her lip and said in a lower voice, "This isn't some feel-good story... What you're going through now is what I've been through... I was even more desperate than you, but we still have to live on... Even if not for ourselves, we have to live for those who care about us... You're much luckier than me, at least... you have a group of people around you who truly consider you a friend, while I... am all alone."
I finally turned to look at Ye Zhi. She let go of my hand and then gripped the railing tightly. She looked lost, but she was in great pain inside.
After a long pause, she smiled again and said, "Michael, have you noticed that we're actually quite similar? We both think we can handle anything and don't want our loved ones to suffer with us... In reality, we're more fragile than anyone else, just like you right now... helpless like a child."
“The heavier the responsibility we bear, the more concerns we will have… We did nothing wrong.”
"So, do you understand me now?"
I let out a heavy sigh, then replied softly, "I understand. It's just a shame we don't have the ability to foresee the future. If we could... I wouldn't have chosen to do so many things... I'm in more pain than anyone else right now!... I don't expect anyone else to understand me anymore. I just hope they won't hate me years from now... Speaking of which, fate really is like a cycle. The end and the beginning are actually the same point, it's just that the process takes a longer route... I'm suddenly standing in your place now... After going through this cycle, I understand... You've never let me down. It's just that there are too many ways to express love, so everyone has their own way of expressing it."
Tears welled up in Ye Zhi's eyes; she seemed to have been waiting for these words for far too long!
She said to me, "You have to get out of this predicament eventually, so think about what to do in advance... The sooner you make a plan, the less pain you'll suffer."
I smiled and asked, "Is this also based on your experience?"
"I guess so."
“Hmm… I have a plan. I’m going to go to Bangkok after I finish some things that need to be done… Do you remember, Brother Ping?… He knows a very authoritative neurologist there. This is my only hope… I don’t want to be disabled.”
"Alright, I'll take you there. I'm free recently."
"No need, I can manage on my own."
“I’ve lived in Thailand for a long time and I know the place well. With me as your guide, things will be much easier for you.”
I shook my head and replied, "Forget it, you have a fiancé, and I don't want to cause you any unnecessary trouble... Since Brother Ping asked me to go, he will definitely take care of me."
Ye Zhi hesitated for a moment before finally speaking to me, "I'm not very good at expressing myself, so when you're doing well, I just watch silently... When you're not doing well, even when you're in dire straits, nothing else matters to me... including what you think I care about most... At worst, I'll lose everything." (To chat with more like-minded people about "My Tenant Sister," follow "Hot Articles" or "rd444" on WeChat to discuss your favorite books.)
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