Gu Yingxue always felt that Cheng Huaiyu's death was a hindrance between them.
Cheng Huaiyu could have escaped unscathed, but she was implicated and died so tragically. If she were with Cheng Huaijin, would Cheng Huaijin be reminded of Cheng Huaiyu whenever he saw her?
She felt that a relationship between them was impossible, so she felt she didn't even have the right to express her love.
She couldn't pursue Cheng Huaijin as passionately as the modern or ancient girls she saw; she didn't even have that right. She was afraid that Cheng Huaijin's response would be rejection, or she was afraid that his response would be agreement.
In the quiet of the night, she thought about the two possible consequences. Neither of them was perfect. She might be sad and upset, and neither of them might feel good.
She wanted to give up, but she simply couldn't.
She tried to keep quiet and not think about it, but Cheng Huaijin would always appear in her mind.
She would be incredibly happy whenever she saw Cheng Huaijin, and she would be overjoyed just to be able to talk to him. She would miss him if she couldn't see him, and she truly understood the meaning of the phrase, "A day apart feels like three autumns."
She missed him terribly, so much.
She even thought it was fortunate that there were no cell phones in the world, otherwise her social media posts would definitely be full of sentimental messages.
She was a liberal arts student, but she didn't actually like those heartbreaking and sad words that much.
Back in her school days, she could act as a relationship coach for her friends and classmates even though she had never been in a relationship, analyzing their relationship problems. But when it came to her own situation, she was like a tangled ball of yarn that her cat had played with and ruined, impossible to untangle.
Gu Yingxue was very distressed.
But she also wanted to love boldly, even if the response was rejection, even if it would hurt her deeply, even if it would be excruciating, so that she wouldn't have any regrets.
"Third sister, fifth sister, to be honest, whether Brother Jin goes back to the West or raises Brother Yun as his own son, even more than his own child, neither of these issues will be a problem for me," Gu Yingxue said, taking a deep breath.
"So what's your problem? Are you worried that my brother will reject you?" Gu Xin asked, puzzled.
"Can I tell you how I feel about Xiao Jin?" Gu Yingxue did not answer Gu Xin's question directly.
"Go ahead," Gu Xin nodded.
Anyway, it was still early, and the morning court session had probably not ended yet, so Gu Xin had the driver drive around the area.
"I don't know if you, Third Sister and Fifth Sister, have ever experienced this feeling. It's like talking to someone you like, and you're happy no matter what you say. As long as they talk to you, that's how I feel. Even if Brother Xiao Jin just says 'hmm' to me, I feel incredibly happy. I know this is wrong, too humble, but I really, really like him! Actually, if he were always cold to me, I would be scared, but he smiles at me, and he says that chatting with me is relaxing and enjoyable. He doesn't care about me directly, but he remembers some of the things I say," Gu Yingxue said sweetly.
Gu Xin and Gu Si exchanged a glance, both finding it somewhat unbelievable.
Because in their eyes, Cheng Huaijin was always cold and aloof, as if he didn't care about anyone, especially girls who were obviously interested in him, whom he basically ignored.
The two sisters were very curious about what happened when they took Yun Ge'er out to play together.
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