Chapter 86 Dissociative Disorder
After Dr. Xiao's treatment, she got much better.
But later, Jiang Xiaoxiao came back.
Yao Shulan abandoned her and even hated her to the core.
Plus the double betrayal of Xia Ling and Yan Feng.
Her depression returned and even became bipolar.
That's why she cut her wrists.
It was Dr. Xiao who pulled her back from her collapse.
But Jiang Ciyou also knew that there was a bomb buried in his heart.
In fact, although she appears to be open-minded and carefree, she has to fight these negative emotions every day.
I have succeeded and I have failed.
What bothered her most was the splitting headache she would suffer when her illness flared up.
In fact, she has had headaches since she was a child.
Yao Shulan took her to many places.
When I was a child, I even lived in Beijing for a period of time just to see a doctor.
When she was young, headaches also accompanied her growing up.
But the attacks are not frequent.
But since three years ago, various things have broken out.
Her problem is getting more and more serious.
When the pain is unbearable, you can only rely on painkillers.
Jiang Ciyou parked the car on the side of the road.
With trembling hands, he took out a small medicine box from the drawer of the car.
It was her usual painkiller.
In fact, she hasn't eaten it for a long time.
After living with Bo Jinxiu, she slept much better.
The headache never came back.
Jiang Ciyou opened the small medicine box.
But found it empty.
I've taken every last painkiller.
Jiang Ciyou suddenly became irritable.
She searched every corner of the car.
But still couldn't find it.
Her head hurt as if it was about to explode.
Her whole mood became increasingly irritable.
Her eyes fell on the diary.
The things Xia Ling had done came back into her mind.
Like countless insects, gnawing at her nerves.
She became increasingly irritable.
Jiang Ciyou suddenly restarted the car.
He drove straight towards an apartment.
Her head was dizzy and she had a splitting headache.
However, she still drove the car to the downstairs of Lotus Apartment.
Because Jiang Ciyou knew that Xia Ling lived there now.
She stumbled out of the car.
Then climbed up to the second floor.
Jiang Ciyou supported himself and stood at the door.
She knocked on the door.
The door opened quickly.
Xia Ling was standing at the door.
"Ciyou, why are you here?"
Xia Ling seemed surprised.
But Jiang Ciyou didn't waste time talking to her.
Jiang Ciyou stretched out a hand and grabbed Xia Ling's throat.
Jiang Ciyou's eyes were red.
"Xia Ling, why, why did you want to hurt me? I've been so good to you, why did you destroy everything for me?"
Jiang Ciyou's fingers gradually tightened.
She has practiced Taekwondo and knows how to fight and kick, so she is much stronger than the average person.
Xia Ling had her throat pinched by her, leaving her no room to resist.
Her face flushed red, but she couldn't utter a word.
She could only use her fingers to pull away the hand that Jiang Ciyou was pinching her neck.
But no matter how she pulled, Jiang Ciyou was like a mountain.
Standing there motionless.
Jiang Ciyou's fingers continued to exert force.
She looked like a devil crawling out of hell.
A beautiful face became somewhat hideous under the pale incandescent light.
"Xia Ling, go to hell, go to hell."
Her fingers pressed harder.
Blood flowed from Xia Ling's lips.
Then come the eyes, nose, and ears.
Blood oozed out and flowed onto Jiang Ciyou's hand, but she seemed to be unaware of it.
Her hands continued to increase their strength.
All I heard was a click.
She finally strangled Xia Ling's neck.
…
Jiang Ciyou suddenly woke up.
"I killed someone, I killed someone."
She looked around.
I found myself lying on a comfortable sofa.
Jiang Ciyou sat up suddenly.
Looking at his own hands, he murmured to himself: "I killed someone, I killed someone."
The scene of her killing Xia Ling just now kept rushing into her mind.
It made her confused and her breathing rapid.
A cup of warm milk was handed to her.
A gentle voice came from in front of her.
"You didn't kill anyone. You just had hallucinations."
Jiang Ciyou held his face in his hands and breathed a sigh of relief: "I thought I had killed her."
Then she calmed down.
Taking the milk handed over by the man: "Doctor Xiao, how did I get here?"
Xiao Hechuan said: "You called me before you fell ill, and I came here based on the location. When I arrived, your car was parked on the side of the road, and you were already in a semi-comatose state."
Jiang Ciyou didn't remember any of this at all.
Jiang Ciyou paused for a moment and said, "The medicine is gone. Can you prescribe me some more?"
"good."
Xiao Hechuan said, "Your illness has been stable for a long time. Why did it suddenly flare up again? Is it because of this diary?"
When Xiao Hechuan found Jiang Ciyou, she was holding the diary tightly in her hand.
Xiao Hechuan handed over the diary: "Don't worry, I haven't read it."
Jiang Ciyou didn't take it: "You can take a look, maybe it will help treat my condition."
Xiao Hechuan is Jiang Ciyou's psychologist.
He is also the only one who knows everything about her.
Whether it was the sexual assault that happened to her, the incident between Yan Feng and Xia Ling, or the fact that she had kept a gigolo three years ago.
It can be said that she had no privacy in front of him.
However, after Jiang Ciyou's condition stabilized, they had no contact for several months.
Xiao Hechuan put away the diary: "Okay, then leave this diary here with me for now."
Jiang Ciyou seemed to wake up: "Where's my phone?"
Xiao Hechuan handed her bag.
Jiang Ciyou opened his phone and took a look.
It was already four in the morning.
Jiang Ciyou was surprised: "I slept for so long?"
Xiao Hechuan said: "You woke up once during the process and had a dissociative attack. You wanted to kill me, so I injected you with a sedative."
Jiang Ciyou not only suffers from depression, but also has mild dissociative disorder.
But so far, including today, dissociative disorder has only occurred twice.
When dissociative disorder occurs, Jiang Ciyou will lose himself and the ability to control himself, and even other personalities will appear. He will also lose his memory after the onset of the disease.
The first time the disease broke out was the night I cut my wrists.
In fact, she herself didn't remember how she cut her wrists.
Jiang Ciyou had no idea that Xia Ling's diary would trigger a dissociative attack on him.
She didn't think her ability to withstand was so weak.
There is only one possibility, that is, the condition has worsened.
Jiang Ciyou looked up and his eyes unconsciously fell on Xiao Hechuan's neck.
There was indeed a red mark there.
It turns out that the illusion of killing Xia Ling was not just an illusion.
"I'm sorry, Dr. Xiao."
Xiao Hechuan pushed his glasses on the bridge of his nose, and smiled as warm as jade, making people feel like they were bathed in spring breeze: "There's no need to be so polite between you and me."
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