Chapter 159 I am not with you
"What?" Shen Heng was stunned.
"He trained some of his own people who only obeyed his orders. Many times, when I spared those spies, he would have them killed." He didn't know about it at first, but when he found out later, he scolded and criticized Xie Jian, but it was of no use.
There was a corner in Xie Jian's heart that was closed to him, and perhaps Chen Heng could enter it.
"Spy?" Although Shen Heng disapproved of killing, Lu Ji'an knew that she had been in danger twice, and he must have been in danger many more times. "Although killing everyone is cruel, isn't it necessary?"
"Do you think so too?"
Looking into those serene, clear, and yet incredibly warm black eyes, Shen Heng thought for a moment. What should she say? As far as she was concerned, "Yes, and no. I think you must have been in danger at the time, so Ah Jian did that. He was also protecting you, my Lord."
"Do you think it's right to kill prisoners?"
"If we kill them, they'll be powerless. But if we let them go, they'll come back to kill us. I don't know."
Lu Ji'an looked at the woman in front of him calmly and said gently, "Ajian is ambitious. He wants to be the best. When he is in a high position, he can't tell whether the people around him are a threat or not. This is stupidity. To kill those he suspects in order to avoid future harm is tyranny. He only knows how to eliminate his opponents but has no way to control his subordinates. This is incompetence."
"But we are still weak. It's normal that we are incompetent now."
"Killing people without hesitation because of incompetence will only make you more and more cruel, and eventually you will be abandoned by everyone. Chen Heng, you know Ajian's journey best." Lu Ji'an said.
Chen Heng thought of Xie Jian when he first arrived in Dacong. At that time, he was just like what they say now, weak and incompetent. The only thing he wanted was to kill for revenge. But when he picked up the knife, Chen Heng remembered how scared she was of this boy who was only fifteen or sixteen years old.
Because there was only hatred and ruthlessness in his eyes, without any rationality at all.
What is the difference between a sane person and a mad person?
She still remembered the suffocating feeling when his bony, cold hands gripped her neck.
If he finally came to his senses, she would escape from him at all costs.
Many people think that when she stopped Xie Jian from killing people, she was persuading him to be kind and forgive those who hurt him. But that was not the case. She was not persuading Xie Jian to forgive his enemies, but to forgive herself.
There are many kinds of hatred, and sacrificing yourself is not even the worst option.
Killing people will only make them degenerate faster.
Chen Heng nodded: "I understand what you mean, sir."
Lu Ji'an felt that no matter what he said, Chen Heng seemed to understand. There was no trace of confusion in her clear black eyes: "Ajian and I have a limited time together. You are husband and wife. In life, we share the bed, in death, we share the grave. As the saying goes, if the husband is not virtuous, he cannot control the wife; if the wife is not virtuous, she cannot serve the husband. You must remember this."
"To be honest with you, my Lord, Ajian and I are getting a divorce." Chen Heng said.
Lu Ji'an was stunned: "Divorce?"
"Yes. I have my own things to do. I can't just focus on Ajian. He needs to learn to grow on his own. He needs to understand what the master said on his own. What's the point of me just watching over him?" Chen Heng said simply and clearly, "I don't have that ability either."
She is not Xie Jian's guardian. Besides, the boy is already seventeen years old. In a little while, he will be eighteen and an adult.
Lu Ji'an thought he had misheard and repeated, "Divorce?"
"Your Excellency heard correctly."
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