Liu Ruoxue's face turned pale, as if struck by lightning. She had thought that her sister had given up the idea of ​​liking women long ago under her "teaching", but in her last moments, her sister was still thinking about liking her.

What she could never have imagined was that one day her sister would feel that body was not worthy of her and commit suicide.

She also waited until a little girl who looked like her own sister grew up and could accompany her throughout her life.

"When you were in college, you actually liked Qingyun, right, Xia Jingsong." Liu Ruoxue, whose face was pale, asked after a long silence.

Xia Jingsong did not answer Liu Ruoxue's words, but Liu Ruoxue knew that if this was not true, Xia Jingsong would definitely deny it instead of pretending to be deaf and dumb like he was doing now.

"Since the person you like is my sister, why don't you pursue her?"

"She likes women. I know it's useless to force her. Why should I interfere with other people's happy lives?" Xia Jingsong's tone was very flat, but it stabbed Liu Ruoxue's heart like a knife.

Yes, she is the one who wants to interfere with other people's peaceful lives.

"Then why did you pursue me again? Is it because I look like my sister?" There was no bitterness in the tone, but after saying it, Liu Ruoxue gave a bitter smile.

"The truth is not what you think. It's been almost twenty years. There's no need to explain it now."

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"Now that she has become like Qingyun, are you going to do this again? Ruoxue, you don't have to seek my opinion, because I know you are just telling me." Xia Jingsong looked at Liu Ruoxue and said slowly. The atmosphere in this small family has never been so strange. "From childhood to adulthood, you always let Ruoming do what you want, just like what you did to Liu Qingyun when you were a sister."

"Liu Qingyun is gone, Ruoxue, can you accept that your daughter is gone too?"

"Since she was little, you taught Rumeng to be independent and learn to handle things on her own. When she was in elementary school, she fell and got hurt, but you didn't even ask about her injury. Rumeng could only grit her teeth and apply iodine, then bandage herself. She was obviously afraid of the dark and being alone since she was little, but you never reached out to her in the dark once."

"The more she resembles Liu Qingyun, the more you should treat her the same way you treated Liu Qingyun back then."

"I don't know if you still remember, one summer vacation, my daughter had an essay in her homework, but it was only because three words were written incorrectly and it was altered, you tore up all her essays and asked her to rewrite them. She didn't want to, so you took her to the bed and told her that if she didn't do it, you would beat her."

"At that time, Ruomeng said, 'Just do it. If you can avoid rewriting by being beaten, then just get beaten.'"

"But you coldly told Ruoming that she still had to rewrite the composition after being beaten."

"Since then, Ruomeng has always done what you wanted her to do. But the path that Ruomeng chooses will always go against your wishes, just like Liu Qingyun. Maybe you, Ruoxue, will never admit it, but the fact is that most of the time you are wrong. The rule set by the family, 'Apologize when you are wrong' is only what you say when you have nothing to refute. Every time something goes wrong, you always scold Ruomeng without asking why."

Liu Ruoxue looked at Xia Jingsong's face. Although Xia Jingsong did not say the rest of the words, she already knew what Xia Jingsong wanted to say.

Can a belated apology still be considered an apology? Can a broken heart be restored? Liu Qingyun chose to commit suicide because of her. Even if she apologizes to Liu Qingyun now, can Liu Qingyun still survive?

"She is very well behaved in front of you, but that is what is called succumbing to power. My daughter is not the kind of person who can stay quiet. She can become like this only because she likes a woman. This may be the only thing that makes her different from Liu Qingyun. Of course, she is not like you either."

"Qingyun... does she really like me that much? Even after being married for so many years..." Liu Ruoxue sat on the sofa in a daze and asked in a hoarse voice.

"It was you who betrayed her..." Xia Jingsong shook his head and did not directly answer Liu Ruoxue's question, but all the answers were already hidden in his words.

"One man's meat is another man's poison."

Liu Ruoxue looked at the walls of the room and couldn't calm down no matter what. The decoration of this house was even chosen for her by Liu Qingyun.

She understood what Xia Jingsong meant.

Liu Qingyun's marriage was actually arranged by Liu Ruoxue.

It might not be entirely correct to say that it was about marriage, and even about love. She knew that Ye Nianqiu had a crush on Liu Qingyun, so even the "chance encounter" between Liu Qingyun and Ye Nianqiu was arranged by Liu Ruoxue.

Watched her being pursued, watched her put on red dress, watched her get married, watched her smiling in the photo, watched her daughter being born.

All of this was just what Liu Ruoxue did to satisfy and soothe her own heart. Having grown up with traditional culture, she could never accept that her sister liked her. It was not only a sisterly love, but also a woman liking a woman. Even if she read through literary books, she would never understand why a woman liking a woman was logical.

Although she didn't think her sister really liked her, she just brought over the habit of sticking to her from childhood. The sister who had gone astray mistook this feeling for love. But even if it was a woman who liked a woman, she couldn't accept it. She wanted to bring her sister back on track.

All of this was done to re-educate the lamb she believed had long gone astray.

But after Xia Jingsong personally admitted that the person Liu Qingyun liked was her and that he had sacrificed his life for her, the blood color on Liu Ruoxue's face completely disappeared.

The younger sister's smile was just a forced one. In order to comfort her elder sister, Liu Qingyun never felt happy from it. She even felt that her body had become dirty.

"Do you still think that what you think is right is also right for them?"

"Where... is she... I want to go see her..." Liu Ruoxue said in a low voice. The usual brilliance in her eyes was gone, leaving only darkness.

"You'd better not go, Ruoxue." Xia Jingsong shook his head.

"Why, she is my sister, can't I go see her if I want to?"

"If there really are souls in this world, whether she is blaming you or she still likes you, do you think it is a good thing for her to see you?" Xia Jingsong said softly, "She has suffered for you in this life since she came to the world. She should be very happy in heaven now. You should stop making things difficult for her."