The heavy rain falling outside the window seemed to be dripping on the flower bed, and also seemed to be dripping on Xia Ruoming's heart.

Although it was her favorite new novel by Keigo Higashino, "The Cross of Nothingness", which had just been delivered to her, Xia Ruoming could not read a single word of it. After flipping through a few pages, Xia Ruoming threw the book aside and stared at the heavy rain outside the window in a daze.

For a moment, Xia Ruoming felt that the timid girl sitting in front of her was not Xu Fengwu, but Chu Suhe. Only she would behave like this.

Perhaps it was the influence of the spirit of rebirth that caused Xia Ruoming to feel more shaken than in her previous life.

How could the girl who was so cool and noble in her previous life and spoke with a hint of arrogance become like this now?

Just thinking about these things made Xia Ruoming feel a splitting headache. She even felt that some illusions from her previous life appeared before her eyes, and her mood became much more irritable.

She originally wanted to light a cigarette to calm herself down, but when she picked up the cigarette, she remembered that she had made up her mind to quit smoking. Xia Ruoming, despite a severe headache, threw the whole box of cigarettes into the trash can.

The severe headache and tinnitus tortured Xia Ruoming, and she felt that she could hardly stand on her feet.

Hearing Xia Ruoming's scream, Xu Fengwu hurriedly ran out of the bedroom and helped up Xia Ruoming, who was half-kneeling on the ground with her hands behind her head.

"Ruoming, are you okay?" Putting Xia Ruoming's hand on his shoulder, Xu Fengwu gently helped Xia Ruoming to her bedroom. Originally, Xu Fengwu himself had a little fever and did not have much strength, so he was shaky when he helped Xia Ruoming walk.

"I... am... fine..." Just to say these three words, Xia Ruoming seemed to have used up all her strength.

Just as she had discovered before, the mental trauma she suffered in her previous life had not been healed in this life. Perhaps this was the price of her rebirth.

After asking Xu Fengwu to go to the kitchen and get two bottles of cold beer from the refrigerator for her, Xia Ruoming drank both bottles of cold beer. The alcohol numbed her nerves and alleviated the pain. Then the normal sleepiness that was normal after nightfall began to emerge.

After her mental state stabilized, Xia Ruoming felt that the pain had mostly subsided, and she fell into a deep sleep due to her exhaustion.

In the middle of the night, Xia Ruoming suddenly woke up with an inexplicable fever. Feeling thirsty, she was about to get up and drink some water, but she felt as if something was hanging on her body.

Xia Ruoming looked back and saw Xu Fengwu holding her like an octopus while sleeping, his furry pajamas clinging to her body.

Shaking off the strange thoughts in her mind, Xia Ruoming struggled to break free from the girl's restraints bit by bit. Xia Ruoming walked into the living room and drank several glasses of water before slowly walking back to the room.

In the dark room, Xu Fengwu was staring at Xia Ruoming with his big eyes, making her feel uncomfortable.

"Xu Fengwu, what are you doing here instead of sleeping in the middle of the night? And who told you to get into my bed?" Xia Ruoming couldn't stand being stared at anymore, so she asked.

In the dim light, Xia Ruoming clearly saw Xu Fengwu looking angry.

You became like that last night. I was the one who took care of you, so why are you turning against me again?

"Ruoming... can we really never go back to the way we were before... Even if I pursue you, can you please not push me away again..." Although the voice was very low, Xia Ruoming still heard the slight crying sound while speaking.

Xia Ruoming tried hard to calm herself down. Whenever her heart was in a mess, she would feel a headache, and she really didn't want to experience it again.

"Feng Wu, stop being so petty." Xia Ruoming said softly, "Time cannot be reversed, and we cannot go back to the past. I told you that you will meet someone better, believe me."

"I'm not throwing a tantrum! I don't want to meet someone better either. You're the only one I want to be with!" Xu Fengwu's tone suddenly became anxious. After realizing her loss of composure, she regained her weak tone and said, "I don't want anyone else. I just want to be with you forever, for the rest of my life."

"Yeah, I used to think so." At some point, tears rolled down Xia Ruoming's eyes, as if she was sad for her past self. However, in the dark room, Xu Fengwu couldn't see it.

Just like back then, Xu Fengwu never looked back.

"Ruoming, you can think this way now. We can start over together, right?" Xu Fengwu felt that her tone was full of pleading. She had never been so humble before.

"Feng Wu, you know, no one has ever been able to compare to you back then, even now."

"I am no longer the Xia Ruoming of the past, and you are no longer the Xu Fengwu of the past."

“So… my answer is that people should always move forward and never look back.”

After she finished speaking, Xia Ruoming gave a bitter smile. She always told Xu Fengwu to keep moving forward and not look back, but did she do it herself?

I'm afraid, not at all...

That's right, she really didn't want to repeat the mistakes of her previous life, especially she didn't want fate to think she was a fool.

But facing the pitiful Bai Yueguang, who can guarantee that there will be no ripples in her heart? Since Xia Ruoming's heart was shaken for the first time, she had to clench her fists tightly before she could say no. The inexplicable bitterness mixed with an indescribable emotion always made her hesitant.

"Is it because of Chu Suhe and Xiao Qinghan?" After hearing Xia Ruoming's answer, Xu Fengwu was silent for a long time before asking Xia Ruoming this question.

"Well... although who I like has nothing to do with you, Feng Wu, it doesn't hurt to tell you. You guessed right, it's because of them." Xia Ruoming replied. After hesitating for a while, she added: "And I like them all, so now I am a scumbag. You like the innocent me in the past, but that me is no longer here. You should give up as soon as possible."

Holding a thorny rose in your hand will not bring you happiness, but will only make your hands bloody, just like me - although Xia Ruoming really wanted to say it, she didn't say it in the end.

Although she had always known it, when she heard Xia Ruoming say it herself, Xu Fengwu felt like she was about to turn evil, just like the heroines in those yandere novels.

Xia Ruoming should not like other women. Xia Ruoming should only be good to her. All of Xia Ruoming's tenderness should belong to her alone. She has always thought so.

Because, during these long five years, all these things had originally belonged to her.

Xu Fengwu closed his eyes and let out a long breath, as if he had made up his mind, and said something that shocked Xia Ruoming.

"It's okay, I don't care. I will tell you, Ruoming, that I am better than them all."