My mother wanted to take all the blame for me, but I couldn't control myself and shouted that it was me. The aunts saw through me and I was panicked. But then I saw Fourth Aunt wink at me and I calmed down instantly.
In my mind at that time, anyone could do something bad to me for various reasons, except Fourth Aunt.
She is only nice to me.
I felt relieved when I saw that the aunts had arranged everything, called the barefoot doctor over, and ruled my father's death an accidental death.
At the same time, I also felt a deep sense of guilt. I killed someone and I should have paid with my life. But because I was pitiful, my aunts helped me and saved me from being shot. I knew that what they did was wrong, but I couldn't refute it.
After my father's funeral, Fourth Aunt came to talk to me once, and in the identity of "Teacher Ruan", I confessed the whole process to her.
She said that although I made a very big mistake, it is not impossible to make up for it.
The reason why she helped me was, firstly, because she felt that I killed someone in excessive self-defense and did not deserve the death penalty; secondly, because she felt that I was a studious person and that if I studied hard I would be able to contribute to society in the future. She hoped that I could atone for my sins and keep doing good deeds to make up for this mistake.
My teacher Ruan is always so gentle and firm, helping me grow and giving me hope in life.
I swore in front of her that I would study hard, contribute to the motherland and society, continue to do good deeds, and live a life with a clear conscience.
She gave me a malted milk can, tore off two strips of paper, and taught me how to make origami stars.
"From now on, every time you do a good deed, fold a paper star and put it in the jar. When the jar is full of paper stars, your good deed will be offset. Do you understand?"
I nodded vigorously and told her, "I will, Teacher Ruan. I listen to you the most. I will do whatever you tell me to do."
Actually, I want to ask her, after I finish folding the paper stars, can I ask her to be my wife?
In the end, I didn't ask. After all, I am the one who made the mistake and I have no right to ask.
Also, I think she is so beautiful and so good. I am not worthy of her at all, and neither is Fourth Uncle.
I suddenly thought of the powder that my grandmother had applied, and felt such a pity. If I had told her at that time, would she have married my fourth uncle who was not worthy of her?
But many things have happened and there is no chance to do it again, I can only look forward.
If I help my classmates at school, I will fold a paper star.
When I see children being bullied outside, I will help educate the bullies and then fold a paper star.
When I go up the mountain to pick wild fruits and see someone fall and get injured, I will take the initiative to help and then go home to fold a paper star.
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The more paper stars I folded, the fuller the jar became. As I became more sensible, I gradually realized that what Teacher Ruan said about "making amends with good deeds" was just a phrase used to coax children.
But she really wanted me to get better and better.
I kept the habit of folding paper stars. Every time I did a good deed, I would fold one, hoping that these good thoughts would quickly get rid of the guilt weighing on me.
Since that day, I have been having dreams in which I repeat the scene of killing my father. Every time I dream about it, it feels like someone is strangling my neck and making it difficult for me to breathe.
As my fourth uncle and aunt’s business grew bigger and bigger, I began to feel a little regretful.
Because Fourth Aunt told us that she hoped we would do what we like, and I said that I like writing and I want to read so that I can write better articles.
I secretly thought that Fourth Aunt was also good at writing, and this way I could be closer to her.
But the result of saying this was that Fourth Aunt asked my mother to educate me well and be strict with my academic performance.
Unlike He Hui.
He said he didn't like studying and he just wanted to follow his father into business and work for his fourth uncle.
So except for school time, his third uncle kept him by his side to learn how to do business. It was said that this was the suggestion of his fourth aunt, and he often had the opportunity to meet her.
I'm so angry that my teeth are itching.
Although I really don't like doing business, I would be willing to do it if it allows me to see Fourth Aunt more often. At worst, I can change my hobbies for Fourth Aunt.
But it was too late. My mother turned into a supervisory maniac. Except for working hours, she kept an eye on my studies. If I did not do well in my studies, she would report the situation to Fourth Aunt.
So annoying!
Pain and happiness!
I started to occasionally do poorly on exams, because if I did poorly, my mother would take me to see my fourth aunt to analyze the reasons.
Fourth Aunt noticed it the first time. When my mother went to the kitchen to wash the fruit, Fourth Aunt looked at me with raised eyebrows and asked me, "Why did you do this on purpose?"
God knows I was completely frozen when she looked at me like that. In order to fool her, I found a very reasonable reason to rebel.
"I just feel that my mother keeps a close eye on me, and sometimes I have the thought that I might do poorly on the test." I really told Aunt Si, and then said, "Another reason is that I feel that if I do poorly on the test, my mother will bring me to see you."
Fourth Aunt smiled. She reached out and touched my head, and called me a little fool. Although I was scolded, I was very happy in my heart.
She said there was no need to do poorly on purpose on the test and that I could always find her whenever I wanted to see her or talk to her about anything.
I knew that my teacher Ruan was the best to me. She couldn't bear to see me sad, so she told me I could come to her anytime.
Since then, I never had bad grades again, just to tell her when I came to see her that I was still doing well in my studies.
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