Chapter 137 I Just Can't Bear to Let You Go
When Song Yi received the message from Fu Xijing, she and Ying Xing were buying ingredients for lunch at a supermarket near the community.
Seeing Fu Xijing asked her to make sweet and sour pork for Miki, Song Yi rubbed her temples.
She didn't really want to go, but she had the upper hand in someone's hands, so she could only reply with "OK".
Ying Xing saw the content in the chat box between Song Yi and Fu Xijing, rolled his eyes, and couldn't help but complain about Fu Xijing: "As expected of a capitalist, he really knows how to exploit people - have you asked him for money?"
Song Yi shook her head. She didn't want to ask Fu Xijing for money anymore. She had already asked for enough.
Ying Xing knew what Song Yi was thinking, so she just asked and the topic was quickly passed.
"By the way, how did you use the method I thought of for you?" Ying Xing remembered this.
Song Yi: "It seems to be somewhat useful."
Ying Xing: "Then you should work harder. Keep it a secret from Jiang Yuxu for now. If he finds out, he'll have to cut it off."
"I'm telling you the truth, don't be angry." Ying Xing looked at Song Yi and sighed, "If I were you, I would tell Aunt Song directly about what happened. It's not your fault that you were cheated of your money. It's all in the past. She'll just be angry and blame herself."
"You are just too hesitant when doing things. You can't give up this and you can't let go of that. You want to be decent and harmonious at the same time. That's true, but you meet an unreasonable person like Fu Xijing. He doesn't want you to be decent. He has to use your desire to be decent to coerce you. If you don't let go, you will always be controlled by him." Ying Xing wanted to say these words last time, but Song Yi was in a very intense mood that time. As a friend, she must go along with her and find a solution first. She can't say anything that seems to be blaming her at that moment.
But now it has been a while, and when she caught up with Fu Xijing's message, she spoke it all at once.
"Think about what happened with Xu Shengwen last time. Weren't you afraid that Aunt Song would find out and affect the surgery? Although Fu Xijing was trying to force you at the time, he did accidentally push you forward. Look, even if Aunt Song really found out, it didn't affect the surgery. Don't always habitually catastrophize things that haven't happened."
Ying Xing's words were sincere and from the heart.
Especially the last sentence, it hits the heart.
Song Yi grabbed the shopping cart, lowered his head and thought for a few minutes, then took a deep breath, "Okay, I understand. I will think about it carefully."
Ying Xing hugged her and said, "Don't push yourself too hard. I don't mean to blame you. I understand why you do this."
Ying Xing's words "habitually catastrophizing everything that didn't happen" are a true reflection of Song Yi's life over the years.
Song Lansheng treated her very well, never scolded her, and never even said anything excessive to her.
They have a good relationship as mother and daughter, but Song Yi still received a lot of malice from the outside world while growing up.
Because she "has no father".
Although Song Lansheng never said how difficult it was to raise her alone, Song Yi always thought so subconsciously.
When she was in elementary school, she heard her neighbors discussing it. They said that Song Lansheng had good conditions and if she didn't have her as a burden, she would definitely marry into a good family and wouldn't have to work so hard.
This sentence left a deep impression on Song Yi. Later, she studied harder, did her homework conscientiously after school every day, and always ranked among the top in exams. Song Lansheng never had to worry about her.
She didn't want to be a burden to Song Lansheng, so she almost gave up studying abroad.
After Song Lansheng knew that she had this idea, he gave her all the money and told her not to feel pressured and just study hard without worrying about any return.
She said that her mother raised her because she hoped that she would become a better person, not because she wanted her to make more money.
Song Yi is a very self-aware person, and she is very clear about the flaws and weaknesses in her character.
But this kind of personality and thinking pattern has been formed for 28 years, how can it be changed easily?
However, she also listened to Ying Xing's words.
If she doesn't let go of these, Fu Xijing will always be able to find bargaining chips to threaten her.
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Song Yi and Ying Xing bought the ingredients and returned home. Not long after, Tang Qing also came over.
The three of them had lunch together and chatted about Song Yi and Fu Xijing.
Tang Qing's views were basically consistent with what Ying Xing said in the supermarket.
Song Yi said he would seriously consider these words.
But before she could think about it, she decided to go to Lanshan Villa first to make sweet and sour pork for Miki.
Song Yi was worrying about how to tell Jiang Yuxu about this when Jiang Yuxu's WeChat message came.
Jiang Yuxu: [Are you still with your mother?]
Song Yi: [No, I came to my friend's place this morning. Do you have anything to talk to me about?]
Jiang Yuxu: [There's something going on at the law firm tonight, so you don't have to come back to cook. Spend more time with your mom.]
Seeing this message, Song Yi breathed a sigh of relief.
It was just right, she didn't have to make up an excuse.
Song Yi: [Okay, then take care of yourself and don't get too tired.]
Ying Xing saw Song Yi sighing with relief and asked curiously, "What happened?"
Song Yi: "Lawyer Jiang said he has work tonight, so I don't have to lie to him."
She is really not good at lying, and she feels guilty when she talks about it.
Ying Xing and Tang Qing were also aware of Song Yi's lying skills.
Ying Xing couldn't help but say, "I'm just confused. With the way you look so guilty after telling a lie, how could Jiang Yuxu really not tell that you were lying to him?"
Song Yi quietly defended himself: "That's why I never say it to his face."
She knows her own weight very well.
Tang Qing: "You can dodge it once, but you can't dodge it three or four times."
Song Yi said "hmm" to show that he understood, "I'll talk to my mom next week."
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After lunch, Song Yi rested until four o'clock and then set off for Lanshan Villa.
Not sure if there were any ingredients there, so to be on the safe side, Song Yi went to the supermarket and bought some food to bring over.
It was almost six o'clock when I stopped at the door and knocked.
Song Yi pressed the doorbell and waited for half a minute before the door opened.
It was Fu Xijing who opened the door.
Fu Xijing's eyes looked over her and finally fell on the shopping bag in her hand.
"I was afraid that there would be no ingredients here and I would waste time, so I bought some things." Song Yi explained.
Fu Xijing gave in and motioned her to come in.
Song Yi had been to Lanshan Villa several times before. After entering, he took disposable slippers from the shoe cabinet to change into them.
Fu Xijing picked up the shopping bag she had placed on the ground, opened it, looked at the abundant ingredients inside, and chuckled.
Then he teased lazily, "You don't ask for money, but you're paying for it. You'd be hard to find a lover as thoughtful as Teacher Song. No wonder I couldn't bear to let you go for so many years."
Song Yi ignored Fu Xijing's joking words, looked around, and suddenly found that the living room was too quiet.
She frowned.
Miki is not here?
"An hour ago, Fu Xiao took Miki out to play." Fu Xijing seemed to see her confusion and began to answer.
Song Yi: "Then I..."
"I've already bought everything, don't waste it." Fu Xijing pouted, "You can leave after dinner."
Song Yi said "Oh".
Fu Xijing pinched her chin and said, "I thought you would refuse."
Song Yi: "Is it useful?"
Fu Xijing patted her face and said veiledly, "You're quite clever when you play tricks on me."
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