Chapter 84
The elderly nurse suddenly emerged from the shadows not far away and stared at them closely, as if they were about to do something unspeakable if they closed the door. The two doctors had to stop.
The doctor on the left came over and asked, "Aren't you going to work?"
The older nurse stared at his face, shook her head, and smiled slowly, "No, I didn't say that, and I didn't do that."
The doctor on the left asked: "So what are you going to do now?"
The older nurse's gaze fell behind them. Although both of them were standing in front of her, blocking her view, it was useless because there was only one head on each of their shoulders. The older nurse could still see through the empty space below their heads and above their shoulders and see the unknown body lying on the bed not far behind them.
The older nurse could tell that the body was not the head nurse's. She was a little dazed for a moment, thinking that her memory had deteriorated, so she thought that the body was part of someone she knew. She laughed at herself, came to her senses, and said to the two people in front of her, "Don't be afraid. I won't tell anyone else about this. But what are you going to do?"
The two doctors felt the older nurse's precise gaze and were startled, thinking she was going to yell or question something. However, she looked unexpectedly calm. They thought the matter was a bit tricky. If the older nurse yelled, it would be easy to solve. But this calm look didn't seem like it was easy to solve. It was more like -
I knew it earlier or I was prepared.
Both doctors looked unhappy.
The elderly nurse looked at the two of them and asked, "Are you unwilling? If you don't let me in, I will tell everyone about this. What do you think will happen if others know that you are hiding something like this? Will they lose their temper? Run away? Make a mess? Or even start committing crimes? If you start to make a scene, I'm afraid you won't be able to control it. There are only two of you."
The doctor on the right looked a little darker. "Since you said so, come in. How much do you know?"
He looked at the older nurse, stepped aside, and invited her to enter the house.
As soon as the older nurse entered the room, the doctor on the right impatiently closed the door.
Lok Won and Jongin stood behind the elderly nurse, looking down at the three of them talking with grim expressions, and somehow felt that they were quite united.
Jongin cleaned up the mess in his hands and asked Leyuan, "How about we wash them too?"
Leyuan shook his head: "It doesn't matter whether I wash it or not."
Jongin asked, "Aren't you worried about being infected by them?"
He looked a little surprised.
Leyuan looked at Jongin and was a little surprised. He raised his eyebrows and asked, "When did you become like this?"
Jongin looked at himself and shook his head: "Nothing."
Leyuan smiled and said, "I'm not saying that you have a problem. I'm saying that it's a bit strange that you're so nervous about an infectious disease, especially one that seems to be set in a fantasy. Even if it's not an illusion, it's a real infectious disease. But look at those patients and other doctors and nurses. Aren't they all not infected? They look completely normal, but they just didn't discuss it."
Jongin nodded thoughtfully, “Yeah.”
He murmured; "It's a bit strange."
Leyuan said: "If they are not infected, we don't need to worry. They are still in this hospital, but we are not. We can leave whenever we want. They are different from them. They are closer to the danger and the source of infection, but nothing happened to them. If something happened to us, that would be a problem. Either we were targeted, or it was a pure accident.
If we are being targeted, we should clean up the debris in our area. Perhaps some strange creatures have sneaked in.
If it was just an accident, infectious diseases should be useless against weird things. If it’s useless to you, then it’s useless to me, right? "
Jongin nodded, “That’s right.”
"It seems that the transmission of infectious diseases requires contact with liquids, but we did not come into contact with liquids, so there is no need to worry," said Leyuan.
Jongin lowered his eyes and said nothing.
Leyuan hugged him and said, "I know you're worried about me, but there's no need to worry. You'll be fine, and neither will I. Okay?"
Jongin nodded and whispered, "Okay, but I think that infectious disease will cause people to run around after they die. You have to be careful and don't stay too far away from me."
Leyuan smiled and said, "No, there is no need for me to leave you. Besides, how can I leave so easily? We are one."
Jongin nodded: "If that's the case, it couldn't be better."
Leyuan nodded: "I thought so too."
After the two finished their discussion, they moved to a more suitable position for observing the situation and continued to look into the room below.
Inside the room, the elderly nurse and two doctors were ready to dissect the body of the infected patient.
They took a deep breath, but did not wear masks on their faces. Due to insufficient resources, they had no replacement medical masks, so their faces were empty.
The elderly nurse had some non-medical masks in stock. She had seen pictures of them at home and bought them because she thought they looked good. But when she got them, she found that they were just so-so. She worked in a hospital and there was no point in having them, so she put them aside.
At this time, taking out a non-medical mask is just better than nothing, giving yourself psychological comfort. Instead of that, it is better not to take it out so as not to block your sight. It is a good opportunity to get closer to the two people around you. After considering it, the older nurse chose not to wear a mask without hesitation.
The dissection begins.
They found that the inside of the body had completely turned into a pile of sticky green liquid, but before the anatomist opened the skin, the body still looked intact and normal on the outside. If you just looked at the appearance, you would never imagine that the inside of the body was like this.
"This isn't right. This isn't medical. How is this possible?"
The doctor on the left looked at the corpse and muttered.
"I said it's not ergonomic. People are in this condition now, what's the point of studying anything? We're lucky enough not to get infected." The elderly nurse said, not sure whether she was sneering or mocking.
The doctor on the right frowned and said, "Well, now that we've seen it, let's quickly restore this place to its original state. Don't delay any further, otherwise this corpse will turn into a pile of liquid and leak out again, and we won't know for a while."
The older nurse nodded: "Okay."
The doctor on the left also had no opinion.
The three of them worked very quickly and usually cooperated with each other, so now they were even more anxious to finish the job faster.
The body was disposed of.
Now, the corpse is lying on the bed, wrapped in a layer of plastic wrap and covered with a layer of white blanket-like cloth. The cloth is not big and cannot cover the person. It can only cover a small half to prevent people outside from being scared when they see the corpse, and to prevent the corpse from undergoing subsequent changes that would affect its appearance.
This is also for the safety and health of everyone.
After washing their hands, they prepared to go out.
The older nurse asked, “Is this the end of the matter?”
The doctor on the left asked in a very tired tone: "So what do you want?"
The older nurse smiled and said, "I don't think much of it."
The doctor on the left looked at her with dark circles under his eyes without saying a word. He looked like a corporate slave who was about to die suddenly.
The elderly nurse gradually stopped smiling and said coldly, "Since you are asking, I will be blunt. I am very unhappy that you concealed this matter. I need some compensation. You allowed me to enter the room and dissect the body, but this is only one of the things. It is not a complete compensation. I need more.
This little thing is not enough to change my mind."
She almost said openly, this is all you gave me, I am going to be angry, and I just want to cause trouble for you.
The doctor on the left's cheeks turned from pale to rosy. He was a little angry, but he opened his mouth, not knowing what to say. If he cursed, it would be unnecessary, and if someone passed by and heard it, he would definitely be blamed. If he didn't curse, it felt like nothing he said would be of any use, as if he was just playing the lute to a cow, wasting time and chewing air. He suddenly felt a stomachache.
The doctor on the right saw the doctor on the left's cheek twitch twice, as if he was smiling but not really smiling, as if he was about to say something. However, the doctor on the right and the doctor on the left had been colleagues for a long time. Seeing the doctor on the left's expression, he knew that the doctor on the left had nothing to say, so he said to the older nurse, "It's best not to tell anyone else about this. It's not a good thing to cause panic in the hospital."
He paused and said, "If you insist on talking, I can't stop you. Your legs are on your body and your tongue is in your mouth. Even if we catch you and tie you up, we can't change the facts. I'm too lazy to do things that only treat the symptoms and not the root cause. I've been working in this hospital for quite some time, and I've always been doing things that only treat the symptoms and not the root cause. I don't want to do that anymore."
The doctor on the right also showed a deep tired look on his face. He raised the corners of his lips in self-mockery, as if he thought of the chaotic work scene in his dream. He had a dream not long ago. In the dream, he was still working, and the workplace was also in the hospital. It was still the current hospital that no one had taken over. There were patients everywhere, those sent in from outside, those wailing inside, and it was a mess. He was very upset.
但那個夢裏，他實在是太忙了，忙中出錯，一不小心摔了一跤，平地摔，頭朝下，整個人都順着剛剛被水擦幹淨的地板磚，飛了出去，衣服貼在地上，被水打濕了，他撞上了不知道什麽堅硬的東西，砰的一聲，整個人就吓得暈倒了。
他以為自己是暈倒了，沒想到，在夢中閉上眼睛，在現實之中，睜開了眼睛。
來來去去，還是這間醫院，還是這份工作，連身上的白大褂都沒兩樣，這就簡直了。
無話可說。
右邊醫生可以保證，他雖然喜歡醫學，覺得當醫生不錯，但那都是在真正當醫生之前，尤其是當這個醫院的醫生之前，更重要的事情是，之前這個醫院還不是被抛棄的，頭上還是有人在負責各種事項的，那個時候就忙得不得了，他每天睜開眼睛都覺得自己像被抽了一鞭子。
陀螺不就是這樣嗎？被抽一鞭子，很響亮的啪的一聲，然後就開始一刻不停地到處亂轉。
雖然他也不喜歡到處亂轉，也不喜歡整天工作，但是，之前他可以對自己說，還有希望，總有一天是要退休的，還有機會，也許可以交換到其他醫院去呢？現在就不行了。沒有希望了。沒有往上的可能了。沒有到其他醫院的可能了。因為他在這裏，已經寸步難行了。
如果這裏的事情爆出去，整個醫院的人都會受到影響，他都不能說自己是受到牽連，因為他是首當其沖，別人會問他，你在那邊工作多久了？你之前沒有發現問題嗎？你發現問題都不解決嗎？如果沒有發現，是不是過于遲鈍了？還是你早就知道卻在裝樣子？
都不是什麽好話。
想來離開這裏，也不會有好事發生。
不管怎麽說，他心裏，總有些隐隐作痛，好像他的良心在譴責他。
但是他有什麽辦法呢？
這也不能怪他，至少，不能完全怪他。
大家都很理解他，或者，表面上被迫地理解了他。
有什麽用處呢？
事情沒有因此變得好起來森*晚*整*理。
反而因為這個傳染病人，醫院變得更糟糕了。
不說醫院內部的事情傳出去，就說這個病人的事情在醫院裏面傳播到大部分人都知道的時候，就是人心惶惶的時候，明天是否還有人過來，或許是既定的，但明天這個醫院還能不能繼續開門營業下去，那就未必了。
右邊醫生的臉色非常難看，好像下一刻就要昏倒，說起來，他已經工作很久了，十二個小時沒有休息，而工作時間，遠遠不止十二個小時。
天色已經很黑了。
醫院被黑暗籠罩，仿佛下一刻就要沉沒在永無止境的黑暗之中。
三人面對面沉默。
年長護士看着右邊醫生的臉色，突然覺得對方跟自己是同病相憐，好不到哪裏去。
誰能過得多麽好呢？
在這個醫院裏面，大家的工作時間都拉滿了，上頭有人就被訓斥，上頭沒人就被抛棄。
能好到哪裏去呢？
年長護士想到這裏，笑了：“好吧。我知道你們的意思了。我可以暫時不說出去，但這件事，也必須要處理才可以。你們知道吧？”
左邊醫生看向右邊醫生，右邊醫生笑道：“怎麽不知道呢？”
他的臉色極其蒼白，唇色也是，蠕動嘴唇說話的時候，看起來幾乎像一張白紙貼在頭上被微風拂動，聲音是輕微且虛弱的，語氣卻有點詭異：“明天，不，現在已經過了午夜十二點了，那就是今天，今天白天，我就把這件事說出去。”
他說話的時候，側頭看了一眼窗外，窗外的秋千還在黑暗之中搖搖晃晃，繩子握着杠杆，發出嘎吱吱的聲音，令人十分煩躁，右邊醫生深吸一口氣，勉強在臉上露出一個正常的微笑，平時他這樣笑都像是游刃有餘，但現在就不是了，看起來是苦苦支撐的模樣。
“等天亮之後吧。”
右邊醫生繞過年長護士，走了出去，離開了房間，背對着二人說：“等天完全亮起來，過來換班的醫生會接替我，我會交接工作，會離開這個醫院，也會把傳染病人的事情說出去，把這裏的其他事情都說出去。”
不出意外，如果那樣做了，他就沒有下半輩子了。因為其他醫院不會想要一個背刺本來醫院的員工。更何況，有些人越是身居高位，越是十分迷信，因為迷信，想到一個員工離開了倒閉的醫院，他們不會認為這是正常情況，他們只會認為，這個員工十分晦氣，會讓公司倒閉。
他們不會願意接受他。
如果考慮到身體健康的情況，有些醫院為了員工安全和醫院信譽，是不會想接收一個近距離接觸過新型傳染病病人的醫生的。尤其是這個醫生看起來平平無奇，沒有強大的技術，沒有特殊的能力，沒有人脈關系，也沒有了不起的父母親戚。
他們看見他，會想，不過如此嘛，這樣的人，完全沒有必要收下，如果收下了，只會給自己惹麻煩，與其給自己惹麻煩，希望得到的人能爆發出更大的用處，不如直接拒絕，這樣省事省力省時，豈不是兩全其美？
醫生之所以知道這個，是因為他在找到這個醫院的工作之前，也被拒絕過很多次，而拒絕的理由千奇百怪，他忘記了很多不重要的東西，被拒絕的感覺卻沒有忘記，這就成了他痛苦的原因之一。
右邊醫生豈止是沒有希望，完全是前途一片暗淡。
他不能往上爬，他連繼續活下去的可能都約等于零。
他不是很想再掙紮了，太累了。
等到今天白天，他就離開這裏，做完自己答應的應該做的事情之後，就不想再工作了。
一個不想工作的人，是找不到工作的。
右邊醫生低着頭往前走。
他要在這裏繼續工作到天亮，真是想一想都覺得好悲慘。
他不打算繼續說什麽了。
年長護士就看着他走遠了。
左邊醫生想拉住右邊醫生說點什麽，又覺得自己的安慰能力并不怎麽樣，與其把人拉住浪費時間，倒不如希望時間能開解右邊醫生。
左邊醫生猶豫之後就沒有說話，站在原地看着右邊醫生走出去了，他也打算離開這裏，免得真的被裏面的傳染病人傳染到，但是他臨走之前看了一眼身邊的年長護士，護士不知道是不是年紀大了不怎麽願意動彈，站在這裏仿佛要等他們都走了才肯往前一步。
左邊醫生莫名不怎麽喜歡這個年長護士，看了一眼就迅速走開了，仿佛看見的不是一個人，而是一只讨厭的大蜘蛛。
年長護士呆呆站在房間門口，臉上漸漸露出笑容，看起來有點詭異，但不知道她自己是否意識到了這一點，她慢慢轉過身去，好像要走，但又沒有走，又過了一小會兒，門裏面傳出了聲音，而房間裏面沒有人，只有那具被送來的傳染病人的屍體。
年長護士好像猛地回過神來了，她一下子轉過頭去，看向房間，只能看見近在咫尺的門，臉上還是挂着笑容，但笑容有所變化，如果說之前她的笑容是有些呆滞的，像是沒有反應過來就被自己欺騙了，現在的笑容就是又驚又喜又有些恐懼的成分，瞪大了眼睛，像是想看。
年長護士果然把手放在了門把手上，她這個樣子分明是想打開這扇門，将裏面的東西放出來。
不管裏面是傳染病人的屍體，還是護士長的屍體，又或者，是其他什麽東西。
她都樂意把裏面的東西放出來。
她現在已經不能算正常人了，她也已經被感染了，從她被護士長的綠色粘稠液體撲了滿頭滿臉開始，她就屬于近距離接觸傳染病人而被感染的類型之一了。
她不是沒有反應過來，她是不想接受現實，因此一直在努力麻痹自己，希望自己能達到自欺欺人的程度，就算沒法騙過別人，只騙過自己也可以，讓自己不要被傳染，讓自己不要太難過，讓自己不要完全接受這種悲慘的命運。
随便怎麽樣，只要有一個能成，也算不是白白欺騙了自己。
但是，現在的情況來看，很可惜，年長護士就是一個都沒成。
她有點崩潰了，不過從臉上是看不出來的，因為她的臉上挂着和之前看着她的護士長流出膿液之前露出的，一模一樣的笑容。
只是看年長護士臉上的微笑，甚至會讓人覺得她有點開心。
但事實當然是截然不同且完全相反的。
年長護士在門口笑了起來，她的聲音很大，而且很刺耳，她之前說話的時候都沒有這樣，這大概是被感染之後的變化的一部分。
她笑着笑着，一下子打開了這個房間的門，并砰的一聲躺在了地板上，地板是很硬的，她就那麽不反應不防護地直挺挺躺在地上，看起來很冷，身體在微微顫抖，五官之中都往外流出了綠色的液體，而很快，打開的門內走出了渾身上下已經看不出本來面目的屍體。
這屍體就是被人送來的傳染病人。
說起來，這個人被送到門口的時候都沒有斷氣，是被左邊醫生右邊醫生和救護車司機兩撥人不約而同分別抛棄之後，才慢慢躺在床上失去了呼吸，再完全死去的。
死了之後，它就起來了，完全看不出來，之前快要死了的時候，那種虛弱無力可憐巴巴的樣子，它并不記得自己之前的無助，也算是一件好事，但它這樣行動自如，越發說明了一件事，那就是被傳染病感染之後的人和被感染之前，完全是兩個人。
被感染之前，內裏皮膚之下肌肉和器官，感染之後，內裏就是一堆綠色的粘稠膿液。
被感染之前，臉上幾乎沒有笑容，感染之後，臉頰上的微笑是撕扯不下來的面具。
被感染之前，行動正常，舉止平凡，被感染之後，會遵循執念做出不可挽回的事情，看起來尤為詭異，十分偏執，完全不能用常理揣度。
事情就是這樣。
傳染病人一下子跳了起來，順着牆面，爬到了樓上，它找到了護士長的屍體。
護士長的屍體一開始躺在床上，一動不動，等人走了之後，就開始活動，首先是睜開眼睛，轉動眼珠，确認周圍的情況，其次是臉頰上露出不可拆卸的微笑，然後擡起手來，慢慢将不知道是保護誰的透明薄膜一點點用手指尖戳破，破掉了的薄膜一點用處也沒有。
護士長就兩只手用力，慢慢才床上坐了起來，行為古怪詭異，動作遲緩而刻意，骨骼發出咔吧咔吧的聲音，肌肉也分外僵硬，臉上一點點往下流出綠色的液體，滴落在身上的白大褂表面，給白色染出了一點綠意。
她這個樣子，看起來好像速度不怎麽樣，但她坐起來之後，行動的速度格外不錯，行動軌跡也十分難以捉摸，因為她順着牆爬到了天花板上，居高臨下地盯着下方空蕩蕩的地板。
就算這裏沒有人，她也暫時不打算出去，她覺得自己需要休息，她大概要在這裏待一段時間了。
樓下上來的傳染病人擡頭看見了護士長，它們對視一眼就算是打過招呼了，一起躲藏了起來。
底下，躺在地板表面反複顫抖的年長護士，一點點扶着牆站了起來，挂着臉上的微笑，一點點往前走，走到了一個背對着房間的小護士的門口。
年長護士扶着牆，挪動着走了進去。
背對着門的小護士被驚動了，啊了一聲，連忙轉過身來，将兩只手都藏在了背後，好像手裏有什麽東西是見不得人的，所以很怕被外面的人發現，她以為路過的人是個病人來找人幫忙的，沒想到定睛一看是個年長的護士，瞪大了眼睛，倒吸一口涼氣。
小護士的心髒怦怦亂跳，年長護士的目光慢條斯理地打量她，發現她的年紀确實不大，穿着一身白大褂，看起來更加幼稚新嫩，樂園和鐘仁蹲在高處，樂園湊到鐘仁耳邊，偷偷說：“那個眼神看起來像是在打量不成熟的獵物。”
雖然沒成熟的蘋果或許不好吃，但是蘋果也分紅蘋果和青蘋果，誰說都不好吃呢？
年長護士顯然是這麽想的，她的食譜此時非常兼容，她的目光落在了小護士的胳膊上，她在這裏看見了皮膚上的血液。
小護士順着年長護士的目光看見了自己胳膊上的針眼和血液，連忙伸手捂住，可就是這麽一擋，她一下子把手裏的東西放在了身前，叫年長護士看見了。
年長護士的笑容不知道怎麽的，叫小護士看出一點微妙的意思來，小護士連忙站起來，往前走了兩步，像是迫不及待要逃跑，她意識到自己的行為不太正常，連忙止住腳步，低着頭，避開了年長護士的目光，解釋說：“我、我只是在練習紮針而已，沒有其他的事情！”
年長護士點了點頭：“原來是這樣。”
小護士看了年長護士一眼，沒看出來什麽，她本來以為年長護士會訓斥她浪費資源或者浪費時間在這裏偷懶躲着不工作之類的，沒想到沒有被罵，有些驚訝地睜大了眼睛：“您、您不怪我嗎？”
年長護士依舊笑道：“沒有。沒有什麽可以怪的地方。”
小護士将信将疑地點了點頭。
她将手裏的針筒握住，對年長護士點頭說：“那我就出去工作了？”
年長護士點頭。
小護士從年長護士身邊挪出去，飛快地不見了，就像是泥鳅進入了海水裏，一時間居然找不出來白大褂在黑暗之中的存在痕跡。
年長護士站在房間門口的附近，探頭往外看，笑吟吟的，沒有動彈。
小護士捏着針筒，心裏格外忐忑不安，雖然知道作為護士練習紮針技術是正常的，但是偷偷用醫院的東西給自己練習被資格老的前輩同事抓包這種事，還是很值得羞愧的，她越想越是覺得窘迫，走在路上就漲紅了臉，一邊往外走，一邊拍打臉頰喃喃自語：“沒關系。”
小護士低聲說：“沒關系的，我又不是在偷偷摸摸做什麽違反的事情，就算被看見了，也不是我故意要給人看見的，這不能怪我，我是在努力練習工作能力，這是應該的，誰不願意自己技術好呢？我也不想那麽糟糕，可是沒有天賦實在是沒有辦法，世上的事情都是這樣……”
她說着，一路走到了一個病房門口，她就不再說話，走了進去，準備給病人檢查。
這麽過了兩個病房，小護士走到了熟悉的病人門口，卻突然有點膽怯，她感覺自己在微微發抖，這可不行，作為一個護士，這是不應該的。
小護士不敢進去了，她扶着牆，走到旁邊的黑暗之中，緩緩抱着膝蓋蹲下來，深呼吸，試圖調整情緒和身體狀況，卻突然想到了之前被另外一個同事前輩訓斥的事情，一時間沒有控制住情緒，頓時淚如雨下，既然都哭出來了，她也不努力忍着眼淚了，表情扭曲大哭起來。
“嗚嗚嗚——嗚嗚嗚——為什麽倒黴的人總是我？為什麽被發現了一次又一次？別人都不需要這樣練習，我卻要反複練習，究竟為什麽？我的天賦就那麽差嗎？我的努力就那麽微不足道嗎？我的艱難困苦在別人眼裏就是那麽不值一提的東西嗎？為什麽啊！
我不願意一輩子都是這樣，我不願意只是當一個小護士，我也想上進，我也想要天賦，我也想要更多的時間私下去練習啊。
可是，已經一個月都沒有放過完整的假期了，我每天到了床邊上都只想睡覺，因為如果不睡覺，我完全不能做其他的事情，到了醫院就是工作，繼續工作，加班工作，為了新的病人而工作，我就不能有一點自己的時間嗎？
我可以每天為了工作做各種各樣的事情，我可以加班，我可以努力，我可以用自己的身體和自己的錢外出離開醫院在私下練習打針的技術，可是，誰給我這樣的機會了？誰給我時間了？我又不是一天三十六小時，我能怎麽樣呢？
我已經為了工作花費了十二個小時以上，白天晚上都在工作，夢裏也在工作，別人問起話來我都說不出工作之外的事情，這些全都怪我嗎？
家裏已經打了好多個電話要我回家去看親戚要我跟他們過節還要我陪他們吃飯一起出去玩，我哪裏有時間呢？我全都拒絕了，他們還告訴我，不那麽努力也沒關系，難道我現在做的一切事情都是有錯嗎？
努力是我的錯，努力不成功是我的錯，不努力還是我的錯，什麽都是我的錯，我就錯到這個地步嗎？為什麽啊！
怎麽都怪到我的頭上來了？難道我沒有天賦是因為我想沒有天賦嗎？如果有機會可以選擇，我恨不得把自己的天賦變成滿級！
要是我有那種看一眼就可以學會所有東西的天賦能力就好了，可是我沒有啊，我沒有，為什麽別人就可以？他們就比我好那麽多？他們什麽都有，有錢，有職位，有工齡，有技術，還被人重視……”
小護士哭了不知道多久，她感覺是哭了大半天，實際上沒一小會兒，她就緊張地抹了一把臉，站了起來，臉上的眼淚被她迅速擦掉了。
雖然不是擦完了就看不出來的狀态，但反正現在還在這個醫院裏面的人都累得不行，要死不活的，誰也不會特別去關注別人的狀态，這也不是不能遮掩一二之後就當沒事發生。
The young nurse's heart was pounding. She nervously put on her clothes and walked into the room that had been waiting for her for a long time.
She took deep breaths continuously and walked to a bedside where a burn patient was lying. Bandages were wrapped all over his body, his breathing was labored and rapid, his eyes were open but lifeless, and he was in a state of being unable to live or die. He noticed the young nurse coming, but did not even move his eyes. He did not want to look to the side, because the more he looked, the more uncomfortable he would feel.
He was already feeling very uncomfortable now, and he didn't want to feel any worse.
If he had not been burned into this motionless state, he could not even imagine that he might lie in bed all day, unable to do anything, even breathing would be extremely difficult.