Chapter 211: Because of Love
"What are you thinking about?"
Xu Jiangcuo's words broke the silence in the car.
Song Lehan turned around and said, "I was wondering what was written in this letter?"
She lowered her head, stared at the brown envelope in her hand, and sighed softly.
"I can't imagine what my mother would tell me before she decides to die."
Following Song Lehan's gaze, Xu Jiangcuo also looked at the letter.
Like Song Lehan, he couldn't guess what was inside the letter. But he also had a vague feeling that the contents of the letter would be more effective than the persuasion of an outsider.
Maybe after reading this letter, Song Lehan will feel less upset.
Return to the villa.
Song Lehan first drank a glass of warm water, said something to Xu Jiangcuo, and then went upstairs with the letter.
She wanted to read the letter alone.
Song Lehan sat on the edge of the bed, clutching the letter tightly in her hand. She waited for a long time but did not take the next step.
It’s not that I don’t want to watch it, it’s that I don’t dare to watch it.
After preparing for a long time, Song Lehan took a deep breath and opened the envelope.
As soon as she saw the first two words, her eyes began to moisten.
【Baby Lele:
It's been a long time since I called you that.
Mom doesn't know when you'll see this letter, but I know that by the time you do, your dad and I will be gone. Please don't blame Mom for this decision, and don't feel sad for Mom and Dad.
Mom is really a little tired.
I've taken care of your dad for so many years, and even though I've often told him to persevere and wait until he wakes up, I see no hope. I'm even feeling a little hopeless. I can't make the decision to give up, but I can't accept just wasting time.
You keep wasting time and energy, and your wonderful life is almost wasted.
Today, when you came to see me, I was really happy. I thought you really had a boyfriend, and that nothing was wrong, as you said. But I heard your conversation with him at the elevator.
Lele, I never imagined that one day your father and I would become a burden to you. It turns out you've sacrificed so much behind the scenes, unbeknownst to me. I only knew you were busy at work every day, but I had no idea just how busy you were, or how much you silently endured.
Mom is so sorry. Ever since your father's accident, my daughter hasn't seemed as happy as she once was. As a mother, I actually didn't notice. I really shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry, Lele, my daughter. Please forgive my negligence.
As I write this, I wonder, if I had cared more about you, asked more about your recent situation, would you have tried to talk to me more, to tell me about the choices you were unsure about? Would we have had another way to live?
But life cannot be repeated.
Mom hopes that in the days ahead, you'll be able to live your own life. This isn't just my hope, it's your dad's too. When we gave birth to you, we wanted you to experience the beauty of this world and live your own life.
But, for us, we carry the burden forward.
Life is hard enough, and I don’t want my baby Lele to have such a hard time.
Lele, don't cry. Mommy isn't sad or heartbroken at all for doing this. The thought of death brings only relief.
Your father and I have been bound by illness for half our lives, and it's time to be free.
Lele, don't blame yourself. Mom and Dad were very happy when they left.
Mommy has a lot more to say to you, but I feel like there’s nothing left to say.
Let’s stop here.
Finally, let me ask you one last question: if there is an afterlife, if you are still my daughter, I will definitely let you live a happy life.
After reading to the end, Song Lehan carefully folded the letter and put it back into the envelope.
When she put the letter into the envelope, she found something else inside.
Song Lehan held back her tears and took it out. It was a hairpin.
It's her hairpin.
Song Lehan held the hairpin and understood everything in an instant.
She remembered this hairpin very clearly. She had put it on the day she and Jiang Yue went to the hospital.
Before entering the hospital, Song Lehan checked her hair and found it a little messy. So Jiang Yue took a few hairpins from the car and gave them to her.
There were several, and she didn't realize that one had fallen off.
So, it was her mother who saw the fallen hairpin and then chased after her to the elevator.
By accident, I heard what Jiang Yue said.
It was also because of this that her mother learned about the relationship between Jiang Yue and herself.
Zhang Zhiya felt that if it weren't for them, Song Lehan would not be forced by Jiang Yue to be with him.
She felt that her daughter had been wronged.
And this grievance was brought by them.
That's why she chose to end it all.
Song Lehan clenched the hairpin tightly in her hand, squeezing it harder and harder, as if she wanted to poke a hole in her palm.
"Mom, why are you..." doing this?
The answer is obvious, because of love.
Zhang Zhiya loves her daughter, so she is willing to die for her daughter.
Song Lehan loves her parents, so she is willing to compromise with Jiang Yue for her parents.
Love makes them consider each other.
Song Lehan felt really uncomfortable.
She would rather her mother didn't love her so much.
She would rather...
Song Lehan sobbed, tears streaming down her face. Carefully, she placed the letter in its envelope. Smoothing out the wrinkles, she placed the letter neatly on the bedside table.
After doing all this, Song Lehan sat on the floor, hugged her legs, and leaned against the bed.
She looked ahead with empty eyes, letting the tears flow.
Let her cry for a while.
It only takes a little while.
For Song Lehan, the letter from her mother was more like a thought.
At least, in the future, her longing will have a tangible object to place her trust in.
Song Lehan cried for a short while before she calmed down.
Compared to when she first found out yesterday, she felt much more relaxed now.
Song Lehan went to the bathroom to wash her face, then looked up at herself in the mirror. Her mind was in a mess, and she just stared at herself in a daze.
Not long after, Xu Jiangcuo's voice came from outside the door.
"Lele, are you in there?"
When Xu Jiangcuo heard no sound, he knocked twice more, his tone becoming more urgent. "Le Le, what are you doing in there?"
The less people spoke, the more flustered he became.
Just as he was about to rush in, Song Lehan opened the door.
Before she could say anything, Xu Jiangcuo took her hand and examined it carefully, then he was completely relieved.
He hugged Song Lehan tightly, with fear still lingering in his eyes.
"I was scared to death just now. Don't do anything stupid. I can't live without you."
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