Chapter 120 Chapter 120 "Crazy, let me go!"...
Someone held her waist, and she leaned back in his arms. He pressed her head down, forcing her to raise her head and bear it. Not only were their lips sticking together, but their tongues were also entwined and sucking fiercely, down, down, down. His breaths, heavier and heavier, sprayed into her nose.
It was a fierce kiss, and it was hard to tell whether it was out of longing or revenge.
I haven't had a kiss in five years. It's all her fault. It's all her fault.
He sucked her lips while twisting her tongue around, his hand pressing the back of her head to force her up to meet him, panting:
"Say you love me. Or not?!"
How could she have the time to speak? He was kissing her so fiercely that he had no intention of letting her speak at all.
He suddenly held the dagger across her neck. The blade was soaked in hot spring water, leaving a thin warm line. She suddenly remembered that the first time she met Gu Huaijin, it was Wu Dao who held the knife across her neck in a pretentious manner, and it was Gu Huaijin who saved her from him.
He used to be such a gentle gentleman, but now, he was forcing her to kiss him with a knife at his fingertips.
"Speak!" He spat out a word and kissed her lips. The blade was at her neck, cutting off a few strands of her hair. "Are you going to tell me or not? I'm asking you!"
She bit his lip angrily.
Gu Huaijin felt pain, but refused to let go. He pushed her to the edge of the pool, kissed her all the way down her chin, and bit her neck, leaving a circle of teeth marks with hatred.
She tilted her neck back and hissed, "Madman!"
He didn't answer, but kissed the side of her neck, biting off a bit of tender flesh - he still remembered that she couldn't stand being kissed on the neck, and would obey if her neck was kissed.
"Speak or not!"
"Madman, madman, madman!" She raised her head and sobbed softly, cursing with red eyes, "Let me go!"
He lowered his head and bit her collarbone again, leaving a bloody mark on her thin skin. Soaking in the water, it stung. (Review. Can't even write about collarbone?)
Gu Huaijin ignored him and rubbed her neck with his thumb. His fingerprints scraped against her skin. Her hands were cuffed together, and she couldn't struggle. Like a bird, she instinctively chirped, and her head tinnitus rang.
Is he crazy today?
Never mind, he has been abnormal for a long time.
What about her?
"What are you doing, Gu Huaijin?" She called him by his full name, her voice so soft she couldn't believe it. "Aren't you here to interrogate me? To torture me?"
"Torture is bullshit." He laughed breathlessly. "Nothing is working, and you're crying like this. You're just talking big."
"Say you love me." He pushed and pinched her with his hands, but suddenly raised his eyes to look at her.
Her eyelashes were wet, and her eye circles were as red as dying peach blossoms. Two or three thin red blood vessels on her eyelids were like a broken white porcelain bottle, with blood oozing from the cracks.
How pitiful!
He pressed her to answer, but before she could get anything out of him, he felt sorry for her, even though she herself hadn't given in yet.
That ribbon should not have been taken off.
He tilted his face to kiss her lips and pushed her to the edge of the pool: "Say, say you love me."
"I love you." She raised her red eyes.
His hand movements paused for a moment.
She had always been tough on him, and he had never expected that it would be so easy to hear these words.
"But," she said with a touch of sad irony, "do you know who I am?"
Gu Huaijin was stunned.
"My temperament? My preferences? My past? Who have I met? Who have I lost? What have I done?"
"My habits? My ideals? My wishes? My principles? My friends and sisters? Or, most simply—"
She spoke softly:
"—my name?"
Gu Huaijin grabbed her shoulders and looked at her intently without saying a word.
"Have you ever known me? Do you know me?"
Her hands were tied, but she took a step forward, pressing herself under his chin. She raised her head, and though her black eyes were sad, they were clear and bright, no longer as misty as they had been on the Tianshan Mountains before. She smiled with her eyes curved:
"Look carefully, I'm not Chu Jiaojiao."
A tear fell from the corner of her eye, but she suddenly became cheerful, and each word was as clear as pearls falling on a plate:
"I'm not her."
"I tell you plainly, I am not her."
"After the Qiqiao Night in the forbidden land of Lan Pavilion that year, there was no Chu Jiaojiao in the world anymore. She died at the foot of Hanxue Peak."
Gu Huaijin started to tremble.
"I just look a bit like your old friend. If you want to remember him, go to the foot of Hanxue Peak. If you can't find the body, build a cenotaph for him. Don't come here to disturb others. I don't have the time to play the game of reconciliation with you. You can just grieve for your delicate, weak, and pitiful old friend at night. As for me—"
She said, laughing lightly and shaking her head:
"I have nothing to be pitied."
Gu Huaijin looked at her beautiful eyes, which were like those of a trapped beast in a cage.
A determined and self-tortured person.
He didn't know if it was because he loved her—
Her harsh words made her look even more pitiful.
"Why," he began slowly, "do you think I love you just because of your pitiful attitude in the past?"
Nan Qiong Shuang was stunned for a moment.
"When Huide punished me by forcing me to enter a state of meditation under a waterfall, wasn't it you who came to pick me up? When I was infected with the centipede poison, wasn't it you who accompanied me to treat my injuries? When I was lashed with seventy lashes, wasn't it you who ignored the prohibitions and applied medicine to me? Back in the Bodhi Pavilion, when Sect Leader Heng wanted to touch you and I refused, Huide smashed a cup on my head. It was you who almost stood up and volunteered to take the punishment, wasn't it you?!"
She shed a tear with every word he said, but she stubbornly said, "I acted all this out. I need you to be moved."
"It's an act." He sneered, too angry to know what to say. "Okay, okay. It's an act."
"Then let me ask you," he grabbed her arms on both sides and suddenly pushed her to the edge of the pool, forcing her to raise her long eyelashes and look directly into his eyes, which were surprisingly bright:
"Back then, after you killed me, you came in to retrieve the Mountain Guarding Jade Plate. Why did you tearfully tell me to 'love yourself'?!"
Her heart rumbled.
But he put on an indifferent attitude and smiled with tears in his eyes: "I feel guilty and say those big words."
"Big talk."
Gu Huaijin laughed, nodding repeatedly as he did so. After a while, he slapped the water with his palm. With a thunderous sound, she shrank back in his arms in fear. The hot spring water in the pool suddenly exploded like a tidal wave and flew up to the ceiling. The entire pool was immediately filled with a torrential downpour of hot rain. He hugged her and said,
"Then let me ask you, what's the deal with the peace card?!"
"What peace amulet?" Her eyelashes were wet.
"The peace plaque in front of Famen Temple!" he roared. "That day you fell down the waterfall and disappeared without a trace. I ordered the entire mountain to search for you, but there was no trace. Finally, there was a fire on the mountain, and I found you inside Famen Temple. That's when you wrote the peace plaque!"
"How do you know I wrote it?"
"Your handwriting!" He pushed his palm into the pool again, and the hot spring water roared out of the pool like a tsunami, hitting the wall and causing the beams to shake slightly.
"How do you know it was that time?"
"There are black marks from the wildfire!" He almost screamed, his arms wrapped around her waist resentfully, his thumbs rubbing back and forth. "You still won't admit it?"
Her hands were tied, and she pressed against his waist and abdomen, grabbing his clothes: "I wrote this nonsense."
"Is it nonsense?!" Two lines of bright red blood suddenly burst out from his eyes, and in an instant they hung down to his chin and dripped onto her snow-white collar.
"There was a huge fire on the mountain, and everyone was fleeing. Even foxes and monkeys were running to the foot of the mountain. You were all alone, hiding in the mountain temple, and for some inexplicable reason, you refused to run away. I don't know what was wrong with you, but you were writing a peace card for me! Not only did you say peace for a lifetime, you even wrote a happy marriage for me—" He laughed through gritted teeth, "Writing nonsense?! You're really crazy!"
"'Gu Huaijin, may you have a peaceful life', 'Gu Huaijin, may you have a peaceful life', you wrote two signs like this for me—"
"You were in a wildfire, and you still wished me a peaceful life—but in the end, you were the one who stabbed me with that sword! I have no idea what you were thinking!"
She was speechless, her whole body shaking uncontrollably, and she didn't look at him.
"Those two peace amulets, when did you ever tell me about them?! If I hadn't gone to Famen Temple myself later, how would I have known you wrote this for me?! Could this have been staged?! You acted it out and didn't tell me!?"
She closed her eyes exhaustedly and let out a long breath. She couldn't tell whether the water on her face was tears or hot spring water falling from the ceiling.
"I ask you! Why did you kill me and steal the Mountain Guarding Jade Plate?" He choked up when talking about his sect, "and then wish me a peaceful life? You didn't even know how to escape a mountain fire!"
Because, when the wildfire broke out, she could have taken advantage of the chaos to get out of the mountain. She could have escaped this curse that was detrimental to both sides, and from then on they would be separated and never see each other again.
"It was an act," she said, raising her eyes, which were as hard as ice. "You don't know me. I never loved you. It was all an act. Don't think too much about it."
Gu Huaijin was almost choking on his breath.
"Okay, okay, okay. You're really tougher than a bone!"
He suddenly choked and coughed, and blood foam spurted out of his mouth, splashing on her white clothes. He turned his head away and covered his lips with his hands and coughed uncontrollably for a while. Finally, he rinsed the blood off his chin with water. "Then I have one last question for you."
Nan Qiongshuang watched anxiously as the diluted blood swirled in the pool.
Gu Huaijin grabbed her arms and forced her to look up at him seriously.
Blood foam was still oozing out of his mouth.
"Why don't we just forget about it today..." She finally began to coax him softly.
"I ask you," he ignored, swallowing the newly-flowing blood, extreme, stubborn, and aggressive:
"You really don't know where my heart is?"
Nan Qiong Shuang paused suddenly.
"They knew something similar had happened in Tianshan, and that Tianshan would detest such people and such things from then on, yet they still had the nerve to send you. I suppose you're well-known in your place."
"A spy who, despite knowing there's a tiger lurking in the mountains, is still given high hopes and sent to catch it."
"For so many days, we slept together day and night, leaning on each other and talking all day long. Was there ever a single night when I didn't sleep in your arms?!"
"—You tell me you don't know my heart is on the right side?!"
Nan Qiongshuang suddenly drooped her eyelashes and closed her eyes tightly.
"You didn't kill him, it wasn't a mistake."
His voice suddenly softened.
His hand lovingly rested on her neck, his thumb gently scratching the tip of her chin, caressing it lovingly, his voice as soft as a whisper:
"You're just letting me go."
She pursed her lips tightly and began to tremble as if in convulsion. Huge tears rolled out from between her eyelashes and fell to the ground.
She lowered her head.
Gu Huaijin lowered his head, letting her forehead rest on his chest. He put his hand on her lower back, scratching her with his thumb.
"So, you just love me. Admit it."
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