Xia Xi knew that lying in front of Xu Guanshan was useless, as he could see through people's hearts. She also had no intention of fooling him with lies. The most direct and effective way of communication was to be honest.
"When I made that promise to you, I really didn't think about having a future with him." Xia Xi put away her leisurely look and said seriously, "You know how tragic our separation was. How could I dare to hope for a future with him?"
Xu Guanshan drank his tea, his eyes like sharp arrows, shooting straight at her: "Then tell me, what are you doing now?"
Xia Xi felt the air conditioning in the study was unusually low, and her body temperature was slowly draining away. She spoke calmly, "I can't help feeling things. I've tried all sorts of ways to push him away, but I found that only hurt him more. I've hurt him so badly before, and I can't bear to torture him again. And I myself..." She laughed self-deprecatingly, "I still have feelings for him, so I gave in."
After saying that, she smiled again.
She is so stupid.
How could I talk about feelings with Xu Guanshan?
Does he understand?
If he understood feelings, he would not have forced her to make a choice, and he would not have asked her to hurt Xu Yanfeng in that way just to make him give up on her.
Xia Xi took a deep breath, placed his right hand on his left arm, and looked at Xu Guanshan: "I'm sorry, Chairman, I violated the agreement between us. But, having come this far, I will not back down."
Xu Guanshan was caught off guard by her words. She admitted it too frankly.
It's like saying, I failed to keep my promise, but now that it's done, you can decide what to do with me.
Xu Guanshan's brows were dark, and the anger he felt at being deceived and fooled was not diminished in the slightest by her frankness: "Xu Yanfeng knows what happened back then..."
"He doesn't know." Xia Xi said anxiously, understanding what Xu Guanshan was worried about. "He knows nothing."
Two seconds later, she realized that this was too absolute and changed her words: "He only knows that the story of me betraying him was fake, but he doesn't know that the whole thing was your doing. I still have some morals."
Xu Yanfeng had doubts in his heart. He guessed that there was something else behind this matter and asked her about it. She was unwilling to say. He chose to respect her privacy, gave her enough space, never pressed her, and did not embarrass her.
Thinking of him, Xia Xi raised the corners of her lips. He was just so good that he always made her feel soft-hearted and distressed, and she couldn't bear to treat him badly.
"The part he knew was not revealed by me. It was the truth he discovered on his own." Xia Xi said, "You may not know that before he learned the truth, he was still willing to be with me."
Before he knew the betrayal was fake, he had already decided to win her back.
How could a man like him pursue someone? The methods he used were so clumsy that they were laughable. They were just what he heard from friends and learned from some fancy books.
How could she bear to push away Xu Yanfeng again and again when he was like this?
She should be thankful that she met such a man in her lifetime.
I should also be thankful that I was young and ignorant at the time, and that I pestered him persistently and didn't give up halfway.
"Why didn't you tell him that I forced you to do it?" Xu Guanshan asked.
"First of all, we had an agreement. I got the benefits, so there's no reason for me to go back on my word and put you in an unfair position. Getting back together with him is already a violation of that agreement. As I just said, I'm not completely without moral integrity." Xia Xi spoke slowly. "Secondly, I don't want his relationship to cause a break between him and his elders. I choose to let bygones be bygones."
Xu Guanshan remained silent.
Indeed, if Xu Yanfeng knew that he was the one behind the events of that year, he would not be able to resist coming to question him.
The sunlight outside the window grew stronger, and the strips of light cast on the floor became clearer and brighter, almost blinding. Xu Guanshan glanced at the wall clock and calculated the time. Xu Yanfeng would be back soon.
"You don't hate me?"
Xu Guanshan looked at Xia Xi, whose expression was extremely calm. At this moment, he couldn't see through this woman.
"Of course I hated you at first, so much so that I cursed you several times a day. But later, as I experienced more, I stopped hating you." Xia Xi shook her head, a relieved smile on her face. "On another level, I have to thank you. Over the years, I've heard of stories of lovers being forced to part ways, and they usually end up breaking up and getting nothing. But at least you sent me abroad to study, and you solved my family's problems, leaving me with no worries. Even though you cheated me out of some things, I also gained something. There's nothing to be resentful of."
After a pause, Xia Xi turned her head to look out the window. The sunlight danced on the emerald green bamboo leaves. She said in a leisurely voice, "If I had insisted on staying with Xu Yanfeng under those circumstances, I wouldn't dare to say what the outcome would have been. After all, I have a strong sense of self-esteem and I care about my reputation. If I kept relying on him, after a while, I might have felt like a burden, and in the end, I would have been exhausted and ended up in a miserable state."
Perhaps, the situation she described would not happen, and they would be together happily.
But, who knows.
After all, she couldn't foresee what the outcome would be if she chose another path. The only thing she knew was that the way it was now was fine.
Then you shouldn't complain.
People should be content and not want everything.
Xu Guanshan's gaze lingered on Xia Xi's face for a long time, and the silence lasted for a long time. He only had one last question: "What's going on with that child? Is it Xu Yanfeng's?"
Xia Xi was startled and said, "The child is mine."
Hearing this, Xu Guanshan sneered. She was so nervous. Did she think he wanted to snatch the child away?
When Xia Xi left the study, Xu Yanfeng had just arrived home. The door hadn't been closed in time, and the heat from outside rolled in. He could vaguely hear the housekeeper instructing the servants to take the foam box down from the car...
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