0088 Star-Snatching (6)
Many years later, I tried to trace back to the moment when Lingling and I truly parted ways, but when I tried to recall it, I couldn't find a specific time.
Was it because of Shen Yan, whom she longed for, or because of Guan Yue and Guan Kai?
I obsessively wanted to see the source of the hatred she spoke of, and tried to make amends but was repeatedly thwarted. Love and hate are not simple opposites; there is no formula where every bit of hate must be filled with a bit of love.
Perhaps in the beginning, I was too foolish to indulge in this beautiful dream. Such a good person would never stay for me.
When Lingling first mentioned the name "Chen Yan," I didn't pay much attention. At that time, she said he was sick and she was going to visit him at a university in J City. Because she seemed very anxious, and because it was the weekend and it would be difficult to get a taxi, I was worried about her safety, so I secretly called the family driver to take her.
I went to the school with her. Since Lingling couldn't get into the boys' dormitory, we asked the dormitory manager to help call her down.
Perhaps because he was ill, he looked rather pale, but he was still a slender and handsome man. Having grown up with my parents, I developed a habit of observing people. I noticed that he was dressed very simply, perhaps his family wasn't well-off, so he must have worked very hard to get into this school.
But when Lingling cried and threw herself into his arms, I frowned.
I saw the young man whom Lingling called "Brother Chenyan" look down at Lingling, and the smile on his face made me feel inexplicably uncomfortable.
So I interrupted them and said that the driver was still waiting over there, and we should hurry to the hospital.
When Lingling let go of him, I secretly breathed a sigh of relief. Afterwards, I deliberately stood between Lingling and him. Looking back, I felt really awkward at that time. After that incident, Lingling wanted to contact Shenyan a few more times, and I used some methods to keep her by my side.
Another time, I got into a fight with the older students when they took my basketball court. I've never liked to start trouble, but actually, that time Lingling said she wanted to help Chenyan celebrate her birthday, so I deliberately hurt my forehead and ran up to her without even bandaging it. Of course, she didn't go. Of course, I was reprimanded again, but at the time I was still satisfied and felt it was all worth it.
For a time, I even doubted that the heartache in Lingling's eyes when she looked at me was just my imagination, and that it never existed. Otherwise, how could she have forgotten everything later?
When Guan Yue had the accident, I had already returned to B City to study. At that time, Lingling and I were separated, but I still had to go back once every half month or once a month.
I couldn't wait to see Lingling again and again, but it was quite a task to avoid Grandpa's eyes.
Actually, by then Grandpa had already let go of most of my inhibitions. I think perhaps my cousin's situation had troubled him a lot, so he didn't interfere much with my school selection and even seemed to have given up on me. As a result, I lived a somewhat reckless life during that time, until Grandpa specifically asked me to handle the Guan family's affairs. Only then did I realize that it was all just my cleverness, and that I had never avoided Grandpa's watchful eye.
The Wan family has always kept a low profile and rarely interfered in politics. Grandfather taught his children to always act discreetly, but they always treated the Guan family, who had long since left the political arena, as honored guests.
I know that the Guan family has been kind to the Wan family.
As a junior, I am unwilling to know or delve into these matters, nor do I need to.
But since Grandpa gave the order himself, I couldn't disobey.
I had heard a little about Guan Yue's identity before. Guan Fei's suddenly appearing younger brother was also a scandal from many years ago.
I haven't used the name Wanqi Fuze in a long time; I'd forgotten how useful it was. Guan Yue hit someone while drunk in J City, running over their legs on the spot. The other party wanted to file a lawsuit, so I sat down in a tea room filled with the aroma of tea, listening to the people from the provincial government across the street respectfully calling me "Young Master."
Not many people recognize my identity; it seems that most of the people present were personally sent by my grandfather.
I have a bit of a headache right now.
I was thinking about Lingling's upcoming birthday. I hadn't seen her in a long time, and I had finally managed to return to J City, but I had to avoid acquaintances. Little did I expect that the person I had been longing for would suddenly appear before me during our conversation.
Those scenes, when recalled, are still vivid in my mind and cause me heartache.
Later I learned that the person Guan Yue hit was Shen Yan.
At that moment, I didn't know how I felt. But when Lingling looked at me with disgust as if I were an enemy, my blood ran cold.
I stubbornly pulled her into my arms. I didn't know why she, who had said "I like you" after getting drunk that night, didn't even believe me. At that moment, I was filled with rage, especially seeing her struggle and hearing her insults, which drove me almost to madness.
I was incredibly irrational then, and did something that irreparably hurt her. During the meal, she asked me if I was the one who hurt Shen Yan. I almost went crazy; I wanted to strangle her. That kind and gentle woman suddenly became sharp-tongued, and her words pierced my heart like knives and arrows.
She actually asked me if I was the one who hurt Shen Yan?
She actually thought it was me who hurt Shen Yan!
I was being incredibly self-destructive; I replied to her, "That's me."
Since she doesn't believe me, what's the point of explaining?
It was only when I saw the sadness and loss of light in her eyes that I remembered my fear...
I carefully wiped away the bruises on her body that I had injured, and wiped away her tears...
But I discovered that I couldn't wipe it clean...
Her tears fell like a broken string of pearls. My heart ached unbearably, and I bent down to kiss her as she lay unconscious, letting our tears mingle together, like milk and water mingling...
At that moment, all I could think was that I couldn't lose her, I absolutely couldn't!
That star that appeared in my desolate, desert-like life, even if it means taking it from me, I will do everything in my power to seize it...
At this moment, I feel as if she is sand slipping through my fingers, and no matter how hard I try, I cannot hold her back...
(End of Star-Snatching Arc)
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