Love (Part 3)
Leng Yue ran for a long time before finally stopping and bending over to take a few deep breaths. She sighed heavily, squatted down, curled up into a ball, and buried her head in her arms.
Mingri caught up with her and saw Leng Yue squatting on the ground, so he reached out to pull her.
"Lengyue, are you okay?" Mingri pulled her sleeve.
Leng Yue raised her head, frowned, and said softly, "It's okay."
"I'll help you up." Mingri said.
"I can get up by myself." Leng Yue stood up, took a few deep breaths while staggering, walked to the corridor in a trance, sat on the steps of the corridor, leaned against the pillar, frowned and closed his eyes tightly.
Looking at Leng Yue's pale face, Ming Ri couldn't help but persuade her worriedly, "Go back."
Leng Yue shook her head.
Mingri will sit next to Leng Yue and accompany her quietly.
Leng Yue sighed deeply, frowned and closed her eyes, scenes from the past emerged in her mind.
The story of Leng Yue and Shi Qiuyan----
Clip 1: Table tennis court
Leng Yue’s buddy: “This is the handsome girl from my dorm, not bad! Hey, boy, this beauty is better at playing basketball than you!”
Shi Qiuyan looked at her with a smile, his eyes carrying a hint of the innocence of a big boy and the intelligence of an elegant man. Leng Yue smiled back at him and melted into his eyes.
Clip 2: On campus
Leng Yue: "Friends are very important to me. I can't just care about you and ignore my friends."
Xiaoyan: "I completely understand you. You are the greatest woman I have ever met. I love you."
(N days later, Xiaoyan suddenly called)
Xiaoyan: "Who's that guy you're dating on campus? I scolded him away!"
From then on, Leng Yue was blacklisted by a high school classmate.
Clip 3: Inside Lengyue Dormitory
(Leng Yue, who was sick, stayed in the dormitory all morning until it was time for dinner and called Xiao Yan)
Leng Yue: "It's time to eat, you should get ready."
Xiaoyan: "I'm not going. I'm playing in a group at an internet cafe outside the school."
Leng Yue: "When did you go?"
Xiaoyan: "I went there early in the morning. Eat by yourself, I'm hanging up."
Clip 4: In front of the boys' dormitory
Xiaoyan: "Will you wash my clothes for me?"
Leng Yue: "If you take it off, I will wash it."
Xiaoyan: "If you wash me, I'll take it off."
Leng Yue: "Then take off your pants."
Xiaoyan: (unzips the front of his pants and demands) "Are you going to wash or not?"
Leng Yue: "...I'll wash something else."
Clip 5: Watching "My Girlfriend is a Robot" together in an Internet cafe
Xiaoyan: "If such a disaster happens, I will die for you just like this robot."
Leng Yue: "Then I would rather die for you."
(Then I watched a few more videos, including "Boyfriend Run Over While Saving His Girlfriend" and "Touching Couple").
Xiaoyan: "Lengyue, I am willing to die for you."
Leng Yue: “…”
Clip 6: Lengyue Dormitory
Leng Yue: "Xiao Yan, I'm sick. Can you get me a pot of hot water?"
Xiaoyan: "Sure, because I love you."
(Ten minutes later, I received a call from Xiaoyan)
Xiaoyan: "The water is ready, come down and get it, hurry up! Don't keep me waiting too long!"
Clip 7: Campus Path
(Xiaoyan was chatting with his ex-girlfriend when Leng Yue saw them)
Xiaoyan: "I was really just chatting with her!"
Leng Yue: "I know, I believe you."
Xiaoyan: "Wife, you are so nice! ^_^"
Clip 8: Leng Yue’s Birthday
Leng Yue: (Talking to Xiao Yan on the phone) "What are you doing?"
Xiaoyan: "Playing games."
Leng Yue: "Oh... today is my birthday."
Xiaoyan: "Well, what's wrong?"
Leng Yue: "It's okay, it's boring. You can continue playing."
Xiaoyan: "Wouldn't it be meaningless if I didn't celebrate your birthday?"
Leng Yue: "I'm sorry."
Xiaoyan: "Happy birthday."
Leng Yue: “(tears welling up in her eyes) Yeah.”
And just like that, her birthday was over.
Clip 9: The two graduated and lived apart. Leng Yue needed money for the exam, so she called Xiao Yan.
Leng Yue: "My salary hasn't been paid yet. Can I lend you 300 yuan first?"
Xiaoyan: "Okay, I love you. But I'm afraid you'll change. Women nowadays are all materialistic."
Leng Yue: "Then I won't lend it."
Clip 10: On the phone
Xiaoyan: "If you really love me, you should elope with me to the ends of the earth!"
Leng Yue: "I can't do it."
Xiaoyan: "Do you know how much I love you?"
Leng Yue: "I know."
Clip 11: MSN Chat
Xiaoyan's ex-girlfriend: "You really have the airs of a legitimate wife! I admire you! But are you really willing to accept this? Anyway, I'm the kind of person who won't tolerate any sand in my eyes."
Leng Yue: "I understand. I wish you happiness."
(Seeing this, we can get the following clues: First, Shi Qiuyan has a computer in his dormitory and often goes to the Internet cafe to play games, which shows that his financial situation is still good; second, Xiaoyan’s ex-girlfriend said, "Anyway, I am the kind of person who can't tolerate any sand in my eyes," which means that Xiaoyan may have good luck in love; third, Leng Yue used to be very weak in terms of love.
Combining the above three points, we can understand what Leng Yue said before: "No matter how many handsome guys are around me, there are still more beauties around you!" and "You talk as if you are not tall, rich and handsome!"
For Leng Yue, breaking up with Shi Qiuyan was a relief, so of course she didn't want to go back to Shi Qiuyan!)
"He seems to love you very much," Mingri broke the silence and asked cautiously, "What exactly happened between you two?"
Leng Yue came back to his senses from the past, sighed and said, "He's dead."
"Dead?!" Mingri was extremely surprised.
Leng Yue nodded, her thoughts drifting back to that day.
"Hello, Lengyue, Xiaoyan had a car accident and committed suicide..." Xiaoyan's sister said in a low voice on the phone.
When Leng Yue rushed to the hospital, the doctor had already announced his death.
"This is what Xiaoyan left for you." Xiaoyan's sister handed Leng Yue a thick stack of letter paper.
It was a long letter of several thousand words, which recorded every detail of Leng Yue and Xiao Yan's acquaintance, love and breakup. On the last page of the letter, it was written: "You are the greatest woman I have ever met and the woman I love the most. My heart has long belonged to you, and my love has long been completely given to you. Maybe I am too attached to the feeling of being pampered by you, and I like to act coquettishly and make you angry. A year is not long, but not short either. In the year of love, I have never watched a movie with you, nor have I ever given you a gift. Even now, I don’t know what you like or dislike. I feel very regretful now. In fact, I just want to find a pure and flawless love in this materialistic world. Perhaps no one can be truly extraordinary. ", haha. I have a childish temper. Perhaps in your eyes, I've always been a child, full of unrealistic thoughts, and I'm used to it. I love your doting and tolerance, your worry and care. I thought this love would never change, but I didn't expect happiness to be so short-lived. I always thought you would forgive me, but I know that this time, your patience has really run out. If you leave me, my world will no longer have any meaning. Let me leave this world before I forget your love for me! I once said that I would die for you, but perhaps you didn't believe me. Now, I wonder if you believe it?"
"It's you, it's all because of you, you killed Xiaoyan!" Xiaoyan's mother said, pointing at Lengyue's nose.
"Lengyue, please go. Let Xiaoyan go with peace of mind." Xiaoyan's sister said.
"It was me who killed Xiaoyan... It was me who killed him..." Leng Yue murmured.
Since then, Leng Yue has never been in love again, and she no longer dares to like men younger than her.
Leng Yue no longer had any tears in her eyes. Her tone was calm, as if she was recounting a story from a long time ago that had nothing to do with her.
Mingri's heart was in knots when he heard this, and looking at Leng Yue's appearance, he felt very heartbroken.
"Xiaoyan committed suicide. You can't be blamed for this," Mingri comforted.
"No, you should blame me. In fact, I didn't like him from the beginning, but I was too lonely in my heart and wanted someone to accompany me, so I was with him. In my eyes and heart, he has always been a spoiled child, like a younger brother, and I take care of him and tolerate him like a younger brother. Even when he was with someone else, I would not be jealous at all. I thought he and his ex-girlfriend were truly in love, but he just felt that I was good to him, so he was reluctant to leave me, but I didn't expect that the day after we broke up he... Maybe, I should have rejected his pursuit from the beginning and told him clearly that I don't like him and he is not my type. Even if he has a thousand things he shouldn't have done, at least there is one thing he is innocent of, that is, he loves me, but I have never loved him. Tomorrow, tell me, am I very hateful? People like me should go to hell and never be reborn." Leng Yue's voice seemed from another world.
"No, that's not the case," Mingri said, grabbing Lengyue's hand. "Don't take all the responsibility on yourself. Xiaoyan was just an ignorant child, and his suicide was just a momentary impulse. How can you be blamed? If you don't love him, you should break up with him so that you can both find new happiness. You're right to do so! His death was just an accident, and you're not the murderer. You've been tortured by the guilt in your heart for so many years. Do you really want to continue to torture yourself like this?"
"But he's already dead," Leng Yue said with a wry smile, "This is an irreversible fact, no matter who is responsible! As for the guilt... that's my retribution."
"Cold Moon..."
Leng Yue tried to smile and said, "I'm fine. Let's go back."
The night of early autumn was slightly chilly, and the cold moon slowly rose. Her frail figure looked even more fragile and helpless in the dim moonlight.
"Leng Yue, I know I'm just a character in your dream, or maybe Xiao Yan right now is the embodiment of your inner guilt. But precisely because of this, you must learn to love yourself from this painful experience and learn to be kinder to yourself. Don't bear so much pain alone, it will crush you."
Leng Yue nodded, and suddenly her vision went dark and she passed out.
Mingri felt her pulse and his face suddenly changed. He quickly sealed Leng Yue's heart pulse, picked up Leng Yue and walked quickly towards the villa.
"Master, are these toxins really impossible to remove?" Mingri asked.
The old man from the border shook his head and said, "Xiao Yue'er is already weak. The root of her previous injury hasn't recovered well. Now the poison has integrated into her blood and bone marrow. I'm afraid she can only live for less than seven years. After seven years... Sigh..."
"Seven years..." Mingri smiled bitterly, "All of this is indeed true."
Mingri held Lengyue's hand and closed his eyes in pain.
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