I never imagined it would end. In the meantime, I remembered things I wanted to tell you, and I jotted them down here and there. Now I'm telling you all at once.
I. Origin.
I've thought about the origin of this story many times and written it down—why I wrote this work.
However, my thoughts are different and incomplete each time, so I haven't started writing yet (of course, I'm also lazy and have a bad memory, so I forget them as soon as I turn around). I've thought about many things, but the most fundamental things are actually not that many, so I'll just write down whatever comes to mind.
At the very beginning, it was just an idea, a tragic perspective.
While reading those sweet novels about transmigrating into books, being reborn, or traveling through time—whether it's a change of soul or a second chance at life, where the past is wiped clean—I was simultaneously indulging in the sweet romance while also unable to help but imagine pessimistic scenarios.
How could that be?
How could a change of soul erase all the heartache, loss, and heartbreak the original owner had caused? This isn't about being petty; it's just that the past won't be erased, and scars won't heal on their own.
How could that be?
Those who "forced" someone into becoming a villainous supporting character, do their values suddenly change when they encounter another soul (or a reborn person), do they regret it, and do they completely reform themselves at the crematorium? No, old habits die hard, and values are hard to change!
We all love to see the ugly duckling from the mud become a princess, we all love to see the high-flying flower on the altar fall into the mundane world, and we all love to see that even the most favored children have ordinary flesh and blood.
These desires are romanticized and described as springtime and blooming flowers.
However, some roses could not be redeemed; we are all just ordinary people.
I started writing with this pessimistic mindset.
This was never a story of redemption.
Countless roses bloom, but some will always rot in the soil.
This idea has been considered many times, but it has been shelved because there is no good medium to carry it or a good setting to showcase it.
Until I saw the stage performance of Xue Zhiqian's song "Countless" on the third episode of the show, featuring four teachers and four different roles.
"It still carries a naive truth and flaunts justice with bare hands."
Through countless failures, it accompanied me through my ups and downs;
In every parallel story, there's always a version of me who didn't let you down;
In the next story, let me give you the world…
Suddenly, everything became clear, and the core vehicle for showcasing the above issues emerged.
——DID
I remembered a TV series called "Seven of Me", so I dug it out and watched the original version again.
At this moment, I want to write,
The new personality sees itself as a visitor from another world, erasing the past and becoming the darling of the group. Later, it is revealed that it has discovered that it is actually a demon, and its bloom is short-lived—a story destined to be sad.
However, after I started writing, I didn't understand it.
How can a girl be bad for no reason? If the environment itself is problematic, how can a new character become the perfect darling of the group?
The primary personality cannot be simply evil, and the new personality cannot firmly believe that the other self is a bad person.
So, based on the comments on that video, I bought a book—"The Minds of Billy Milligan".
Actually, this book is quite different from what I expected. It's not a professional book, so I'm glad I could understand it and it provided me with a lot of useful knowledge.
It is a chronicle, recording the autobiography of a wandering soul.
I searched for some videos on the small TV and saw some personal accounts of my experiences.
I had originally intended to delve into the details of this DID setting, but I stopped at this point.
There's no need to set it up like a template, as that would reduce the space available for writing (of course, there's also the reason that people are too lazy to dig out information).
So, more personal interpretations were added later—
1. The so-called "original owner's" personality, that wicked personality, must be abnormal (from a conventional perspective) – including its inherent character, upbringing, and reasons for its formation, all of which are unconventional. Thus, the personality – the shadow/madman – was born.
2. What is Lele's deepest fear? It is being abandoned and unable to survive.
"Survival" and "abandonment" are not originally two words that must be linked, but for Lele, who has been abandoned more than once since she can remember, they are.
Lele is by nature gentle, resilient, and positive. This is why, after so much corruption, this flower can still bloom into the most beautiful fairy tale – a beautiful sea of flowers, not an abyss.
She needed protection, but no one protected her. Sadly yet thankfully, she protected herself. Thus, her first personality was born—"The Manager," Ye Buqi.
3. Initially, System 422 was supposed to exist independently of the protagonist, perhaps offering Lele a glimmer of hope and companionship. However, this is illogical; without someone appearing out of nowhere to accompany her, she is a rose that has not found redemption.
And so, the gentle rabbit turned into a knife, a knife that cuts through fairy tales.
It is Lele's distorted dream. This is the dream-maker personality of "Fairy Tale"—422 TuTu.
4. The remaining personalities were created to complete the plot and characters. "The Reaper" is not safe, and the blade that Ye Buqi uses to protect Lele but can also hurt her is the last line of defense.
The young lady, a perfect puppet born into the Hua family. Neither she nor her shadow are entirely complete; they exist dependent on the main personality and are highly similar to it.
Fu Jiu, a... "gravekeeper".
This is about the different aspects of Lele.
At this point, it would be too simplistic to say that Lele's world consists only of the vicissitudes caused by the Hua family.
As I said from the beginning, this is a work that begins with pessimism, and Lele is one of those who were not successfully redeemed.
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