Despite trying his best to restrain himself, he couldn't help but let his lips tremble.
Qing Yue pursed her lips and looked at Chu Yan in this state, feeling both reluctant and painful in her heart.
She could lie, she could evade the question, but what about the future? It would only be a mess. She had to explain herself clearly, to be responsible to herself, to A Ling, and to Brother A Yan.
"Yes, Brother Ayan, I've fallen in love with Feng Ling."
She said.
Chu Yan's pupils shrank, and overwhelming pain swept over him. It seemed that he could not accept this answer at all, and he did not react for a long time.
He knows his girl best.
Her feelings are pure and sincere. She said that falling in love with someone means that she truly cares about him.
No wonder, the first person she saw when she woke up was Feng Ling, and she said she wanted to hug him.
No wonder, when she said she wanted to talk to him alone, she actually wanted to tell him her feelings.
But what should he do?
"What about me? Yue'er, what should I do?"
Chu Yan asked softly.
In one night, he learned the truth. He learned that the woman he married four years ago was not the girl he loved, but a vicious person. He learned that the woman he loved was actually the one he had repeatedly wanted to kill. Now he was told that his Yue'er had changed her heart and fell in love with his younger brother. So what should he do? What should he do?
Qing Yue almost didn't dare to look at Chu Yan's bloodshot eyes. She felt so uncomfortable in her heart that she blinked back the tears. She said, "Brother Yan, you just knew the truth for a moment and couldn't accept it, but what happened four years ago has already become a barrier between us. That teahouse... I lost my innocence. You are actually very disappointed in me, aren't you? Even if Qing Yunyao hadn't killed me, we might not have been together, right?"
Thinking of the cold treatment she received a month before her death four years ago...
Yes, the cold treatment.
At that time, she didn't know that the person who took away her innocence was a beggar. She just thought it was Brother Ayan. She was panicked and shy. She even hid in the mansion for a long time and didn't look for Chu Yan. Later, when she learned that she was pregnant and confessed to Brother Ayan, Brother Ayan's face was extremely cold, extremely cold and terrifying.
She didn't understand it at the time, but only found out the truth when she died.
That's why he believed Qing Yunyao's lies so easily.
There is an unbridgeable gap between them.
Hearing Qing Yue mention what happened four years ago, the pain in Chu Yan's eyes spread even more. This incident was the beginning of his breakup with Yue'er and the reason for their separation. If it weren't for this incident, Qing Yunyao would not have had the opportunity to drug him, provoke Yue'er, and even cause her tragic death.
"wrong."
Chu Yan shook his head.
"Yue'er, even if this happened, I would still marry you. You are the girl I have chosen to spend my life with. Although I was confused and in pain at first, I will not change my decision. The person I want to marry is you, only you."
Chu Yan said.
This is what he really thinks.
No man would remain indifferent when he learns that his beloved woman has been persecuted. But after he figures it out, he will only blame himself for not protecting her, but it will never waver in his decision to marry her.
"Yue'er, if this is the reason for you, then I can explain it to you. I..."
"Brother Ayan."
Chu Yan's tone was solemn and urgent, and she could clearly hear the friendship and sincerity in his words.
Qing Yue's eyes were filled with grief. She said, "But Brother Ayan, aren't you with Qing Yunyao?"
This one sentence stopped Chu Yan from talking.
Qing Yue was sad. She was not calm enough, nor was she indifferent to the man in front of her. It was just that some things needed to be made clear. There was really no possibility between her and him.
"Brother Ayan, you were drunk and got together with Qing Yunyao. She became your woman. Even if I hadn't been killed afterwards, I would never have been with you if I had known about this."
Qing Yue sighed softly, choking a little.
"Brother Ayan, even if Feng Ling hadn't been here, we wouldn't be together. It wasn't just me who made the mistake, it was you as well... So we're destined not to be together, no matter if it was four years ago or four years later..."
Chu Yan stood there in a daze.
Some things happened over the years and the details have long been blurred, but on the day when the truth four years ago was revealed in the Golden Palace, he remembered it.
Chu Yan stood there, unable to defend himself, his chest bleeding.
That's not the case.
It was a mistake.
But his love for her never changed, never.
But he didn't dare to say anything more, because four years ago, Yue'er lost her innocence because she was assassinated by a villain, but he... was immoral because he was drunk.
He is not worthy of Yue'er.
"Yue'er, don't give up on me. Let's start over, okay? We've been childhood sweethearts for over ten years. You said you would marry me when you grow up. How could our relationship be ruined by a conspiracy? I won't accept this outcome, Yue'er. I won't accept it."
Chu Yan's eyes were red, and he spoke with trembling teeth.
She and he had a conflict because of that incident four years ago, but it was a trick, a frame-up.
Now, she is Qin Wan, he is King You, and all the damned people have been arrested. Can't they forget the past and start over?
Asking him to give up is tantamount to asking for his life.
"Brother Ayan, we really can't go back. I spent more than ten years loving you, but I spent a year falling in love with someone else."
Qing Yue spoke.
My eyes feel sore and achy because I shed too many tears.
But she still looked at the person in front of her stubbornly, and then continued, "Brother Ayan, to you, I've been dead for four years. Once the truth is revealed, we can start over again. But in fact, it's not like that. I've been back from the dead for only a year. When I first woke up, I was filled with hatred and rage. I hate Qing Yunyao, I hate you, and even more I hate the person who ruined my innocence. I have no home to return to, no one knows who I am, and everything I have has been replaced: my parents, my brother, my friends...
They all left me, and I felt angry, helpless, confused, and without anyone to rely on. It was Feng Ling's appearance that soothed everything in my heart, and it was he who led me step by step to where I am today.
This year, I've been through so much. I was surrounded by negative emotions and wanted to die with you and Qing Yunyao several times. I'm so tired and in so much pain. If it weren't for A Ling, I wouldn't have been able to get through this and wouldn't be alive today."
He had loved Chu Yan for ten years, but by some strange coincidence he ended up like that. It was not his fault, nor was it her fault. It was just that they both lacked some luck and were not destined to be together.
It only took her a year to fall in love with Feng Ling because he gave her redemption, and she and he redeemed each other.
She was very sure of her feelings. She no longer loved Chu Yan, she loved Feng Ling.
The punishment from heaven was three years of life, and she wanted to spend it with A Ling.
"Stop talking."
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