Chu Yan heard his own voice, dull and mechanical.
Qing Yue blinked, her long eyelashes trembling slightly. She said, "My soul will be scattered. In any case, I will die."
Her voice was so soft, but it was like a sharp knife piercing his heart. The pain made him almost unable to stand and almost bent over.
Yue'er, how can you say such words so calmly?
How can I bear it?
"That's not true, is it? You're lying to me, aren't you?"
He still didn't want to believe it and asked her with a trembling voice.
Qing Yue shook her head in his expectant gaze, "Brother Chu Yan, you know, this is true."
The tears that had been suppressed for a long time finally fell.
Suddenly I felt that this autumn night was really cold, so cold, even colder than ice and snow.
"Brother Chu Yan, the first thing I did after waking up from Nanjiao Temple was to say goodbye to you and make things clear so that both you and I can let go. I don't have much time left, and I don't want to be immersed in our past relationship that was filled with hurt and conspiracy. I want to be by Feng Ling's side for the rest of my limited life.
This year of rebirth, he redeemed me."
Qing Yue's voice was so heavy. Many things were different from what she had imagined. If Brother Chu Yan could let go, perhaps they would not be entangled and suffer to this extent.
"Brother Chu Yan, I haven't told anyone this secret. Not my parents, not my brother, not my friends, not even A Ling... I haven't told anyone. I've been hiding this secret all by myself, counting the days... because every day that passes is one less day. I want to be happy, but I've been so sad these days."
Qing Yue cried silently. Although she tried to restrain herself, her tears still couldn't help falling.
She is also a human being, not a god. Her life is counting down. Who wouldn't be afraid?
Chu Yan's eyes were already bloodshot. He looked at the crying girl in front of him helplessly and desperately. He thought that the hurt and sorrow were gone, but they were not. They followed him like a shadow, and she had to bear it alone.
How else could God harm her little girl?
Why do you treat her like this?
"Yue'er... Yue'er..."
Chu Yan couldn't bear it any longer. He reached out and held Qing Yue in his arms, hugging her tightly, as if he wanted to rub her into his bones. He choked and tears fell on her neck.
"What should we do? Yue'er, what should we do? What should Brother Yan do to save you?"
He asked pleadingly in a trembling voice.
Who can tell him how to keep his little girl?
Qing Yue did not struggle. She even reached out and put her arms around Chu Yan's waist. He was once her childhood sweetheart, and later her brother, her forever brother.
"Brother Chu Yan, don't be sad. I told you this today not to make you suffer or feel guilty, but to ask you to fulfill my wish. Just treat it as the last thing you do for me, okay? I'm really tired. I just want to spend the remaining two years or so with A Ling and live a peaceful life together.
Brother A Ling, I gave you my ten years, and I will give A Ling my three years, okay?
Qing Yue asked with a choked voice.
Those pleading words were like the sharpest knife. Chu Yan was in so much pain that he was bleeding, but he couldn't say no.
"Brother Chu Yan, I've loved two people in my life. Once, it was you, and later, it was Feng Ling. But I didn't get to wait for you to marry me when I was alive, and when I woke up after rebirth, I was already a wife. But I still remember that I was a delicate and cute little girl back then, and I also looked forward to the person I loved walking in front of me with a red dress and marrying me home."
Chu Yan burst into tears, feeling desperate and painful.
Her little girl had been looking forward to him, but he married someone else with great success. Now she wants to throw herself into the arms of another man, looking forward to this grand wedding, but he wants to stop her.
He had already tried to stop her once, making up a lie that forced her into extreme pain, asking for a divorce and wanting to stay away from the capital.
"Brother Ayan can also give it to you. Brother Ayan will marry you, okay? Can you stay with Brother Ayan for the next three years? Brother Ayan will do everything he can to save you, okay?"
Chu Yan pleaded with sobs, his eyes, once filled with ice, now filled with broken snow and despair.
"But Brother Chu Yan, the person I love now is not you. I am already his princess. In fact, there is no need for this wedding. It was A Ling who wanted it for me and didn't want me to have any regrets.
Besides, in this imperial capital, there are my parents, my brother, my friends... Everyone who knows me knows that I am Princess Yu, so how can I be entangled with you? If I am gone one day, how will my family bear all the rumors? "
Qing Yue spoke very slowly, and she must have felt uncomfortable when she said these words.
Qing Yue raised her head from Chu Yan's arms, opened her red eyes, and looked up at him, "Brother Chu Yan, we have been friends for ten years. Can you, as your brother, marry me off?"
She looked at him, her eyes full of pleading and expectation.
She told him the biggest secrets in her heart, just for the sake of perfection.
She said she fell in love with Feng Ling and was willing to have him accompany her to see the mountains and rivers, but she also left the prosperity of the Great Zhou and his supreme position to him. When she took Feng Ling away, she also took away his strongest competitor.
The moonlight was cold, but not as cold as his broken heart.
His Yue'er suffered so much just for a perfect life, how could he refuse?
Three years.
It’s been less than three years, and it’s been nearly half a year since Yue’er woke up in Nanjiao Temple.
Hehehe…
The word "good" was on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn't say it.
It’s too hard to give up, and it’s too hard to achieve perfection.
But his moon is too bitter.
"Okay, Brother Yan will get you married."
Finally, he spoke, but every word he said was filled with tears.
"Yue'er, go find him. If he treats you badly, Brother Yan will skin him alive."
Chu Yan looked at Qing Yue steadily, pointed at the gate of Qing's house, and said the last sentence, with hostility still surging in his blood-red eyes.
Qingyue looked at him and nodded with red eyes.
"On the wedding day, Brother Ayan will marry you off."
"good."
Qing Yue continued to nod, having said everything she needed to say.
In the end, her relationship with Brother Ayan still ended in tears.
The relationship between her and him was destined to be a tragedy.
"Go back, Brother Ayan... I also want to apologize to you. I shouldn't have told that lie that day, causing a rift between you and Feng Ling."
"Brother Chu Yan, it's all over."
Qing Yue shook her head, then she turned around and walked towards the Qing Mansion, step by step, very slowly. Her and his overlapping shadows slowly separated and moved farther and farther away.
"Brother Chu Yan, don't tell anyone about my affairs. This is a secret known only to the two of us."
She suddenly stopped, turned around and gave instructions.
"Okay, the secret between us..."
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