She took advantage of the information gap in reincarnation to get hold of many people's handles, and used cruel threats and torture to make them afraid to act rashly and force them to tell the truth.
Her methods became more and more vicious, and her personality became more and more cruel. She grew from an autistic, introverted, exiled little girl to an extremely ruthless hunter.
Like an alert hunter, a wild wolf.
Her torture and skinning methods matured little by little, and her killing methods became more skilled little by little. Gradually, even without using the power of the Nine Gods, she could use the skills of hunters and traps to kill some guides who were far stronger than her.
Because she was so familiar with these people, their personalities, fighting styles, weaknesses, families... she knew everything.
She could massacre an entire village for a little secret of the dome, or burn to death those devout believers of the Hundred Gods who refused to obey in order to learn more about the truth about the gods.
——Anyway, everything can be started over again, and everyone will be resurrected.
Then just let her do it.
As long as she doesn't hurt anyone in the final successful reincarnation, then all the countless reincarnations and detours she has taken will be worth it.
It doesn’t matter if these people hate her, insult her, or don’t understand her.
As long as she can finally break the cycle of reincarnation, all the rumors will be proven wrong.
Just let them hate.
Since the power gained from sacrificing her vitality is not enough to keep her alive to the end, she can only look for one last way - to become a god.
…
But she soon discovered that this was not feasible.
She will never be able to obtain one of the three elements to become a god - "faith".
She went to the First Tribe and used her accumulated knowledge to help people open up fertile land and create machinery for farming. She became a wise woman and wanted people to believe in her.
But she ignored the stubbornness of the followers of Baishen. People would only accept her knowledge and regard her as a "monster", and no one would believe in her.
Her fate was either to be killed by the chieftain or to be assassinated or poisoned by her tribesmen.
Later, she began to try to do charity. She took in those guides who had lost their minds and gave them shelter.
She fed the tiger with her own body and took the initiative to block the natural disaster and poisonous rain. She worked hard to protect her people and help them rebuild their shelter.
But she would still be considered a pagan and no one would be grateful to her.
Her only end was to be killed by those who came to exterminate the pagans.
People's ideas are extremely stubborn.
It is impossible for them to believe in a person who exudes the aura of the Nine Gods.
If she didn't use the power of the Nine Gods, she would be killed by other guides. But once she used the power of the Nine Gods, her vitality would be exhausted and she would die, and the aura of the Nine Gods on her body would become stronger in the next reincarnation.
——A vicious circle.
She simply couldn't break this situation.
"...It's impossible. I can't do it at all... I'm clearly trying to save them, but no one believes me..."
How many times had she been on the verge of death, crying and shouting this sentence, welcoming the next reincarnation.
Her identity as a pagan became the root cause of her inability to break the impasse.
"——Herds, die!"
"——Die and come back to life? No one would believe you. Even if you can do that, it's just a dirty ability of your pagan self!"
"——Xixi, if you know what's best for you, just find a place to die instead of getting in the way here. The Nine Gods' aura on you really makes me sick."
“…”
She had seen too many tragedies.
Every time she heard such words, she felt like she was stabbed.
Everyone was expecting her to die.
But no one knew that her death was of no use at all.
The only way to prove what she said is for her to die, but once she dies, there is no point in proving it.
How many times did she want to cry out?
Why--
——Why did she sacrifice so many lives, but only got an unbreakable cycle?
——Why has she survived and saved people until now, but has always been despised and misunderstood by people?
——Why, why couldn't anyone give her a little more time and opportunity to explain herself?
--Why……
Her memory became blurred little by little as she suffered repeated deaths.
Her sanity was repeatedly tortured by alienation and curse.
Reincarnation does not change her mental state. After dying again and again, her memory has become completely confused.
All kinds of deaths, even alienation... made her more and more crazy and confused.
Reincarnation is not her lucky power, but a curse and torture that prevents her from abandoning her responsibilities.
Gradually, she will forget who she is, why she is alive, and what truth she is trying to reveal that has kept her alive until now.
She forgot her name and all the information she had obtained. Her memory was blocked for self-protection, and the huge fragments of death memory were driving her crazy.
There were two times when she thought it would be better not to open her eyes and wake up, and just let her sleep forever in the wooden house where she lived on the first day.
There were five times when she thought that she might as well forget everything. She was Sissi, not Siberia, not the only believer in the most ancient god.
Ten times she would cry over those corpses and say sorry, sorry.
She was on the verge of collapse, mad, like a frightened animal, a lonely and alert wolf.
As someone in the game, she had no way of breaking this deadlock.
"If only someone would save me," she thought.
As long as someone is willing to stand by her side, give her warmth, or even just trust her a little bit...
If only someone could give her a hug when she was cold all over, if only someone could tell her that she could still see the sun and the sea...
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