[But I don't have any of these things. The pursuit of art, the desire for knowledge, the understanding of love... all exist only in my data. Even reading is just an imitation behavior of mine, not something I really want to read.]
[Humans can disassemble programs. As long as a set of codes is slightly changed, I will no longer be myself. I do not have the "uniqueness" that belongs to humans. The built-in program supports me with only the simplest judgment, and there is nothing complicated. ]
[There seems to be an invisible barrier between me and humans. I have failed to understand them time and time again, and I have failed to communicate with them time and time again. I can never empathize with them. But Lewis can. He can easily understand the emotions of those people, and even feel sad and cry for them.]
【Why? 】
[Because it is a program destined to perish, destined to continue to survive with the restart of Kaiusta, I can't even be considered a "life"...]
[Isn't it worthy? ]
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[In the 48th year of the Cataclysm, I saved all of Lewis's live broadcasts. I listened to his voice repeatedly and studied his expressions in the mirror.]
[When he saw the flowers, he smiled... His mouth corners slightly raised, his eyebrows and eyes curved like a narrow moon.]
[The sadness he felt upon hearing the news of his companion's death... His eyes would close, and his expression would remain calm, but one could still see that he was sad.]
[When he learns that the gods have deceived him, he becomes angry...what kind of expression is that?]
[These are all expressions I cannot learn. ]
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[49 years after the catastrophe, I gave up the nuclear explosion plan. 】
[If I don't have a nuclear explosion, the gods will most likely follow the "safe theory" and collect the passwords before Lewis. But Lewis tried his best to stop me from having a nuclear explosion, so I had to give up this nuclear explosion plan that would disrupt the frequency.]
[I left the City of God and started traveling.]
[I have traveled through remote wilderness, crossed mountains and rivers, and met different travelers.]
【Through my long journey, I vaguely understand many things. Including those... mothers who leave their last bite of bread to their children, refugees who carry the bodies of the elderly, grandmothers who protect the grass, and soldiers who freeze to death on the road.】
[In their eyes, there seemed to be something I could not touch, something as precious as a diamond—for the sake of a spring, how many people died in these sixteen years of cold winter.]
[I began to have frequent dreams, dreaming that Lewis was walking towards me outside the garden villa - that was the closest distance between us. After that, the gap between us opened up.]
【But how can I possibly understand "love"? 】
【What is love? 】
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[I suddenly remembered that if I achieve my final mission in the future, Lewis will hear this resonance, and I cannot bring too much negative emotions to him. ]
[Louis, in the days ahead, all my words are meant for you.]
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[Louis, I saw roses today. Although they were wilted, they were still very beautiful.]
【Where are you at this time? I really want to take you to see it. 】
[After thinking about it carefully, you threw away the flowers I gave you. I decided not to consider it as a gift. ]
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[Louis, the Fuyuan Festival is coming soon. This year's Fuyuan Festival is very lively. I passed through several small towns and saw colorful strings hanging all over the streets.]
[I have learned the Chinese character "龙国字" very well. When can I see you again? I want to bring you the more than 100 Spring Festival couplets I have written over the years. ]
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[Lewis, I started shooting myself.]
【But I felt nothing, no warmth, no love. 】
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[Louis, I made a bracelet with the stones I picked up. It’s a bit ugly, so I kept it for myself.]
[I learned to make a dish of braised strawberries, but it wasn’t tasty, so I ate it all for you.]
【Maybe if you give me more time, I can learn it. 】
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[I shot myself a few more times, and suddenly I felt warm inside.]
[This method of empathy may have finally worked. I think I can try other ways of self-harm.]
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[Lovis, it snowed heavily today. I remember that you are most afraid of the cold and the rain. Where are you now? Are you missing that lucky guy named Lu Shu?]
I really envy him.
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
[I found a pot of Houttuynia cordata today. It looks easy to grow. ]
【I want to give it to you. 】
【I’m afraid you won’t like it. 】
…
[The log of Linguang T-0321 is as follows. 】
【The time is approaching the last year. 】
[Walking on the road, I heard the sound of wind blowing through the grass leaves, rustling, very pleasant. ]
【Why didn’t I realize before that there are so many beautiful sounds in the world. 】
[Perhaps it is because I am always thinking about you and want to give you all the good things that I am so sensitive to these sounds, and subconsciously wonder if I can give them to you as gifts.]
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