I won't commit suicide if my sister doesn't like me, then don't...
Zhen Min'er couldn't control her strength——
It was as if she had used up the last bit of her strength to crush her sister into pieces and embed her into her own bones and blood, and it was also as if she was grasping at the last straw that was about to disappear forever.
Sister, her sister.
Her...
Tears flowed uncontrollably, not physiologically, guided by pain.
Instead, he couldn't help but whimper.
“Sister…Sister…”
Zhen Min'er buried her face deeply in Zhen Zhu's neck, murmuring unconsciously over and over again, and her hot tears instantly soaked Zhen Zhu's collar.
I'm sorry... sis.
Goodbye...sister.
My sister’s embrace is so warm, and her skin is slightly cool, but not cold.
My sister is still alive.
My sister was not killed.
No...died because of her...
Very good.
[Host! Host! Ahhhhh! I'm finally back! I was so scared! That world consciousness directly took over my data shell!]
[And the heroine is so scary! She actually destroyed the world twice! ]
The familiar baby voice with crying tone and great grievance suddenly exploded in Zhen Zhu's mind!
Zhen Zhu was stunned for a moment by the sudden hug and the sound exploding in her mind.
Then, feeling the surging wetness and the strong smell of blood on her neck, Zhen Zhu's mind became a little complicated and confused. She was also suffocated by Zhen Min'er's embrace. Her fox eyes narrowed slightly, and she wanted to push Zhen Min'er away directly——
I heard Zhen Min'er crying.
My body, which usually feels hot, is now surprisingly cold.
Ice colder than her temperature.
Zhen Zhu hesitated for a moment, wanting to ask Zhen Min'er about the letter just now -
Yes, just because of this.
So Zhen Zhu waited a little longer...
But the bloody smell at the tip of her nose became stronger and stronger, making Zhen Zhu feel a little uncomfortable. Thinking of the self-destructive tendencies mentioned in the previous letter, Zhen Zhu gently pushed it away.
Zhen Zhu thought she couldn't push him away.
But I didn't expect...
Pushed it open instantly.
That resistance—
It was very light, but it felt like a death declaration.
She should stop.
The words of the world consciousness and the "past" she witnessed with her own eyes, like the most vicious curse, completely nailed Zhen Min'er to the cross of fate.
【You will only bring her death.】
【Letting go is the best thing for her. 】
Her sister's actions in breaking free from her just now... all confirmed everything.
Yes, why should she, such a dark person who only brings misfortune, pray for her sister's company?
Let go...
I can only let go.
Must let go.
"you?"
Zhen Zhu didn't expect that she could push away the arms that had just held her so tightly so easily. Bewilderment flashed in her fox eyes, and then turned into some annoyance.
It's good that Zhen Min'er can let go! Why should she be disappointed?
Zhen Zhu coughed lightly and shifted her gaze: "I came here to ask——"
Just as she was about to ask about the letter, Zhen Zhu suddenly felt something was wrong. When she was younger, she said she had torn it up, but now...
Wouldn't that make her seem like she was deceiving... Zhen Zhu frowned. Why did she feel like she was also capable of some deceitful behavior...
Zhen Zhu was just thinking about what to say when the smell of blood grew stronger. She couldn't help but frown and look at Zhen Min'er, who took two steps back and lowered her eyes. "Did you... apply any medicine after you fell?"
“…I have.”
Zhen Zhu restrained the urge to go forward, but she didn't expect...
As she asked, Zhen Min'er took another step back and put her hands behind her back, as if deliberately hiding the bruise from her.
Make a soft sound.
It was completely different from the heart-wrenching, repetitive, and dependent voice just now.
"Thank you for your concern, sister."
Her lowered amber eyes were empty and lifeless, and Zhen Miner said softly: "I'm tired, sister."
"It's getting late, sister, you should go to bed early."
"Since you don't like me, don't care about me anymore."
It will make her indulge in extravagant thoughts again, no.
Zhen Min'er retreated again, putting more distance between herself and her sister. The sound she made was very light, very faint, like floating in the air, passing by in a flash.
?
Refund?!
Zhen Zhu was a little angry. No, he had just held her tightly in his arms, but now he suddenly became like this for no apparent reason!
"Host, host! Go, go! Get away from the heroine!"
The baby voice in Zhen Zhu's mind looked frightened and kept exploding in her mind, making her very unhappy.
Frowning, she stared at Zhen Min'er, who refused to look up at her, hugged her for no apparent reason, and kept a distance from her for no apparent reason. She was so angry that—
“Who cares about you!”
Zhen Zhu stomped her feet.
Zhen Zhu turned around unhappily and left. She didn't want to care anymore!
What letter, what self-destruction, anyway, she has nothing to do with Zhen Min'er anymore!
Biting her lip and snorting coldly, Zhen Zhu immediately walked out of the room and turned to close the door...
But she saw him still standing there, and the lingering smell of blood in the room. She bit her red lips and said coldly, "Hurry up and apply the medicine!"
“Click.”
After saying that, he closed the door without hesitation.
Zhen Miner slowly raised her head and looked at the dark door which was no different from the one her sister had entered before. Her empty amber eyes were red and swollen, lifeless.
Overflowing with whispered words: "Sister..."
"Heroine, you did the right thing. Now you just need to be with the hero. You can..."
"No."
The deep female voice seemed satisfied, with a reminder in it, but before she could finish her words, she was interrupted by Zhen Miner.
"I won't be with the male lead. He makes me sick."
"I will...stay away from my sister and let her be happy before the world falls apart."
Zhen Min'er's sweet voice was hollow, devoid of any emotion. After she finished speaking, she didn't want to pay attention to the fierce rebuke from the so-called world consciousness and turned around.
Before the destruction...
Before leaving, she wanted to take some of her sister's... belongings for company.
*
"Why haven't you seen me for so long?"
Zhen Zhu slammed the door and sat back on the bed. Thinking of Zhen Min'er's inexplicable actions just now, she couldn't calm down her anger. The tone of her voice when she spoke to Baby Voice was also filled with uncontrollable anger.
"Host! You are finally safe! I was scared to death!"
"How dare you say that!"
The baby voice in her mind, crying with fear, sounded again. Zhen Zhu couldn't suppress the anger in her fox eyes: "What's going on? You've been gone for so long! What do you mean the world consciousness has taken over your data shell?"
"Also, Zhen Min'er... what was that horrible look on her face just now? What does it mean to destroy the world twice?"
Thinking of Zhen Min'er's abnormal state just now, Zhen Zhu couldn't help but wonder what happened. Thinking of the bruises on her body and the white bandage on her wrist that she had seen before...
Thinking of her evasive behavior later, he became furious.
I can't even sit down.
Zhen Zhu stood up and paced around the room. The cherry blossoms in the cherry blossom lantern couldn't keep up with her pace, and could only cast a few traces of cherry blossoms on her arms...
However, because Zhen Zhu was walking too fast, the cherry blossoms blurred and formed a small flame that moved around Zhen Zhu's body.
The system shuddered at Zhen Zhu's anger, and sobbed as it began to explain, "I, I originally wanted to check if there was any problem with the heroine's data, so after the host and the heroine came into contact, I entered the heroine's brain..."
Zhen Zhu frowned without stopping. No wonder she couldn't call the system since this morning.
"The heroine... she's really not kind at all!" The system's voice was filled with genuine anger. "She deceived the host and doesn't regret it at all! She's actually upset that the host knew it too early!"
Zhen Zhu pursed her lips with a slightly cold expression.
"I...I couldn't help but speak out."
"???" Zhen Zhu was speechless, "You made a sound?"
The baby voice said aggrievedly: "Yes, and then the heroine somehow knew that she was the heroine..."
"Actually! She actually threatened me directly, asking me to tell her the host's location, or else she would commit suicide! She wanted to make the world collapse."
The baby voice in my mind, with a frightened sobbing tone, sounded again: "After she knew that you liked Lin Zhi, her mind was full of thoughts of killing Lin Zhi. Her mind was full of dark thoughts."
"Later, they forced me to communicate with the world consciousness and demanded a dialogue with it!"
"...Talking to the world consciousness?"
"yes!"
Zhen Zhu suddenly remembered the lightning and thunder she had heard along the way, and glanced out the window...the thunderclouds had not dissipated yet and were still roaring.
Zhen Zhu frowned. Could it be that the world consciousness was still talking to Zhen Miner?
"And then?" Zhen Zhu frowned and sat back on the sofa to ask what happened next.
"Then...then the world consciousness suddenly appeared! It was so fierce! It directly and forcibly occupied my external connection channel. I felt like I was trapped in a transparent cover. I could see and hear, but I couldn't move or speak!"
"And then...then the world consciousness showed the heroine many, many things!"
Her baby voice was filled with confusion, fear and anger as she told Zhen Zhu everything she had seen in the past, from Zhen Min'er's perspective.
"Host, you...you are so miserable! You actually...actually, in the first two worlds, you were...harmed by that Jining Lan...and then committed suicide twice!"
"It's all the heroine's fault! If she hadn't destroyed everything the host owned, there wouldn't have been any subsequent plots, and the host wouldn't have died. The heroine is so evil... and she's so terrifying, she actually killed so many people in the end! She's a complete monster!"
The system's baby voice was trembling as it spoke.
However, as Zhen Zhu listened, her brows furrowed more and more.
His eyes grew colder.
He didn't show any fear or sadness, but instead sneered.
The fox eyes narrowed slightly and Zhen Zhu snorted coldly.
"Me? Commit suicide?"
Zhen Zhu's voice turned cold, with an unquestionable, almost arrogant firmness.
"System, are you sure you didn't see it wrong? Or rather, is what the world consciousness showed her the truth?"
"ah?"
Baby Voice was stunned by the question: "It's... it's the scene I saw... the host cut your neck, and you were lying there, bleeding a lot..."
"I won't commit suicide."
Zhen Zhu spoke in a decisive tone, straightening her back and slightly raising her chin. Her innate pride and vitality, along with the pink cherry blossoms that had just spread to the tip of her forehead, seemed to form an invisible halo around her.
"Suicide after being hurt by that scumbag? Absolutely impossible."
Zhen Zhu walked to the window, suddenly opened the curtains, and looked at the dark night outside the window with cold eyes, as if they could penetrate the rumbling thunder.
"If I experienced that kind of thing, the first thing I would think of would definitely not be ending my own life! That would be too easy for those scumbags! I would do whatever it takes to make them pay a price far more painful than death! Then, I would live well and live more wonderfully than anyone else! I, Zhen Zhu, would never punish myself for the crimes of others, nor would I deny my own life and value because of it!"
Zhen Zhu's voice is clear and powerful, every word is resounding and has a power that penetrates people's hearts.
The system temporarily forgot to cry.
"Yes, yes."
"The host is not someone who would commit suicide."
The system muttered, and came back to its senses, shocked back to its senses by the host's powerful aura, and also came back to its senses from the illusion of world consciousness.
"But...why would the world consciousness lie to us?"
“That’s the problem.”
Zhen Zhu analyzed calmly, turned around, leaned against the windowsill, no longer looking at the blue lightning that occasionally exploded in the sky, and frowned as she fell into thought.
Why did it show Zhen Min'er this fabricated or distorted past? Was it just to make her break down? To make her blame herself?
Zhen Zhu suddenly thought of Zhen Min'er's hug...
The force almost suffocated her.
as well as...
Just a little push and it's open...
Recalling Zhen Min'er's final dead look and her sudden release, her heart tightened. Zhen Zhu's slightly cold voice tinged with urgency as she quickly asked the system, "Zhen Min'er...what was her reaction afterwards? What else did the world consciousness say?"
"The heroine...she seemed extremely distressed and devastated after seeing those images, constantly saying things like 'It wasn't me' and 'I didn't want her to die.' Then the world consciousness told her...that your personalities don't match, that you're the flame and she's the moss, and that being together will only destroy you. It told her to let go and go find the hero...and that this was the right thing to do."
"Then the heroine seemed... seemed to be completely desperate."
The baby voice was cheerful: "That's right! The heroine told the world consciousness...she regretted it."
"Host! The world consciousness did a good thing! The heroine knows she did something wrong!"
regret?
Zhen Zhu's heart seemed to be gently stabbed by something, and a subtle sour feeling spread.
So, that sudden hug, that desperate cry, that easy letting go... was it because of this?
Because he thought she would die because of her, he chose to push her away?
Although...it seems like this is a good thing, Zhen Min'er at least...has to realize that it is wrong for her to deceive herself and try to take away what she has.
Moreover, there is no trust between them.
She had no way to be with Zhen Min'er anymore. It would be best if Zhen Min'er stepped back and they separated.
Yes, that's good.
Zhen Zhu muttered to herself.
But... thinking of Zhen Min'er's silent retreat, the lingering smell of blood lingered in my nose...
Zhen Zhu covered her chest.
A bit stuffy...not very comfortable.
Zhen Zhu lowered the air conditioner temperature a bit and suppressed her uneasy emotions. She shook her head to get rid of these chaotic emotions, and her fingertips unconsciously stroked the cheese cat chain that she brought out when she opened the original box.
The ding-dong sound seemed to ease the discomfort in her chest a little.
She thought of another key question, and her tone became serious: "System, do you know what Zhen Min'er wrote in the letter? She said she... killed her father? And her mother beat her and cut her with a knife? Is this true?"
This incident stuck in her heart like a thorn, and she cared more about it than the lies of the world's consciousness.
"Ah? Kill your father?"
The system was confused: "I don't know... There is no such record in my database... Wait!"
The baby voice was tinged with excitement. "Because the world consciousness forcibly occupied the channel of my outer shell, and although it squeezed me out, it seemed... seemed to have left some data remnants! I think I can access a little bit... It seems to be a set of settings at the lower level of this novel world! I'll look for it!"
My mind was quiet for a moment, with only the sound of a baby voice humming as it tried to retrieve data.
Zhen Zhu waited patiently, but her heart beat faster unconsciously.
She had a premonition that she was about to touch the darkest and truest root behind Zhen Miner's madness.
possible...
Zhen Zhu inexplicably felt that this was very important and might be able to remove the barriers in her heart...
"Wow! Found it!"
The system exclaimed, "There really is a detailed background setting for the heroine! Oh my God... Host, look..."
Suddenly, a white light flooded my eyes, and I felt as if I were in another dimension. Pages of a book appeared before my eyes, not as concrete images, but in the form of extremely concise, almost cold, written records, like a cold profile of a person:
[Character setting: Zhen Min'er (formerly known as Sang Min'er)]
Origin: Extremely poor mountain village.
Biological father: Sang Dazhuang, an alcoholic, gambling addict, domestic abuser, and scumbag. When Sang Min'er was seven years old, he returned home and became lustful. He attempted to rape his biological daughter, but was stabbed with an iron rod by Sang Min'er and then hacked to death with a kitchen knife.
Biological mother: Sang Xiaohua, greedy, selfish, and cold-hearted. She married Sang Dazhuang for money, squandering the family fortune. After her husband disappeared, she survived by engaging in sexual transactions with other men in the village. Later, when she ran out of money, she tried to sell her daughter, but failed. After Sang Dazhuang's death, she fearfully blamed her young daughter, Sang Miner, and repeatedly attempted to abandon her. She subjected Sang Miner to long-term mental and physical abuse (including beatings, verbal abuse, and knife wounds), instilling in her the belief that she was a filthy scum who didn't deserve to live.
Early Life: Constantly hungry, surviving by scavenging food and scavenging trash. After murdering his father at age seven, he and his biological mother endured a cycle of fleeing, being abandoned, and then finding her again. Personality: Simple, extremely insecure, with low self-esteem, a desire for love, a distorted understanding of "love," and self-destructive tendencies.
Thoughts on pairing: Because of her miserable background, she has an inferiority complex and is weak. It would be a good idea to pair her with a sunny, strong, and secure male protagonist to heal her.
Her pupils slowly dilated uncontrollably, and Zhen Zhu's breathing suddenly tightened.
My heart felt like it was being tightly gripped by an ice-cold hand, causing a dull pain and a sharp bitterness.
She finally understood what the words "kill my father" and "cut me with a knife" written in the childish handwriting in the letter meant.
Isn't that the exaggerated ravings of a child, but the bloody and cruel truth?
Therefore, Zhen Min'er's understanding of "love" was distorted from the very beginning.
She lives in a quagmire and has seen the ugliest human nature. She doesn't know how to love normally. She only knows how to possess, rob and destroy.
The simplicity in that setting...
Zhen Zhu picked up the white letter. It said, "My sister said she wanted me to be her younger sister. I looked it up, and they said that as long as my mother and her father are together, I will be her younger sister. I didn't expect her to be unhappy. I was wrong! I was really wrong!"
...She was uneducated, and this initial setting alone seemed to explain this sentence. Before, she couldn't understand and didn't comprehend Zhen Miner's actions.
Because she said she hoped she would become her sister, and just by searching, she found out this way, so... Zhen Min'er did it.
At the beginning, Zhen Min'er didn't do it on purpose, but because... she didn't know there was something wrong with this matter.
Her simple thoughts are just like in this setting, she grabs food when she is hungry, simple, pure behavior and logic.
Zhen Zhu closed her eyes and bit her lip.
If...she had seen this letter and understood everything, would Zhen Min'er not have gone further and further astray?
No, she wasn't sure. When she was young, she didn't know about world consciousness. Maybe she didn't understand the meaning of this sentence even more. She just thought it was absurd.
Because...she and she are different.
Zhen Zhu realized that as she had received a good education from her mother since childhood, she naturally understood some principles and knowledge that Zhen Min'er might not understand.
She was like a wild animal, just following her instincts.
Looking at the wall, on the other side of the wall... is Zhen Miner.
Zhen Zhu pinched the cheese cat in her hand and endured it.
Close your eyes and memorize the words you just saw.
Zhen Zhu opened her eyes and sneered at the so-called "pairing" - the sunny male protagonist heals Zhen Min'er?
Jining Lan, that irresponsible and brainless guy?
It's so ridiculous that it leaves me speechless!
The so-called correctness... is ridiculous.
"Host...are you okay?"
The baby voice asked cautiously. The blue ocean in the brain was rolling so violently that the system felt that Zhen Zhu's emotions were fluctuating violently.
Zhen Zhu did not answer immediately. She needed some time to digest this heavy and dark truth.
Her original anger and annoyance towards Zhen Min'er were completely overwhelmed by a complex and bitter emotion at this moment.
Holding the cheese cat and shaking it, after a long while, the fox eyes finally focused. Zhen Zhu slowly spoke, her voice a little cold, but with an unquestionable firmness: "System, what about my setting? What is my setting in this so-called novel?"
Zhen Zhu really wanted to know what kind of life and meaning this vicious female supporting character was given in the author's writing.
The system fell silent again, trying to retrieve the information.
【Character setting: Zhen Zhu】
Origin: Top wealthy family, prominent family background.
Mother: He doted on her very much and died young.
Father: Zhen Hongbo, although he was born a Phoenix Man, he and Zhen's mother are truly in love and dote on their daughter.
Personality: A spoiled young lady, proud, arrogant, indifferent and dismissive of things, attaches great importance to her own emotions, and will not look down on herself because of what others say.
Interaction with Zhen Min'er: Initially, feeling lonely after his mother's death, and seeing Zhen Min'er (Sang Min'er) as small and pitiful, he took her in out of loneliness and took care of her as a playmate. Later, after his father married Sang Xiaohua, he felt betrayed and took his anger out on Zhen Min'er, reversing his attitude.
Relationship with the male protagonist: She is the male protagonist Jininglan's fiancée. Because the male protagonist transferred his affection to Zhen Min'er, she felt humiliated. Because of her "arrogance", she became jealous and began to target and bully Zhen Min'er, and instead pushed Zhen Min'er towards the male protagonist.
Ending: Due to her increasingly extreme and vicious behavior, she is disliked by her father, Zhen Hongbo, and is kicked out of the house. While renting a house, someone (connected to Jining Lan or Zhen Min'er) breaks in and attempts to rape her. Unable to bear the humiliation, she commits suicide.
Zhen Zhu looked at this concise setting that was enough to summarize a tragic life. The expression on her face changed from solemn at first to... a little cold, and finally even elicited a sarcastic sneer.
"Arrogant? Don't care about anything?"
Zhen Zhu pointed at the words in the settings, questioning the system, or rather the author and the world's consciousness. "Since my character is set to be arrogant and indifferent to everything, how could I take a fiance who changed his mind so seriously? And even become extreme and vicious because of it? Does this make sense?"
"Since my father dotes on me, how could he easily kick me out of the house just because of my 'extremeness'—especially since this extremeness was caused by his scandalous affair with Sang Xiaohua, without any regard for our father-daughter relationship or my life or death? This 'doting' is too cheap and too plastic."
"And, Phoenix Man?"
Zhen Zhu accurately grasped this word to describe her father. A sharp light flashed in her fox eyes, and she sneered at this: "This description is a Phoenix man who loves his wife and daughter? Isn't the author contradicting himself?"
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