Chapter 71 Gu Qingshi’s Diary
Qin Zeming took Gu Qingshi's notebook and left. After a while, Duan Lingling took it back with red eyes.
She ran out for a while before she realized that she had accidentally left her bag behind. She didn't want to come back, but when she thought of the newly bought lipstick in the bag, she was reluctant to come back to pick it up.
She also hoped that Qin Zeming could help her pick it up, which would mean that Qin Zeming had feelings for her, but Qin Zeming did not.
Duan Lingling felt more and more upset. After picking it up, she didn't bother to look at it any more. After confirming the lipstick, she left sadly.
Qin Zeming looked at the notebook and wanted to return it to Gu Qing, but he paused when he thought of the harsh words he had said last time.
"Forget it. I'll give it back to her someday when she talks to me."
Qin Zeming opened the drawers of his desk and looked around, but he felt it was not safe. He was afraid that someone would take the things away or find them, so he thought about it and decided to take the things back home.
When he got home and saw the notebook that seemed to have been written a lot, he was very curious about what was inside, so he couldn't help but open it and take a look.
Qin Zeming was stunned when he saw the three words "Diary" at a glance. He didn't expect it to be a diary.
Many little girls like to write in diaries. Qin Zeming knows that, and he also knows that he should not read them easily.
When he was in college, a girl wrote in her diary who she liked. When someone saw it, she cried it out loud, which caused a lot of laughter. Later, the girl was almost forced to commit suicide, which left a deep impression on him.
But Gu Qingshi's diary was in Duan Lingling's possession. "She even wanted to snatch the diary. I should have scolded her more if I had known."
Qin Zeming was indignant, "Not only did she rob it, but she also carried it with her. What did she want to do? Was she deliberately mocking Gu Qingshi?"
Qin Zeming's guess was correct. Duan Lingling did have this plan when she took Gu Qingshi's diary.
She just heard the news of the cancellation of the engagement and took the diary to make fun of Gu Qingshi.
Gu Qingshi has been so arrogant during this period, and she has long been displeased with him.
Qin Zeming put the diary in the drawer of his room. He respected people's privacy and had no intention of reading it.
But two days later, Qin Zeming unexpectedly met Sister Wang and Wang Dazhi at home again. Sister Wang had a sick relative, so she brought her relative to ask Grandpa Qin to see him.
Since everyone had come to the door, Grandpa Qin took a look and Qin Zeming also had the opportunity to say a few words to them.
Still thinking about what happened before, Qin Zeming asked a few questions indirectly, trying to find out whether Wang Dazhi was going to get married, but he unexpectedly learned that he was not. As for Gu Qingshi, Wang Dazhi only treated her as a sister.
Sister Wang still remembered how familiar Qin Zeming and Gu Qingshi were that day, so she said a few more words, saying that they had never had that kind of thought and they were just grateful to Gu Qingshi.
Qin Zeming only then realized that he had misunderstood Gu Qingshi that day. He thought of the unpleasant words he had said and began to regret it.
Qin Zeming wanted to apologize, but when he saw Gu Qing again in the hospital, she acted as if she didn't see him.
It was the same as before with Lu Yuan, and Qin Zeming felt more and more unhappy.
Qin Zeming was in a bad mood and had no more Gu Qingshi's food to eat. He lost his appetite and began to suffer from insomnia, constantly thinking back to the time when they quarreled.
That night, Qin Zeming couldn't sleep again, and he couldn't help but look at Gu Qingshi's diary again.
What would she write? Did she like him or not? Qin Zeming was once sure of the answer, but now he was doubtful. He suddenly wanted to know what Gu Qingshi felt.
"I'll just take a look and see what she will write." Qin Zeming finally couldn't resist the temptation and opened the notebook.
A notebook is also a luxury item for Gu Qingshi. It was bought for her by Gu Feng in the past, so she cherishes it very much. She has been recording in it intermittently from elementary school to junior high school.
In the beginning, Gu Qingshi's handwriting was still very immature, and he wrote very little. Most of what he wrote was about missing his father and wanting to go to school, and envying everyone who could go to school.
Later, she slowly wrote about being called a thief, the grievances she felt while working every day, and then how she almost missed school, and how Duan Renjie harassed her.
Qin Zeming clenched his fists as he watched. He didn't expect that Gu Qingshi lived such a life and had encountered such a thing.
This is exactly Gu Qingshi’s history of suffering, every step is so difficult.
In addition to the Duan family, Qin Zeming also witnessed Bai Zhen's inaction and terror. The words she said and the things she did made Qin Zeming shudder. He couldn't even imagine that a mother would do that.
When Gu Qingshi finally passed the entrance exam to the medical school after going through so much hardship, but was forced to give up his place to Duan Lingling, Qin Zeming's anger reached its peak, "Shame on you! How can there be people like you in this world! Damn it!"
The last sentence is hateful. He is scolding Duan’s family and also scolding himself.
He had said before that Gu Qingshi was greedy and obsessed with money, but after seeing the blood and tears of Gu Qingshi’s growth, seeing how hard she worked to earn money, how she had to beg Bai Zhen for a few cents for bus fare, and later how she even knelt down to beg them in order to continue her studies, he wanted to hit himself. What on earth had he done?
Qin Zeming almost rushed to the Duan family and dragged them out to beat them up, but he endured it and continued reading.
Gu Qingshi, who was driven into despair, wanted urgently to leave that home. Finally, she went to Qin's house again, and his name began to appear in her diary.
After seeing him, Gu Qingshi went home and fought to the end. She found the teacher and forced Duan Gang and others to let her go to school and prevent Duan Lingling from taking the place. She said that he had to become excellent so that he could be worthy of her.
In the next three years, Gu Qingshi studied hard every day to make himself better.
The Duan family never gave her a penny, and she managed to get through it all on her own. She tried hard to get her job assigned to the county hospital so that she could become his colleague.
Every winter and summer vacation became the time she looked forward to the most. She hated going back to the Duan family, but because he was in the hospital, she still came back every year and visited him carefully every time.
Gu Qingshi regarded him as hope and went to see him like that every time, but Qin Zeming didn't notice anything at first. Later, when he noticed it, he only saw disgust and felt that he had lost face.
Her colleagues called her the Black Girl and made fun of her, but he never said anything.
Until this moment, I saw the diary full of longing, and saw his name all over the diary.
Gu Qingshi put their names together and wrote them over and over again, sometimes adding a little flower or a little petal, wanting to give him the best and most beautiful one.
Her feelings were undoubtedly reflected on it. In fact, because of his name, she liked "Praise of the Humble House" and copied it carefully.
Qin Zeming got the answer he wanted, even an answer that was over 100 points, that Gu Qingshi really liked him.
Qin Zeming should have been happy about this, but his heart sank.
Because he realized more clearly how wrong he had been before and how much sincerity he had wasted, a unique sincerity that he might never get again in his life.
But he hurt her precious heart and her sincerity deeply. He was Gu Qingshi's only hope, but in the end he destroyed her hope with his own hands.
(End of this chapter)
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