Chapter 53 You chose to let me down (for the noble passerby Rocket)
"Are you threatening me?" Cui Si glanced at him coldly.
"No, I'm reminding you." Yan Xingchuan pressed the corners of his mouth, his eyelids drooping slightly, not daring to look at her, but the words he said were very firm.
"You have to understand that this time it was the Cui family that made the mistake first. If you dare not marry me, I can also choose not to marry a Cui family girl."
"If I don't marry the Cui family's daughter, it's hard to say what the Cui family's future will be like. Perhaps they won't even be half as good as they were in their previous life. Among my civil and military officials, they will be just like everyone else."
The reason why Cui Jing and Cui Yi were able to be granted the title of marquis in their previous life was probably mostly because they were indeed capable, but it was also because of Cui Si that they had more opportunities to achieve success.
There is also the Cui family, which became a powerful family in the world because of a queen.
"So what?" Cui Si smiled. "We've been married for many years. Don't you know me? You should know that I won't let myself be wronged if it's something I don't want to do."
Cui Si was not a foolish or stupid person. She carried the burden of her family's rise and fall on her shoulders. Moreover, the Cui family was not wiped out, it was just that they were not as glorious and prosperous as before.
Moreover, in life, you should rely on yourself and eat as much as you can according to your ability. As for help from others, it is just "my luck if I get it, and my fate if I lose it".
"If I really valued the Cui family that much, I wouldn't have asked for a divorce from you back then."
Yan Xingchuan's face froze slightly.
He should know her very well, as she is a very clear-headed person. There are very few people in this world who can make her compromise, not the Cui family, and not him either.
Maybe there really is, but they are only Old Lady Xu and Yan Du.
One is her dearest elder whom she respects and loves, and the other is her own flesh and blood whom she gave birth to and raised after ten months of pregnancy.
"You should go back to Pingzhou City." Cui Si's tone became a little calmer. "I don't want to discuss the past, the grudges between you and me. Perhaps we were both wrong from the beginning. Now that we have the opportunity to start over, why repeat the same mistakes?"
"Whether you want to marry a daughter of the Cui family or not, it's all fine. But I hope that when you leave this door today, you will say that you never set your sights on me either. Don't use the Cui family to pressure me anymore."
"If you still have some conscience, just let me go."
Yan Xingchuan's heart sank little by little, as if the abyss was endless and he kept falling.
Although he knew in his previous life that she wanted to part ways with him, go their separate ways, and never see each other again, he could not bear to hear her say such heartless words.
"Are you still bothered by Qingning's affairs? I can explain those things, what happened back then..."
"You don't have to explain, and I don't want to hear it." Cui Si shook her head. "You didn't explain back then, and there's no need to explain now. I only know what you did and what grievances you suffered. As for your difficulties, I don't want to hear them anymore."
"It's not that I don't want to tell you, I'm just... I'm afraid that if I tell you, you'll leave me." Yan Xingchuan poured himself a glass of wine and drank it.
"I know you're not unreasonable. If I'm in trouble, you can help me."
"But similarly, you can't tolerate any injustice, and you're very stubborn and proud. You'll definitely ask me for a divorce letter, and from now on, we'll go our separate ways."
"I...I just don't want to lose you..."
Cui Si was furious: "So you're going to abandon me and marry someone else, leaving me to suffer all kinds of injustice and be laughed at by others?"
"Since you know that I can't tolerate any sand in my eyes, then you know that from that moment on, there is no going back between you and me."
"If you have any conscience, why don't you just let it go and live your life to the fullest?"
"I didn't marry her!" Yan Xingchuan retorted, "She just wants to be the queen! She's just the queen! You are my wife!"
"What's the difference?"
"Of course there are differences. The queen is the queen, and the wife is the wife. Since what she wants is to be the queen, I have no choice but to do as she wishes." Yan Xingchuan closed his eyes.
"But then I thought, after she's gone, after I've pacified the world and Yandu has grown up, I'll give all these to him, and we'll retire to the mountains together. It'll just be you and me, husband and wife, without an emperor or empress."
"You should know that my Yan family was the former Zhenbei Marquisate. Due to the old emperor's suspicion, we were accused of treason and the entire family was sentenced to death. I... was able to escape this fate because I was a guest at my maternal grandfather's Lin family."
"The imperial court came to the Lin family to arrest me. To protect me, the Lin family sent my cousin, who looked a bit like me and was the same age, to take my place. He was killed on the spot by the imperial court."
"That night, a huge fire broke out at the Lin family's residence. Over two hundred people, including forty-three members of the Lin clan, were killed by the imperial guards. Only Qingning and I were secretly sent away by the Lin family..."
"Qing Ning and I were on the run, and I lost her. She fell into the hands of thieves, and suffered torture throughout her life. By the time the army captured the Imperial City and rescued her, she was already exhausted."
"Her only wish is for me to abide by the marriage alliance agreed upon by the Yan and Lin families and marry her. She wants to be the queen..."
He had no other choice.
Forty-three members of the Lin clan died because of the Yan family's involvement, and his cousin even died to protect him. He also lost Lin Qingning, causing her to suffer so much...
The lives of the Lin family and his guilt towards Lin Qingning left him with no other choice.
He couldn't bear to watch Lin Qingning die with her eyes wide open and filled with hatred.
"I know." Cui Si said suddenly.
Yan Xingchuan was stunned: "You know?"
He had never dared to tell her that because he knew that she might understand him and agree with him, but she would definitely ask him for a divorce and separate from him.
Therefore, he didn't dare to tell her, nor was he willing to let her go. He just forced her to wait for him, wait for Lin Qingning to die, wait for him to pacify the world, and then take her away.
Cui Si hummed, "Actually, after you left, Chen Mo told me everything. He told me about your difficulties and that you wanted to take me away."
Yan Xingchuan's eyes lit up: "Then you...then if you are willing, I..."
"I don't want to." Cui Si's tone was slightly cold. "I know your difficulties, and I know you have no choice, but what I can't accept is that you chose to be worthy of her, but chose to be unworthy of me."
"I've been married to you for over a decade, walking side by side with you through thick and thin, but in the end, you were the one who stabbed me the hardest."
"Even if you didn't mean to stab me, you stabbed me, and I took the blow, so you're wronging me."
"To me, it's you who are ungrateful and abandoned your wife. I can understand your difficulties, but I cannot forgive what you did."
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