Xin He said, "Where should I go back to? Don’t forget, I just tried to assassinate the Imperial Concubine, and the whole capital city is searching for me."
"Go to the farmhouse I took you to last time. There must be someone there waiting for me. You stay there first and wait for me to come back." Mu Houchu spoke with difficulty.
Xin He’s eyes were red, staring at him, "I’m waiting for you, will you come back? Can you come back? You want to deceive me away again!"
Mu Houchu knew when he saw her like this that she must have guessed everything. It was impossible to hide it from her, so he simply sighed softly, "Xin He, I don’t know if soaking in the hot springs will work now."
After all, the hot spring could only reduce the effect of the herbal medicine, and he usually soaked in it, which could be considered as reducing the drug’s potency. But today, he had already been eroded by Old Man Chen’s drugs, and he was considered half a medicine man. Even he himself didn’t know if there was any hope left, and whether he could resist the murderous intent within him in the end, eventually becoming a mindless living dead, existing as a killing tool for just one more hour.
If the hot spring works, that would naturally be the best. But what if it doesn’t? By now, the murderous intent he had suppressed had become unbearably painful. He was afraid that he couldn’t resist it any longer and would hurt her. What should he do then?
Xin He bit her lip, her eyes filled with stubbornness, "I know."
"If, if the hot springs don’t work, and I can’t control myself, I’m afraid of hurting you." Mu Houchu’s voice was tinged with helplessness.
Xin He’s eyes became even redder, "There’s no one in this wilderness, and if you really can’t control yourself, I don’t believe you can hurt me."
"Xin He..."
Xin He jumped into the hot springs with a "splash" and hugged him tightly, "I don’t care! I won’t go, I want to stay here with you, I’m not afraid, with you by my side, I’m not afraid of anything."
Don’t think she doesn’t know that if the hot spring doesn’t work, he can only torment himself for one hour alone in this wilderness, and then die in agony! How could she let him be alone here?
If she left, she would truly regret it for the rest of her life.
Xin He held him so tightly in her green arms that it seemed as if she wanted to be embedded in his bones. It was a hot summer day, and she was wearing thin clothes. Once she entered the water, it was like a thin yarn that could hardly cover her. The two bodies were pressed tightly together, separated only by two layers of already soaked clothes. She wished she could transfer all her body heat to him.
Under normal circumstances, Mu Houchu would certainly feel hot all over. But at this moment, his body was still cold, and it was only in this warm hot spring that the chill was somewhat dispelled with her embrace. However, the restless murderous intent in his body was still difficult to endure.
But he couldn’t compromise. Once his mind wavered even slightly, the murderous intent would surge in his heart, becoming uncontrollable and turning him into a puppet.
It seemed that Xin He could feel the murderous intent surging within him. She suddenly leaned on his chest and said, "Do you still remember the first time we met?"
Mu Houchu clenched his fists in his sleeves, trying to maintain a clear mind and responded to her words, "Hmm."
"After that time, you said you wanted to kill me to vent your anger. But for some reason, I was never afraid. I don’t know if it’s because I’m too courageous or because I inexplicably believe that you won’t kill me." Xin He’s voice was soft, with a hint of trembling.
"Hmm?"
"You said if today you ultimately couldn’t control yourself and became a living dead and a puppet for killing, then the first person you would kill would be me. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. After all, if you can’t survive this ordeal, you’ll die, and I’ll be the only one left alive. That feels even more pointless." Xin He sniffled, sounding like she was sulking and sad. 𝓯𝙧𝓮𝓮𝒘𝓮𝙗𝙣𝒐𝒗𝒆𝓵.𝓬𝓸𝒎
Mu Houchu felt a pain in his heart, raised his hand to hold her, and said with difficulty, "It won’t happen."
Kill her? The woman he treasured with all his heart; he didn’t even know how distressed he was when she cried, let alone hurt her.
Xin He muttered, "Actually, I’ve never been afraid of death, not at all."
In her previous life, she lived with her life tied to her waist and had the rough fate of an assassin. Her untimely death didn’t evoke any particular feelings – death was just death. In this life, she was even less afraid, because those who have died once are even more courageous!
"But, I just feel unwilling." Xin He said.
Mu Houchu looked down at her, "What are you unwilling about?"
"I haven’t been able to marry you yet, of course I’m unwilling. The first wedding, ultimately, was destroyed. Now our wedding is in a month, just a month." Xin He took a deep breath and said in a muffled voice, "I haven’t been a bride yet."
Mu Houchu’s body stiffened slightly, and he whispered, "Xin He..."
Xin He bit her lip and said, "You will give me that opportunity, right?"
Mu Houchu was silent for a long time before holding her tight, "I will."
Xin He lay in his arms, her body soaked in the warm waters of the hot springs, but when she touched Mu Houchu’s body, it was still icy cold. She held him even tighter. He must live. He must live!
"Do you know? This time, at the Princess’s residence, I saw Lady Ding. This shameless woman wanted to frame me again, but she’s just a minor character, so I didn’t take her seriously. But when I saw her, I thought of Xiao Bei and big brother, and of Xiao Cui who had already married into the family, as well as Hong Qin and Jin Bao. I thought of so many people from Yang Luo Bay. I really want to go back.
You also said before that you would take me back to Yang Luo Bay. You didn’t forget, did you? I remember it. I don’t know how Xiao Bei is doing in her studies now, whether or not she’s grown taller, whether big brother still doesn’t know how to live, and whether Xiao Cui can control big brother."
Xin He said, pulling the corners of her lips, "I don’t like it here. Shall we go back to Yang Luo Bay?"
"Alright..." Mu Houchu also pulled at the corners of his lips. Whatever she wanted, he would give to her.
"I still remember last winter when it snowed heavily, and we went to the field. But the snow was too thick, and I couldn’t walk. In the end, you had to carry me back. You always say that I’m insincere, but which woman isn’t insincere? Besides, you’re so domineering, always wanting to control everything about me. If I were to always go along with you, wouldn’t you reach the sky? Especially since you’re the type of person who shines bright when given just a little sunshine..."
Xin He rambled on. Normally, she didn’t have so much to say, but for some reason, she couldn’t stop talking now. She didn’t know if it was because she was afraid that after this, he wouldn’t be able to hear her anymore, or if she was trying to keep him awake with these words, so that he could stay conscious.
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