Chapter 34 You actually left me, but I still miss you so much.
Ethan has been gone for a week, and Selene still can't accept his departure.
Seven days ago, when Selene regained consciousness, all she could see in her chaotic home were two bodies lying on the floor.
Selene knew what had happened when she saw the scene, but she still couldn't believe it. She practically crawled to Ethan's side, her fingers trembling as she placed them on her cold heart, but nothing came out.
Tears welled up uncontrollably, but Selene still refused to accept the reality. She continued to perform CPR on Ethan, pressing harder on his already stiffening body.
“Ethan, Ethan…” Selene choked back tears, blurring her vision of Ethan. She didn’t dare stop moving, despair quickly overwhelming her: “My star, Ethan, star… my child, wake up…”
The person she kept calling never responded to her, unlike in her memory when he would respond with bright eyes when she called him, a rare and dazzling presence for her.
Her child, her Ethan, her star.
He lived only 5116 days in this terrible world, and spent only 5409 days and nights with her.
Selene felt that 5409 days was both short and long enough, and that Ethan was so heartless as to abandon her.
She couldn't believe it. When she woke up, all she saw was her scumbag husband and her beloved child dying together. She had been in a coma for so long after being shot in the head that Ethan was stiff when she woke up.
She finally couldn't hold back any longer, stopped the futile CPR, and, holding her child, burst into tears.
Unlike the numb tears of the past, these were silent, dim, and a silent endurance of everything.
Her cries were hoarse, desperate, and painful, like the angry cries of a mother animal losing her cub, all mixed together.
I hate it so much.
How hateful! Why did this have to happen to them? She should have gotten rid of her scumbag husband long ago, then this wouldn't have happened.
Ethan was too young, too young in her eyes, and indeed too young in a country where those under 21 cannot drink alcohol.
She even wondered if she wouldn't have encountered this situation if she hadn't given birth to Ethan. Even if she had already resolved to die and had no desire to live, she shouldn't have brought a life into this world so casually.
But she was too selfish back then, she wanted a family that belonged only to her, and she regretted it, she really regretted it.
Now, she wants to be with her child, but before that, she needs to bury Ethan properly.
Selene fetched a basin of water and carefully wiped the blood off Ethan's face. She also dried the area around the wound on Ethan's neck. So much time had passed that the blood had congealed, and Selene had to wipe it several times to get it completely clean.
At this moment, Selene seemed to calm down again, wiping over and over again until Ethan's blood-covered face reappeared.
Selene chose a decent burial plot, bought Ethan a new set of clothes, personally put him in the coffin, and buried him with handfuls of soil.
Ethan didn't take many photos with her. He couldn't find a proper solo photo that could be used as a funeral portrait, so he could only crop out a picture of her, leaving one of Ethan smiling happily.
Selene found a famous dealer who claimed to have everything—intelligence, weapons, medicine, and more.
Selene bought poison from her. It was a colorless and odorless substance that first made the person who took it unconscious, then began to paralyze their heart. Because the person wouldn't wake up midway, it was quite popular.
Just as they were about to leave, a group of menacing-looking people rushed in and headed straight for the trafficker.
Selene recognized them; they were a sizable gang in Starfall City. A gang...?
Selene paused her drug-drinking routine. What was wrong with her? How could she be so careless? She had even forgotten that it wasn't just that scumbag who was rotten.
This city has been rotting from the inside out. Despite being in the same country, it's like a completely different world compared to other cities. Not only does it have the highest crime rate in the country, but it's also notoriously bad in its social atmosphere—too many people are inactive.
This won't do, Selene thought.
Simply burying Ethan and planning to take the medicine later wasn't enough for Selene. She wanted to avenge Ethan. Even though the scumbag was dead, his gang was still alive, wasn't it?
Moreover, Starfall City isn't just plagued by that one scumbag's faction; too many people are suffering because of it. Let her come, let her help everyone.
Selene first joined one of the factions.
Because Starfall City is not as friendly as other cities, it is full of discrimination and is truly malicious.
When Selene first joined as a woman, they didn't think much of it, only that she would leave in tears within two days, a thought that they held in contempt.
Selene climbed higher and higher, eventually surpassing them in rank, but they remained defiant, believing that Selene had risen to power through her body and still disregarding her.
It wasn't until Selene successfully killed the boss and took over that they finally truly believed this woman possessed extraordinary strength.
But they were still unconvinced; discrimination was deeply ingrained, and they felt they could play too.
Selene, of course, paid no heed to these people and killed them all. Then he tried to annex the other major powers, or at least throw them into chaos.
Selene has always been a quick learner and a fast learner; even if she has never been exposed to this kind of thing before, she can do it with ease.
Selene no longer cared. A mother who had lost her anchor had little desire to live, but her burning desire for revenge against everyone kept her awake at night, tossing and turning, thinking about how to deal with them, how to make the city even more chaotic, and how to truly avenge her child.
Selene didn't know that she just wanted to do her best, to do even better.
Some people were shocked by her ruthless methods and tried to win her over with benefits. They tried power, money, and beauty. In just a few weeks, Selene was able to "bump into" her in various places with different styles, but without exception, all of them were handsome men and beautiful women with high looks.
At first, they sent her men, considering that Selene was a woman. Later, seeing that she was unmoved, and thinking that there were homosexuals in the world, they also tried sending her women, but she remained unmoved. They even tried transvestites, but Selene remained stubbornly unmoved.
But there was nothing they could do. They firmly believed that the message hadn't hit the mark, so they sent it to all sorts of monsters and demons until Selene was pushed to the limit again, and then another fight broke out.
In reality, there's not much to say about the fighting. It's nothing more than scheming against each other, making the other side suffer small losses first, and then the friction escalates. They show no mercy in transactions, making everyone suffer losses in every aspect, and even taking away everyone's share of the pie, affecting their industries and profits.
And so, Selene successfully became the target of everyone's pursuit. She did gain power and a path to climb higher, but in return, everyone around her wanted to kill her. At any moment, under any circumstances, they might suddenly draw their weapons to assassinate her.
Selene is no longer the person she used to be, someone who would hold back. Ethan is dead, and she no longer worries about anyone hurting Ethan, so she goes all out.
She also arranged assassinations of varying degrees for everyone. Killing someone and giving them a warning are two different things; letting them die was worse than living in fear and trembling with dread. Her shadow followed them relentlessly, making each day unbearable, filled with fear, and leaving them powerless to do anything.
Selene was repeatedly confronted with pointed fingers and curses of the devil, but she felt these were not insults, but praise, an award bestowed upon her, proving to everyone what she had done.
Selene's time was running out.
She always complained that she wasn't good enough and that everything was too slow. When she couldn't sleep, she would look at Ethan's picture and wonder why she couldn't be faster. She was never satisfied.
She certainly couldn't keep Xingxing waiting down there for so long; he might get impatient, and Selene could never bear to do that.
In countless dreams, Selene would dream of Ethan. Ethan weeping, Ethan lying in a pool of blood, Ethan clutching his neck in despair, all his unspoken words reduced to repeated cries of "Mommy, I'm not in pain."
It was dreaming of Ethan that made Selene feel that life was even harder to endure. She had even more difficulty falling asleep and had to take sleeping pills before bed to fall asleep. She would wake up feeling groggy.
At this point, she would naturally choose to act even more outrageously towards everyone, and wouldn't let it go even if others asked, "Who provoked this crazy woman again?"
In the first month after Ethan's death, Selene took over the first faction and began to develop it.
In the first month and a half after Ethan's death, Selene absorbed all the gangs and was eyed by the old fogies in the shadows, leading to a back-and-forth struggle.
In the second month after Ethan's death, Selene defeated the old fogies, killing those who obeyed and those who disobeyed, and climbed all the way to the core of Starfall City, where she gained the greatest power, turning Starfall City into her personal fiefdom.
During her efforts, she inevitably caused chaos in Starfall City. For example, when she was fighting with those old fogies, they would bury small fireworks to blow up each other's important industries as a sign of goodwill.
The lives of the Starfall people are closely intertwined with those of the gangs, and they are all affected to some extent. During that time, ordinary people were terrified and dared not go out much. Although they were bold, the outside world was a battlefield where people were being beaten to death, and going out for a stroll was simply courting death.
Selene felt that it was about time.
She dug a hole next to Ethan's grave, lay down in it, and drank the poison she had bought, then casually tossed the empty bottle aside.
In her hazy state, she adjusted her direction and turned to face Ethan.
Click.
It was the sound of raindrops falling, a soft patter as if mourning her, and a chill in the air.
It's nice to be able to see her star again, isn't it?
Selene didn't want to dig up Ethan's grave again after two months; that would be too extreme and could be considered disturbing Ethan. It was fine as long as it was next door, where she could be with her child.
And so, Selene Nix, who had been feared and dreaded by everyone, and who had reached the pinnacle of power in Starfall City in just two months—a position no one else dared to even dream of—committed suicide by poisoning herself in an ordinary cemetery.
It wasn't until the next day that she was discovered, and upon inspection, it was found that the grave next door was that of her child who had died two months earlier.
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Author's Note: It is recommended to consume this in conjunction with the "Cloud Garment and Feather Robe Melody".
If Ethan didn't become the Guardian and actually died, what would the ending be?
5409 includes the period of pregnancy. There are some ideas in Selene that I don't agree with, but she was a bit extreme when she lost Ethan. The characters' values don't represent the author's values.
Happy ending: You avenged your child.
Happy ending: You notice a sudden increase in your power. You take a look at your city and discover that a mother, devastated by the loss of her child, has thrown the city into chaos before following her child in death. You gain power without giving anything in return.
My head started hurting when I found out there were two pirated posts today. It hurts so much QAQ. I don't think it's just psychological. I don't think I'm in such a hurry. Can my head be a little more reasonable?
I want to write about the fall of Selene and Bertha.
I'm really bad at rigor mortis; I used to have to refer to books when I wrote.
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