Chapter 110 (First Release)...
When Ansel said he had "hidden" some food, his expression didn't seem like he was joking.
"Humans are naturally more self-centered; it's human nature, an irresistible desire, isn't it?"
Ning Wanwan paused for a moment, then said softly, "Yes."
Ning Wanwan herself had to admit that, deep down, she wanted to live more than anyone else.
only……
"According to your logic, if you were to hoard food, it would only be for your own benefit, which is perfectly understandable."
Ning Wanwan said slowly, "Besides, it's not called 'hidden hoarding.' It was food you brought. I'm just living off your food now."
This time it was Ansel's turn to be stunned.
"Wanwan, you are so funny."
Ning Wanwan: "..."
Ning Wanwan: "Isn't what I said true?"
Isn't this the kind of thinking that normal people would have?
Ansel: "That's true, but in this kind of environment, enduring this level of hunger would have made most people lose their minds long ago."
"The terror brought by the approaching death is beyond anyone's imagination; it cannot be fully described without personal experience."
Ansel paused for a moment: "Not to mention, when a good person is too good, others will gradually take it for granted."
He gave Ning Wanwan a knowing smirk, "So, people like Wanwan are actually very rare."
Ning Wanwan pursed her lips and asked cautiously, "Have you... encountered a situation like this before?"
Ansel paused for a moment.
"Wanwan, why is it that your focus is always different from what I expect?"
He asked with great curiosity, "It's really hard to imagine how you developed this kind of personality."
Ning Wanwan: "..." How did she develop this kind of personality? Was it caused by severe social anxiety?
"Is my personality strange?" she couldn't help but ask.
"It is a little strange," Ansel nodded, "but it's very cute."
"It's so cute I can hardly resist."
"Oh dear, if one day I accidentally put Wanwan in a sack and take her away, please don't blame me, Wanwan."
Ning Wanwan: "..."
Ning Wanwan said helplessly, "Stop joking."
However, with these few words of conversation, the previously tense atmosphere suddenly relaxed.
"But Wanwan, I really have to tell you, we don't have much food left." This time, Ansel finally told Ning Wanwan the whole truth.
"You could even say this is the last one."
He carefully pulled a palm-sized paper packet from the bottom of his backpack.
Ning Wanwan faced the remaining amount of food head-on. Although it was worse than she had imagined, Ning Wanwan surprisingly calmed down.
"At least we still have food," Ning Wanwan said. "Holding on until the very last moment is victory."
The rest are things that you can't change on your own, so don't dwell on them.
Ansel looked at the girl who remained rational and serious, a hint of surprise flashing in his eyes.
"I've seen the crazy side of many people, it's a real shame..."
Ning Wanwan: "What?"
The blond boy's voice was too low for Ning Wanwan to hear clearly.
Ansel had his head down, seemingly lost in thought. When he heard the girl's question, he suddenly looked up and flashed a perfectly normal smile.
Then he raised his hand and carefully wiped away the tears that Ning Wanwan had left on her face because she had cried so anxiously.
"It's nothing, I'm just a little disappointed that I didn't get to see another side of Wanwan."
"However, Wanwan is also quite interesting because she is serious and stubborn."
It makes you want to see just how long they can suppress this will to survive and hold on.
Where Ning Wanwan couldn't see, Ansel curiously licked his fingertip.
After tasting that salty, bitter flavor of human tears, which was completely unfamiliar to him, he realized...
The boy narrowed his eyes slightly, revealing a hint of bewitching purple.
...
I don't know how many days have passed since that conversation.
Because Ning Wanwan forced Ansel to eat, this time Ansel finally stopped resisting and obediently ate what Ning Wanwan told him to do. However, as a result, the already meager amount of food was almost gone.
Ansel sighed, "Wanwan, I really can still bear it."
Ning Wanwan: "Hehe. I don't believe you!"
Ansel had no choice but to puff out his cheeks and chew the food that Ning Wanwan had forced into his mouth.
After the food ran out completely, the following time became even more difficult to endure.
At first, I still had some strength, but later on, I didn't even have the energy to speak.
Ning Wanwan and Ansel basically stopped saying or doing anything, trying to conserve their energy.
"Fortunately, although there's no food, there's plenty of snow water, which is lucky, isn't it?" Ansel swallowed the cold water, still in the mood to joke, winking at her in a playful manner.
However, Ning Wanwan could tell that he was also nearing his limit, and he was only doing this to make her feel better.
Ning Wanwan forced a smile, took the water bag filled with snow water from Ansel, and whispered a thank you.
Cold snow water can provide the body with the necessary hydration, but that's about it.
That invisible demon was whispering in my ear again.
[Haven't we reached the point where we have to make a choice, as you mentioned?]
Ning Wanwan didn't open her eyes, pursed her lips slightly, and neither spoke nor responded.
As time passed, Ning Wanwan became even more drowsy.
"Anseil..." After some time, she suddenly realized that Anseil seemed to have not moved for a long time, and called out with some difficulty.
There has been no response.
Ning Wanwan's heart tightened, and she quickly moved over to check on Ansel's condition.
Ansel's eyes were tightly closed, his face pale, and Ning Wanwan's calls failed to wake him up.
However, Ning Wanwan was slightly relieved to find that he was still breathing.
He had probably not eaten and had fallen into a coma.
Aren't you going to do anything?
That devil is speaking again.
Ning Wanwan paused for a moment, then genuinely couldn't help but respond with a puzzled look: "What?"
[Aren't you going to take action? Now is the best time.]
To survive, you have to give up some things; there's nothing shameful about that, given the will to live.
"What do you mean?" Ning Wanwan couldn't stand this pretentious nonsense.
[Even without food, people can still be considered a form of "food," so this is a viable option when all else fails.]
[When people are starving, cannibalism is a common occurrence throughout history, isn't it?]
Ning Wanwan: "..."
Her eyes widened, whether from the sheer horror of the devil or from the shock of her inner turmoil, it was hard to tell.
[I know you've reached your limit.]
[In this state, neither of you will survive. Why don't you consider what I'm saying?]
[You feel the same way, don't you? You want to escape this terrible hunger, you want to live. But you can't fool me.]
[Or are you saying that it's not the right time yet?]
Ning Wanwan: "..."
Ning Wanwan: "Hmm, it's not time yet."
Ning Wanwan's affirmative words silenced the devil.
[you……]
"Also, you said that people can't resist desires, so why is Ansel able to do it?" Ning Wanwan asked again.
[...]
[Hmph, of course it's because he has bigger desires.]
Ning Wanwan: "Then tell me, what is it?"
The devil fell silent again, as if he had never appeared.
Ning Wanwan lowered her eyes. This devil was like her dark side, revealing many of her thoughts, even fleeting little ideas.
Therefore, it is even more tempting.
Ning Wanwan doesn't deny that she is selfish, but she tries her best to restrain her selfishness most of the time.
Therefore, Ning Wanwan understood Ansel even less.
Ning Wanwan had never really understood why Ansel would go to such lengths, giving her most of the food, when they had only known each other for a few days.
Under such near-unprincipled indulgence, people may increasingly take it for granted.
However, despite Ning Wanwan's seemingly gentle and easy-going personality, there is always an insurmountable line in her heart that separates her from others.
This made her never take Ansel's kindness for granted, and instead she became increasingly confused.
How exactly did Ansel manage to achieve that level?
To be honest, Ning Wanwan could say she couldn't do that herself.
However, since the other party has gone to such lengths, Ning Wanwan cannot act recklessly out of selfishness.
I really want to live, but it's not time to abandon everything for a chance to survive.
Ning Wanwan sighed silently, called out to Ansel a few more times, and waited a little while, hoping that Ansel would open his eyes, but Ansel still did not wake up.
"[Hasn't it reached the time you mentioned yet?]" The devil seemed quite dissatisfied and reappeared.
Ning Wanwan only regarded this devil as an inner struggle, after all, she did not yet have any understanding of the existence of "unreasonable" beings in this world.
As for monsters, in Ning Wanwan's understanding, they were disgusting, terrifying beasts that could be killed, and had nothing to do with non-realistic existences.
She actually suspected that she might be under too much pressure in this environment, and that she might be experiencing problems such as auditory hallucinations or schizophrenia.
"No, no, I've said it so many times, aren't you annoying!" The demon in her heart was so annoying that Ning Wanwan finally lost her temper.
[...]
[Then you can just wait to die.]
[It's better that you died. You sacrificed yourself so he could live. After all, you're so kind and have such principles.]
The devil started speaking in a sarcastic tone, and it was unclear who he was mocking.
Ning Wanwan: "..."
Ning Wanwan imagined it for a moment and couldn't help but shudder.
Ning Wanwan: "...I'm not that righteous yet."
Then, she ignored the devil.
She thought for a moment, then pulled a deflated paper packet from her pocket.
"I originally wanted you to be a little more conscious so you could eat it yourself, but now I have to feed you."
She carefully opened the paper package and held the two remaining small pieces of dry biscuit to Ansel's lips.
This was given to her by Ansel before, but she didn't eat it and secretly kept it.
Now it has come in handy.
Actually, Ning Wanwan had a tiny bit of selfish motive when she left this little bit of food.
What if we manage to hold out until the end thanks to this?
However, Ning Wanwan still chose to feed Ansel the food.
"I guess this is my choice... for now," Ning Wanwan muttered to herself uncertainly.
She actually didn't have much confidence in her own humanity.
However, making this choice made her feel a little relieved, so Ning Wanwan wasn't in a bad mood.
[...]
The problem was that Ansel was unconscious, his mouth was tightly closed, and food couldn't be fed to him.
Ning Wanwan frowned, a troubled expression on her face.
[It's not too late to take your food back.]
The devil started speaking in a sarcastic tone again.
Ning Wanwan: "..."
Ning Wanwan: "Shut up."
Ning Wanwan tried to pry open Ansel's mouth with her hands, but no matter what she tried, it didn't work.
[Isn't there a story about Sleeping Beauty being awakened by a kiss? Why don't you try it?] The devil had no intention of shutting up.
Ning Wanwan:: "..." Who would believe such a story!
But after trying everything again to no avail, Ning Wanwan started to get anxious.
"How can I get him to eat it...?"
[I told you, I'll show you what I'm saying.] The devil was still making sarcastic remarks.
Ning Wanwan really had no other choice.
Perhaps she was out of her mind, because she actually started thinking about whether or not to listen to the devil and give it a try.
However, she still hesitated, firstly because she felt it was outrageous, and secondly because she had a frivolous feeling that it was an attempt to take advantage of others...
The devil waited as long as Ning Wanwan struggled with her decision.
[Are you so stingy that you won't even let anyone touch your mouth?]
Ning Wanwan wasn't sure if it was just her imagination, but she felt that this devil was inexplicably impatient.
It seemed as if they were waiting for something, unable to contain themselves any longer.
"What do you mean stingy... What nonsense are you talking about? Is this a matter of being stingy or not!" Ning Wanwan was a little annoyed, feeling that the "devil" in her heart was simply inexplicable.
[If you're not stingy, then why won't you even try?] The devil stopped pretending and started sneering repeatedly.
Finally, she decided to believe in the devil for a moment, and tentatively, she lowered her head while biting into her food.
The boss of a certain level was finally temporarily satisfied.
The snow has stopped.
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