"sorry……"
Su Luo didn't know what to say to make up for the hurt that Ozawa Nami had suffered.
Nami Ozawa raised her hand to wipe away her tears, her heart breaking.
"You can leave now, this is the end of it."
She really couldn't take it anymore; this was the third time Su Luo had hurt herself because of Song Lingshan.
She pessimistically felt that if she continued dating Su Luo, there would definitely be a fourth, a fifth time...
If things continue like this, one day Su Luo will return to Song Lingshan's side.
Rather than letting Song Lingshan steal Su Luo away, she'd rather let go voluntarily.
In fact, she always felt that she was inferior to Song Lingshan. She was not as young, not as rich or powerful, and had known Su Luo for as long as she had.
She took advantage of Su Luo's most vulnerable and dejected moment, and her victory was anything but honorable.
So it was destined to fail, and I guess I deserve it.
Perhaps she should have backed out decisively when she found out that Su Luo was Song Lingshan's ex-boyfriend, and things wouldn't have turned out this way.
It would have been better if Su Luo hadn't saved him back then; she might as well have just died.
Knowing full well that the essence of life is pain and torment, she still naively believed that Su Luo was the prince charming in the fairy tale who would save her from the abyss.
When Su Luo heard that Ozawa Nami wanted to break up with him, he was struck dumb. Tears welled up in his eyes, and he choked out.
"No, Nami-nee, please don't abandon me. I really know I was wrong. Please believe me one more time..."
"Please, don't abandon me. I promise I'll be obedient from now on. I'll be good. I really won't upset you again..."
"You said you would never abandon me, no matter what. Have you forgotten?"
Perhaps Ozawa Nami was too kind to him, and he subconsciously mistakenly believed that no matter what wrong he had done.
Nami Ozawa would forgive him unconditionally because she had always loved him unconditionally and selflessly.
Be tolerant and caring towards him like a mother.
It was the best gift God had given him, and his eternal safe haven, for his insignificant and humble self.
Nami Ozawa clenched her fist, her fingertips digging into the lines on her palm, and said excitedly.
"Yes, I did say that, but you can't treat me like this. You take advantage of my feelings for you and hurt me again and again. I'm not an angel, I'm just an ordinary woman. I get sad and I get hurt. I just want a simple relationship. I don't need him to be outstanding, I just hope he can love me wholeheartedly."
"I admit I still love you, but I can't afford it anymore. I don't want to continue. I've really had enough!"
"You still love her, so why are you lying to yourself and to me? You only came back today to explain to me out of a sense of responsibility."
Su Luo suddenly fell silent. He began to seriously consider why he insisted on leaving Ozawa Nami to go see Song Lingshan today.
Is it because I still love her?
Was it really out of a sense of responsibility towards Ozawa Nami that he rejected Song Lingshan's feelings and came back to apologize to Ozawa Nami?
It doesn't seem so.
His feelings for Song Lingshan were complex and profound. They had been through so much together, six years of life, and were each other's first love.
They were deeply in love, broke up, and tormented each other.
But he felt mostly guilty towards her.
He wronged her. At the height of their relationship, he listened to her father's words and dumped her without giving her a reasonable explanation.
Even after she returned to China, he still had entanglements with her. He clearly couldn't let her go, but he didn't have the courage to take things further with her.
He had hurt her time and time again because of his cowardice. Even though he was passive, his body's reaction didn't lie, and he repeatedly made Song Lingshan have fantasies about him.
I hurt her again today.
It also hurt Nami Ozawa.
He now finally understands that all his previous choices were wrong, and that he shouldn't have hesitated when it came to his feelings.
When you decide to be with someone, never give up easily, no matter how many difficulties and obstacles you encounter along the way.
If you really break up, then never see each other again, and become the most familiar strangers.
This time, he wants to truly say goodbye to his past, terrible self, along with that unforgettable first love.
He really wants to be a responsible and good man, and he wants to cherish the person in front of him.
"I really don't love her anymore. I know you might not believe me. I'm sorry, I know I've really hurt you this time. I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I hope you believe me. I truly love you, and all the promises I made to you were sincere. I never intended to deceive you..."
Nami Ozawa said wearily.
"Go now, take good care of yourself and live a good life..."
She simply couldn't bring herself to believe Su Luo's words anymore. She was truly exhausted and didn't want to get entangled with Su Luo any further.
It's pointless now.
Life is so meaningless, so utterly boring.
Su Luo sniffed and said in a hoarse voice.
"I can leave, but can you promise me one thing?"
Nami Ozawa asked blankly, "What is it?"
Su Luo pleaded softly through the crack in the door.
"Please, please don't do anything foolish..."
His intuition told him that Ozawa Nami had just been giving her her last words.
Nami Ozawa blinked, trying hard not to shed tears, and said somewhat frantically.
"Wouldn't it be better if I died? You wouldn't have any more psychological burden, and you could go to Song Lingshan openly and honestly."
Su Luo was also provoked by her words and said angrily.
"If you really want to die, then open the door and take me with you!"
Ozawa Nami thought she had misheard and asked in surprise.
"What did you say?"
Su Luo steeled himself and repeated loudly.
"I said, if you really want to die, take me with you, don't leave me alone."
He wasn't just saying it casually; if Nami Ozawa really died because of him, he would have no face to live on.
Nami Ozawa suddenly laughed.
"Okay, I was just kidding. Don't worry, I won't do anything stupid. I still have to take care of my mother. It's getting late, you should go back now. I need to rest."
Hearing Ozawa Nami laugh, Su Luo felt even more uneasy and asked worriedly.
"No, I... I don't believe you unless you swear you're not lying to me?"
Nami Ozawa said helplessly.
"Okay, okay, I swear, I really won't do anything stupid again. I will live a good life. You can go now."
Living is so boring.
But if I really die, and Su Luo goes to be with me out of guilt, what will happen to Nini?
She is only twelve years old and no longer has biological parents. If her adoptive father also leaves, how will she face the future?
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