Chapter 65 The author is so excited
The sharp cries of water birds flew over the sails. He grabbed the back of my collar with one hand and threw me into the magnificent cabin without mercy.
I was thrown on the soft and thick Persian carpet. I struggled to raise my head, and suddenly my eyes went dark. The bright sunlight was locked outside the door by Li Siyan.
He stood in front of the screen against the light, laughing wantonly. His already evil and handsome face became even more seductive, and he looked more like a real madman than I did.
Or maybe he was really trying very hard and being very careful to endure it in front of me at the beginning, but now all his hopes are shattered and he doesn't want to endure it any longer.
Just as I closed my eyes, waiting for him to punish me, he glanced at my bloody hands, took out a box of medicine powder, and carefully tied it up with a clean tape.
"Don't dirty the bed." He whispered, "You always get yourself skinned and bruised. This is not a good habit."
His movements were very gentle, but I couldn't help but shiver.
After doing all this, he took out another medicine bottle, slowly poured out a pill, and handed it to my mouth.
I turned my head, but he forcefully straightened it, pinched my cheek, and forced the pill in.
He said calmly, "You said my touch made you feel sick, and you endured it with grievance every time. It made me feel really distressed."
"What did you feed me?" I felt something was wrong.
He stroked my lips and said frivolously and sarcastically, "What do you think? You've painted so many erotic pictures for others and are well versed in erotic matters. I don't need to tell you; you can guess it."
I was struck by lightning and my mind went blank.
"Li Siyan, you..."
He pulled the corners of his mouth, appearing to be smiling, but his eyes were empty without a trace of smile. He paused for a moment and continued:
"...In the past, I was concerned about your reputation and never used despicable things on you. But you don't care about my heart. You would rather live a life of poverty and begging than be by my side."
"Since I disgust you no matter what I do, I'll show you what it means to be worse than an animal."
When I realized what he had used on me, it was as if a thousand burning bamboo shoots were set off simultaneously in my ears, frying me to pieces with such intense heat.
I had heard of those vile pills, which could make even the most chaste woman beg for mercy, but I never imagined that one day someone would stuff such a thing into my mouth.
How low in self-esteem and how cruel must he be to resort to such a most insulting method as drugging me!
My eyes were filled with blazing rage, and a cry of grief and indignation emanated from my throat, as I cursed at the top of my lungs: "Li Siyan! You damned scum, you beast!"
"Just seeing you bow your head is worth it even if I fall into the eighteen levels of hell and never be able to be reborn."
He looked down at me with a cold expression, like a ruler on a throne overlooking a slave being executed.
Since he can't get love from me, he can only use his boundless power to pull out the thorns in my body one by one.
As for whether I would feel pain, that was not his concern.
He just wanted to humiliate me, possess me, and use the most brutal means to teach me a lesson so that I would no longer have the courage to resist.
Madness and ruthlessness were clearly revealed in him at this moment. Yes, this was the real Li Siyan, who would stop at nothing to achieve his goal, and would never give up even if both sides suffered losses.
I overturned the table and pounded on the door's lock with my fists in vain. How could human flesh and blood possibly move steel? He watched me with indifference as I made these futile attempts, waiting for the drug to take over.
"Don't worry, this medicine will only make you happy and teach you to throw away those useless moral principles. It will never hurt you." He turned his back and slowly walked to a gold-painted chair.
He crossed his long legs, lifted his shirt and sat down, observing my reaction intently.
"It should be working."
He gently stroked the side of my face.
Yes, it works.
I just felt like there was a small fish swimming around in my blood, and wherever it went, an inconsolable hot air rose up. I felt like I had fallen into a big spring net. The net was hot and stuffy, and filled with a strong fragrance. This fragrance seemed to make me sick. I was eager and anxious to find my medicine.
My consciousness became increasingly blurred, my breathing became increasingly rapid, and my body became increasingly out of control. I collapsed on the soft shag carpet, looking up at the godlike man in front of me. A faint minty scent emanated from him, as if it was the medicine I was missing.
My shadow was reflected in his eyes. My face was flushed, my eyes were full and soft like a pool of spring water.
What a disgusting look.
His eyes were as black as ink, filled with deliberately disguised indifference, but the moment his gaze met mine, a barely perceptible trace of embarrassment flashed across his eyes.
The clothes on my shoulders had slipped off. He looked at the white skin on the edge of the coarse cloth and closed his eyes tightly.
The person I think about day and night is right in front of me, but I feel homesick.
This time, he really wanted to teach me a lesson I would never forget. He maintained his arrogant demeanor and said calmly, "Come here, Yingying."
I gathered up the last bit of clarity I had, forced myself to stand up, and staggered two steps like a drunk. I was caught off guard and fell in front of him, my head resting softly on his dragon boots.
I crawled at his feet, the man's long, straight legs crossed in front of me, his leather belt was polished to a very bright shine, and the dragon pattern on the jade buckle was like a furious Vajra, with a cold meaning.
Seeing me suddenly fall to the ground silently, Li Siyan's body trembled, and subconsciously stretched out his hand to me: "Ying..."
Unexpectedly, I suddenly opened my eyes and grabbed his neck fiercely.
"Give me the antidote!"
I suppressed the discomfort in my body and spoke with a hoarse voice and gritted teeth.
He lowered his eyes, and as I pinched his neck, a sick smile appeared on his face.
He looked at me and said gently, "I am your antidote."
He had never been so patient before, patiently waiting for the powerful effect of the medicine to slowly ferment in my body, watching my eyes become more and more blurred, my waist becoming softer and softer, and finally sobbing. The hand that was pinching his neck gradually loosened and rested softly on his shoulder.
I felt so uncomfortable. The net that bound my body seemed to have transformed into thousands of tiny ants, crawling all over me. My consciousness was blurry, and an empty itch welled up in my heart. I sadly found myself getting closer and closer to Li Siyan. I looked at him pleadingly, mumbling unconsciously: "... Please help me... I feel so uncomfortable..."
His voice was tinged with longing, but there was a hint of sadness in his eyes. He held my face and asked softly, "...Chen Ying, do you recognize who I am?"
Of course I know.
Amidst the rain of tears, I saw his face clearly, with his sharp eyebrows, bright eyes and upturned corners of his eyes. Such a handsome face, but it became my deepest nightmare.
I hate him.
Why does he always look up to me and get whatever he wants from me? He should also feel the same pain as me, the pain of having his only hope crushed.
At the moment before he completely lost consciousness, I knew that I was doomed, so I became bolder and bolder, and I raised my head and kissed the corner of his mouth hard.
He was startled, and before he could feel surprised, he heard my unclear voice, full of revengeful malice and resentment, saying: "Brother Meng, I know it's you, kiss me..."
At that moment, it was as if a huge ice cone had pierced into his heart, churning it violently and cutting his heart into a bloody mess.
With just a few words, I dragged him down from the altar to hell.
His body suddenly became stiff as death, only his lips trembled. In the fear and pain that felt like a thousand poisons gnawing at his heart, he subconsciously tried to push me away.
But I didn't do what he wanted. The more pain he suffered, the happier I was. I stretched out my arms, wrapped them around his neck like a snake, and whispered in his ear in the most affectionate and nostalgic tone I could think of: "Brother Meng, I love you so much. I want to be with you forever..."
"Shut up!" he hissed.
He couldn't bear it any longer, I felt a darkness before my eyes, and I fell to the carpet. He controlled me without any rules, and my blood was so hot that it seemed to be burning. I refused to give in, and bit him hard. While I was still conscious, I would rather sacrifice myself as ammunition and blow him to pieces.
My nails scratched his back, leaving a row of sharp blood marks. Yes, I don't want anything else now. I just want to make him feel pain. What's the point of him owning the world? As long as he still likes me and cares about me, I will always have the weapon to hurt him.
A belly full of hatred and anger turned into a sharp sword with thick smoke and shot out from my mouth: "Brother Meng, do you remember that late summer, you took me to Mingyue Tower to watch the sunset, and you proposed to me upstairs, and I happily agreed..."
"Chen Ying, shut the fuck up!"
Suddenly, I felt a chill in front of my collar.
"You're still thinking about him! You're still thinking about him!" Li Siyan's voice was distorted, his eyes red with hatred, like a beast that had lost its mind. "I've been unable to sleep in the palace night after night, collecting your things and repairing the Shen family tomb, fearing that you wouldn't be able to find your way home when you return to the world during the Ghost Festival. Yet you're painting these evil things in this remote place, still thinking about your wild man!"
I didn't care what he said. I just smiled sweetly and flatteringly like a prostitute soliciting customers. As I laughed, I pulled off my belt: "Brother Meng, I don't allow you to call yourself a wild man. We were childhood sweethearts. When I was painting erotic paintings, I was thinking of you."
With a lightness in his hand, Li Siyan violently pulled off my belt and tied my arms to the bedposts. He tied them so tightly that the willow-green belt dug into my flesh.
I twisted and turned like a snake, and said in a charming voice, "Brother Meng, please be gentler. Yingying is in pain."
The rest of the infuriating words were blocked by him. He grabbed my bound wrists and rushed forward, his movements fierce and fast. I opened my eyes wide and let out a broken whine from my throat.
It turns out that what I thought was torture was actually nothing. He had already been accommodating to me on the couch. When he really got angry, the way he tortured the girl was enough to make people want to die.
His sweat dripped onto my neck, and hatred lingered in the sticky air. Yes, I stared at the ceiling hazily, my body already numb. How had he and I ended up in such a distorted relationship? We were clearly doing the most intimate things, yet we hated each other enough to devour each other, fighting until death.
When the moon was at its zenith, he held me in his arms and walked out of the cabin filled with a strong musky smell.
Although the drug was strong, it did not last long. Halfway through the effect, I woke up and felt pain all over my body that was hard to describe. He was too fierce and too impatient. He vented all the resentment and unwillingness of the past year. He no longer cared about my feelings and turned into a beast with bared fangs.
I shook my head and cried, my toes tensed, my fingers clawing at the carpet in vain, trying to break free, but he was so strong and fierce, his palms rough and hot, I was like a bird with broken wings, unable to move in his hands, forced to endure his brutal anger.
It was an exaggerated and wanton play that brought about an overwhelming sense of humiliation, which almost tore me apart. I cried and trembled all over. I begged him to stop, but he continued in silence, and all my pleas were blocked by him.
I don't know how long it took before a satisfied sigh escaped his throat, but there was also a barely audible sob in his voice. He untied the restraints on my wrists, hugged my sweaty body, and murmured, "Why do you always force me?"
When this grand torture ended, I was still crying, but I couldn't even cry out loud. I just trembled in his arms, my face turned to the side, and shed tears silently.
Did I force him? It's ridiculous. From the beginning to the end, he was the one forcing me. How could he have the nerve to say such a thing?
That vulnerability was fleeting, and he soon realized that he could no longer lose control and show weakness in front of me. Once he showed his weakness to me, I would poke his soft spot hard and say more words to make him lose control.
He closed his eyes and returned to his previous cold look.
I looked up at him dejectedly, and every knuckle of my body felt like it was being run over by wheels.
His condition was not good either. He had changed into a moon-white shirt, and the teeth marks on his shoulder were faintly visible. There were also a few sharp blood marks on his chest, all of which were scratched by me when I couldn't bear it anymore.
With all these scars on his body, he stroked my wet face, applied medicine to me, pecked me soothingly, and made soft little noises.
His movements were gentle, but his words were cruel: "Is this unbearable? I have prepared so many methods, and I haven't had time to try them all yet."
"Are you satisfied?"
I asked softly.
I still remember what happened at that time. I was weak and harmless, sobbing in front of him, looking like I was at the mercy of others.
He knows that I don't love him, but he still pesters me pathetically.
"Are you satisfied? Seeing someone who disdains you kneeling before you like a dog, begging you to play with him? How about it? I used drugs, and it tastes better than before."
His eyes suddenly became extremely sinister again.
"Why bother with all this trouble? Why not just give me some unconscious medicine and let you do whatever you want? Wouldn't that be more satisfying?" I said weakly, sarcastically, "You really make me sick."
My heart was like a scorched earth after a fire. All my dignity and decency were shattered by a small pill.
Recalling those absurd and scattered pictures, I felt as if I was looking at another person through a mirror, with a strong sense of absurdity.
Look, this woman is so wanton, so lowly, and she keeps clinging to men like a prostitute trying to please a powerful patron, but why did she have to have my face?
I laughed: "Li Siyan, why didn't you give me some contraceptive soup? Do you want a woman who betrayed you to give birth to your child?"
He accepted my ridicule without saying a word, just hugged me tightly, and didn't seem to want to argue.
Maybe he's already satisfied with just me being around him, so what's a few jabs at me? Just treat it as fun.
When the sudden rain stopped, the stones on the dam were removed, and the rising water overflowed the edge of the pool. He took a soft pillow and placed it under my buttocks. His hot hands fell on my lower abdomen, his eyes dimmed.
It was not until an hour later that he carried me to the bathtub to clean myself.
The cleaning process was of course very humiliating, but I was completely unconscious at the time and didn't see it. When I woke up, I was wearing dry and soft clothes, and apart from the pain, I didn't feel anything unusual.
But I still remember that pillow. I know that it is a good way for women to get pregnant.
In other words, this time, I won’t be able to get contraceptive soup.
I stared at him and asked, "What do you mean?"
Li Siyan said calmly, "Doctor Fan examined you secretly and said that you have been in good health this year and are fit enough to have a child."
"You let him follow me." I gritted my teeth.
He curled his lips and smiled: "Otherwise, do you think that you, your skinny little girl, and a stupid scholar can escape my pursuit?"
"As soon as that broken boat reached Xiangzhou, the Jinwu Guards discovered your whereabouts. It was out of my mercy that I allowed you to see the scenery of the Yellow River for ten more days and let you reach Dongjin Ferry."
"Mercy?" I said coldly, "I'd rather you attack me in Xiangzhou."
He said self-deprecatingly, "It would be so boring to capture you in Xiangzhou. It's the most despairing thing to lose hope at the last moment. Look how well I know you. I guessed you wanted to escape and specially prepared a sea boat to wait for you. Sure enough, among the dozens of boats at Dongjin Ferry, this was the only one you boarded. Since you have walked into my trap, of course I should accept it with a smile."
I closed my eyes.
He had calculated all of this in advance...how far I would go, which boat I would board, what my reaction would be...no matter how hard I tried to fly, I could never fly beyond his Five Finger Mountain.
He held me, staring at my smooth calves under my white skirt, his fingers lingering on my knees.
"Do you know? When your news reached Chang'an, I stayed up day and night, riding the fastest horse to rush to Hebei Road. During those five days, there was one night as clear as this night. At that time, I thought, this time I must break your legs so that you can never escape again."
My expression suddenly changed.
"No, what do you want to do, Li Siyan! Wake up."
I could feel the force on my knee increasing. Just a little more and it would completely break. I ignored my weakened body and ran out in terror. He was really going to break my leg! Oh my God!
He approached with a look of neither sadness nor joy.
"...It won't hurt," he covered my eyes, "I'll give you Caowu Powder..."
I broke down and cried, and kept crying. I shook off his hand that was in the way and tightly grasped the collar of his shirt: "No, Li Siyan, I don't want to be a cripple."
He stared into my tearful eyes for a long time.
I didn't know what to do, and suddenly remembered the scene in prison that year, so I rushed over and hugged him tightly, and my tear-stained lips pressed against his head and face indiscriminately.
"Please, don't do this. I will be obedient next time. Don't move my legs..."
I tried my best to cry more pitifully, burying my head in his neck, looking so miserable that it was hard to describe.
Li Siyan has a cruel personality and is decisive in killing people. He said he wanted to break my legs, which means he really wanted to do it.
Fear began to swell, occupying every corner of my heart. I was not afraid of dying, but I was extremely afraid of being a useless person for the rest of my life.
Tears fell on his shoulders, and I choked and begged him to let me go, over and over again. I had never been so humble in my life.
Hearing my sobbing, his hands stopped at my knees.
I quickly retracted my poor legs and hid them firmly in my skirt.
He turned my face with force and stared at my cat-like crying face for a while. Suddenly, he grabbed the bottle of Caowu Powder beside him and threw it out.
I was so scared that I screamed and curled up into a ball unconsciously.
He sneered, "Are you scared now? You didn't look this pitiful when you left. Do you think you'll beg for mercy only if I force you to this point?"
I didn't say anything, I just cried, my face covered with tears and snot.
He was so angry that he was fuming. He yelled at me angrily, "Stop crying! What's there to cry about? I haven't really broken your legs yet!"
I cried intermittently, "You clearly used a lot of force just now, you pinched it until it turned red!"
──Don't try to fool me. He was really prepared to break my knee. He even had Caowu Powder ready. It was just that I stirred it up and made him upset, so he didn't do anything violent.
Although I don't know why he suddenly stopped, I did feel a sense of luck that I had survived a disaster.
Li Siyan turned his back and took a long time to catch his breath before walking over again. He picked me up and carried me back to the cabin.
The cabin had been tidied up, all the messy clothes and furnishings had been removed, new pillows and quilts had been replaced, and the windows had been opened for ventilation. Only the carpet was difficult to clean and still had a faint odor.
I had already developed a shadow over this space. As soon as Li Siyan put me down, I crawled to the corner of the bed using my hands and feet, hugging the quilt, with only a pair of frightened eyes showing, looking at him fearfully.
Li Siyan put on a long robe, tied up his hair, grabbed the teapot, poured a glass of water, and drank it by himself.
Looking around at the luxurious furnishings and me shivering, his anger suddenly erupted.
"Do you think I'm funny?" His expression was gloomy and terrifying, probably out of disappointment in himself. He raised his hand and threw another cup. "As long as you cry, everything will go your way, just like your dog, right?"
I think this is ridiculous.
Whose dog would drag its owner into bed?
"Am I not also your canary? You destroyed my nest and plucked my wings just to lock me in a cage so that you can play with me every day." I whispered.
"Yes," he said self-deprecatingly, "I am the master."
Yeah?
In order to find me, he searched the whole world. I don’t know whether he was a stray dog frantically looking for his owner, or an angry owner trying to find his little bird.
"I should do what my master should do."
He murmured, as if trying to convince himself.
He stood up and stepped over the glass fragments on the ground with his long legs. The fragments reflected the bright light and hit his angular profile.
The mournful curses drifted sporadically over the river, and it was another sleepless night.
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