Awakening
"Why don't you accept it?" Lin Jingming couldn't understand why he could feel Xia Zhitang's heartbeat, but she still refused to accept him.
"Maybe I have a high moral bottom line." Xia Zhitang subconsciously touched the diamond ring pendant on his chest, "I still can't accept the intimacy of a relationship at the same time. If there are three people in a relationship, it's too crowded."
"Am I not good enough?" Lin Jingming unconsciously approached Xia Zhitang, "You obviously like kissing me very much."
Xia Zhitang felt a wave of heat rushing to his face, and the shameless Lin Jingming seemed to be back again.
"You are very good, but love may also be a matter of chance." She thought hard, "We may meet many very suitable people in our lives, but not all of them can be together."
"So what's going on now?" Lin Jingming lifted Xia Zhitang's chin. "What's going on between you and Gu Zian?"
Xia Zhitang's eyebrows jumped and he waved his hand away: "Don't ask."
"You're avoiding my gaze...so guilty?" Lin Jingming cornered Xia Zhitang on the sofa. "You're always staring at your phone, half-heartedly. It's too obvious."
"Lin Jingming, are you pretending to be sick?" Xia Zhitang shrank back on the sofa with his hands on his chest. Lin Jingming was now in high spirits and didn't look dull at all.
"You're the ones who think I'm sick." Lin Jingming didn't think there was anything wrong with him. "You're the ones who're afraid I'll die."
Xia Zhitang turned his head away and looked at Qingluan who was looking at them with her head tilted. An idea suddenly occurred to him: "Qingluan, pounce on him!"
Qingluan stood up excitedly, and with its four legs flying in a joyful arc, it pounced towards Fei and knocked the man down on the sofa.
"Qingluan, get up, you're so heavy." Xia Zhitang dodged Qingluan's tongue while pushing the stupid dog.
"You two are trying to murder me." Lin Jingming, who was pressed at the bottom, wrinkled his face.
Xia Zhitang hurriedly pushed Qingluan down, and the silly dog thought he was playing with it and wanted to pounce on it.
"Get down too. You're hurting me." Lin Jingming pushed Xia Zhitang, who was sitting on him, down and rubbed his stomach in pain.
Xia Zhitang pushed Qingluan away with his foot: "Next time you mess around, I will train Qingluan to give you a Taishan crush every day."
Lin Jingming gasped and looked at Xia Zhitang with a frown: "Do you hate me so much?"
Xia Zhitang didn't know how to describe it: "Maybe you used to be so handsy, and there are some sequelae."
"You didn't object." Lin Jingming was a little confused, "And I didn't do anything."
Xia Zhitang suddenly felt extremely aggrieved: "You didn't do anything?"
She didn't care about Qingluan, she jumped up, grabbed the pillow and started beating Lin Jingming: "You avoided suspicion when others gave you the room card, and you denied it when others showed you affection. Why did you choose me to be ambiguous with you? You were married back then."
As he was beating her, Xia Zhitang started to cry again: "Do you know how scared I am? I would rather you were a real playboy. Why are you only being ambiguous with me? Why did you choose me?!"
Qingluan had been frightened by Xia Zhitang so much that she hid under the table and lay there, secretly watching the two of them through the gap between the chairs.
"I'm sorry." Lin Jingming suddenly realized that Xia Zhitang's feelings towards him were mixed with hatred.
"Lin Jingming, the Xia Zhitang who couldn't sleep because of your ambiguity is long gone." She wiped the tears from her cheeks with the back of her hand and threw the pillow at Lin Jingming. "She doesn't need your apology now."
"No, it is necessary." Lin Jingming suddenly understood the deep motivations behind many details that had been ignored before. He suddenly felt that he was indeed acting too hastily.
Xia Zhitang was a little dazed when Lin Jingming hugged her. She didn't feel any aggressiveness from Lin Jingming in this embrace.
"As a man, I've never thought about it from your perspective." Lin Jingming hugged the once weak and helpless Xia Zhitang. "If we hadn't gone through so much later, I might not understand you."
In the past, he transferred the power that the Su family had placed on him to Xia Zhitang.
Xia Zhitang personally helped him break the shackles and pulled him out of the darkness. He thought it was because of love, a destined two-way journey, but only now did he realize that the most likely reason was that Xia Zhitang was a kind person.
She couldn't help but help the person she could save, even if that person had hurt her in the past or would hurt her in the future.
"I'm sorry I was so arrogant." Lin Jingming pressed Xia Zhitang's head into his arms, "Thank you for saving me so many times."
Lin Jingming suddenly felt that the past entanglements were no longer important, and the girl in his arms was worth protecting.
For them, fate has become a bond that is deeply entangled in their bones, and being obsessed with this moment or any specific moment does not seem that important.
The SUV drove into the parking lot of a RV camping center in the suburbs. Qingluan looked very excited as she leaned against the window in the back seat.
After Xia Zhitang parked the car, Qingluan couldn't wait to wake up Lin Jingming who was sitting next to it.
Xia Zhitang walked in front, and Lin Jingming followed behind them, yawning and dragging two suitcases.
"Why did you suddenly come so far to camp? The RV is not as comfortable as a hotel." Lin Jingming complained, "If you want to take Qingluan for a walk, you can also go to the small park in the city."
"The doctor gently told you not to exercise too much yesterday, and told you to rest at home, but you refused. Where in the city can you walk your dog without us closely watching?" Xia Zhitang said as he checked the navigation. "I've checked here. You can let him run on his own for a while."
When checking in, when the clerk confirmed the three-bed room with Xia Zhitang, Lin Jingming subconsciously glanced at her but said nothing.
The two of them opened the door of the RV with Qingluan. Xia Zhitang patted the lower bunk of the bunk bed and said to Qingluan, "Little Qingluan, you sleep on the lower bunk tonight and I'll sleep on the upper bunk."
Qingluan happily jumped onto the bed and rolled around.
"I'll sleep on the upper bunk, and you sleep on the big bed." Lin Jingming stuffed his luggage onto the upper bunk. "It's so high, Qingluan won't be able to climb up."
He patted the silly dog's head and said, "Don't come up here, or I'll pour chili powder into your dog food."
Qingluan pounced on him and nudged him with her head, and the man and the dog played around foolishly with each other.
"Qingluan is here to play frisbee." Xia Zhitang changed her clothes and stood at the door calling Qingluan. It immediately left Lin Jingming and ran towards her, wagging its tail.
Lin Jingming smiled and shook his head: "Silly dog."
When he changed into outdoor clothes and went out with his sketchbook, Xia Zhitang was playing with a frisbee under the shade of a tree at the door.
Lin Jingming brought a folding chair and sat in the tent. He picked up a pencil and began to paint on the plain white paper.
When Xia Zhitang came back with Qingluan, wiping his sweat, Lin Jingming finished the last stroke and closed the notebook.
"Are you painting Qingluan?" Xia Zhitang rarely saw Lin Jingming painting, but she knew that Lin Jingming was a very good painter. When he was filming, he suddenly got inspiration and drew storyboards that were very camera-like.
Lin Jingming looked at Xia Zhitang meaningfully, smiled, and did not answer.
Xia Zhitang only felt that Lin Jingming's expression contained thousands of messages, an inexplicable mixture of sensibility and maturity.
After a day of having fun in the camping area, Qingluan finally ran out of power when night fell. When Xia Zhitang set up the barbecue grill, it lay under the table and slept with its tongue sticking out.
Lin Jingming squatted behind it and poked it, and Qingluan turned over impatiently and hid inside.
"It seems that it destroys the house because it is not hateful enough when it goes out to play." Lin Jingming complained with narrowed eyes. Ever since Xia Zhitang raised Qingluan, she often brought the dog to accompany him during the day, causing Lin Jingming's home to be badly damaged by this dog.
"I plan to send it to dog school." Xia Zhitang said as he flipped the skewers.
"Will it go back and destroy the house?" Lin Jingming stood up and came over to help her turn the skewers.
"It's okay, but I'm planning to read a new book, so I may not have time to take it out to play." Xia Zhitang said as he poured spices on the skewers.
Lin Jingming paused: "You want to join a new group?"
Xia Zhitang placed the grilled chicken wings on a plate, tilted his head and looked at Lin Jingming, who was suppressing his nervousness, and suddenly laughed: "I'll synchronize the data and get you."
"Avoid me or join the group with me?" Lin Jingming was still a little worried.
Xia Zhitang found Lin Jingming's lack of confidence somewhat refreshing: "I'll join the group with you."
Lin Jingming's mouth curled up for a few seconds before he suddenly realized something: "Why did you suddenly change your mind?"
Xia Zhitang said as he placed a small pot on the charcoal to heat Qingluan's dog food, "I just feel there's no need to fight you anymore."
Lin Jingming looked at the surging fire and reluctantly snatched the pot from her hand: "You really don't have the talent for cooking. You're obviously good at grilling."
He added some water to Qingluan's dog food, stirred it evenly over the charcoal fire, and turned his attention back to the confrontation Xia Zhitang mentioned.
In fact, he was unconsciously deepening the confrontation. Looking back at their past, he had always been fighting for the initiative, as if only in this way could he get her.
Perhaps, it was wrong from the beginning. The more he forced her, the more wary she became. Even if she had feelings for him, she wouldn't choose such an unequal relationship rationally.
His wandering thoughts were interrupted by the pulling feeling on his feet. Lin Jingming looked down and saw Qingluan had woken up and was biting his trouser leg, looking at him eagerly.
"It's still hot, wait a moment." Lin Jingming pulled his foot out, "Don't bite my pants, or I'll add chili peppers to your rice."
After dinner, the two took Qingluan for a walk nearby to help digest the food. The lively and cute Qingluan was warmly welcomed by the adults and children around them.
Xia Zhitang felt a little embarrassed that she had followed Sheniu Qingluan and Lin Jingming along and had been eating, drinking and having fun for free.
"Don't drink, or you'll get scolded again next time you go for a follow-up visit." Xia Zhitang had just grabbed Qingluan who was playing with the kids for the ball, and turned around to see Lin Jingming holding a beer glass and drinking.
"Brother, my sister-in-law is very strict." The strange man opposite cheered with a smile.
"My family's ancestral motto is that you can make a fortune only if you listen to your wife." Lin Jingming handed the wine glass to Xia Zhitang with an innocent face.
"Qingluan, Lao Lin is not obedient!" Xia Zhitang took the wine glass and called Qingluan with a forced smile.
Lin Jingming looked at Qingluan rushing towards him with her ears pricked up and legs spread out, and immediately jumped up and hid behind Xia Zhitang, causing everyone to laugh.
He suddenly felt that Xia Zhitang himself was a very interesting person.
Even if his love does not receive the same emotional response, Lin Jingming is willing to stay with her.
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