Guilt
Although Gu Zian broke up with her, he didn't seem to have announced it to anyone around him. At least when Xia Zhitang asked his assistant about his schedule, the assistant asked if she wanted to visit him on set.
Xia Zhitang specially chose the time when Gu Zian was out filming to return to the house where they lived and packed up some of his things.
Lin packed several large boxes, most of which were clothes, bags and various perfumes that Gu Zian had bought for her. Many of them had been left there untouched since they were bought.
She didn't want to take these unused items away, but out of the principle of not causing trouble to others, she put some untouched items in a box, put a label on it and let Gu Zian deal with it himself.
What bothered her was the small assortment of daily necessities, most of which were purchased according to her taste, but they filled the place to the brim. Although Gu Zian hadn't touched this part in the few days since she left, it still bore her mark.
She sat in the living room and hesitated for a while, and finally decided to tidy up some unnecessary decorations on the surface.
Embroidered pillows with tassels, linen blankets, vases of various colors... Xia Zhitang stuffed one small and ordinary thing after another into the box, and tears almost fell again.
At the beginning, they loved each other passionately and were full of expectations for the future.
The sky outside gradually darkened as the moving company carried the last cardboard box downstairs.
Xia Zhitang placed all the keys given by Gu Zian on the table, took a last look at this residence filled with many beautiful memories between them, and turned around and left resolutely.
Back in her little house, she was unpacking and packing cartons, tears suddenly falling from her eyes.
Even if the breakup is clean, you will still care and be sad.
When Cheng Shubai's message popped up, Xia Zhitang was in the kennel surrounded by furry children.
I've never seen such a dull old Lin.
Xia Zhitang replied casually, put the phone back in his pocket, and continued to be surrounded by the furry children.
Finally, she came out of the pet shop pulling a white Samoyed.
Xia Zhitang brought the Samoyed back to his little house, put his arm around its neck and whispered, "Little Qingluan, this will be your home from now on."
Qingluan tilted her head and thought for a while, then came over and licked Xia Zhitang's hand.
When Xia Zhitang took Qingluan to open the door of Lin Jingming's house, Lin Jingming was stunned.
"Why does this dog smell like Gu Zian?" He said with some disdain, "I don't want to keep it, take it away."
"Did I tell you to raise her?" Xia Zhitang untied Qingluan's leash. "This is my dog, Qingluan."
"You raise one?" Lin Jingming looked at Xia Zhitang suspiciously, "Do you have time to raise a dog?"
Qingluan, with the dog leash off, was very curious about the unfamiliar environment and sniffed around Lin Jingming's house.
"I've changed my job. I'll have some free time after handing over the things I'm doing." Xia Zhitang stuffed breakfast into Lin Jingming's hand and said, "Please keep an eye on Qingluan for me. I'll go downstairs and bring some things up."
She squatted down and touched Qingluan's head: "Little Qingluan, stay here and play with this uncle for a while, I will be back soon."
Qingluan tilted her head and thought about it, then circled around her, looking very reluctant.
"This uncle named Lin Jingming is a very nice person, don't be afraid." Xia Zhitang touched Qingluan's head soothingly and coaxed her again and again, "I'll go downstairs to get your food and water bowl now, otherwise you will be hungry later."
Qingluan whimpered, glanced at Lin Jingming, and then reluctantly stepped back.
Lin Jingming, who was originally bored and dazed at the window, was attracted by their conversation and turned around to look at the man and the dog.
Qingluan's eyes, like black grapes, met Lin Jingming's inquiring gaze, and she couldn't help but tuck her tail between her legs and shrink into a corner.
"Lin Jingming, don't bully Qingluan."
"Me? Bullying?" Lin Jingming snorted coldly and turned his eyes away from her.
"Qingluan, don't be afraid. If Lin Jingming wants to bully you, just bark at him." Xia Zhitang said to Qingluan seriously.
"My position in your heart is not as good as it?" Lin Jingming couldn't help complaining.
"Because you are the powerful Lin Jingming." Xia Zhitang coaxed casually.
Turning to meet Lin Jingming's probing eyes, she looked away and stood up: "Get along well."
When Xia Zhitang came back with the box, Qingluan was already lying at Lin Jingming's feet.
"It bit my trouser leg." Lin Jingming said calmly while looking at the ceiling.
"Qingluan likes you and wants to play with you." Xia Zhitang took out Qingluan's lunch bag, water basin, and toys from the box one by one and arranged them in order.
"You're going to keep it in my house?" Lin Jingming said with a hint of disgust, "It bit a hole in my pants."
Xia Zhitang chuckled and said, "I'll give you a pair of pants as compensation. I'll take them with me when I go back tonight."
"Xia Zhitang, it ran onto my bed!"
"It knocked over my stereo!"
"Xia Zhitang, what is this!"
Lin Jingming's voice became louder and louder. Xia Zhitang couldn't help but laugh as he looked at his gradually cracking face.
"Lin Jingming, this is so good." She smiled and tears fell again.
Qingluan tilted her head and looked at Xia Zhitang crying there. After thinking for a moment, she barked at Lin Jingming a few times.
Lin Jingming's face was stiff. He slowly stood up, walked into the room and closed the door with a bang.
Qingluan came closer and nudged Xia Zhitang's face with its furry head.
Xia Zhitang inexplicably felt that it really looked like Gu Zian, and couldn't help crying even harder.
Half an hour later, Xia Zhitang came with a mop to clean up Qingluan's mess, and Lin Jingming suddenly came out wearing sportswear.
Xia Zhitang looked at him blankly, feeling a little uncomfortable. Lin Jingming had not worn any clothes other than pajamas and had not left the house in these days.
"Large dogs need exercise, otherwise they will keep destroying the house." Lin Jingming didn't show any expression, but Xia Zhitang smiled.
"I just don't want it to cause any more damage." Lin Jingming still had a wooden face.
"Okay, let's take it out to play." Xia Zhitang looked at Qingluan, "Qingluan, let's go out and play."
Qingluan moved her ears, jumped over with the dog leash in her mouth, and swung her tail around Xia Zhitang like a propeller.
Xia Zhitang put a rope on it, took out Qingluan's tools that she must bring with her when going out and stuffed them into the canvas bag.
She immediately noticed Lin Jingming staring at her bag and couldn't help but explain, "Qingluan likes to relieve herself outside."
Lin Jingming's eyebrows twitched, but he didn't say anything.
Xia Zhitang couldn't help but think that if it were the former Lin Jingming, he would probably jump up and complain about Qingluan at this time: How can you torture your master like this!
The weather began to warm up, and willow catkins began to fly in Taipei City. Qingluan wanted to pounce to catch the catkins from time to time, causing the leash to jump.
Lin Jingming silently took the rope from Xia Zhitang's hand and held the madly running dog tightly in his hand.
"Your rope doesn't work." Lin Jingming dragged the dog into a pet shop on the side of the road.
When they came out, they had changed the rope to a one that was not so easy to pull people down.
"Did you have a fight with Gu Zian?" Lin Jingming suddenly asked while walking on the street.
Xia Zhitang turned to look at him, but only saw his profile flickering in the light from the shade of the tree.
"So what?" Xia Zhitang didn't want to discuss this topic with him. "I only know what I want to do right now."
Lin Jingming said nothing more, and the two of them walked in the park with an excited dog.
On a weekday in Taipei, the unnamed park is bustling with activity. Busy young people are typing away in their cubicles, while many elderly people are busy pursuing their various hobbies in the smaller parks.
Xia Zhitang couldn't help but feel a little fresh, as if he had entered another world.
She looked at the vigorous old man, lowered her head and touched the ring pendant that she had not taken off her neck yet, and inexplicably wanted to know what Gu Zian was doing at the moment?
People are sometimes quite strange. Emotional attachments can make them think of someone in completely unrelated situations, and they can feel the urge to pick up their phone and contact them. Sadness, I never know what irrelevant factor will trigger it.
"If you are unhappy, you don't have to force yourself to accompany me." Lin Jingming suddenly interrupted her distant thoughts.
"Lin Jingming, I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing this for myself." Xia Zhitang knew that he couldn't bear to watch Lin Jingming fall into despair.
"It turns out that in your eyes, I am just a director." Lin Jingming suddenly realized that being a genius director is both his glory and his shackles.
"Why do you care what I think?" Xia Zhitang stopped and looked at Lin Jingming's back. "Lin Jingming, why can't you be yourself?"
Lin Jingming turned around and wanted to say something, but the leash in his hand pulled him away forcefully.
"Qingluan, come back!" Xia Zhitang looked at Qingluan who wanted to pounce on someone else's frisbee, and for a moment he didn't care about the conversation with Lin Jingming.
The two men walked with Qingluan for more than an hour before returning to Lin Jingming's home in a dishevel.
Xia Zhitang looked at Qingluan, who had been walking outside for an hour and still didn't look tired at all, and was a little worried whether he could take good care of it.
"Xia Zhitang, what kind of mood were you in when you lurked around me?" Lin Jingming suddenly spoke as he looked at the sky outside the window that was gradually darkening.
Xia Zhitang felt a little dazed. That period of time seemed far away from her. After experiencing more things, the pain she felt at that time became vague and unreal.
"Maybe, if I do nothing, things will just stop at the initial verdict." When the incident first happened, Xia Zhitang did not expect that the Su family would end in such a dramatic way.
Lin Jingming actually wanted to ask, if Gu Zian was not there, would she be willing to be with him reluctantly?
The words were on the tip of her tongue, but she felt it was meaningless. Xia Zhitang would not make such an assumption. She always lived in the present and made the best choice at hand.
"Why did you invest money in me to make a documentary?" He changed the question.
"First, you deserve it." Xia Zhitang looked at Lin Jingming and spoke with difficulty, "Second, I feel guilty."
"Guilt?" Lin Jingming finally turned around and looked at her, "Why do you feel guilty towards me?"
"I feel like I took advantage of you." Xia Zhitang's eyes were still clear and bright. "I always knew what you were thinking. I'm sorry."
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