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After sending the party invitation to Jiang Yingshan, Li Xuanyue looked up at Bai Shunan and said, "I'm going to have a party at home in a few days to celebrate. Do you want to come?"
Bai Shunan thought for a moment and said, "If I have time, I'll go."
Li Xuanyue nodded, "Okay, I'll assume you'll come."
Someone in the distance called Li Xuanyue to do an interview. Li Xuanyue thought that Lu Jinfeng had not replied yet, so she added to Bai Shunan: "Lu Jinfeng probably won't go, so you can come without worry."
As soon as Li Xuanyue finished speaking, she turned and left. In the interview she participated in that day, the reporter asked Li Xuanyue a question: "Why did you ultimately choose Bai Shunan to play the role of Qi Ci?"
"Actually, I wasn't very satisfied with him at first. He looked too lazy at the time, and didn't quite fit my initial impression of Qi Ci. However, he was the actor who surprised me the most during the filming of the movie. I really like the Qi Ci he portrayed. The reason I chose him was, on the one hand, because the screenwriter Ah Hua thought he was good, and on the other hand..." Li Xuanyue lowered her eyes and paused for a moment, "Lu Jinfeng always looked at him, which is why I made up my mind."
"Really? But there's been rumors online that they're not getting along. What do you think about that?"
Li Xuanyue smiled softly, nodding at the armrest of her chair, and decided to sell both. "You can say it's true, but you can't say it's not true either. Their interactions have always seemed strange to me. You might feel like they're unfamiliar one second, and then the next second, you see them as close as lovers. It's quite magical... By the way, Lu Jinfeng was very resistant to kissing scenes with male actors at first."
Many days later, this interview was released, which caused a huge uproar and successfully suppressed the popularity of the "Shunsui" CP which was very popular at the time.
Before this, Li Suiwen often attended events and appeared on variety shows with Bai Shunan. When Lu Jinfeng returned to China, Li Suiwen went to a fan meeting just to watch the fun. She immediately noticed Bai Shunan, who had arrived early, and sat down next to him. However, the meeting was too boring for her, as there weren't any particularly exciting questions, so Li Suiwen left mid-sentence.
"Have you heard that the actor who almost played Qi Ci, the one who was scolded away by Lu Jinfeng, was recently exposed to have multiple relationships, not only cheating but also being indifferent to both men and women..." Li Suiwen turned her chair and told Bai Shunan, who was reading the script, about the latest gossip.
“I’ve heard of it, but I haven’t paid much attention to it.”
"Wow, this is incredible. He talked to me before when we were still on the crew. Luckily, I didn't take it seriously at the time and was so sleepy that I ignored him. Now it seems that I am quite good at identifying scumbags." Li Suiwen touched his chin.
"Yeah, not bad, not bad, amazing."
"If I don't gossip, life will be half as fun. Now it seems that Shunan, you may not be the right one for me."
"Give up on this idea."
"Zhi, you cold-hearted man, I really don't know how netizens edited us so sweetly and are looking forward to our foursome. Speaking of which, I saw someone edited a video of you and Lu Jinfeng a few days ago, it was amazing."
“I didn’t pay much attention to that.”
"Alright, alright, but speaking of which, what's going on between you and Lu Jinfeng recently? Li Xuanyue even brought up my topic in her conversation. I'm really impressed by the trouble you two are causing."
Bai Shunan had no intention of reading the script anymore. He thought for a while before saying calmly, "I don't know either."
Li Suiwen suppressed her urge to gossip, but since she was now comfortable with her friendship with Bai Shunan, she didn't try to suppress it. "Does he know how you feel?"
Bai Shunan choked and shifted uncomfortably: "What are my intentions?"
"You like him," Li Suiwen narrowed his eyes and scratched his chin. "I can see that. Don't worry about those trivial things. Look at Lu Jinfeng's current decadent state. Who knows whose problem is more serious."
Bai Shunan laughed awkwardly: "Actually, I am now..."
"Oh, right, I suddenly remembered something. Lu Jinfeng once asked me if I liked you. He even asked me if you and Zhang Wei were a couple." Li Suiwen looked at Bai Shunan. "Although it was a long time ago, I think he must have been interested in you at that time."
Bai Shunan's smile faded and he responded, "Really?"
"It should be when the light and shadow just started shooting."
It was earlier than he expected, Bai Shunan thought calmly.
"What hope can I have for someone like you?" - Bai Shunan recalled these words. That distant afternoon, everything else seemed blurry, but this was the one he remembered most clearly. Even though many things had happened since then that had shaken the existence of these words, they were still as firmly anchored as nails in wood. "I think he must have said something else afterward, like he hated me."
Li Suiwen thought about it and it seemed that this was the case. She shrank back, mentally reprimanded herself for being too talkative, and said with a nonchalant expression, "It's okay. There will be someone better than Lu Jinfeng."
Bai Shunan listened to Li Suiwen's answer, and in order to make Li Suiwen feel less burdened, he smiled slightly and knew the direction of the conversation.
After finishing the trip, Bai Shunan was walking on the road and seemed to hear someone calling him in the distance. He turned his head and did not see any familiar figure walking towards him. His eyes swept across the colorful advertisements playing on the big screen on the high-rise building opposite.
Maybe it was an auditory hallucination, Bai Shunan thought. Just as he was about to look away, he saw him again. After the advertisement, a familiar face suddenly appeared on the screen. He saw Lu Jinfeng again, and it was so sudden that it brought panic to his heart.
Lu Jinfeng on the screen seemed to be looking at him. In the gap between the buildings, the bright autumn dusk was reflected on his face. The light and shadow colors were much brighter and more brilliant than the eye-catching advertisements before. It was too similar to many years ago, but also different. They were too young at that time, and the most profound turning point in their lives had come so early, making their future lives melancholy because of such similarities and coincidences.
He didn't know when it started, but there were faint tears in his eyes. Bai Shunan knew best that, in fact, he was trapped the deepest in the past. He was trapped in it like an ant that was repeatedly caught and placed in a place where he thought he could escape. Every time he walked away, he would be caught back to the original place again and again, and he would take different but unable to get out roads again and again. He should have given up long ago, but his subconscious mind kept taking him away, escaping with no way out, and always returning to the starting point in the end. Finally, he realized that he was trapped by his own love, by "love", something that he feared in itself. When he found that he also had it, his thoughts set off a disaster that subverted his cognition, but he was also longing for a contradiction. He recalled again and again, and saw himself standing there many years ago, looking at Lu Jinfeng in the distance. He returned to the beginning of love, and also the beginning of escaping from love.
This time, he didn't recall any unnecessary things, only thinking about how he was amazed at that time and what kind of desire he had obtained. He didn't want an answer, but he had been waiting for an answer.
To give him an excuse to leave, to escape the possibility of love that suddenly appeared in his life...
Nearing Li Xuanyue's house, Bai Shunan stood under a streetlight, felt his empty pockets, and realized he'd recently quit smoking. He let the wind blow for a while, his hands numb. He remembered Lu Jinfeng's expression when he'd held his hand, feigning composure yet feeling so awkward. He didn't think much of the memory, but recalling it made Bai Shunan feel frozen in time. He stood there, stunned.
Bai Shunan took a long time to leave.
He walked into the house that he might have walked into, and just as he was about to turn back to check, he was knocked down by someone.
Bai Shunan caught the man who was about to fall, and recognized him the moment he hugged him.
When the pain came, the first thought that came to Bai Shunan's mind still made him feel scared afterwards. He thought, if he was more seriously injured, would he be involved with Lu Jinfeng again? He thought that Lu Jinfeng owed him something, preferably deep enough that he would never forget it.
Bai Shunan touched Lu Jinfeng's erratic hand, paused on the scar for a moment, then put his hand behind Lu Jinfeng's back, wanting to hug him tightly, but not daring to use too much force so that he would notice. Finally, he quietly placed it on Lu Jinfeng's back.
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