Chapter 128 [VIP] Lifesaver (15)
After Xiao Feihe finished speaking, Jin Xinli glanced behind him again and saw Nan Yan's head with red cheeks sticking out from under the quilt. Her eyes accidentally met his and she subconsciously retracted them. Then she gently patted the person in front of her, signaling him to hurry up.
At that moment, Jin Lili could almost feel the blood rushing from his chest to his mouth, but he forced himself to hold it back. He clenched his fists tightly to prevent himself from rushing over and taking the man away, and then turned around.
The two of them walked out one after the other until they reached a remote and quiet open space outside. After making sure that there was no one around, Jin Li finally stopped.
He turned around and stared at Xiao Feihe behind him with resentment. His eyes were filled with viciousness, anger, jealousy, and all kinds of hatred. His gaze was as cold as a poisonous snake. He wanted to cut the man in front of him into pieces.
"Do you think you can do whatever you want with your status as a prince? Or do you think love means doing this to her in advance? You sneak into a woman's bedroom without a matchmaker or an engagement. Is this your upbringing?"
"Who do you think she is? Do you think she is one of those girls you played with before? That's why you treat her so recklessly? Is this what you call love?"
Xiao Feihe frowned subconsciously, what Jin Lianli said was too harsh. His reputation was a bit bad, but he had never played with those women, and he didn't play with Yanyan either, but was just in love with her, and it was hard for him to control himself for a while.
Besides, it was a matter between the two of them, and had nothing to do with others. Xiao Feihe thought of the man who had taken the initiative to kiss him just now, and his heart seemed to soften like a pool of warm water. How could there be such a person who likes to play tricks? If he can't get over it, he will use all kinds of means to bully others, and finally apologize in a soft voice. In that case, how could he bear it?
But he couldn't and wouldn't say that. It was a secret between him and Yanyan, so he wouldn't tell the person in front of him.
Xiao Feihe took a deep breath, raised his head and looked directly at the man, then said in a calm and sober voice, "Master Jin, you don't have to worry about this matter. This prince has already made up his mind. When I return to the city, I will ask a matchmaker to go to the Li Mansion to propose marriage. The time has also been set. In addition, Master Jin, please be careful with your words. This prince is not the kind of guy who only knows how to spend money and play with women as you say. Master Jin should also know that rumors in the capital cannot be trusted."
The dark eyes looked deeply at Jin Nili opposite him, and repeated again, "Everything I said is true. I will be responsible for Yanyan. I like Yanyan and I love her out of love. It's not intentional. Also, as long as Lord Jin doesn't tell anyone about what happened today, no one else will know about it, and Yanyan's reputation will not be ruined."
When Jin Xinli heard these words, especially when he talked about his decision to go to Li's house to propose marriage to Nan Yan, at that moment, he felt as if he was struck by thunder and his chest was hit hard.
Proposing marriage...how dare he? !
Jin Li suddenly tightened his grip.
His whole body suddenly froze and he couldn't stop shaking. He gritted his teeth and held on, staring at the man in front of him, wishing he could kill him immediately.
But...he couldn't.
In the end, it seemed as if he could no longer hold back. His thin red lips slightly opened and closed. He stared gloomily at the person in front of him, and the words he uttered were icy and full of hatred.
"Marry her? What qualifications do you have to marry her? What do you have that makes you worthy of her? How can a piece of trash like you marry her? You are worthy of her!"
Xiao Feihe was belittled from beginning to end, as if he was trampled into the mud, but he was not annoyed. He knew that the angrier Jin Lili was, the more it showed that he was jealous and angry, and there was no way to stop it.
He sneered, then looked at the man and retorted without any scruples, "It's not up to you to decide whether we are worthy or not. As long as Yanyan likes me and is willing to marry me, no one can stop me from marrying her back home."
After he finished speaking, he raised his eyes and glanced at Jin Lili in front of him. His eyes searched around him, and suddenly he asked in a very sarcastic tone, "Why are you so angry and concerned? Have you forgotten that you pushed her away with your own hands? Have you forgotten what you did during that time? Have you forgotten that she was so sad that she locked herself up in the house for half a month and refused to step out of the door? It was you who made her a laughing stock for everyone, so what qualifications do you have to say such things?"
Xiao Feihe's eyes dimmed, and every word he spoke stabbed Jin Xinli's heart, causing his heart to bleed profusely and feel as painful as a knife. In the end, even his breathing stopped, but he couldn't utter a single word to refute.
But Xiao Feihe still refused to let him go. He said that he would defeat him so that he would never dare to approach Yanyan again and never dare to have any delusions. Only in this way could he feel at ease. "The most important thing is, isn't Master Jin already engaged to the second young lady of the Li family? I want to say that Master Jin is not only concerned about Yanyan's reputation, but also about someone else."
"So, does Lord Jin regret it?" Xiao Feihe's face suddenly changed and he said sarcastically.
He sneered at last, and glanced at the other person with cold and contemptuous eyes, and said word by word, "But not everyone will stand there and wait for you. Yanyan finally came out, are you going to hurt her again?"
After saying this, Xiao Feihe looked at him coldly, and after making sure that the other party had no power to fight back, he turned and left.
Jin Lili, who was left standing there, had a pale face and a huge hole in his heart. With every breath, he could feel the piercing pain in his chest. Endless coldness, regret, and panic almost overwhelmed him.
But what to do? What should he do?
He wanted to refute, but he couldn't utter a word from beginning to end, because every word Xiao Feihe said was true. It was him... he was the one who pushed her away with his own hands!
He was so decisive in breaking off the engagement, making her a laughing stock of everyone. He had been with Li Qingrou when she was most desperate, painful, and sad, and he had never said a word of comfort to her. Especially during the time in the tent, he had always ignored her. He didn't care about her low mood at all. He also gave her a fatal blow when she was full of joy, and questioned her loudly when she was crying and begging. He was the most stupid person...
What has he done? What has he done!
It was him...it was he who pushed her towards someone else.
He brought this upon himself and deserved it.
Jin Lili felt that his chest was in so much pain that he was almost suffocating. His whole body was stabbed by those words and was bleeding. His eyes were even stained with scarlet. He staggered a few steps, recalling that he had just seen her in the room, leaning on another man's arms with a flushed and hazy face. Suddenly, he felt a sharp pain in his chest, and a fishy and sweet taste instantly surged from his throat. He took a few steps forward, and suddenly his knees went weak and he almost fell to the ground.
Jin Lili's fingers were trembling slightly in pain. He covered his chest tightly and his whole body was shaking uncontrollably because of the pain. Why was he so uncomfortable?
He was almost suffocated by despair. It was even more terrifying and desperate than when he was injured and on the verge of death. He had never been so desperate and painful before... He regretted it, he regretted it so much.
Unprecedented regret and pain!
This kind of pain and despair also made him realize clearly at this moment that he liked her, very much, very much!
No, it should be more than just liking.
Jin Xinli clenched his chest tightly, his lips were as pale as paper, and his eyes were full of despair. He had clearly fallen in love with her a long time ago, to the point where he didn't even realize it, to the point where he even thought it was just a habit. Jin Xinli supported his body and stumbled back to his yard.
As soon as he entered the room, he felt that he could no longer hold on. He staggered a few steps and bumped into the corner of the table next to him. The blood in his chest surged and a trickle of blood flowed out of the corner of his mouth uncontrollably.
It's all his fault. He's just so stupid!
Why is there such an extremely stupid person like him, who is so self-righteous that he doesn't even know who he really likes from the beginning to the end?
Why do you have to wait until you lose something before you start to regret it?
Jin Lili raised his hands to cover his cheeks, moisture dripping from between his fingers. He was wrong. It was his fault from beginning to end...
Maybe at first, when Li Qingrou saved him, he had a crush on her, but later, it was clear that the only person he really liked was Yanyan. They had been together for so long, it was impossible for him to be so indulgent towards her if he didn’t like her. He clearly liked her coquettish and genuine nature, liked the way she acted coquettishly towards him, liked the way she was fussy and unreasonable, even when she was arrogant and willful and bullied others, he also liked her very much, so it was natural for him to support her and stand on the same side with her...
It was obviously her that he liked, and it was obviously her personality that attracted him from the beginning!
But why? Why was he so obsessed with the favor of saving his life? Why couldn't he let it go?
It was obvious that he and Li Qingrou had not spent much time together from beginning to end, so why was he so stubborn?
Obviously everyone knew it, everyone in the mansion could see it, knowing that he had already liked her in his heart, but he still insisted on breaking off the engagement, stubbornly believing that he only liked Li Qingrou...
What stupid things had he done?
為什麽非要到徹底失去了才能意識到自己真正想要的是什麽呢？
怎麽辦？他到底該怎麽辦？
靳厭離此刻痛苦難受極了，他真的不知道該怎麽辦才好了？不想就這麽放手，他這輩子好不容易才遇到這麽一個真心喜歡的姑娘，他真的不想就這麽失去她啊！
他到底要怎麽樣才能不這麽痛苦，到底要怎麽樣才能回到從前那樣？
嫣嫣……我真的，知道錯了！
……
而在另一邊的廂房裏，等兩人出去後，蕭非鶴還很貼心地幫她把門關上了，确定門外的兩人徹底走遠之後，南嫣這才一把掀開被子，然後從床上跳下來。
很好，她要的就是這樣的結果。
南嫣揚着眉，透過窗戶縫隙看到外頭的兩人逐漸走遠，臉上忍不住露出笑容，打吧打吧，打死一個就好了，剩下那個她再接着虐一把，然後就能徹底結束了。
雖然距離隔得遠，但她也沒有錯過靳厭離臉上那種極度嫉妒和憤怒的表情，嘻嘻，她心想着，這樣就忍不住了嗎？那往後可還有更讓他難受的呢。
這樣想着，南嫣直接從屏風上抽了件淡紫色的披風随意披上，又稍微擦了把臉，這才一屁股坐在蕭非鶴替她準備好的飯菜面前準備吃飯，睡了一整天了，這會兒肚子也是真餓了。
南嫣瞧着那桌上還冒着熱氣的飯菜，一旁還有個精致的食盒，打開一看，裏頭的飯菜也是留着餘溫的。
南嫣點點頭，心情總算舒爽了不少，嗯，不錯不錯，都是她往常最愛吃的東西，這家夥還挺貼心的。
又過了片刻，南嫣吃得半飽，喝了幾口冰涼涼的酸梅湯解解膩，快差不多的時候，房門又被人推開了，蕭非鶴回來了。
他一推開門便看到坐在椅子上那人發髻未梳，衣服也沒穿，身上就披了件薄薄的披風就起來了，頓時又氣不打一處來，氣她毫不講究，這都已經是十月份的氣候了，她披了一件披風就起來了，也不怕着涼生病了。
蕭非鶴直接走過去将搭在屏風上的裙子一把抽起來，然後又走到桌子旁，将坐在椅子上喝湯的人一把抱起來，渾身低氣壓地念叨着，“就不能把衣服穿好再吃飯嗎？已經十月份了，這個天稍微不注意一下就容易着涼生病的，你這樣大大咧咧的，到時候生病了可怎麽辦？除了本世子還有誰能給你折騰？”
蕭非鶴說這番話的時候心底還有點怨氣，他怨的不是她沒多穿衣服，而是怨外頭的靳厭離，跟他對比起來，他确實是要自愧不如的。
雖然他嘴上說的很強勢，但他心底其實也有一絲擔心，不、不僅僅是一絲，他知道南嫣從一開始喜歡的人就是靳厭離，他不過是趁虛而入才把人搶過來的，倘若不是因為靳厭離跟李清柔的關系，只怕他再努力一輩子，也不一定能撬得動這塊牆角。
所以他很擔心，擔心如果靳厭離後悔了，又轉過頭來重新找她，求她原諒的話，到時候她會不會反悔，會不會又不要他了？
畢竟感情的事情誰又能說的準，而眼前這個人，更是他在她情緒最低落的時候才搶過來的，而且他名聲這麽差，也沒靳厭離有本事，他是朝堂上鼎鼎有名的靳大人，連他的那個皇帝舅舅都對他稱贊有加！
可是他呢，連他親舅舅都經常勸他要上進一點了，已經是及冠的大人了，不能再這麽整日裏到處溜達閑逛了……
要不是還有這麽一個皇帝侄子的身份在，這燕雲城裏的姑娘家，怕是每一個能瞧得上他的。
也就她這麽個沒心沒肺的大小姐了，成日裏跟他厮混在一塊，還半點心眼都不長，這下好了吧，被他這麽個纨绔子弟盯上了吧，看她以後還怎麽跑得掉？
蕭非鶴将人手臂捋直，拿起裙子就往她身上套，南嫣莫名無語，這場景怎麽莫名的就有種熟悉感呢？
瞧這套衣服的動作，跟小時候她娘給她穿衣服的動作簡直一毛一樣啊，南嫣瞬間有種自己成他養的崽了的感覺。
這世子爺是犯什麽毛病了？
難不成是被靳厭離打擊過頭了？
這倒是很有可能啊！南嫣心裏尋思着，畢竟靳厭離也是個心黑手狠的陰謀權臣，被他打擊了實屬正常，但他被打擊成這樣是她沒想到的啊，因為據她所知，這世子爺的腦子長得也不差啊，而且牙尖嘴利的有時候連她都怼不過，只能用武力強行壓制才算完事。
怎麽眼瞅着這人好像有點不大對勁呢？
等衣服胡亂穿好之後，蕭非鶴又不知道從哪兒掏出一只鞋子給她穿上，最後确定這人沒什麽問題了以後，這才将人抱到椅子上坐好，然後那雙黑浸浸的眼眸就這麽定定地望向她，忽然問了一聲，“你會離開我嗎？”
“什麽？”
南嫣莫名其妙的，身子下意識地往後仰了仰，這人怎麽總喜歡說這種沒頭沒腦的話呢，她伸手戳了戳他胸口，然後試探着問了一聲，“你這是怎麽了，有誰……欺負你了嗎？”
“還能有誰？”蕭非鶴瞪她一眼，然後長腿一伸，直接勾來身後那張凳子，在她面前坐下，這顯然是要促膝長談的架勢啊，南嫣瞅着他眨了眨眼，蕭非鶴從鼻間重重哼了一聲，“除了你那個厚顏無恥、仗勢欺人又賊眉鼠眼的未來妹夫，還有誰能欺負我？”
南嫣眼角抽了抽，簡直想給這人一個大大的白眼，當她傻呢？仗勢欺人她倒是相信是真實的，不過賊眉鼠眼他從哪兒看出來的？比不過人家就人身攻擊，哼，這家夥的臉皮簡直不要太厚了。
蕭非鶴顯然也看出了她眼神裏表達的意思，胸口莫名堵了堵，他就是這麽小氣不行嗎？比不過他就算了，還不能讓他過過嘴瘾嗎？
蕭非鶴又哼了兩聲，然後一把捉住在胸口指指點點的小手，直接問道，“你那是什麽眼神？怎麽，你不相信他欺負我了嗎？”
“好，那我換個話題問你，行了吧。”
他說這句話的時候，目光稍微深了些，握着她手掌的力道也慢慢收緊了不少，然後他看着她，認真問道，“如果他後悔了，又重新回來找你，然後跟你道歉，求你原諒的話，你會再給他一次機會嗎？會離開我嗎？”
南嫣眼睛眨了下，乍然間聽到這話時好像還有些反應過不過來，等她捋清楚他說的那些話是什麽意思之後，眼睫微微動了下，然後下意識地推了他胸口一把，低着頭別過臉去，抿着嘴唇，聲音悶悶地道，“你在說什麽啊？什麽後悔不後悔的事情，你那天不是都已經說過了嗎？我跟他之間……是不可能的了，為什麽又要提這個讓人不開心的話題？”
蕭非鶴看到她的反應，一時間有些心慌，他努力壓下心頭的緊張與不安，偏偏想從她口中得出一個确定的結果，于是強裝鎮定道，“我說的是如果，嫣嫣，如果他後悔了，你會重新再給他一次機會嗎？”
會毫不猶豫地放棄我嗎？
後面那句話他甚至不敢問出口，他對自己毫無信心，他此刻甚至懊悔，為什麽當初不是他先認識她的呢？為什麽他做什麽都是比別人晚一步呢？
再次聽到同樣的問題，南嫣突然就不說話了，她悶着腦袋一副緘默如故的狀态。
而這樣的态度更是讓蕭非鶴臉色瞬間變了，他下意識地抓緊她的手，胸口更是瞬間湧上一股酸澀與苦楚。
隐約中仿佛明白了她的選擇，蕭非鶴心底的擔憂仿佛成真了，這也讓他立馬選擇退讓一步，急切地将人摟進懷裏安慰着，
“對不起，嫣嫣。”
“我錯了，我不問了，我不該問你這個問題的，你別怪我，別生氣好不好？”
“我只是有些擔心，擔心你會離開我，所以才一時間有些沖動，我不該逼你的，我以前就說過的，你不喜歡做的事情我不會強迫你的，對不起，我真的知道錯了，以後都不會再問你這個問題了，別生氣好不好？”
蕭非鶴心口發顫，緊緊抱着懷裏的人，他好不容易才讓她稍微為他動容一點的，決不能因為一個靳厭離就這麽功虧一篑。
既然她喜歡他喜歡的還不夠深，那他以後就加倍對她好，只要他一直堅持下去，總有一天一定會讓她忘記心裏頭的那個人的。
南嫣看着眼前這人着急忙慌又手忙腳亂的樣子，終于忍不住“撲哧”一聲笑了起來。
她伸手推了推這人的胸膛，示意這人松手，然後從他懷裏退出來。
蕭非鶴松開手，低頭看到那雙水潤又明媚的眸子就這麽笑意盈盈地望着他，這樣的反轉倒讓他一時間有些摸不着頭腦，表情都變得緊張不自在起來了。
看着這人怔愣的模樣，南嫣眼睛眨了下，然後朝着這人勾勾手指頭。
把人勾過來了，接着就伸出那雙無情鐵手，在這人那張俊臉上使勁揉搓了一通，直把那張白皙瑩潤的面皮都蹂/躏得通紅了，這才心滿意足地收了手。
然後湊過去在他唇上蓋了個戳，輕哼了一聲道，“這是對你的懲罰，誰讓你整天胡思亂想的，難道在你眼中，本姑娘就是這麽水性楊花、始亂終棄的人嗎？怎麽可能別人說幾句好聽、道歉的話，我就又傻傻的跑回去跟在他屁股後頭轉了？我有那麽好騙嗎？”
她白了這人一眼，然後又沒忍住揪了這人面頰一把，重複一遍道，“再說了，靳厭離已經跟李清柔定婚了。”
“不管怎麽樣，他們倆都是要做夫妻的人了，跟我又有什麽關系？你以後再敢問這些亂七八糟的問題，姑奶奶我就咬死你。”
她說着又“嗷嗚”一口，直接咬在他的肩膀上，結果肩膀太硬沒咬動，又爬上去咬他的脖子，咬得蕭非鶴下意識地“嘶”了一聲。
這下才終于反應過來，随後心中湧出的便是巨大的歡喜跟激動，幾乎讓他控制不住臉上的表情。
蕭非鶴有些不可置信，他沒想到她最後的選擇居然會是他？那一瞬間，整個胸口都像是被什麽填滿了一樣，一種難言的滿足感讓他心口愈發顫動得厲害。
他一把将人擁進懷裏，抱得緊緊的，生怕她摔着了，一只手輕輕拍着她的後背，一邊還樂呵呵地說着，“咬重點，哎，再咬重點，本世子皮糙肉厚的很，一點也不疼的。”
蕭非鶴一邊抱着人還一邊擔心，他心裏嘆氣着，這個嬌小姐可不就是很好騙嗎？沒心沒肺的還不記仇，他倒是希望她能多記仇一點，最好能讨厭那靳厭離一輩子才好，偏偏這顆腦袋瓜子又不怎麽聰明，他現在可是生怕一不留神她被人騙走了！
莫名的，蕭非鶴突然就有種共情到李夫人身上的難處了，身邊就這麽一個寶貝疙瘩，每天養在府裏好吃好喝的供着，真的是很擔心她被人拐走啊。
不過現在還好，以後有他看着了。
蕭非鶴掂了掂懷裏寶貝似的的金疙瘩，嗯，還挺重的，然後問她，“吃飽了沒？要不要再吃點？本世子帶你去逛夜市好不好？”
南嫣把腦袋從他脖子上擡起搖了搖，然後示意這人放她下來，“不去了，睡得渾身沒力氣了，我要休息。”
蕭非鶴看她又要往床上躺着，便下意識地把人拽回來了，任她軟趴趴地靠在胸膛上，沒忍住笑道，“你這是睡太久了，自然渾身無力，起來到院子裏走走就好了，一直坐着不動對身體不好，這樣吧，我們一邊說話一邊走走吧？”
南嫣探頭探腦問他，“說什麽閑話啊，皇家秘聞嗎？”
蕭非鶴按住她的腦袋，把這個想法一并按下去，私議皇家秘事可是要掉腦袋的。
不過這樣一來，好像确實是沒什麽可以說的，蕭非鶴琢磨着，忽然眼睛一亮，低着頭湊過去說道，“我最近新得了本《玉樓春豔》續作，聽說你最愛看這個，要不我讀給你聽好不好？”
南嫣眼神立馬變得古怪極了，飄忽忽的掃過去，将人渾身上下打量了一圈又一圈，然後把腦袋一偏，義正言辭地指責道，
“胡說八道些什麽，我什麽時候最愛看這種不三不四的東西了，本小姐是那樣的人嗎？用這種不正經的東西來污穢本小姐如此純潔的心靈，你的良心難道不會痛嗎？”
蕭非鶴：“……”
說好的純潔呢？當初為了跟他搶這本續作那可是扯斷了他不少根頭發，下手賊狠，他都怕以後自己這腦袋會英年早禿。
不過這話他是不敢說的，大小姐好面子，他這個當跑腿的可不能駁了她的面子，于是立馬低頭認錯，臉上露出一副忏悔的模樣，“痛，真是太痛了！我有罪，我不正經，我罪該萬死，此等污言穢語，明日我就拿去焚燒殆盡，還有你之前藏我那兒的不少話本也全都……”
“咳咳咳——”
話還沒說完，對面那大小姐就立馬沖過來捂住了嘴，然後一把撲進他懷裏，那雙手使勁拍打着他的臉，“這種話怎麽能亂說？”
她好歹花了不少銀子呢，就這麽扔了多可惜啊？自從被她娘發現這些亂七八糟的小玩意之後，那是三天兩頭的拉她去閨房教育人生啊，說她好好一大家閨秀，怎麽能成日裏看那種亂七八糟的東西，前前後後将她訓斥一通，然後沒收了一大半她寶貴財産。
之後她可不得趕緊轉移陣地嗎，所以就盯上了眼前這家夥，兩人又都是吃喝玩樂的同道中人，偶爾還能一起交流心得，這不正好還能促進感情嗎。
大小姐聽了這話立馬瞪着他，那雙烏黑圓潤的眼珠子稍微轉動了下，然後兇巴巴道，“你敢？那可都是本小姐送你的定情信物，敢扔掉一本，本小姐就要你好看！”
蕭非鶴連忙道“不敢不敢”，然後又驚奇地望着懷裏人，忍不住感嘆道，“原來那都是大小姐送本世子的定情信物啊，這可真是，送到本世子的心坎裏了啊，大小姐何時再跟小的交流一下心得啊？”
南嫣聽了這話實在忍不住笑了，揪着他的面皮跟揉面團似的好一通欺負，世子爺被欺負的臉皮生疼也不氣惱，嘴裏又說了幾句好話，瞬間就把人哄得團團轉，然後抱着他親了一口。
就這一口就讓蕭非鶴笑得見牙不見眼，簡直比撿了一百兩銀子還要高興似的。
南嫣将腦袋靠在他肩膀上，略微揚起嘴角，心裏尋思着，哼，就這小樣，我還拿捏不了你了嗎？
……
眼見天色已晚，夜間行路不安全，一行人便又在別院住了一晚，這一夜有人失眠，自然也有人歡喜。
第二天天剛朦胧亮的時候，南嫣就醒了，這主要還是歸因于昨天睡得時間實在太久了，這會兒外頭還什麽動靜都沒呢。
南嫣稍微洗漱了下，剛推開窗戶，就看到在他窗口不遠處站着的那道身影，他就站在那樹下，穿着一件深紫色的衣袍，面色是蒼白的，看到她時，他的表情甚至有些發怔，眼睛就那麽一瞬不瞬地望着她，生怕自己一眨眼，眼前這人就會消失一樣。
南嫣和他對視了一眼後，又默默移開了視線，然後關上窗戶，打算出去再虐他一把。
而在她關上窗的那一刻，靳厭離幾乎是下意識地往前走了一步，他口中呢喃喊了聲她的名字，“嫣嫣……”
南嫣轉身打開了房門，然後在他的注視下，有些躊躇着走到了他的面前，然後擡頭靜靜望着他，“靳大人……”
靳厭離看着她一步一步朝着他走過來的時候，心中甚至隐隐生出了那麽一絲期待。
他以為她來找他或許是因為放不下過去的事情，或許他們還可以重新來過？
他已經後悔了，他真的知道錯了，只要她願意原諒他，這一次他一定會好好對她的，再也不會欺負她、讓她那麽難過了。
可是聽到她口中喊出的那一句平靜的“靳大人”之後，靳厭離好似被人澆了一盆冷水似的，心口生疼，有那麽一瞬間，他甚至想不顧一切地将她擁進懷裏，然後好好抱着她。
可是他不能，他不敢，不敢再做任何讓她不開心不願意的事情了，他怕再讓她傷心。
靳厭離眼也不眨地盯着她，他真的太想她了，想到每天只要一閉上眼睛，整個腦海裏就全是她的樣子，她的一颦一笑，一舉一動仿佛在腦海中生了根一樣，揮之不去。
可是她現在喊他“靳大人”。
一聽到這句疏離陌生的靳大人，靳厭離便瞬間感覺自己的心頭在微微發顫着，他小心翼翼地伸出手，她卻下意識往後退了半步，在意識到自己的舉動有些突兀之後，她猶豫了一瞬，這才又朝他露出一個不太自在的笑容來。
靳厭離目光怔怔地望着她那個笑，一時間只覺得眼眶發酸，他有多久沒見她對他笑過了，從退婚之後，就再也沒有看見過她的笑了。
南嫣看着他有些怔神的樣子，忽然輕吐了一口濁氣，然後從懷裏掏出一個小荷包，從裏頭拿出一塊玉佩來，她聲音輕輕的，還帶了些歉意跟愧疚，有些不敢擡頭看他，“其實，我來找你，是想跟你說一聲對不起的。”
She hesitated and explained everything that happened in the past. "This jade pendant was not left by you at all. I picked it up in the woodshed by myself, and then I kept it for myself. I'm sorry, Master Jin, when you first thought I was your savior, you treated me very well, took care of me everywhere, accommodated me, helped me out, and even bought me so many delicious and fun things in private to make me happy. As a result, I had delusions. Obviously, you just wanted to repay your kindness, but I delusionally thought that the person you liked was me, and the person who was with you was also me, so I got hot-headed for a while and thought about deceiving you for the rest of my life."
"Later I found out that the person you've always liked is Qingrou. I'm so sorry, Jin Lili, it's because of me that you two missed each other for so long."
"You were so good to me, but I always repaid you with hatred."
She let out a long sigh after she finished speaking, and her face showed an apologetic expression, and she also blamed herself. "I know I am too selfish, and you have reason to resent me. It's just... I really liked you before, and I always thought that I only made a small mistake, and you wouldn't do anything to me even if you knew about it. But the facts prove that all this is just my own wishful thinking, and I am too fanciful. Now, you have found someone you really like, and this jade pendant should be returned to its original owner."
As she spoke, she handed the jade pendant over. Her pair of black and white eyes looked at him gently and calmly. Jin Linli's body became more and more stiff. He stared at Nan Yan in front of him, trying to distinguish carefully, trying to find a trace of reluctance in her eyes, but he was disappointed. He could no longer find any trace of nostalgia for him.
At this moment, no matter how much he didn't believe it or how much he tried to deceive himself, he realized that the man in front of him was really going to let him go.
Especially when he saw the jade pendant she handed over, at that moment, he felt as if someone was squeezing his heart heavily. The pain of being unable to breathe was like being pierced by countless silver needles at once, making Jin Lili extremely painful.
In the end, he didn't even know where the pain was coming from, whether it originated in his body or spread from his chest to his limbs.
At that moment, he suddenly felt cold all over. An endless chill made him feel as if he had fallen into an ice cellar. Even his fingers could not help but tremble. It was so painful, an unprecedented pain that almost made him collapse. But what could he do?
What should I do?
He had just realized his mistake and felt extremely regretful. Why, why couldn't he be given another chance? He really knew he was wrong...
Yanyan...
He opened his mouth, wanting to say something, wanting to apologize to her, wanting to say sorry to her, saying that he was wrong... But when the words came to his lips, he found that he could not utter a single word, as if all the words were stuck in his throat, sour and painful.
Jin Li still refused to give up. He stared at her stubbornly, without blinking, and his eyes began to turn red. He just stared at her like this...
But when he saw that her eyes had gradually calmed down, without even a trace of the warmth from the past, Jin Lili felt a little bit scared. He didn't even dare to look into her eyes anymore. He was afraid that seeing such a calm look would make her no longer have any attachment to him...
She doesn't love him anymore, she has completely let him go.
She even apologized to him...
She had never said such words to him before. Even when they had quarreled in the tent, she was angry, crying and questioning him. But now, she actually said sorry to him and said that she would return the jade pendant to him. From now on, it belonged to its original owner.
What should he do?
She doesn't want him anymore...
Thinking of this, Jin Lili's fingers trembled slightly, and the whole person seemed to be unable to bear it. He subconsciously took a step back. At this moment, he felt that his chest was blocked as if he was about to suffocate. His mind was in a mess. In the end, he grabbed her wrist, and then stuffed the jade pendant back into her palm, and said in a dry and hoarse voice, "From the moment you picked it up, it has been yours. You don't have to give it back to me."
After saying this, Jin Lili couldn't bear it any longer. He turned around and wanted to leave here, as far away as possible. As long as he couldn't see her and didn't think about what happened today, everything between them would be the same as before.
Jin Li fled in a desperate situation. His mind was in a mess and he even forgot how he got back to the yard.
Nan Yan behind him looked at his fierce figure until he completely disappeared, then she smiled with satisfaction. As expected, she felt very happy when she saw him unhappy.
Well, there is another one, and it will probably be here soon.