Chapter 129 [VIP] Lifesaver (16)
After saying this, Nan Yan hadn't seen Jin Linli since almost noon. She didn't even see him come out during mealtimes. The servants brought the food into his room and took it out intact. Even Jin Wu shook his head and sighed inwardly, wondering what had happened to his master.
How could he suddenly look so devastated, especially with that painful and regretful look in his eyes? This was the first time Jin Wu saw his high-spirited adult look so painful and hopeless...
He even thought that even during the time when his master was blind and seriously injured, he had never seen him so devastated. At this moment, his face was as pale as paper, which made people feel distressed for no reason.
The courtyard seemed to be much quieter.
Except for the noise Xiao Feihe made from time to time in Nan Yan's yard, which made Nan Yan laugh out loud, the yard on Jin Li's side seemed to have become completely quiet.
After breakfast, the sky outside became brighter. This time, not long after, the group finally left the small courtyard at the foot of the mountain in a horse-drawn carriage, and the carriage swayed slowly towards Yanyun City.
During the period of time after returning to the city, Xiao Feihe obviously began to consciously change himself little by little.
It's strange to say, when he liked Li Qingrou, he was afraid to approach her because of his bad reputation, for fear of tarnishing her reputation, but he never thought about changing himself. Obviously, he could also work hard to become a better person and try to compete with Jin Lili, right?
But for some reason, he just never thought about changing himself. When he was with Yanyan, he had a completely different feeling. He thought every day about how he could become a better person, more mature and stable, so that he could take care of her for the rest of her life and prevent her from being bullied, or help her get back at others after being bullied.
It seemed that after being with her, he became a little different from himself.
When Xiao Feihe thought of this, a smile appeared on his face unconsciously.
Because the elimination of bandits in Jile Temple this time was a great achievement, his uncle the emperor felt that this idle nephew seemed to have finally grown up, so he specially gave him a leisurely position in the Ministry of Justice. The position was neither high nor low, but it allowed him to get practical work done and gain a lot of experience.
At first the emperor was worried that he was not honest and thought that this bad nephew was even harder to teach than his own bad son. He couldn't beat him, and he wouldn't listen when he was scolded. His skin was as thick as a city wall, and he was lazy all day long. There was really no way to deal with him.
He also knew that the child had always been resentful towards him because of what his mother did in the past. His only elder sister died because of him, leaving behind only this child and then passed away. Even his own mother, the empress dowager, resented him a little, and this matter did make him feel guilty, so when this kid later led the second brother to commit adultery and fall in love with a brothel girl, he did not pursue the matter too much. The emperor felt guilty in his heart after all, so he was particularly loving and tolerant of this child.
But even if he tolerated it, he couldn't change the bad things he had done. He had ruined his reputation and was hated by everyone. Which girl from a good family in this city would be interested in him?
This was the first time the emperor had seen someone wasting his life like this.
So this time, taking advantage of the bandit suppression at Jile Temple, I gave this disobedient bastard a leisurely job, hoping that he would make up his mind to change himself.
Originally the emperor thought that this man would definitely refuse, and he had already prepared a second argument in his mind, using his deceased mother as an excuse. This kid would not listen to anyone, but he would definitely obey his mother's last wishes.
But I don't know what happened this time?
He had just finished talking about the reward and was waiting for the boy to start pestering him again, but the boy immediately knelt down and kowtowed to express his gratitude, with a happy and smug look on his face. The emperor felt something was wrong no matter how he looked at him. What was wrong with this boy?
The emperor was an emperor after all, and he could not show his doubts, so he coughed and warned him sternly.
"This position in the Ministry of Justice is not for you to play around with. Since you have accepted this position, you must work hard. Otherwise, if something goes wrong, even if you are my nephew, I will punish you mercilessly. Do you understand?"
Xiao Feihe's face turned serious in an instant. He quickly lifted his robe and knelt down to thank the emperor respectfully, "Thank you for your grace. I will not let you down this time. I will do my best to fulfill my duties in the Ministry of Justice."
emperor:"……"
Is this really strange?
The emperor exchanged a glance with the chief eunuch beside him, who also shook his head in confusion. The emperor coughed again, then waved his hand in annoyance and said, "Alright, alright, if that's the case, you can leave. I have other things to deal with. Remember, don't do anything reckless by relying on your status."
After saying that, he glanced at his tall and graceful nephew, frowned, thought for a while, and couldn't help but say, "Also, you are not young anymore. When I was your age, the eldest was already two years old."
"You should tone down your temper and stop being irresponsible and living a life of debauchery all day long. Tell me which girl you like and I will keep an eye out for her."
After saying this, the emperor did not expect the other party to reply. As a result, the boy nodded and agreed obediently, respectfully, with a bit of embarrassment on his face, "Your humble servant... we will talk about this matter later. When Fei He's reputation gets a little better, I will ask my uncle for help."
After saying this, the boy actually walked away with a red face.
The emperor looked at the eunuch beside him again, and now he understood completely that this boy really had someone he liked. That's good, it's good that he could change, it's good that he could change, this way he could do justice to his eldest sister's spirit in heaven.
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Meanwhile, at the Li Mansion, after returning from the Jile Temple, Nan Yan has been ordered to stay at the mansion and not allowed to wander around. There is a case being handled outside recently, and it is really unsafe.
During the time when everyone returned, it was heard that Lord Jin was ill and had been ill for quite some time. He even did not attend the court. The emperor even sent a royal doctor to diagnose him, but the royal doctor only said that Lord Jin had been busy with official business and exhausted, and had injured his body. He needed to rest for a while before he could recover. After hearing this answer, the emperor waved his hand and directly exempted him from the morning court.
My dear, please stay at home and take good care of yourself. It will not be too late to come to court after you have recovered.
After hearing the news, Mrs. Li was obviously a little surprised. She looked quite energetic at the Buddhist temple that day, so how come she fell ill as soon as she came back?
After hearing this, Madam Li inevitably asked her servants to find out more. After all, it was Master Jin who showed up in time in the temple that day and saved her entire family. This real favor could not be denied no matter what.
Especially later on, Lord Jin took good care of her daughter. Since he had forgiven them, they naturally could not be ungrateful. Therefore, Mrs. Li was very worried for a while.
I was worried, so I thought of sending someone to visit him and prepare some small gifts to thank Lord Jin for saving my life.
She had already chosen the candidates for the visit. The one that Lord Jin liked was Qingrou. He probably came to Jile Temple to save them this time because of Qingrou. Moreover, the two of them were already engaged, so Qingrou should bring some things to the Jin Mansion to see each other, so that the couple could see each other more often before getting married to foster their relationship.
The other one is her troublesome daughter. Madam Li had some selfish motives in letting Nan Yan go. This great opportunity, which she had finally obtained with her life, must be used.
There is an old saying that goes, it is better to resolve a feud than to create one. Lord Jin finally didn't care about her daughter's deception and fraud this time, and there happened to be such an opportunity, so why not let Yanyan come to apologize in person and completely resolve the resentment between the two.
After all, she is the elder sister, and after Lord Jin marries Qingrou, they will all be a family. Family members always have to interact with each other. If things become so awkward, it will cause unrest in the family, and outsiders will laugh at them, and it will also be embarrassing.
What's more, her incompetent husband has been in the Hanlin Academy for so many years and still has no great potential. Now he still has to rely on his status as a future son-in-law to avoid being bullied by his colleagues. Mrs. Li sighed, even if it was for Li Considering the family's future fortune, she, the mother-in-law, should give this stupid girl some advice so that she can recognize the reality, so that she will not be bullied in the future and have no one to help her.
In fact, even without Mrs. Li's lecture, Nan Yan would have found an opportunity to go to the Jin Mansion again. However, her mother was so considerate, so she naturally couldn't refuse her, so Nan Yan obediently agreed.
Seeing that her daughter had behaved much better since returning from the Paradise Temple, Madam Li finally felt relieved and asked her servants to prepare a generous return gift.
Before getting on the carriage, Madam Li couldn't help but tap the lady's head and admonish her, "Don't be willful this time. Be honest when you go to the Jin Mansion and apologize to Master Jin. He doesn't blame you because he is magnanimous. Don't take his generosity as an excuse to be bullied. Don't be willful again. Do you remember?"
Nan Yan touched her head which was hurt by the blow and agreed several times, "I know, I know. Mom, who do you think I am? Am I that stupid?"
After saying this, she quickly turned around and climbed onto the carriage. She didn't have the slightest bit of ladylike manners, which made Mrs. Li so angry that she covered her chest and complained again, wondering why her daughter was not like her.
After all, she was a famous lady in Yanyun City back then, right?
Nan Yan also looked at her mother's disgusted expression through the car curtain, and her eyes twitched. Did she look so ignorant in her mother's eyes?
Nan Yan casually lowered the curtain and the carriage moved forward steadily. In fact, she had not expected Jin Linli to be sick. She thought that he would be hit hard at most, but she did not expect that this blow would have such a great impact on him.
After all, she knew that Jin Lili was the most stubborn person, the type who would not feel any pain unless he got his head broken and bloodied. Once he made up his mind, it would be difficult for others to change his decision unless he could think it through thoroughly and give up. Just like when he was determined to cancel the engagement, no matter how hesitant he was, he finally broke off the engagement.
Now that he knows what he really wants, given his personality, I'm afraid he won't let it go easily. There will definitely be more trouble.
Nan Yan was thinking about this when she suddenly noticed that Li Qingrou across from her had her eyes fixed on the jade pendant hanging around her waist. She smiled secretly in her heart, it seemed that she had noticed it too.
There was a small word "Jin" engraved on the bottom of the jade pendant, which Nan Yan naturally exposed on purpose. She knew that her mother would arrange for the two sisters to ride in the same carriage, so she prepared to expose the jade pendant in advance.
Li Qingrou said nothing, but her eyes were fixed on her waist without haste. She had obviously recognized it. This should be the jade pendant that she had picked up and claimed as her own. It was also the reason why she had always recognized the wrong person. There was some resentment in her eyes. She didn't expect that she still carried this thing with her.
Especially when she went to the Jin residence, she wore it so openly. Did she do it on purpose? Was she hoping to bring back the disgusting memories and then continue to pester her?
Li Qingrou thought silently, the more she thought about it, the less she liked her elder sister. In fact, she had a natural dislike for her. This dislike came from the words her aunt had whispered in her ears when she was young. Now that she thought about it, it was all because of the difference in status.
In the mansion, Li Nanyan was the beloved daughter of her father and mother, who had been pampered and loved since she was a child. Outside, she was the only legitimate daughter of the Li family, so her status was naturally nobler than that of the group of concubines' daughters. No matter how well she did or how knowledgeable and well-mannered she was, in the eyes of outsiders, she was still not as good as this brainless legitimate sister, and would never be as likable as her. Therefore, since she was a child, she had a hint of hatred in her heart.
Now, even the person she likes is like this. Even though she has everything, he still wants to snatch things that originally belong to her.
It was obvious that Ren Li liked her from the very beginning. If Li Nanyan hadn't interfered, they wouldn't have missed each other for so long.
Thinking of the sadness and loneliness she felt during that time, Li Qingrou no longer had any good feelings towards her elder sister.
Just as she was immersed in her own thoughts, thinking about how to get the jade pendant back, Li Nanyan on the opposite side suddenly spoke.
"Li Qingrou, do you feel that I am sorry for taking something that originally belonged to you?"
Li Qingrou was stunned for a moment, then pursed her lips, raised her eyes and looked at her deeply, "Isn't it?"
"Of course not." Nan Yan said as a matter of course.
She propped her chin up, looked up at her again, and rubbed the jade pendant in her palm. "I picked up this jade pendant in the woodshed of the villa. The maid reported that you were secretly meeting a man in the woodshed. When I went to check, I accidentally stepped on this jade pendant. If you dared to admit that you did keep a man in the woodshed, and let your parents decide for you, saying that this jade pendant is your token of love, I would naturally return the jade pendant to you. But you said nothing. You were afraid of damaging your reputation, and you wanted to pretend to be kind to gain the upper hand. Then why should I return this jade pendant that I picked up to you?"
"Besides, that manor is what my mother wants to leave for me as a dowry in the future. It is my private property, so the things inside are naturally mine too."
Nan Yan looked up at her, using her sister's reputation to prove her generosity and kindness, but she didn't dare to take the risk. What if she had saved some messy man instead of Jin Lili? Wouldn't the original owner have to bear the risk and suffer slander with her? Didn't she think about the original owner at this time?
Since both parties were wrong, why should she always act as if she felt sorry for her whole life? Don't you think she doesn't know what this concubine sister did in private?
At least she had done a lot of things in the past to secretly discredit the original owner's reputation.
She steps on her own sisters to promote her good reputation of being gentle, virtuous, well-educated and well-mannered, and also blames the original owner for being close to outsiders instead of her own sisters. The original owner is just a little naive, not really stupid. How could she not see a little bit of cattyness?
Being cheated once or twice is fine, but if it happens too many times, can't you just avoid it even if you can't afford to offend it?
She just wanted to say that as a concubine's sister, Li Qingrou had her own little thoughts and selfishness, but this was not a big problem. Which legitimate daughter and concubine's daughter didn't have some messy conflicts? The royal princesses still had competition and conflicts, so what was theirs?
But in the original plot, Li Qingrou secretly encouraged Xiao Feihe to deceive the original owner's feelings. This was too much. Not to mention that she was completely unaware of this matter. How could this be possible? She is not a fool!
Moreover, even if she was unaware of it at first, when she later saw Xiao Feihe approaching Li Nanyan on his own initiative, wouldn't she be suspicious?
She knew clearly that Xiao Feihe was deeply in love with her, so why did she say such words in front of him? It was obvious that she was just trying to make him think of ways to get rid of her. This kind of thing of killing someone with a borrowed knife was extremely vicious. Why did she go to such lengths?
Are you really so disgusted with your elder sister Li Nanyan?
That's why I won't feel at ease until she is completely destroyed!
Thinking of this, Nan Yan raised her hand and threw the jade pendant towards her. "Although I don't like you, I am also responsible for the jade pendant. Now that it has been returned to its original owner, we are even now."
So, what she did next could be considered a lesson for the original owner. Breaking off the engagement, once for each person, is fair.
About a quarter of an hour later, the carriage finally arrived at the Jin Mansion. The housekeeper hurriedly came up from the door and personally welcomed the two into the mansion. To be honest, this was the first time the servants had seen such a scene. Even the maids who came to make tea and serve were a little nervous.
Lord Jin's ex-fiancée and current fiancée actually came together. Are they going to cause a big fuss in the Jin Mansion?
As Jin Nili's current fiancée, Li Qingrou naturally stated her purpose first, asked the servants to take all the medicine and supplements in the cart away, and then carefully asked the housekeeper about Jin Nili's recent situation and whether his body was feeling better.
Upon hearing this, the butler lowered his head and replied respectfully, then said that the master's condition has been better in the past two days. He was just taking care of some chores in the study, and now he should be taking a walk in the back garden, right?
When the butler said this, Li Qingrou smiled at him, nodded slightly, and went straight to the back garden.
She was in a good mood today. No matter what Li Nanyan was thinking, as long as she was willing to return the jade pendant to her, she would no longer care about the wrong things she had done in the past.
As for the things she said happened in the manor, Li Qingrou just felt it was extremely incomprehensible.
It's really easy to find excuses to accuse someone of a crime. She was clearly saving people, so how could she say that she was having a secret meeting with a man?
And how could it be related to reputation when it was just saving someone? She had kept it a secret from everyone, but that was just to avoid trouble. How could she possibly tell her parents about this?
Although she had not considered Li Nanyan's situation, wasn't she there herself? And the situation was so urgent at the time, how could she have thought so much? Most importantly, facts have proved that she had saved the right people, right?
Thinking of this, Li Qingrou felt even more that she was right. If saving people was considered wrong, then wouldn't there be no good people in this world?
Besides, it's not just Li Nanyan who has to bear the risk. If there are any problems, doesn't she have to bear the responsibility as well?
Thinking of this, the two of them walked one after the other to the back garden of the Jin Mansion. There were still many flowers in this garden that Nan Yan had planted in the past. The begonias bloomed and fell, and new ones bloomed after they fell. There was not much difference from the past.
There are also a few orchids that she raised, placed among some green bamboos. The flower buds among the orchid leaves are slightly bulging, with a hint of light white in the green, and it seems that they are about to bloom. They look very lively.
Nan Yan also vaguely noticed this and raised her eyebrows silently. It seems that someone is taking care of these flowers and plants regularly, otherwise they would not be able to bloom so beautifully.
Just as she was thinking this, a figure suddenly appeared in front of her. Nan Yan quickly adjusted her expression and looked up at the man, who looked to be in a bad mood.
Perhaps he had been sick for several days in a row, his face was so pale that it was almost transparent, and when the light fell on his eyelashes, it cast a small shadow on his eyelids.
His eyes were dark, and usually when he was high and mighty, staring at people coldly, there would be a sense of alienation. But now he was so sick that he didn't even have that aura of being in a high position, and he looked like a decadent man who had given up on himself.
I thought he didn't have the heart to care about anyone, but when he saw Nan Yan, his eyes unconsciously gathered a gleam of undisguised light.
"Ahem...you're here."
He covered his lips and coughed, then took two steps forward almost subconsciously, his steps even a little anxious.
Li Qingrou thought that this sentence was directed at her, so she hurried forward to greet him. The expression on her face was even a little nervous and worried. "Zhenli, why are you so sick? You were fine a few days ago, why are you so pale now? Has the doctor come to see you? Have you taken medicine?"
When Jin Lili heard the voice, he realized that there was someone standing next to him. He looked in the direction of the line of sight and saw Li Qingrou standing next to him, and frowned slightly.
Jin Lili saw the worried look on her face and hesitated for a moment. He was just about to take this opportunity to make his thoughts clear, but his eyes inadvertently caught a glimpse of the jade pendant hanging around her waist.
The expression on his face froze instantly.
He stepped forward subconsciously, not even caring about the difference between men and women, and directly reached out and pulled the jade pendant off her waist. Then he raised his eyes, staring at Li Qingrou in front of him with his dark eyes without any emotion, and asked in a cold voice, "Why is this jade pendant on you?"
"What?"
This question made Li Qingrou stunned. She didn't even react. But when she saw the jade pendant he pulled off, her face turned pale. She didn't expect that he cared about this, so she subconsciously replied,
"Shouldn't this jade pendant originally belong to me?"
Jin Lili spoke without hesitation, almost without caring about her face, "You should know whether it is yours or not. What I want to ask is why it is in your body?"
He was clearly speaking to Li Qingrou, but his eyes were fixed on Nan Yan who was not far behind her.
Jin Lili looked at her figure, and the memory in his mind seemed to return to the scene in the other courtyard that day, that shuddering scene. She called him "Master Jin" and said with a smile that she would return the jade pendant to him. She didn't want to have anything to do with him anymore, so she didn't want anything.
Thinking of this, Jin Lili felt as if the dense, piercing pain in his chest was surging again.
It felt like millions of ants were gnawing at his heart, causing him to subconsciously clench the jade pendant in his hand, his eyes filled with extreme pain and discomfort.
Seeing Jin Lili like this, Li Qingrou seemed to understand something vaguely. She bit her lip, and seemed a little embarrassed. After a while, she raised her eyes and looked at him, "The jade pendant was given to me by Nan Yan. Don't you want me to keep it?"
As soon as she finished speaking, Jin Lili's expression changed.
The despair and pain in his eyes almost overflowed.
...Sure enough, she gave it to her.
She even refused to keep this.
At that moment, Jin Lili felt that even the fingers holding the jade pendant were trembling uncontrollably, and an endless chill seemed to rise from his heart and spread to his whole body. He was so cold that his teeth were chattering. He suddenly raised his head and looked at Nan Yan who was standing not far behind her, then rushed over, grabbed her wrist, and took her to the study.
Before leaving, he only said to Li Qingrou coldly, "I have something to explain to her."
When he said this, he didn't even look up at her, and then he ignored her no more.
Li Qingrou was left alone there, staring blankly at the backs of the two people as they left. She felt an empty feeling in her chest, as if there was something she could no longer grasp. She felt extremely uncomfortable.
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On the other side, Jin Lili grabbed Nan Yan's wrist tightly and led her to the study. The servants guarding the door were so frightened by their master's aura from a distance that they dared not raise their heads. After closing the door, they quickly retreated obediently.
Jin Lili pushed her against the table. His eyes were slightly red, and there was a trace of pain and hurt in his eyes. He asked her in a hoarse voice, "Why? Why did you give the jade pendant to someone else? I clearly said that what you picked up is yours. Why are you so disobedient and want to give it to someone else?"
Of course she has her uses.
Nan Yan pursed her lips and refused to speak at first, but her wrist was so painful from being held by this man that she struggled for a long time but he didn't let go. Finally, she had no choice but to look up at him, hesitated for a moment, and replied, "It should have belonged to Qingrou. I have been taking things that belonged to her. Now that the misunderstanding has been resolved, of course I have to... give it back to her."
Those watery and clear eyes met his eyes directly, without a trace of nostalgia in them.
Jin Lili felt a chill run down his spine when he looked at those eyes.
She pursed her lips, as if she was a little hesitant, but after taking a deep breath, she continued, "Besides, you and Qingrou are already engaged, and you will be married in less than a month. After you get married, you will be my brother-in-law. With such a relationship, how can I, as an elder sister, take the personal belongings of my brother-in-law? This is too rude. Mother said that I can no longer be as willful as before."
"Besides, I will have someone I like in the future. If he knew about this, he would definitely be unhappy."
Her voice became softer and softer as she spoke. I don't know who she was thinking of, but her cheeks turned red uncontrollably.
But at this moment, Jin Xinli no longer had the heart to think about who made her look like that. He could hardly hear what she said afterwards. His mind was full of words like "brother-in-law" that she had just said, brother-in-law, brother-in-law, damn brother-in-law!
Who wants to be her brother-in-law?
Jin Lili really felt like he was going crazy, that she was driving him crazy. He had never lost control like this before. This title was like a sharp arrow with a barb, piercing his heart and twisting it fiercely inside, making him almost suffocate with pain...
He couldn't stand it anymore, he really couldn't accept it...
How could she?
How could you say such things to him so mercilessly?
Why can someone who liked him so much in the past now say such hurtful words without any scruples?
Jin Lili only felt that countless blood vessels in his brain were throbbing and screaming, crazy and confused, making his eyes redder. He stretched out his hands and put her in his arms, holding her waist tightly with one hand and pressing her head with the other hand. Then he stared at her and said, "Brother-in-law? What kind of brother-in-law? What kind of brother-in-law do you want me to be?"
"The brother-in-law who has hugged you, kissed you, and even responded to you? Li Nanyan, you are not allowed to call me brother-in-law anymore. If you dare to say brother-in-law again, I promise that you will regret it for the rest of your life."
Nan Yan was held tightly by this man, her face suddenly turned pale, she didn't know why this man suddenly became so out of control, she immediately struggled hard,
"Jin Lili, what are you doing?"
"Have you forgotten who you are?"
Her expression became a little flustered and a little angry, her voice trembling, but she was trying hard to maintain her composure. It was obvious that she had not expected this to happen. She said angrily,
"I am Li Qingrou's elder sister. After you marry her, you will naturally be my brother-in-law. Am I wrong in what I said? You said it yourself that the person you love most in your life is Li Qingrou. What do you mean by saying this now?"
"Are you doing this to Qingrou? Let me go quickly, or I will really..."
As a result, before she could finish the rest of her words, Jin Lili kissed her without caring about anything.
At that moment, Nan Yan seemed to be frightened. She did not react at first, until the slender fingers tore open her clothes at some point. Nan Yan began to struggle subconsciously, but the man held her tightly, not giving her any chance to escape.
She felt as if all the air in her lungs had been taken away. The feeling of suffocation gradually spread to her brain, and Nan Yan burst into tears instantly.
She bit him, scratched him, and slapped him hard, but the man on her was like a madman. Even after her lips were bitten and bleeding, he still refused to let her go. Until Nan Yan almost cried and almost had a choke, the man finally showed a little bit of relaxation.
Just when he hesitated, Nan Yan seized the opportunity and slapped him hard, causing him to turn his head away with a trace of blood at the corner of his mouth. Then he turned around and looked at her with eyes full of despair and pain.
He reached out to her, "Yan Yan..."
The moment she heard the voice, Nan Yan's tears almost instantly fell. Her face turned pale and she stepped back subconsciously, then covered her chest tightly with her clothes. After making sure that there was nothing wrong, she raised her eyes and looked at him with fear and nervousness.
"Don't come over here!"
In fact, since this man was reluctant to tear off the outermost layer of clothes after pulling for a long time, Nan Yan knew that he had no intention of humiliating her. Maybe he wanted to scare her, or maybe he was really provoked by her and lost control. However, this would not prevent her from torturing him further.
Seeing that she was really frightened at this moment, Jin Lili was instantly overwhelmed by regret and heartache. He wanted to go up to her and hug her and apologize to her, but when he saw the defensive and fearful look in her eyes, he found that his heart was in pain as if it was being cut by a knife, and he wished he could just die.
He was really afraid of seeing that kind of hatred and disgust in her eyes, which would make him feel more painful than suffocation. But seeing her crying, he felt so powerless, an unprecedented despair and powerlessness. Jin Lili was distressed and hurriedly took out a handkerchief from his pocket, then handed it over carefully.
"I'm sorry... Don't be afraid of me. I never meant to hurt you. I just... I'm going crazy."
He felt that his heart was already full of holes. From the moment he realized who he truly liked, he was completely finished.
Nan Yan didn't even reach out to take his handkerchief. She looked at him with red eyes, tears falling one by one, "Do you know what you are doing?"
"You and I have already broken off our engagement, how could you do this to me? It was you who insisted on breaking off the engagement, what are you doing now? Moreover, you are already engaged to Qingrou, what do you think of me by doing this?"
Nan Yan accused word by word.
Seeing that she refused to extend her hand, Jin Lili slowly reached out his hand towards her face, moving very carefully, afraid that he would accidentally scare her again. He really hadn't thought about doing anything to her, but he was stimulated today. The continuous blows, stimulations and regrets had almost made him completely emotionally collapse.
Jin Lili didn't even dare to touch her now. He only dared to wipe her tears gently through his sleeve. He apologized again, "I'm sorry, I really know I was wrong."
"I have never regretted so much..."
As he said this, the moisture in his eyes became heavier and heavier, and he said in a hoarse voice, "I was so wrong, so wrong that I couldn't even tell who I really liked. It was only after I broke off the engagement that I realized who I really loved!"
"Yan Yan, I'm so sorry. I've never regretted so much before. Can you... forgive me? Can you give me another chance and start over?"
When Nan Yan heard this, her eyes widened instantly, as if she was a little bit unbelievable. But when she saw his serious look, tears suddenly fell from her eyes like beads that had been cut off from the string. She cried even harder and raised her hand to slap his fingers away, "How can you say such a thing?"
"Where do you regard me and Qingrou? What do you regard the girls of our Li Mansion as? Are they objects that you can take whenever you want and replace at will when you don't want them anymore?"
"I've already started to forget you, why are you provoking me again? Jin Lili, can't you see me living a good life? Why are you so selfish? Or do you just want us two sisters in the Li Mansion to be jealous of each other for you, and from now on there will be no sisterhood at all. Where do you put us like this?"
She cried and when she got angry, she picked up the inkstone on the table and smashed it at him. The ink was all over her and her clothes were all dirty. A look of disgust flashed in her eyes, "You are a jerk, Jin Lili, I hate you! The things you did and the words you said all disgusted me. Don't come to me again in the future, otherwise I will hate you for the rest of my life!"
Nan Yan's words were merciless. They were like a sharp dagger that stabbed into his heart, causing him to bleed profusely. Then, she pulled them out mercilessly, causing Jin Lili's lips to tremble with pain.
He looked at the person in front of him with despair, and at this moment he seemed to finally understand what it felt like to be in excruciating pain.
It's really painful…
After saying this, Nan Yan pushed the man hard again, causing him to accidentally bump into the screen frame behind him. His face turned pale instantly, but the pain was not even half as unbearable as the one in his heart.
Looking at Nan Yan's back as she left without hesitation.
Jin Lili's tears fell instantly.
He staggered a few steps and fell to the ground, finally sitting down weakly on the screen behind him. He stretched out his hands towards her back, but could not catch anything. Jin Linli coughed violently, his face became paler and paler, and finally he seemed unable to bear it anymore. He turned his head and spat out a mouthful of blood on the ground, and then he fell down slowly.
Jin Lili laughed helplessly.
She was right, he was so selfish!
It was obviously all his fault from the beginning to the end, so why can he change it whenever he wants?
He is such a jerk...
The more Jin Lili laughed, the more tears came to his eyes. He clenched his fingers tightly, but he really knew he was wrong.
Are you not going to give him even one more chance?
Yanyan...
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