Chapter 153
Hearing Zhao Xiuyan's voice calling her, Nan Yan glanced at him and met Zhao Xiuyan's calm and gentle eyes, which were as gentle as ever.
But upon closer inspection, one could still detect a hint of uneasiness between his eyebrows, and even his body was a little stiff.
He was afraid that Yanyan would not want to come and would directly reject him in front of his junior fellow apprentice.
Nan Yan pursed her lips, hesitated for a while, and finally gently broke away Murong Tuo's wrist and walked towards him. She clearly saw that the other person's body seemed to relax a little, as if he breathed a sigh of relief, and the expression on his face became more relaxed.
Zhao Xiuyan spread out the cloak and put it on her shoulders, then smiled, turned around and took her directly back to the room.
The remaining Murong Tuo stared at the two people's backs with a gloomy look. Although Yanyan did not say a word of reluctance from beginning to end, in Murong Tuo's eyes, she was forced and she was unwilling.
It was the senior brother who forced her, it was the senior brother who shamelessly took her away, and now he wants to use that incident to control her.
...He can forget it!
Murong Tuo's eyes flashed with fierceness and he clenched his fists tightly. He would never let his senior brother bully her again, and he would never watch her sad like that.
Nan Yan has not spoken since Zhao Xiuyan took her to the room. The atmosphere between them is a little subtle. They have had physical intimacy, but their feelings are not strong enough.
In other words, with Nan Yan's current personality, it is impossible for her to accept him so quickly and accept everything that happened that day. She always needs time to calm down and face it.
Zhao Xiuyan poured her a cup of tea and when he turned to look at her, Yanyan was sitting quietly by the window. His eyes unconsciously fell on her face.
I don't know if it's because she's a virgin, but her usually pretty and gentle face now has a hint of charm and moving. She holds her sleeves lightly with her fingers and looks outside sideways. The light from the window reflects on her profile, making her look particularly peaceful and beautiful.
Zhao Xiuyan placed the tea on the table in front of her. The steaming tea had a faint and refreshing fragrance. He stretched out his hand, as if wanting to hold her hand.
But Nan Yan subconsciously avoided it.
Zhao Xiuyan paused for a moment as he stretched out his finger. Looking at Nan Yan who pursed her lips and refused to look at him, he gently put his hand down and smiled as if nothing had happened.
He said calmly, "Yan Yan is willing to let Junior Brother hold you, but you won't let me touch your hand?"
His features were as gentle as a painting, without a trace of anger in his eyes, he just stated the fact calmly.
After hearing this, Nan Yan finally raised her head, and her soft, dark eyes slowly fell on him. For a moment, she didn't know what to say and could only curl up her fingertips.
She stared at him quietly without saying a word.
Zhao Xiuyan looked at her reaction. Being looked at by such soft and delicate eyes, no matter how unwilling he was, it was soothed.
But it's time to resolve the issue between him and Yanyan. He didn't mention it before because he was worried that she would feel resistant to him after hearing about it.
But his junior brother's sudden thoughts and actions inevitably made him feel a little uneasy. Zhao Xiuyan's eyelashes drooped slightly. He could either not disturb her or suppress his feelings. But God had already let him get her. In that case, although it was not his original wish, he really did... How could he let go so easily and hand her over to someone else?
He could never let go so easily again.
Zhao Xiuyan lowered his head and pondered for a while, as if he had adjusted his mood, then raised his eyes to look at Nan Yan in front of him, and said quietly, "Does Yan Yan like Junior Brother more?"
Nan Yan was stunned when she heard such straightforward words. She looked at him in confusion, as if she didn't quite understand what he meant.
He exhaled lightly, his voice a little low, "Indeed, compared to a hypocritical idiot like me who forcibly destroyed your innocence, Junior Brother is indeed more suitable for you."
When he said this, he frowned again, but after seeing her reaction, his frown gradually relaxed and he continued, "It's just that Junior Brother is a little impulsive and has a bad temper, so he may be a little weak in taking care of people."
His tone softened a little, "However, if Yanyan really likes me more, then I can treat what happened that night as a dream. I won't use it to threaten you, and I won't prevent you from being with me. In the future...if Yanyan doesn't mind, you can...call me brother. Is that okay?"
Nan Yan now understood what this person meant. He was choosing a husband for her. Okay, but was he really that generous? Could she just choose whoever she liked?
She still calls him brother. Does this guy want to play some forbidden love? Don't call her brother during the day and climb over her wall and into her bed in the middle of the night!
Zhao Xiuyan didn't know what she was thinking. He just saw that she kept her head down and refused to speak. For some reason, he felt a dull and uncomfortable feeling in his heart. His chest felt dull and a little blocked.
He didn't know whether this was a tacit agreement, or whether she was now so disgusted with him that she didn't even want to give him a chance to speak to her.
He could snatch his junior fellow apprentice away, but the final outcome was still in her hands. He had already bullied her once, and he couldn't force her to do anything again. If she really hated him, he couldn't ignore her wishes...
Thinking of this, Zhao Xiuyan suddenly felt an unprecedented sense of powerlessness in his heart. He stretched out his slender fingers and pressed his frowning brows. Suddenly he shook his head and sighed softly, then lowered his eyes and looked at her quietly, "If you really don't want to see me, don't want to talk to me, then I will go find my junior brother. From now on, you can talk to him directly if you have anything."
He thought of something again and whispered, "Junior brother... has matured a lot now. I think he should be able to take good care of you."
Zhao Xiuyan said this and turned around to leave.
As soon as I turned around, a pair of soft, white fingers gently pulled my sleeve.
Nan Yan saw him turning around, as if he really wanted to go find his junior brother. She felt a little nervous for a moment, so she subconsciously pulled his sleeve, and then said anxiously, "It's not what you think. I don't like your junior brother."
Hearing this, Zhao Xiuyan seemed stunned for a moment, and then a smile unconsciously appeared on his face.
He turned around and gently grasped Nan Yan's fingers, holding them lightly in his palm. The force was not strong, but it made it difficult for her to pull away.
Nan Yan looked at the movements of his hands, and a hint of discomfort clearly flashed across her eyes. Her fingertips curled up and moved lightly in his palm. She hesitated for a moment, but ultimately did not let go and let him hold her like this.
Zhao Xiuyan felt the soft touch of his palm, and her charming look from that night emerged involuntarily in his mind, and his earlobe hidden in his hair felt slightly warm.
He cleared the random thoughts in his mind, and then looked at the person in front of him with gentle eyes, "Yan Yan, if you don't like your junior brother, then do you have a little bit of indifference towards me..."
He was too embarrassed to say the word "like" because he suddenly thought of the things he had done, things that no one would like.
He paused, his tone became softer, and then he changed what he was about to say, "I don't ask Yanyan to like me much, I just want you to... stop disliking me, stop avoiding me, and stop ignoring me."
Nan Yan didn't expect him to make such a request. After hesitating for a moment, she moved her lips and finally spoke, "But don't you already have a lover? If you only want to be responsible for me because you are forced, I don't actually need it..."
Zhao Xiuyan lowered his head and pondered for a while, then suddenly smiled at Nan Yan and asked softly, "Yan Yan, do you care about my past? If you do, I will tell you slowly."
When he said this, he had already sat down beside her. His sitting height was still much higher than Nan Yan. He lowered his head and looked at her seriously, "I won't play both sides. It's true that I have a fiancée, but it happened too suddenly, leaving me no time to deal with the things behind."
"I did agree to the engagement with Pian Pian myself. Two years ago, Pian Pian accidentally saved my mother. Because of this life-saving grace, my mother liked her very much, so she often invited her to visit her home. Over time, I became familiar with her. I liked her, but I know very well that that kind of liking is somewhat different from the feelings I have for you."
Zhao Xiuyan was silent for a moment, a gentle look flashed in his eyes, and he continued, "If I lied to you that I had no feelings for her just because I wanted to coax you into my hand, it would be too hypocritical and shameless, but I don't want to describe to you in detail how I once liked other women. It's not that I'm afraid you won't like it, but I am a little concerned. I am concerned that time cannot go back, and I couldn't meet you earlier, stand by your side with a legitimate and more qualified identity, protect you, and like you."
"I'm not saying this to justify anything, I just want you to see more clearly what kind of person I am. I'm not the gentleman that people say I am. I have selfish motives, I get jealous, and I have mean thoughts because I like you. I'm trying to impress you with these words, hoping that you can give me a chance. Yanyan, are you willing to give me a chance?"
After Zhao Xiuyan finished speaking, he looked intently at Nan Yan in front of him, and his hand holding hers tightened unconsciously. His palms were a little sweaty, and he felt a little nervous and uneasy in his heart, worried that she would show him a look of disgust and disdain.
而南嫣則是有些怔住，尤其是聽到他說的那些話，眼底的情緒似乎有些複雜，她垂着眸，不想讓他看清自己臉上的神情。
但趙修言還是瞧見了，他看到了嫣嫣的糾結，還有那絲猶豫，她對他似乎并不是一點反應都沒有的，興許還沒有很深的感情，但她對他也是有一些異樣的情緒在的，否則不會這樣遲遲不肯面對他。
意識到這一點，趙修言的心跳忽然變得緩慢起來，他輕輕呼出一口氣，握着南嫣的手指更緊了一些，修長的指節微微并攏與她五指相扣着，無端讓人想到那晚的情形。
“嫣嫣，你知道嗎？倘若沒有那天晚上發生的事情，我可能不會那麽清楚地意識到自己對你存了那樣的心思，我會一直克制着，即便是對你有所念想，也不會強迫你做任何你不願意的事情。”
趙修言低頭看着她，聲音愈發平緩認真，“至于我跟翩翩的婚事，責任自然在我，回到青州之後我就會上門退婚，作為補償，我會想盡一切辦法救出她，往後也會為她擇一門好婚事。”
說到這裏，趙修言語氣停頓了下，“這件事情不會成為你我之間的阻礙，嫣嫣，你給我一個照顧你的機會好嗎？事到如今，我也不求你能有多喜歡我，只要你不再厭惡我，抗拒我，抵觸我，就可以了，好不好？”
話都說到這個份上了，她再不給點反應的話，那可就過分了啊。
于是南嫣眼睫輕顫了下，她的手指緩慢地回握住了他的手背。
但不知是想到了什麽，面上還是有一絲猶豫，然後擡眸看着他，“可我是有夫之婦，我有夫君，我不能就這麽……”
她話沒有說完，趙修言明白她想表達的意思，他知道這種事情對她這樣一個從小一直接受三綱五常的閨閣女子來說有些難以接受，但他真的是頭一次覺得，禦流雲那個人真的不值得，不值得她的任何喜歡。
趙修言伸手替她将那一縷散在臉頰邊的發絲拂到耳後，手指順勢就碰了碰她的臉，然後輕輕擡起來，和他對視着，“嫣嫣，我知道提這件事情會惹你傷心，但你夫君真的不值得你為他付出。”
“他将你趕出玄蒼教，在你最柔弱無助的時候棄你于不顧，從頭到尾沒有盡過任何做丈夫該盡的責任，這樣的人不值得你喜歡的，你不用覺得心虛愧疚，這不是你的錯，是他從頭到尾都不珍惜。”
想到這些事情，趙修言心中就有一種極為複雜又難辨的情感，他也不知道是慶幸還是怨忿？倘若禦流雲沒有這麽對待她，那他可能這一輩子都不會有機會跟她在一起，可一想到禦流雲對她做的那些事情，将她這樣一個毫無自保能力的弱女子送出去，實在是讓他覺得可恨，這不是逼她去死嗎？
她那樣的女子，如何能承受得了那些可能會發生的亂七八糟的事情？
趙修言想着想着眼底閃過一絲冷意，但很快他又将這些繁雜的情緒全都抛開，目光專注地望着眼前的人。
“我知道感情這種事情很難一時間就讓你徹底放開，但我們慢慢來好不好，我不介意你此刻心中還有他，但只要你願意慢慢放棄他，願意接受我就夠了。”
這番話仿佛終于說動了南嫣，她目光終于和他對上，然後在那雙溫和平靜的目光下，緩緩握緊了他的手指。
細碎的光線罩着她的肩膀，她的頭發柔順地散在肩頭，白皙瑩潤的一張面容如同秀玉一樣。
她臉上總算露出一絲和從前一樣淺淡的笑意，柔順中又帶着一絲絲的不自在，面龐有些微紅，“那你要保證，以後不能再像那晚一樣，欺負我了。”
話音剛落，整個人直接就被對方牢牢擁進了懷裏，趙修言的雙手扣在了南嫣的腰間跟後背，手指輕撫着她背後散落的細細軟軟的長發，那種柔順細膩的觸感，一瞬間，他整個胸口就像是被什麽填滿了一樣。
一種莫名的歡喜跟愉悅充斥着心頭，讓他的心也跟着輕輕顫抖的起來。
他有些按耐不住心中的歡喜，“不會，再也不會欺負你了，往後你要怎麽樣都可以，你說如何就如何，我都聽你的。”
呵呵，別以為她不知道，這人也就嘴上說的好聽，真要到了箭在弦上不得不發的那一刻時，還能管自己曾經保證過什麽話？
算了，反正她也不虧。
南嫣便順勢将腦袋輕輕靠在了他肩上。
之後的時間，三人之間再次陷入了一種平靜的狀态，兩人說開的那天晚上，趙修言不知道又找到慕容拓說了些什麽。
反正第二天南嫣再見到對方的時候，慕容拓原本外露的情緒也收斂得幹幹淨淨，尤其對着師兄的時候，黑眸幽深，只有在看到兩人親近的時候，會不自覺地捏緊手指。
慕容拓垂着眼眸不看那馬車上愈發親近的兩人。
自從上次他對南嫣說過要帶她遠走高飛的話後，師兄就一直看得很緊，他也不知道師兄那晚到底跟她說了什麽，哄得她似乎認命了，不在抗拒師兄的親近了。
每每看到師兄對她做出那些親近的事情，摸着她的腦袋，替她拂開頰邊的碎發，将她抱進懷裏，旁若無人的宣示着自己的主權時，他便抑制不住心底的怨恨跟憤怒。
師兄跟他說，他跟嫣嫣已經徹底解開心結，往後他會退婚，會娶她，嫣嫣也答應了，倘若他不想讓她傷心難堪的話，就不該再來打擾她。
可是憑什麽？
他有什麽資格讓他不去打擾嫣嫣？
就憑那一晚的肌膚之親嗎？只憑一場不明不白的男歡女愛，他就想以此禁锢嫣嫣一輩子，将她據為己有嗎？
慕容拓越想越覺得怨恨。
為什麽不能是他，為什麽有過肌膚之親後嫣嫣就必須得成為他的人？他不甘心，他們又不是夫妻，他憑什麽不能接近嫣嫣？
他不知道自己還能忍到什麽時候？
這幾日他一句話都沒跟她說過，每當他想要靠近她，跟她說些什麽的時候，師兄總是會時不時地出現，嫣嫣也會很順從地跟着他離開，她變得比從前還要冷淡了。
明明最開始的時候，她氣他、嫌他，跟他吵架，也不會一個眼神都不給他的，可是如今，有了師兄之後，她卻連看都不肯再看他一眼了。
而這一切都是因為師兄，都是因為他，嫣嫣才會變成這樣的！
慕容拓雙手掩在袖子裏，手背上青筋浮現凸起，只可惜他的心歷路程無人知曉。
……
三人坐着馬車，一路上就這麽相安無事的，終于抵達了青州城。
青州城的确繁華熱鬧，趙家也确實是百年世家，門下弟子衆多，這樣的家族也最注重門風世氣，要是知道家中看重的後輩子嗣跟魔教女子厮混在一起，且那女子還是個有夫之婦，估計也是不會同意的吧。
不過這些事情都交給對方去頭疼吧，反正她爽也爽了，更何況作為一個受害者，就算到時候不認賬也是沒關系的。
她現在心底琢磨着禦流雲應該也快要忍不住了吧，也不知道那人什麽時候會來？
進了青州地界之後，三人先去了附近的客棧，在這裏已經不用擔心玄蒼教的人會肆意抓捕追殺了，畢竟是正道的地盤，連那些坑蒙拐騙的事情都少了不少。
趙修言做事情想問題确實比較周到，回去的前一夜他就找過南嫣，将家裏的那些事情都一一告知她了，又跟她說，“我家中族親長輩較多，我在青州有個自己的庭院，世家多規矩，雖說江湖人士大多不拘小節，但有些時候越是自持身份的那些族人越是喜歡拿這些繁文缛節去強求別人。”
“嫣嫣，若是你想直接跟我回去的話，我便直接帶你去見爹娘，然後向爹娘禀告我們倆之間的事情，若是你暫時還沒做好準備的話，就先住我往常住的庭院，那裏事事都是現成的，府裏也有家仆守着，不會有那些亂七八糟的人打擾你，等我處理好一切事物之後，我再接你去見爹娘，你覺得如何？”
南嫣自然是選擇直接住進他的庭院了，跟他爹娘打交道的事情還是算了吧。
就她現在這個身份，這麽個前任玄蒼教教主的女兒，現任教主的妻子，直接跟着這人登堂入室的話，只怕不出一天，趙家就要鬧翻了天，她又不是來找麻煩的，還是低調點比較好。
趙修言輕嘆一聲，摸摸她的頭，心中似乎有些可惜，“我也猜到了你肯定不願意跟我回去見爹娘的，雖然我也想盡快帶你回去成婚，然後名正言順的站在你身旁，但現在明顯還不是時候。”
“既然這樣的話，我先送你去我往常住的地方，那是我從前跟一個武學師傅早起學武練劍的地方，你若是閑得無聊了，可以讓丫鬟陪你出門走走，不過記得要帶上護衛。”
離開之前，趙修言又啰啰嗦嗦地叮囑了一通，聽得南嫣頭都疼了，從前不知道這溫柔的師兄私下裏居然還是個老媽子屬性，別人不搭理，他自己一個人也能說上半天。
也不知道他怎麽那麽愛念叨的？
聽到最後南嫣實在嫌煩了，直接拿手去捂他的嘴，“趙修言，我耳朵都要起繭子了，我從前怎麽不知道你這麽煩的？”
趙修言便伸手捉住她的手指，低頭看着她笑，“我還以為你能一直不理我呢？”
“我小時候跟我師傅耳旁念叨，他可比你有耐心多了，聽我唠叨了三天，最後才丢下我一個人跑了，我現在可是收斂了不少。”
聽到這話，南嫣就想象了一下，這麽個溫潤如玉的貴公子追着老頭啰啰嗦嗦問招式的模樣，忍不住有些好笑。
趙修言看她笑了，便也跟着笑了。
然後伸手捏了捏她柔軟的面頰，笑着說，“那我晚些時候再過來，你自己先好好休息。”
安頓好南嫣之後，趙修言也終于回府了，師弟同他一起，最開始游歷江湖時，兩人關系情同兄弟，如今卻是兩看相厭，眼裏的冰冷漠然已經毫不掩飾，彼此都在琢磨着要如何才能讓對方徹底死心。
南嫣在院子裏住了幾天，這幾天趙修言幾乎日日都會過來，他最近似乎很忙，忙到眼底都有淤青了，還是會按時過來見她。
大概是擔心她一個人在院子悶着會無聊，這天傍晚便主動跟她說，“今天夜裏有個燈會，要不要我陪你一起出去逛逛？”
自從前幾日兩人徹底說開之後，關系明顯比從前親近不少。
趙修言很明顯地感覺出來了，嫣嫣對待他不再似往日那般抵觸抗拒了，尤其是自從兩人心結打開之後，這人臉上的笑容跟小表情似乎多了許多。
他牽她的時候，她也會回握住他的手，喜歡捏着他的手指玩，會誇他手指好看，會對着他笑，不高興的時候也會煩他，還朝他瞪眼睛，有時候惹惱了她就連名帶姓的一起喊他，然後伸出那雙小手用力擰他腰間的軟肉……趙修言又疼又有種說不出的歡喜感，只覺得這樣的嫣嫣讓他有種說不出的喜歡，他喜歡她這樣毫無顧忌的對待他，喜歡她在他面前不分彼此的樣子。
就像現在這樣，趙修言剛問她要不要跟他一起出去逛逛，結果這人轉頭就露出了一個狐疑的表情，把他上上下下打量一圈。
然後皺着一張小臉，表情有些怪異地說，“你怎麽跟我想象中的有些不一樣？”
趙修言眉梢動了動，為了遷就對方的身高，頗給面子的彎下腰身任她打量，眉眼溫柔如畫，“哪裏不一樣，你再仔細瞧瞧？”
南嫣就毫不客氣地扯他面皮，“你氣質呢？你那高不可攀的貴公子氣質呢？你這個江湖上名聲頗盛的貴公子怕不是謠傳的吧？怎麽從你回來之後就再沒瞧見過你練劍呢？成日裏跟我待在一塊兒，還天天想着出去玩兒，你這個武林高手怕不是水分很深吧？”
趙修言瞧着她那一臉嫌棄的小表情，不免失笑，他這幾日忙得都腳不沾地了，這人居然還嫌棄他來得太勤快了，真是個沒良心的。
“我還不是擔心你來了青州不習慣，不教你玩得開心一些，往後你不喜歡這裏怎麽辦？你還用這種眼神瞧着我，好像我是那種成日裏游手好閑不務正業的街頭纨绔似的，你就這麽嫌棄我啊？”
南嫣沒忍住笑，然後一把抓住他的衣襟，把人拽下來，“我要說嫌棄的話你會生氣嗎？會打我欺負我嗎？”
趙修言被她拽的傾了傾身子，肩頭的發絲也滑落了，他也忍不住跟着笑，“我何曾打過你欺負過你，說什麽胡話呢？”
南嫣就哼了兩聲，擡眸輕輕一瞪，“還說沒欺負，那天晚上哭着求你停下都不肯，那不是欺負是什麽，難不成我脖子上的印子全是狗啃的嗎？”
聽到這話，師兄大人的臉龐果然不自在地紅了，白玉似的耳垂也染了些許緋色。
那也确實是欺負。
他大概是也想到那晚抵死纏綿的情景了，一時間掌心都有些發燙。
偏偏臉上的表情還是那副一本正經的禁欲模樣，那雙手握緊南嫣的手腕，微微別過臉，聲音低低的，
“這種事情……如何能在外頭說呢，我們往後……往後再探讨，如今就不追究了吧。”
然後很生硬地轉移了話題。
“那個，我聽說城南那邊新開了幾家服飾鋪子，瞧着城裏的年輕女子都挺喜歡往那裏跑，好像是來了一批西域的寶石商人，帶回了不少奇異寶石跟香料，還有各種各樣的銀器，我帶你去看看好不好？”
南嫣自然是去了，在庭院裏住了幾天也是時候出去跑跑了，話說回來，她這兩天好像都沒瞧見他那小師弟了。
也不知道兩人之間到底發生了什麽？
她琢磨着出去逛逛也好，說不定可以遇上什麽好事情。
青州城的夜晚的确繁華，一方水土養一方人，青州人傑地靈，這裏的姑娘們也格外水靈，外頭的人很多，行走江湖的女子有不少，但更多的還是男子。
尤其酒樓之上，有不少以口論招的場景，雖然南嫣一句也聽不懂，不遠處還有擂臺比賽，吸引了不少好鬥之人，周圍圍觀的群衆也叫得格外振奮，南嫣對那些不感興趣，兩人就慢慢朝前走着。
越往前鋪子越多，确實有很多好玩好看的東西，除了頗受女兒家們歡迎的胭脂水粉，更多的是各種各樣的武器，鑲嵌着寶石的匕首，還有珠寶，玉石，瓷器，各種商品琳琅滿目，瞧得人眼睛都花了。
南嫣不喜歡那些，卻正好挑了兩只彩繪的昆侖奴面具，一只遞給他，一只戴在自己臉上，然後敲着面具發出悶悶的笑聲，“趙師兄，我這樣，你還能認得出我嗎？”
趙修言彎了彎唇角，然後點頭道，“自然認得出。”說完也學着她的模樣将面具帶上。
南嫣輕笑一聲，于是兩人帶着面具繼續往前走，走得累了，南嫣又聞到空氣裏彌漫的芙蓉酥的香氣，便支使這人去給她買吃的。
芙蓉酥的香氣确實誘人，那鋪子也不遠，趙修言捏了捏她的手心，然後摘下面具笑着看她，“那你在這兒等我，我很快就回來。”
南嫣立馬老老實實地點頭，嘴裏還念叨着，“快去快去，我都餓了。”
趙修言聽了這話便忍不住揉了揉她的發頂，然後轉身去了那胡同口不遠處的芙蓉酥鋪子，很快就給她買回了一盒點心，手裏還多了一個水囊，然後又護着她慢慢往前走。
南嫣捧着那盒糕點，一邊小口吃着，一邊還遞一塊到他嘴邊，不過被面具擋住了，“趙修言，你吃不吃？”
對方輕輕搖了搖頭。
目光落到那張清媚溫柔的臉龐上，眼底似乎露出一絲久違的笑意，然後伸手，指尖略有些輕顫着，替她擦去了嘴角的碎屑。
他的指尖微微有些冰涼，尤其觸碰她的時候，指腹輕輕蹭着嘴角的位置，動作比往日更加顯得小心翼翼。
兩人一路往前走着，大概是擔心人多，會将兩人沖散，他的手不知何時就牽過來了，牢牢地握着她的手掌，帶着她一路往前走着。
今天晚上的他似乎變得安靜了許多。
往常的趙師兄是很會念叨的，他會跟她講述青州各處的風土人情，會給她介紹各種好吃的食物，還會說一些很有意思的事情，但是今晚的趙師兄也不知是怎麽了，突然之間就變得沉默下來了。
南嫣隐隐察覺到了什麽，不過沒說破。
她說話時，他就一旁靜靜地聽着，時不時地嗯上一聲作為回應，他的眼神看上去是很高興的，裏頭充滿了柔情，只可惜面具遮着臉，看不清臉上的神情。
兩人順着人流一直往下，吃了好吃的湯圓，品了可口的蜂蜜花釀，又看了一場振奮人心的擂臺賽，最後居然是個靈活的胖子贏了第一名，拿走了五十兩銀子，南嫣笑着拍着手，誇那個胖子渾身上下的肉沒有一處是多餘的，身旁的人便也跟着笑了。
然後小心護在她身旁，不讓旁邊的人擠到她。
他牽着她的手，又往前繼續走着，兩人就像一對再正常不過的夫妻，從一開始走到了盡頭，路的盡頭是有條平靜的河，河對岸還有人在放花燈，走過最後那段路的時候，南嫣慢慢将手從他手心抽出來了。
然後輕吐了一口氣，擡眸，面色平靜地說了句，“就到這裏吧，教主大人不必再送了，我該回去了，要不然有人會擔心的。”