Chapter 154
Yu Liuyun watched Nan Yan calmly pull out her hand, and instantly he felt his heart tremble slightly, and his fingers suddenly trembled uncontrollably.
His body was stiff for a long time before he finally regained some consciousness. Then he slowly reached out and took off the Kunlun slave mask on his face.
With a slightly pale face, he looked at Nan Yan in front of him, his lips moved slightly, and he asked her in a hoarse voice, "You... recognized me?"
But Nan Yan in front of him suddenly smiled at him calmly. The smile seemed a little dull, with a sense of alienation and courtesy. "I don't know if you still remember that your little finger was injured, and later a small scar was left at the wound. Although the mark is very shallow, it is still felt when you touch it. When you held me, I felt it, and it was the same as before, so I knew it was you."
"Master, what brings you to Qingzhou?"
After saying that, Nan Yan raised her head again and looked at him quietly, with no expression on her face. Seeing his pale face, thin lips and some dark circles under his eyes, she knew that this person must not have had a good time during this period of time. Well, knowing that he was not having a good time, she felt relieved.
So she frowned slightly, her voice became calmer and calmer, and asked again, "The mask in your hand is Senior Brother Zhao's mask. What did you do to Senior Brother Zhao?"
Yu Liuyun looked at his wife, with whom he once had the closest relationship, but now she called him "Master" in a distant tone, as if she was not familiar with him at all, and openly cared about the situation of another man in front of him.
Yu Liuyun didn't know how to deal with the shock brought about by this situation. For a moment, he only felt a gust of icy cold wind suddenly blowing from somewhere, directly chilling his entire body. The biting cold penetrated deep into his heart, making him feel colder and colder. He felt so cold that his whole body seemed to be stiff, and his fingers were trembling slightly.
But he was still somewhat unwilling, and stared at her stubbornly and suppressedly, trying to see or find any trace of her concern and dependence on him in her face.
But no, not even a trace of emotion was left. The way she looked at him was like the way she used to look at strangers. There was no trace of warmth in her eyes anymore, and it might never appear again. Thinking of this, Yu Liuyun felt an unignorable sadness and bitterness in his chest.
The bitterness and dryness kept rising from his chest, blocking his throat and making his mouth feel a little tight and dry. He twitched his lips for a long time before finally finding his voice again. Then he said hoarsely,
"I didn't hurt him..."
After hearing this, Nan Yan said "hmm" softly, as if she didn't want to say anything more, and turned around to leave.
However, Yu Liuyun subconsciously grabbed his wrist. He opened his mouth but couldn't say anything for a long time. He knew how messed up his past actions were and how much he had gone too far. That's why he was so panicked and timid when facing her now. He hurt her all over.
His fingers were becoming stiffer and stiffer. He didn't want to let go, nor did he want to just watch her leave.
The sadness and regret in his heart could no longer be described in words. At this moment, no matter how much he refused to admit it or how much he tried to deceive himself, he realized that Yanyan had completely given up on him.
Thinking of this, Yu Liuyun felt as if he couldn't bear it anymore and his heart was in great pain, but he couldn't bear to let go. He held Nan Yan's wrist tighter. He grabbed her tightly, like a drowning man grabbing his last life-saving straw, and refused to let go.
Yu Liuyun finally spoke, his voice was dry and hoarse, as if there was a handful of rough sand in his throat, and he said slowly, "Yanyan, I'm here... to take you home."
"I...I'm sorry...I shouldn't have treated you like that."
Yu Liuyun's voice was trembling, cautious, and with a thick nasal tone, "I know I did something wrong, extremely wrong, and I have never... regretted it so much."
"I regretted so much that I wanted to kill my former self with my own hands. I regretted that I had ruined everything and pushed away the only person who loved me in this world."
"I really...know I was wrong. Everything in the past was all my fault. I was stupid. I didn't realize until now how much I cared about you. Yanyan, come home with me. I will take you home, back to our own home...okay?"
After saying this, Yu Liuyun's tears fell uncontrollably from his eyes.
Nan Yan turned her head and looked at the pain and regret in his eyes. She could now clearly feel his sincerity at the moment, but it was too late.
What's the point of belated affection? The damage has already been done. Can a single mistake erase everything that has happened? But since he's already so regretful, what's the point of letting him suffer a little more?
Nan Yan turned her head and calmly pulled her hand out slowly. In almost an instant, her face turned pale and her hair was a little messy due to the night wind. The dark hair made her face look even more pale and sad.
She looked up into his eyes and said weakly,
"But it's too late. My innocence is gone. I can no longer be your wife, and I can no longer go back with you. Between us... we can never go back to the way we were before."
Almost instantly after she finished speaking, she saw Yu Liuyun's body tremble violently, his fingers trembled and curled up, his eyes were red and bloodshot.
When he heard her say those words calmly, Yu Liuyun felt as if his heart was stung by a poisonous bee several times. He was suffocated by the intense pain and his whole body began to tremble with pain.
He knew that it was his fault. He was the one who lost her and let her be bullied and insulted. He should have known earlier... knew what a woman like her would encounter... once she was stranded outside... It was not her fault. How could a weak woman like her, who was powerless, survive?
I'm sorry...I'm sorry...
It was my fault that I failed to protect you. It was because of me, as a scumbag husband, that you suffered such humiliation and pain. In fact, most of the pain you suffered was caused by me.
Yanyan... Yanyan...
Yu Liuyun's lips trembled slightly, and tears seemed to flow out of his eyes uncontrollably. He tried hard to restrain the emotions deep in his heart, then walked up to her and hugged her tightly and carefully in his arms. The force was so tight that it hurt, as if he was afraid that if he let go, the person in front of him would disappear.
He held her in his arms and soothed her in a hoarse voice, "Don't be afraid. No one will dare to bully you anymore. I'll kill him for you. I won't let anyone who bullies you go. Yanyan, I'll take you home. Let's go home, okay?"
Nan Yan couldn't help but laugh softly when she heard this. The corners of her eyes turned slightly red, and then she called him softly, "Husband."
The word "husband" seemed to bring him back to the past. Yu Liuyun's eyes suddenly felt sore and tears fell uncontrollably. Only at this moment did he realize that he could give up everything, not force anything, and not mind anything, but the only thing he couldn't do was the woman in front of him. She was his wife, and they were husband and wife.
When Yu Liuyun heard her calling him "husband", he thought for a moment that she agreed, but the person in his arms suddenly reached out, and took advantage of the moment when he was stunned to push him away.
Nan Yan raised her eyes and looked straight into his eyes, her smile becoming more beautiful and sad, as if her eyes were filled with a pool of spring water. As she smiled, tears suddenly fell.
There was a hint of red at the corners of her eyes. She was smiling, but her eyes were cold, with resentment and pain in them. She smiled and said to her, "Does my husband know? It turns out that men will react to me when I take off all my clothes."
"It's ridiculous that you, as a husband, have no reaction to me at all, but other men are not like this."
The color on Yu Liuyun's face disappeared in an instant.
He clenched his fingers tightly, veins popped out on the back of his hands, his lips trembled slightly, but his eyes were looking at her with extreme sorrow.
Nan Yan smiled at him tenderly, tears welling up in her eyes, and her voice suddenly carried a hint of sadness, "Husband, do you want to know what happened that night?"
Yu Liuyun pursed his lips, unable to utter a word. He just felt as if his heart was being stabbed back and forth by a sharp dagger, making him bleed profusely and tremble all over, but his eyes would not leave her for even a moment.
Seeing his expression like this, Nan Yan still felt it was not enough. Her expression suddenly changed. She stared at him coldly, her eyes suddenly filled with resentment and pain, tears falling one by one, "My husband, do you know how I was forced that night? Do you know how he tore my dress apart, and how he pinned me down so that I couldn't struggle and endure the humiliation?"
Thinking of that scene, Yu Liuyun felt a sharp pain in his chest, and blood surged in his throat. He almost collapsed. He could even feel the faint smell of rust coming from his mouth, which made him extremely painful.
"Yan Yan, don't..."
Don't talk about it, don't think about such painful things.
He stared at his wife in despair. He wanted to reach out and hug her, to comfort her, but she pushed him away.
Nan Yan gently stroked her hair that was messed up by the wind. The corners of her eyes were red from crying, and her pale face gave her a pitiful look. Her whole body was filled with a feeling of despair, sorrow and pain.
"I was clearly begging him. I cried and begged him to let me go. I said I was married and had a husband. I cried so hard that my eyes hurt, but he still wouldn't let me go?"
“他說我的夫君不會來救我的，沒有人會來救我的，他說的沒錯，确實沒有人會來救我。”
她轉頭看向眼前的人，眼神又怨又恨，好似一柄鋒利的匕首，要将他淩遲處死，教他不得安寧。
“夫君，你為什麽不來救我？你明明是我的丈夫，明明該保護我一輩子的，我們一起拜過天地，我們是名正言順的夫妻。我一直在喊你，我求你來救我，我求的最後嗓子都啞了，可是為什麽，為什麽你不來救我？”
“為什麽要讓我遭受這樣的屈辱，為什麽沒人來救救我？我到底做錯了什麽，為什麽你們要這樣對我？”
南嫣眼圈通紅的瞧着他，目光又恨又絕望，她好似又想到那個夜晚，整個人的情緒愈發崩潰了。
眼淚仿佛斷了線似的不停墜落。
事情确實是事實，但她也沒那麽慘，畢竟她當時确實是爽到了，而且被綁的那個人也不是她，不過這種事情嘛，他也不可能追究得那麽仔細，畢竟她只是個受害者。
她就是要把這過程講述得慘烈無比，好讓他此生都難忘。
讓他以後每每想到她時，都會記得是自己的錯誤，導致了她這個妻子遭受了今生最大的侮辱和痛苦，教他後半生再難安穩。
一輩子愧疚至死。
果然，聽到這話的禦流雲，胸膛劇烈起伏着，那一瞬間五髒六腑好似都在翻江倒海一般痛苦難當，最後終于忍不住。
他咳嗽着，一口鮮血吐了出來。
他紅着眼，聽着他說的那些話，整個身體都開始顫抖了起來，他仿佛想到了那個令她痛苦不堪的夜晚，在那樣絕望的情況下。
他閉了閉眼，臉上忽然浮現一種無望的痛苦，腦海中痛苦不堪地想到了那樣的場景。
她哭着喊着叫他的名字，她哀求着，掙紮着，幾乎用盡了所有的力氣……
可是他卻不在她身邊，他在做什麽呢？他在生氣，他在怨她為什麽欺瞞他，為什麽要聯合外人背叛他？他根本沒有意識到自己的混賬，他根本不知道她遭受過的痛苦，他這個做丈夫的沒有盡到絲毫的責任。
他沒有保護好她，是他的錯，從頭到尾都是他的錯，甚至是因為他，是因為他送走了她，才會導致……導致她……
那一瞬間，無盡的懊悔跟愧疚如同冰冷刺骨的潮水一般，幾乎将他湮沒，将他折磨得不得安生。
想到這裏，禦流雲的胸口又是一陣鈍痛，連呼吸都是一種難以忍受的折磨，一張口，鮮血又不受控制地吐了出來。
他用力攥緊手指，緊得手指僵硬扭曲發疼，掌心都出血了，可是那痛卻比不上胸口的分毫，他好後悔啊，為什麽，為什麽在她最絕望的時候，他沒有在她身邊保護好她。
要讓她遭受這樣的痛苦和打擊。
禦流雲再也忍不住了，呼吸喘得厲害，根本控制不住自己的情緒，腦海中唯一剩下的念頭就是抱着她。
他身體僵硬地上前，艱難的将眼前已經情緒崩潰，渾身發抖的妻子用力抱進懷裏，摸到她後背那纖細的淺淺突起的肩胛骨時，眼淚忽然忍不住掉落下來。
他将她緊緊抱着，眼底翻湧着猩紅的光，裏頭泛起猙獰的神色。
他閉了閉眼，再睜眼時，那眼中的情緒全都被壓制下去，聲音嘶啞又艱難地問她。
“是……是誰？”
“誰欺負了你，我一定……幫你殺了他！任何傷害過你的人，我這輩子上天入地，都不會放過他。”
南嫣則是收斂了哭聲，她伸手無情推開了他的懷抱，目光略有些絕望地望着他，
“你現在說這些還有什麽用呢？事情已經發生了，難道殺了那人就能當做這一切都沒有發生過嗎？殺了那人，我的清白就能重新回來嗎？還是說，殺了那人，我們之間就能回到從前那樣了？”
她聲音越來越冷，最後目光又怨又憤的盯着他，口中說出的話，不留一絲餘地，“更何況，最應該怪的人難道不是你嗎？”
她極近哀傷，又極度悲憤，字字泣血誅心，“作為我的夫君，明明說過要護我一生，愛我一輩子的男人，卻毫不留情地丢棄我，踐踏我，若是那個毀了我清白的人罪該萬死！那夫君你呢？作為将我丢在那條不歸路上的元兇，是不是也應該千刀萬剮呢？”
她說到最後，整個人好似都站不穩了，踉跄着後退了一步，無力倔強地撐着身旁的樹幹，不肯讓自己倒下。
掩藏在兩人之間的真相被毫不猶豫地撕開了，露出了底下鮮血淋漓的模樣。
禦流雲看着這樣的她，只覺得心頭好似在被人淩遲一般疼痛難忍，那種麻痹的感覺從胸口蔓延到四肢百骸，最後又遍布全身。
到了最後，他痛到麻木了，似乎已經失去知覺了，他狼狽不堪，又固執地望着她的眼睛，不肯離開一寸。
他知道是他該死，罪魁禍首是他，倘若……倘若不是他愚蠢，她不會遭受這樣的屈辱，更不會遭受這樣的踐踏。
聽到她說的那些話，他恍惚間好似回到了從前武功盡廢，渾身筋脈寸斷時的那種痛苦場景，體內真氣亂蹿，咳嗽得厲害，整個人痛不欲生。
不……比那種痛苦還要令他絕望，胸口被無窮無盡的痛楚折磨着，他真的快要失控了。
可是看着眼前的嫣嫣，他不敢，不敢在她面前露出那樣的情緒，于是顫抖着伸着手，卻不敢觸碰她。
最後只小心翼翼地揪住了她的袖子，卑微又可憐地糾纏着，不肯放手。
南嫣則是以一種決絕的态度将那只袖子從他手心裏抽離，頓了頓，然後擡眸直視着他，“夫君，我們之間已經到此為止了，即便我再愛你，我也不可能再跟你在一起了，從今往後，我們……就不要再見面了吧。”
禦流雲整個人都怔住了。
眼裏凝聚的水霧迅速蔓延開來。
最後那句話說出來的時候，她面色蒼白得有些透明了，眼中有怨恨，也有曾經的眷戀，但最後全都消散了，一一消失殆盡。
他眼裏露出絕望的神色，胸口的痛楚再度傳來，讓他眷戀不舍地糾纏着她的指尖，“不要，我真的知道錯了，我會改的，你給我一個機會，求你……別不要我好不好？”
他一開口，便有些語無倫次的，臉上露出一個慘淡無比的神色。
“嫣嫣，你別走，別離開我，這世上……這世上只有一個你，是我這輩子最在意的人，我真的知道錯了，你別離開我……”
但嫣嫣的身體停頓了一下，最後還是伸手撥開了他的手指，轉身毫不猶豫地離開了。
禦流雲看着那只輕薄的袖子從他手中抽離，只覺得連同自己的心一并抽離了，整個人心神震顫，眼淚瘋狂湧出。
他真的……知道錯了。
對不起，嫣嫣……最該死的人是他才對。
看着那越走越遠的身影，禦流雲只覺得整個人再也支撐不住了，膝蓋一軟，身體竟直直地往後仰去，整個人重重地墜在地上，扭過頭，口中不受控制地吐出一口血來。
他臉色蒼白的，目光眷戀癡纏地望着那道背影，只覺得此生無望，仿佛失去了所有一切，心如死灰也不過如此了。
對不起……
他傷害了自己這輩子最在意的人。
……
很好，虐完了自己送上門來的男主大人，南嫣頓時覺得整個人神清氣爽，就連心情都舒坦了不少，整個人精神倍好。
等她走了一段距離，徹底走出了男主大人的視線後，原本臉上悲傷難過的神情這才收斂得幹幹淨淨，心情倍好地朝着別院的方向往回走。
也不知道她的師兄小哥哥怎麽樣了？哎呀，應該沒有被男主打死吧，不過受點傷也沒太大關系，反正死不了就成了。
與她這邊的氣定神閑相比，那邊的趙修言情況就沒這麽好了，被數十個陌生教衆就這麽圍剿着，他們一直拖着他，圍困了一整個晚上，不讓他離開，趙修言急得最後已經耐心全無了，這輩子都沒有這麽急迫過。
等到趙修言終于擺脫了那群糾纏不休的玄蒼教教衆，搜遍了青州城整個街道都沒找到南嫣的時候，一時間只覺得心慌無比，心中第一個反應就是她又被禦流雲搶走了。
到底為什麽，禦流雲是瘋了嗎？
不想要的時候就将人丢棄，想要的時候又瘋狂将人從他身邊奪走，從前奪走了翩翩，如今他又要搶走嫣嫣嗎？
不行，絕對不行的！
抱着最後一絲可能的念頭，趙修言重回了一趟庭院，他心中抱着最後一絲的可能性，希望嫣嫣只是玩久了，玩的累了就自己回來了，可是他自己也知道這種可能性已經微乎其微。
倘若禦流雲真的要帶走她的話，肯定會不顧她的意願将她搶走的，更何況，他們本就是夫妻。
這才是他最擔心的事情。
趙修言此刻的情緒混亂無比，他有些不知道自己該怎麽辦才好了，倘若禦流雲帶走她的話，他能怎麽辦？倘若嫣嫣真的願意跟他離開的話，他又有什麽資格去跟他争搶？
他能争得過師弟，能讓師弟退卻，可是他也能讓禦流雲放手嗎？
那畢竟是她的丈夫，是她曾經很喜歡，一直依賴惦記着的丈夫，他這個強行毀了她清白的無恥之徒，真的能争得過他嗎？
混亂不堪的情緒攪得他心神不寧。
等到趙修言終于從外頭着急忙慌趕回來的時候，看到的就是窗戶紙上映出的那一道輕柔纖細的身影。
她正微微傾斜着身子，手裏拿着一把小剪子在挑弄着燭臺上的燈芯，燭影随着動作來回晃動，火光映着那張柔美白皙的容顏，愈發顯得安靜柔順。
那一瞬間，趙修言還以為自己出現了錯覺，一時間眼眶居然有些發酸。
也不知道為何，看到她的那一瞬間，心中所有的焦急煩躁還有慌亂不安，全都被眼前那個人迅速撫平了。
他幾乎是下意識就沖了過去，一把将人摟進了懷裏，聲音略帶些沙啞地喊她的名字，“嫣嫣，嫣嫣，你還在，還在我身邊……”
那種還能夠将她擁進懷裏的滿足感，讓趙修言心頭悸動。
這一次，他真的是擔心死了，他以為她被禦流雲帶走了，但是沒想到，她居然還在，真的感謝老天爺，讓她還留在他的身邊。
“對不起，是我不好，沒有保護好你。”
趙修言抱她抱得很緊，大概是一路糾纏，又一路追趕跑了過來，整個人氣息都有些不穩，心跳的速度也很快。
南嫣還沒反應過來就被對方抱住了，她比他矮了一個腦袋還不止，這樣被抱着，腦袋蹭着他的下巴，被人嚴嚴實實地按在了胸口，幾乎都能聽到對方心髒震動的聲音。
看來這次的師兄小哥也被吓得不輕啊。
也難怪，兩人之間的關系脆弱的就只有睡過一晚而已，她還是禦流雲名正言順的妻子呢，就算真跟他走了，眼前這人也沒有資格跟理由去搶去奪的。
所以她這不就給他來點資格跟理由了。
南嫣伸手輕緩拍了拍他的後背，示意他放松一點，等到這人身體終于放松了以後。
南嫣便從他的懷中退開，然後卷起袖子輕輕擦了擦他額頭上的冷汗，又在看到他身上沾染的一絲血跡時，眼裏露出些許擔憂。
“趙師兄，你受傷了……”
到這一刻，趙修言的情緒才終于平複下來，他親了親她的手指，心底終于松了口氣，又想到自己方才慌亂的樣子，怕眼前這人擔心，臉上又恢複成了往日的溫和神情。
趙修言不自覺地握住了那只柔軟細膩的手掌，然後貼在臉頰上輕輕磨蹭了下，語氣安撫着，“我沒事，對不起，害你擔心了。”
手指輕輕撫了撫她的眉眼，掌心的薄繭蹭着臉頰的肌膚時格外輕緩，“嫣嫣，你有沒有怎麽樣，他有沒有……欺負你？”
後面那句話他問的有些猶豫，其實每次在面對這個問題的時候，他心中都有種無盡的忐忑跟不安。
因為那個人的存在一直提醒着他，他只是一個卑劣的偷竊者，他如今擁有的一切都是從旁人那裏竊取過來的，只要她心底對他有一絲的厭惡跟排斥，他都沒有辦法再不顧她的意願去強迫她了。
南嫣聽到這話時，表情似乎微頓了下。
“你知道我今晚跟他見面了。”
大概是想到了今天晚上發生的事情，她緩慢別過臉，眼角處有些緋紅，還有些濕潤，明顯是哭過的跡象。
趙修言握着她的手指便更緊了些。
聲音有些微啞，“你別誤會，我不是要管着你，我只是有些擔心，擔心他會傷害……”
後面的話還沒說完，便見她搖了搖頭，輕聲道，“我沒事，我只是跟他把事情說清楚了而已，趙師兄，你會一輩子保護我嗎？會永遠陪在我身邊嗎？”
她說這話的時候又轉過頭來了。
目光猶豫地望着他，眼底似乎有些不明的溫柔情愫，“你知道嗎？我夫君從前也說過要一輩子保護我的，可是他失言了。”
南嫣眼眸微垂，臉上露出些許難過的神情，“原來，他從頭到尾都沒有喜歡過我，所以就連成親之後也不肯跟我同房，我從前一直以為夫妻之間就該是這樣相敬如賓的，可直到他毫不猶豫地将我送走，我才知道，原來他對我從頭到尾都沒有過一絲真心。”
她抿了抿唇，唇色有些嫣紅，“我……我不是傻子，我分得清誰對我好，誰對我不好。趙師兄即便是中毒那晚，也一直克制着自己不肯傷害我，倘若不是陰差陽錯之下，我們之間根本不會發生那樣的事情。”
說到這兒，南嫣臉上的神情有些不自在，她擡眸望着他，“可是事情既然已經發生了，再去後悔也無用了，何況……那晚我并沒有堅持到最後，可能就如同趙師兄說的那樣，我心底其實……并不讨厭你的。”
趙修言的表情一時間有些發怔。
他低頭有些出神地瞧着眼前的人。
南嫣繼續道，“我只是沒經歷過這種事情，心中恐懼，但其實我從來都沒有怨過你，因為如果不是你跟師弟兩個人一路護着我，早在我下山那天，我就已經是生不如死了。”
南嫣緩緩靠過去，她看着眼前怔怔出神的人，忽然湊過去輕輕吻了他的唇角一下，如蜻蜓點水般，微微帶了些濕潤。
趙修言的身體驟然變得有些僵硬，呼吸卻變得越來越緩慢。
這是自那晚之後，嫣嫣第一次主動親近他，他知道她的性子溫柔內斂，對于情愛之事素來羞澀難當。就連上次床笫之歡，意亂情迷之時，他跪伏于她腿間，一遍遍親吻憐惜着，卑微渴求着她能夠給他一些回應時，她都不肯，但這次，她卻是主動吻了他。
然後将腦袋埋在他的頸窩處，雙手輕輕環抱住了他的腰身，這是一種依戀的态度。
他如何能不知道，從一開始她答應他，願意給他一個機會，不過是因為清白被毀之後的無奈之舉，她心中并不曾為他動過心。
她面對他時，甚至不如面對師弟時來的自在，她從前會跟師弟吵架，會氣得師弟跳腳，可對待他時，一直都是溫柔客套的。
這種親疏之分，他不是感覺不出來。
如果不是那晚，他可能這輩子都不會有機會觸碰到她的。
他曾在心中幻想過很多次，某一日她也會這樣依賴着他，像曾經愛慕她夫君一樣的愛慕着他，曾經他一直以為這是不可能的事情，但如今，她似乎真的有一些喜歡他了。
趙修言抱着南嫣的手微微收緊，因為巨大的喜悅跟那一絲不可置信的情緒，讓他的心也随之輕輕顫抖了起來。
這種只有在午夜夢回才會發生的情景，如今真的發生在了他的眼前。她會愛他，往後他們會相愛，她不會再離開他了。
趙修言心中生出濃烈的歡喜，他忍不住将人抱得更緊，臉頰輕輕蹭着她的發頂，然後低聲一遍遍喚她的名字。
“嫣嫣……”
“往後，我會一直守着你的。”
自從那日之後，兩人之間的關系明顯要比從前親密了不少。
對于他的親吻，嫣嫣有時仍會羞澀避讓，可當他癡纏不休時，她也會生澀地主動回應。他後來發現了，嫣嫣似乎特別喜歡瞧他被撩撥得幾欲失控，卻又不得不隐忍克制的模樣，喜歡看他露出窘迫為難的模樣，她似乎是在故意捉弄他。
對于心上人這般壞心眼的模樣，趙修言也覺得滿心喜悅，兩人的感情升溫了不少。
他将所有的事情安頓好之後，很快便告知了父母兩人之間的事情，奈何趙修言想的很美好，但兩人之間的婚事還是遭到了家中長輩的一致阻攔。
首先退婚一事，就讓趙修言備受苛責，家中不肯讓他退婚，原因是不能讓他做那種忘恩負義之人。
林翩然對母親有救命之恩，如今她被玄蒼教魔頭抓走了，母親指責他，“你這個混賬東西，在未婚妻有難的時候，你這個做未婚夫的不僅不想着救她，反倒還想着要退婚，這等無情無義之舉，你讓我如何對得起林家，讓整個趙家往後如何在這江湖上立足！”
“你說你毀了一個女子的清白，可那女子本身就是有夫之婦，她有何清白可言？更何況丈夫還未死，而她自己也是個魔教女子，你這個混賬，你為了一個魔教女子抛棄自己的未婚妻，你跟那等不清不楚的女子厮混，你有何臉面說出這等不要臉的話？”
趙母越說越氣，氣得臉色發白，渾身上下氣得發抖，最後實在氣不過，一個茶杯用力砸在了他肩上，茶水将他的衣襟打濕。
"Zhao Xiuyan, have you forgotten the teachings of the elders in your clan? Have you forgotten your own identity and the ancestral teaching that good and evil cannot coexist? How can you be worthy of the predecessors who died because of the evil cult by doing this?"
The atmosphere in the house was terribly tense.
Finally, Zhao's mother trembled and slammed the table hard, "You rebellious son, you have completely ruined the good reputation of our Zhao family. Don't even think about it. We will not agree to this marriage, and you can't even think about marrying that woman."
Zhao Xiuyan's eyebrows and eyes were calm. He raised his hand to brush away his wet clothes, his eyes calm and expressionless, as if the person who had just been hit was not him.
In fact, he had anticipated this situation a long time ago.
But perhaps all children in the world would think of telling their parents after they have a sweetheart, hoping to get their support and love.
I just didn't expect them to be so opposed.
But if you think about it carefully, this is normal. A martial arts family like theirs has a high status and is well-known in the martial arts world, so they pay more attention to their reputation than ordinary people.
Zhao Xiuyan exhaled lightly, raised his eyes and looked at his parents and elders, and replied calmly, "Mother, I am not an ungrateful person. If I don't marry Yanyan, I will be truly ungrateful and heartless. After Pianpian was captured, I have been looking for an opportunity to rescue her."
"If Yanyan hadn't helped us, how could my junior brother and I have had the chance to rescue Pianpian?"
He said this with a calm expression and a more rational voice, "I didn't know about the past between Pian Pian and Yu Liuyun before. After knowing this, I never gave up on her. I wanted to break off the engagement and didn't want to marry her, not because of the past between her and Yu Liuyun, but because I really loved another woman."
When Zhao's mother heard this, her face turned pale with anger again.
What true love? It's just that he was blinded by the beauty of the evil cult girl and seduced for a moment. There are countless such things in the world.
Zhao Xiuyan's face was expressionless, and he only softened a little when he mentioned his sweetheart. "Now, Yanyan has been abandoned and discarded by her husband because of me, and I have also ruined her innocence. If I can't take care of her, I will be the most heartless and ungrateful person in the world."
At this point, Zhao Xiuyan suddenly raised his eyes and looked directly at the elders sitting in the main seat, "Besides, I really love her, what's wrong with that? She is indeed a demon cult girl, but she has never set foot in the martial arts world. Her hands are cleaner than those of anyone present. Even my mother has killed disobedient maids, but Yanyan has not. She has never hurt anyone, but has helped us a lot. In this world, I don't need to be worthy of others, I only need to be worthy of her and that's enough."
"I know that what I did was very selfish. It destroyed the Zhao family's century-old reputation and was unworthy of the teachings of my parents and elders. So I decided to take Yanyan away. After I have settled all the matters after my death, I will take Yanyan with me to live in seclusion in the mountains. From now on, I will no longer ask about the mundane affairs of the martial arts world."
When he said this, Zhao Xiuyan's voice became much softer, and in his calmness there was a kind of decisiveness that could not be ignored.
This is his personality. Before making a decision, he might hesitate and be patient, but once he is sure of what he wants, he will do it regardless of the consequences.
But now, because his parents did not agree, he had no choice but to give up Yanyan. He did not feel much struggle or hardship in his heart. In fact, he had already expected this result.
If he left his parents, they might resent him, be sad and disappointed, but if he left Yanyan, she would have no other way to survive except death.
He also longed for support and recognition from his parents and elders. He wanted to bring his sweetheart back to see his parents and, like all other children, happily tell them about his good vision in bringing them such a lovely daughter-in-law.
But they disagreed. They were bothered by her identity. If the two sides could not reconcile, then he would have to become the unfilial son.
I'm sorry, but he really can't give up Yanyan.