Chapter 43 [VIP] Jianghu Chapter (End)

Although Xie Yu agreed to take her to Yaowang Valley, he also had his own thoughts. He kept delaying, and the journey that was supposed to take one day was dragged into three days.

If this drags on any longer, Xiao Guanxue's marriage will probably be over. Nan Yan naturally won't let him drag it on like this.

It was already evening when the two arrived at the town near Yaowang Valley. Xie Yu had another reason to delay for another day, so the two naturally stayed in the inn.

Early the next morning, Xie Yu got up to boil the medicine.

He thought that since this town was so prosperous and lively, he could take Yanyan out for a walk first, and then go out for dinner together at noon...

Speaking of eating, he frowned again, remembering that Yanyan's appetite had not been very good recently. However, the local specialties in this town were quite abundant. He could go buy some delicious snacks to appease her later, and then he would have another reason to delay for another day.

As Xie Yu thought so in his heart, the smile on his face became much softer. He held the freshly boiled medicine in his hand, waving away the heat with his hands while walking upstairs carefully.

"Yanyan, the medicine is ready, are you awake?"

There was no one in the house answering. Xie Yu thought she might not be awake yet, so he turned around and was about to leave. But when he thought about it carefully, it was already late. He was about to raise his hand to knock on the door, but suddenly he found that the door was not closed.

"Yan Yan!"

He quickly reached out and pushed open the door. The room was clean and tidy, with bedding neatly stacked, as if no one had ever lived there.

Xie Yu rushed in and found a note on the pillow, "Brother Yu, I'm sorry."

Xie Yu's heart trembled, and then she reacted and rushed out the door. Wouldn't it be dangerous for her to go alone? He had said he would take her there, so why did she sneak away? Didn't she know that he would be worried?

…

It is September and the weather is getting cooler.

Although the news of Xiao Guanxue and Su Mo's marriage had spread a long time ago, the way the two interacted with each other became colder than before.

Xiao Guanxue almost ignores worldly affairs. It would be better to say that he does not care rather than ignores them.

Su Mo could not sense any of his emotions and looked at her as if she were a stranger.

Under such circumstances, the process of preparing for the wedding naturally fell to Su Mo alone. However, this was her first marriage and she knew nothing. The medicine boy who went out to buy medicine refused to listen to her. She had no one to vent her frustration, and no one could understand her thoughts. No other newlyweds would be as distant and dull as they were.

After Xiao Guanxue agreed to marry her, he became increasingly cold. He stayed in the medicine garden every day to study pharmacology and didn't speak to anyone for three to five days.

For the first time, Su Mo wondered if she was too impulsive. Was this the result she wanted? What was the point of getting married like this?

Xiao Guanxue didn't know what the meaning of such a marriage was, maybe it was just a gamble. Every day he looked indifferently at the direction of the valley entrance, not knowing what he was expecting, but every time he thought of her, his heart would ache slightly.

If she comes...

He would forgive her as long as she came.

However, as the wedding date approached, time was getting closer and closer, but Xiao Guanxue never waited for her to come. He despaired in his heart and thought that maybe she really didn't care about him at all.

The more he told himself to let it go, the more he couldn't let it go. The more he told himself not to care, the more he cared. He couldn't think about this matter, couldn't think about it too much. The more he thought about it, the more his head hurt.

Just when Xiao Guanxue thought she would not come, she came the day before the wedding.

It was a sunny day. The medicine boy said that a young woman named Gu was looking for him at the entrance of the valley. Xiao Guanxue's heart skipped a beat. He rushed out subconsciously without having time to think about it.

When he saw that familiar figure, he could hardly suppress all the emotions in his heart.

All the repressed, resentful, and deliberately ignored emotions he had in the past were completely out of control the moment he saw her. They all surged into his heart, covering the sky and the earth, so heavy that he almost couldn't breathe.

For a moment, I didn't know how to face her.

Finally, he took a deep breath and slowly walked towards her.

Nan Yan heard the movement behind her and turned around. The light was now shining on her hair and shoulders, and her whole body seemed to be coated in a layer of halo by the sunlight.

She stood there quietly, her long black hair hanging down to her waist, with a few strands of hair falling on both sides of her cheeks, which made her face look even paler against the background of her black hair.

Xiao Guanxue noticed something was wrong at first glance, and felt inexplicably uneasy. She seemed to be sick. "What's wrong with you? Why are you so pale?"

He subconsciously reached out to feel her pulse, wanting to see what was wrong with her, but as soon as he reached out, Nan Yan quickly dodged.

Xiao Guanxue's fingers were frozen in mid-air, not knowing whether to retract them or not. She seemed a little embarrassed, but finally she slowly let them go.

He thought about what happened that day. This was Yanyan's reaction after he accidentally pushed her down. Is she... still blaming him?

Thinking of the look she gave him that day, Xiao Guanxue suddenly felt a little suffocated in his chest. He was a little scared, scared to see her eyes that were both strange and distant.

But Nan Yan seemed unaware of what he was thinking.

She shook her head at Xiao Guanxue and smiled as if relieved. "Don't worry, I'm fine. It was just too cold a few nights ago and I forgot to close the window when I went to sleep, so I accidentally caught a cold. The doctor has already prescribed medicine, so it's nothing serious."

Xiao Guanxue still frowned, somewhat puzzled by her current attitude. He thought... she shouldn't be so indifferent to him?

But when his eyes fell on her bloodless lips, he didn't know why, but he always felt a tightness in his chest, as if something was grabbing him, making him feel a little flustered for no reason.

Xiao Guanxue hummed lightly as a response.

Nan Yan smiled, and there was a hint of tenderness in her smile, but it did not reach the depths of her eyes.

She coughed lightly and continued, "I heard that you are going to marry Miss Su. Congratulations, you finally got your wish, Brother Xiao."

When Xiao Guanxue heard her say congratulations, he subconsciously clenched his fingers. He felt a sharp pain in his heart for a moment and asked in a sour tone, "You said... congratulations to me?"

He didn't know whether she was sincerely congratulating him or mocking him, but neither of these two results was what he wanted. He didn't know why Yanyan's attitude had become like this? Why didn't she care at all? Was it because he was completely useless?

Nan Yan nodded and chuckled at him.

"Yeah, congratulations."

She was clearly smiling at him, but her eyes seemed to contain some kind of unspeakable depression and melancholy, which made her look even more lonely.

However, Xiao Guanxue felt that the words she said were like a sharp sword piercing into his heart, twisting it over and over inside, causing him unbearable pain.

He was a little nervous, but unwilling to give in. He closed his eyes and endured for a long time before he couldn't help asking her, "Yan Yan, have you ever had any...?"

Before he could finish his words, Nan Yan suddenly interrupted him, "Brother Xiao..."

Xiao Guanxue was slightly startled and looked at her quietly.

Nan Yan chuckled at him, then took out the repaired jade pendant from her bosom and handed it to him. "Actually, there is something I have wanted to say for a long time, but I never had the chance to say it to you."

She stroked the crack in the middle of the jade pendant with her fingertips and spoke softly, "I'm sorry, Brother Xiao, I was too willful in the past and made many mistakes. I made you suffer a lot. Can you forgive me?"

When Xiao Guanxue heard her sincere apology, he was stunned for a moment, as if something was blocking his throat, and he couldn't utter a word.

He stared at her, and suddenly felt as if he had lost something important.

He wanted her to bow her head and submit, but it was never like this. He would rather she hated him, was annoyed with him, and remembered him all her life, than to have her act like she didn't care about anything, as if she had let it go completely.

The more she let go and stopped caring, the harder it was for him to let go.

Xiao Guanxue was really panicked and nervous. He had never seen Nan Yan like this before. Why did she become like this? Why did things become like this between them?

He tightened and loosened his fingers, and suddenly felt as if he wanted to grasp something but couldn't. "Why are you saying these things to me?"

"...I have never blamed you for these things."

"I see. Just don't blame me."

Nan Yan smiled again, then suddenly lowered her head and sighed, "I was just thinking that it's time to return this jade pendant to you. After all, I have occupied it for such a long time. What is not mine will never be mine. Even if I snatch it away, it will never belong to me."

Nan Yan's eyes showed a look of regret, as if she thought of what happened that day again, feeling a little sad, "It's a pity that I broke the jade pendant, and there is a crack in the middle, but fortunately, I asked Brother A Yu to help me fix it."

When Xiao Guanxue heard her talk about what happened that day, he couldn't help but feel regretful. He asked in a low voice, "I hurt you that day. Does it still hurt?

Nan Yan's expression paused slightly, her fingertips curled up.

Then he smiled and shook his head, "…it doesn't hurt anymore."

As she spoke, she handed the jade pendant to him. Xiao Guanxue's fingers accidentally touched her fingertips. His fingers trembled as if they had touched a piece of ice, without any warmth. He subconsciously wanted to hold her hand, but she quickly pulled it away.

She suddenly said, "Brother Xiao, I'm leaving now."

Xiao Guanxue's heart trembled, and he suddenly took a step forward, "Where are you going? Haven't you always been with... Xie Yu?"

Hearing him mention Xie Yu, Nan Yan seemed stunned for a moment. She thought of their past, and it was all so vivid in her mind as if it happened yesterday.

南嫣輕吐了口氣，最後對着蕭觀雪點了點頭，笑着說道，“是啊，要和阿遇哥哥一起走了，不過在那之前……”

南嫣擡頭看他，目光柔柔淺淺，好似能望進他心底，她輕輕地開口：

“你能不能，再抱我一下？”

“就像從前在村子時那樣，抱抱我……好不好？”

蕭觀雪的目光微頓了一瞬，似乎沒想到她會提出這樣的要求，他不知道今天的嫣嫣到底怎麽了？為什麽總說這些奇怪的話？

她是不是發生了什麽不好的事情，是不是謝遇又做了些惹她不高興的事情了？

而南嫣見他許久都沒有說話，便以為是自己的要求太過分了，她輕掐着指尖，有些不好意思地別過了臉。

“抱歉，是我要求太過分了，我忘了你如今已經是蘇茉的未婚夫婿了，我們不能……”

話還沒說完，蕭觀雪便再也忍不住了，他直接上前，用力将人摟進懷裏。

直到将人摟進懷裏的那一刻，他才驚覺這人瘦了許多，腰身細得幾乎一圈就可以包攬過來，他下意識抱得更緊，仿佛只有這樣心底的不安才能稍稍驅散一些，怎麽了，她到底是怎麽了？為什麽會瘦的這樣過分。

“嫣嫣，別這樣，別對我說這種話，我們之間不該是這樣的，我們……重新開始好不好？我不介意從前的事情，只要你願意，我們就重新開始好不好？”

南嫣愣了一瞬後，也回過神來。

她沒有說話，而是将臉頰貼近他頸邊，似乎有些站不住了，原本搭在他的肩上的手也無力地滑落了，最後整個身體軟倒在他的懷裏，嘴角的微笑有些飄渺虛無。

“蕭大哥，你還記得嗎？”

蕭觀雪正焦急等着她的回複，聽到她問話，便下意識地回道，“記得什麽？”

南嫣抿唇露出一個淺笑，眼底滿是懷念的神色，“就是你中蛇毒的那次，我們倆在樹上躲了一夜，第二天我不小心将那壺水打翻掉了下去，你應該不知道吧，其實我是故意的，我就是想欺負你，想看你無奈卻又拿我毫無辦法的樣子……”

她語氣裏含着些微末的得意，似惡作劇得逞之後的驕傲。

蕭觀雪眼底忽然湧出些酸意，又有些想笑，原來竟是故意的麽，她怎麽這樣壞呢？渴得他嗓子都冒煙了，最後瞧着這人一副傷心欲絕的模樣，又巴巴得湊上去哄她。

南嫣低低地笑了，“後來，你來哄我，我心想怎麽會有這樣的笨人呢，被我騙了居然還來安慰我，真是個木頭腦袋……”

說到這兒，她聲音慢慢停了，似乎想擡手去碰他的臉，可試了幾次都擡不起來，最後只能放棄了。

蕭觀雪沒看見她的動作，只是抱着她的雙手忽而收緊，心底一陣不安，“嫣嫣，為什麽突然對我說些，你到底怎麽了，是不是……他又欺負你了？”

南嫣沒有應答，她輕輕咳嗽一聲。

微微擡眸凝望他的側臉，眼神卻好似緩慢飄到了遠處，朦朦胧胧，“我只是沒見過你這樣笨的人。”

南嫣笑着笑着，眼淚卻不自覺地從眼角滑落，因為這具身體撐到此刻，已是極致。

南嫣此刻只覺得周身好似痛極。

她艱難又無力地揪緊了他的袖子，眼淚更是不受控制地就湧了出來，“蕭、蕭大哥，你怪……我嗎？怪我一直利用你？”

蕭觀雪聽了這話，更恍覺自己的心被誰狠狠地攥緊了，“……我說過了，我從沒怪過你。我只是嫉妒，我嫉妒你對謝遇比對所有人都好，我還氣你，氣你不肯對我說一句軟話，只要你說，你想怎麽樣都可以，哪怕你将我翻來覆去利用個徹底，我都不怪你。”

南嫣聽了這話便再也克制不住了。

她咽下一口氣，猛地咳嗽起來，咳得五髒六腑仿佛都要移位，最後吐出一口血來，面色如紙般蒼白脆弱。

“那你，為什麽……不來找我，你不知道，我一直都在等着你嗎？”

南嫣擡眼看他，眼中盡是蒼涼脆弱。

蕭觀雪一愣，下一瞬，便被她口中的鮮血驚駭到不能呼吸，甚至連大腦都失去了思考，空白一片。

淚水濡濕了鬓角，心底終究是存了幾分怨恨的，她磕磕絆絆地說。

“你不是說……蠱毒解除之後，就……就來明月山莊提親的嗎，怎麽能夠娶別人呢？

“我……都收了你的玉佩了……”

她的淚絕望落下來，口中正湧出鮮血，嘴唇微微開合着，每說一句話就有鮮血不斷湧出來，怎麽也停不下來。

“你怎麽能……不守信用呢？”

那眼淚滴落到他的指尖，燙的他手指一個哆嗦，蕭觀雪這才猛然反應過來，只覺得有種前所未有的恐慌驟然湧上心頭。

“嫣、嫣嫣，你怎麽了……”

好端端為什麽會咳血？

南嫣嘴角又湧出血來，蕭觀雪這下完全慌了神了，他直接伸手去捂住她的嘴，好似這樣捂着，那血就流不出來了一樣。

可是不行，那血越抹越多，好像流不盡似的，滴得他滿手都是，他從沒這般絕望害怕過。

“嫣嫣……”

蕭觀雪手腳慌亂地将人抱在懷裏，驚慌恐懼之中，這才恍然想起來自己是個大夫。

他手指匆忙地去抓那只垂在身側的手，嘴裏喃喃地哄着她，“你別怕，別怕！我能救你的，我是天底下最厲害的大夫，我一定可以救你的，一定可以的……”

他一邊說着，一邊伸手去探嫣嫣的脈搏，這一探查，蕭觀雪瞳孔驟然緊縮，整個人登時如遭重擊，仿佛有什麽在腦中轟然重錘一下，好似聽見了天崩地裂之聲。

那一瞬間，蕭觀雪渾身轉瞬間冰冷得駭人，只感覺自己整個人都開始顫抖了，他後退一步，雙膝竟是不受控制地一彎，用力跪倒在地。

“不可能，這是不可能的……”

心力交瘁，油盡燈枯！

蕭觀雪緊緊抱着懷中的南嫣，眼中滿是不敢置信，怎、怎麽會這樣？為什麽會這樣？明明前段時間還好好的，怎麽就油盡燈枯了？

他慌慌張張地從袖中掏出銀針去護她心脈，可是手指顫抖得太厲害了，紮了幾次都紮進自己的手上了，“為什麽，為什麽不告訴我，你為什麽不早點告訴我……”

蕭觀雪來來回回重複着，可手中的銀針哆哆嗦嗦着就是紮不下去，他不知道該紮哪個穴位，不知道該從何下手。

他從沒有這麽害怕過，害怕到心髒都快停止了。

害怕到極致，恐懼到渾身顫抖。

只覺得好似要天崩地裂了一般，什麽賭氣、怨恨、嫉妒全都不在意了，他什麽都不要求了，只要她好好的，好好的就行，哪怕恨他、騙他都沒關系。

不要……不要這樣……

南嫣卻一把攥住他的手指，似用盡了全身的力氣，聲音哽咽道，“你為什麽……不肯聽我解釋，我起初是利用你的，可後來卻是真心實意的喜歡……你為什麽，不肯信我？”

“你知不知道……我那天，很痛……”

蕭觀雪知道她說的那天，心中的慌亂越來越大，眼淚更是不受控制地從眼眶中墜落，“我信的，我信的，嫣嫣我信你！你哪裏痛，你告訴我，哪裏痛？”

南嫣似是想笑，偏偏眼淚不受控制，手指顫抖着，艱難地從懷中掏出一個荷包，“你……瞧啊，我的荷包都繡好了，可你一直不來……我等不到你了……”

蕭觀雪只覺得心中好似破了個大洞，連呼吸都痛，痛得手指顫抖。

他死攥着那只荷包，眼淚打在她臉上，“對不起，對不起，是我錯了，我真的知道錯了，我不該和你賭氣的，我只是想讓你多在意我一些，我想讓你……”

她輕咳一聲，将腦袋埋進他胸口。

血淚濡濕了他胸口的衣裳，聲音似有些苦澀，“我知我脾氣不好，滿腹算計，還是個……被人退過婚的失節女子，但你，可不可以，不要嫌我……”

“懸崖之上，我說的話，都是真心的……”

蕭觀雪從沒有這麽後悔過，只覺得自己曾經說過的那些話，仿佛一柄淩厲的匕首，正将他的心髒一遍遍的淩遲，令他痛不欲生。

他拼命搖頭，“我不嫌你，我不嫌你，我那日說的都是氣話，我從未嫌棄過你……”

“那就好，不嫌我就好……” 南嫣緩緩低下了頭，她嘴角彎了彎，又溢出一絲微弱的笑意，“蕭哥哥，蘇姑娘……比我好，她比我待你更好，你們成婚以後，要好好的……”

蕭觀雪卻猛地抓住她的手貼在臉上，眼中霧氣彌漫，“不要，我不要！除了你我誰都不要，我還有好多話沒跟你說，嫣嫣，別這麽對我……”

她努力睜眼看他，眼淚似流盡了，而那眼中流露的神色也是極為不舍，“還有，你能不能，不要忘了我……”

“起碼，不要……那麽快，就忘了我。”

“我很怕的，怕一個人……”

"My, Brother A Yu, seems to be here to take me home..." She tilted her head and looked into the distance. There seemed to be some light in her eyes, and then she stretched out her hand towards the dark shadow in the distance.

"He's here to pick me up..." Her eyes finally closed with a hint of smile on her lips, and the hand she had stretched out completely fell to the ground due to exhaustion.

At that moment, Xie Yu, who was running towards him, suddenly felt his eyes go dark, and he covered his chest with his hands, twitched, and then spat out a mouthful of blood.

…

System: "Mission completed, host, do you want to leave this world now?"

“Get away now.”

In the void, Nan Yan glanced at the small world calmly, and a calm and rational voice soon sounded.