Chapter 207 If You Don’t Obey, I’ll Kill You
"Go back."
After a long silence, Ning Yan suddenly turned around.
He turned sideways to face Yu Chengbai, his eyes looking at the winding road down the mountain. The expression on his face was neither the deliberate flattery of these days, nor the original indifference and hostility.
He was unusually gentle, his tone close yet distant, and he said calmly, "Brother, let's go back."
Yu Chengbai lowered his head and sent a message, probably asking the driver who was parked in the distance to drive over.
He paused after hearing this, then looked up at him and said, "Ayan, you should say something else when you are in front of others."
Ning Yan pulled the corner of his mouth lightly, smiled and asked him: "So you also know that it's wrong."
"There's no such thing as absolute right or wrong in this world. Most dogmas and etiquette are just conventions humans use to discipline each other, and they're nothing more than a piece of worthless paper. Humans are animals after all, and there are many like us in nature, aren't there?"
Yu Chengbai had probably brainwashed himself quite a bit in the dead of night, and now he casually brought it up to Ning Yan, "Everything in the world exists objectively, but the meaning of their existence is subjective. Aside from the actual pain piercing the flesh, everything else is just an added feeling brought about by one's own values. If you don't care, then it doesn't exist."
Ning Yan looked back at him, "You mean the feeling of you entering my body is real, and the feeling of me being entered by you is also real, but as long as we don't care about ethics and morality, the guilt brought about by those moral senses is bullshit."
“…Ayan.”
"Then you really shouldn't have let me go. It would have been much better if I had stayed. Before you let me go, forget about ethics, morality, and shame. There was nothing else on my mind except killing. Our mother didn't teach me that."
Yu Chengbai looked at him quietly, his eyes soft and filled with heartache.
However, Ning Yan didn't think there was anything worthy of sympathy about himself. He never felt pitiful, and he didn't say this to gain sympathy.
Ning Yan narrowed his eyes, without any emotion, and continued to speak without restraint, "When I first saw you, I felt like I was in a cage. I was too far away to see your face clearly, and maybe I didn't care what you looked like."
"I just saw that mom likes you very much. She never holds my hand, but she reached out and hugged you many times that day."
"If you hadn't let me go, when I grew up and you told me you liked me and wanted me, Mom would have given me to you."
"I'll do whatever you tell me to do."
"But now it's no use. I won't listen to her anymore. I'm a living person with my own thoughts. I know what's proper and what's not. I also know what I can and can't do."
"Since you knew that, why did you come back to the hotel that night?" Yu Chengbai interrupted him, looking into his light golden eyes. Seeing that he seemed to be turning away again, he immediately reached out and grabbed his arm, whispering again, "Why did you go back to the hotel that night?"
Because of lust and shamelessness.
Because Ning Yan is not what he says he is. He has never been a person with a strong sense of morality or a positive outlook on life. He may not even have such a thing as three values.
Even if you have it later, it may not be very reliable.
He was like a robot that had never been instilled with humanistic thoughts, or like a wolf boy who had acquired animal habits after living with wolves for a long time. He lived like a beast for the first ten years, and even after trying hard to catch up on knowledge of human society for more than ten years, he still could not change his animal instinctive habits.
Eat when hungry, sleep when tired, and mate when in heat.
Ning Yan's sense of morality is indeed not that strong. When he first learned that Yu Chengbai was his brother, it was not as shocking as when Yu Chengbai knew from the beginning that he was Ning Yan.
Not to mention his brother, even if it was his father, Ning Yan wouldn't be unable to accept it.
On the one hand, she wanted to sleep with Yu Chengbai, but on the other hand, she really didn't want to be with him.
Thinking back on the years they have been together, Ning Yan, who has no conscience and no morals, couldn't help but feel sorry for Yu Chengbai and think about whether it was worth it for him.
It was like a piece of uncarved, transparent and white jade, but after meeting him, it was broken into various tiny lines and stained with various dirty colors.
At first, he thought Yu Chengbai was a gentleman, a rare good man, and a cowardly and honest man who could be bullied at will without any resistance.
Later, I gradually discovered that he was not.
He also has a dark side that is unknown to the public.
So he laughed at the man with disdain, contempt, and scorn, pointing his middle fingers at him and laughing heartily: "Yu Chengbai, you're pretending to be a decent person, pretending to be an honest and kind person, but it turns out you're no better than me!"
Insults, ridicule, mockery, complacency...
He put on an ugly face and used the attitude of a real villain to laugh at the other party's hypocritical behavior.
Yu Chengbai was not annoyed, angry, or refute. He just smiled and took out two rings, putting them on his middle fingers, one on the left and one on the right.
The one in the left case is Yiwei, and the one in the right case is Ning Yan.
Good, bad, fake, real... Yu Chengbai accepts everything about him.
In the end, after all the ridicule, Ning Yan discovered that the true gentleman became a hypocrite because of him.
He sacrificed countless consciences to gain the peace and tranquility he had enjoyed in Continent M over the years, and gambled with the lives of countless people around him to reach his current position where he could cover the three continents for him, allowing him to act recklessly and do as he pleased.
When he was laughing and complaining to the people around him that Yu Chengbai also had a dark mind, Yu Chengbai was thinking about how to pull him out of the quagmire.
This man was like a mirror, reflecting the ugliest side of Ning Yan, who had almost no conscience.
That's why Ning Yan said to him, "Yu Chengbai, I'm worried about you."
Only then would I say: "Yu Chengbai, you have changed, becoming just like me."
The favor was so great, like a mountain suddenly pressing down on us.
He discovered that someone had been deliberately trying to love him and was almost willing to give up everything.
And this person had sincerely thought about taking the other person's life more than once.
All his guesses and interpretations about Yu Chengbai over the years were not enough to constitute even one ten-thousandth of Yu Chengbai's true self, but they allowed him to get a glimpse of himself.
Yu Chengbai may not be a hypocrite, but he is a real villain.
"I really meant what I said before about liking you." After a long silence, Ning Yan suddenly said, turning to look at Yu Chengbai. His tone and expression didn't sound like he was joking, "I'm also serious about wanting to kill you."
"The first time was when I saw you being held by your mother when you were little. The second time was when I came to find you after we came out of the jungle and you said you didn't like men. The third time was when I married you using Evie's identity and you said you knew I was Ning Yan but didn't want to be with me."
"It's true that I like you, and it's also true that I want to kill you."
"Because my mother said we shouldn't be sentimental, we shouldn't show weakness, and we shouldn't be soft-hearted. If you don't obey, I'll kill you."
"There are many men and women in the world."
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