Chapter 208 I only ask for one person
He only said not to be sentimental, but didn't say that he couldn't risk his life for his brothers, so Ning Yan's mind was now full of his eldest brother who was knocked unconscious, and his second brother who lost his phone after returning to the capital and could not be contacted.
The three brothers are in poor health, so I have to worry about them occasionally.
As for Yu Chengbai, Ning Yan thought of him the most when he was bored or when he wanted to "sleep" due to physiological needs.
Although Yu Chengbai broke his heart twice, he never went out to drink to drown his sorrows. When he was busy with work, he ignored the other party for several years.
Dating is like raising a pet.
Even now that he knew everything Yu Chengbai had done for him, his first reaction was, "What a bastard I am! He was so good to me, and I actually wanted to kill him. Otherwise, I should stay away from him in the future and not harm him."
I thought about running away, but I never thought about making up for it.
He also didn't know how to make up for it.
Ning Yan couldn't and wouldn't do something like being obsessed with love. He could act out the act of hugging Yu Chengbai and crying, saying "I was wrong and I will change." Then he could turn around and carry a gun to other places to kill people and stay there for several years. He was even more adept at doing this.
Just as he himself said, Yu Chengbai occupied 100% of his love, and he had never been so obsessed with any other man.
But love can only occupy a small part of his life.
Ning Yan guessed that Yu Chengbai must have seen it too, that work and career were more important than him, and brotherhood was more important than him.
That's why he went to great lengths to get Shi Ying to get him to the Northern Continent to take this kind of job with two days off a week for retirement.
There is plenty of free time, no danger, and most importantly, it is very convenient to fall in love.
He would never again get up in the middle of the night to kill someone, nor would he disappear for several months inexplicably, being so busy that he forgot he had a home to return to.
However, Yu Chengbai still underestimated the wildness in Ning Yan. The deeper the love, the faster this person ran.
As if she was afraid of being relied on by him.
The two got in the car and returned to Shi Ying's house in silence all the way.
When getting off the car, Ning Yan patted Yu Chengbai on the shoulder and said to Yu Chengbai, who had a very complicated expression, "Brother, I really appreciate everything you have done for me. Thank you for letting me escape and thank you for protecting me."
"I think you should think carefully about what you said before. The way you look at me is actually no different than the way you look at Third Young Master."
"You're a very good big brother!"
Yu Chengbai held the hand on his shoulder, looked into his eyes, and frowned: "Ayan, do you think I have worked so hard for so many years just to hear you call me big brother?"
Ning Yan pulled his hand back, "Next time you want to sleep, you can come to me."
After pulling it out, Ning Yan raised his head and saw that Yu Chengbai's expression was even more complicated. He said, "You just want to sleep with me."
Ning Yan nodded, "You just realized it? Otherwise, why didn't I get angry when you forced yourself on me? Because I wanted to force myself on you before, but it was because I wasn't strong enough down there. Brother, we can actually keep it simple."
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"You seem a little angry." Ning Yan suddenly said.
He was probably not angry, but Yu Chengbai was more likely confused and puzzled, and was deeply curious about him.
A normal person will be deeply moved after knowing the efforts of his/her lover, and will be more determined to love each other.
But when it came to Ning Yan, he was silent, guilty, self-blaming, and deeply regretful for his past ruthlessness and harm. His face was full of words saying, "I am not a human being."
Then he raises his head and looks at you seriously, calling you brother while welcoming you to come to 'sleep' next time.
There is no moral ethics at all, and charging for love is even more unbelievable. This person only thinks about sleeping.
His love is equal to sleep.
He is very good at dating and flirting, full of sweet words and expressions of love. He won't be ruthless after sleeping with you, but you won't hear his sweet words for a while, and you may not even see him in person.
Until the next time he wants to 'sleep'.
Yu Chengbai stared into his eyes, thinking carefully about their short marriage, and found that it seemed to be true.
This person always acts coquettishly to seek favor and flirts with others ambiguously, but he is always thinking about that kind of thing.
Even during the time when both of them lost their memories, Ning Yan's gradual interest in him did not begin with attraction, but rather with affection.
All he could think about was sleeping with him, and he tried his best to get some medicine just to sleep with him.
Yu Chengbai suddenly discovered the truth. He frowned and asked the person in front of him, "In your eyes, the difference between me and other men or women is just whether I want to sleep or not, right?"
"No, you're better than them, really."
"Will you die for me?"
"No." Ning Yan answered quickly.
"But I can." Yu Chengbai answered even faster.
"...You put a lot of pressure on me."
Yu Chengbai looked serious and asked, "What about Ali Shiming and Lin Fang? Would you die for them?"
Ning Yan had never thought about this problem before. He was stunned for a moment and then thought about it seriously.
He hesitated for a moment, then frowned and said, "I don't know."
One is the one who doesn't know without even thinking about it, and the other is the one who doesn't know after repeated hesitation.
It's clear which way the scale is tilting.
"I'm sorry." Ning Yan should have figured out the reason for his silence at the moment. After thinking for a moment, she looked up at him and said frankly, "I'm not someone worthy of love, nor do I have any talent for love. I only have the means to love, not the instinct to love."
"So, do you want to try someone else?"
"Because I may never learn to love someone as passionately as you do, spending more than ten years in love."
Yu Chengbai looked at him for a long time without saying a word, his brows furrowed.
Ning Yan sighed, reached out to hold his face, smoothed his brows with his fingertips, and said, "Brother, find someone else. I will definitely disappoint you. I will never change my appearance to become like you just for the sake of loving someone in my life."
"You risked your life alone to go to South Africa to save me."
"Yes, but that's because I'm sure. To be honest, I wouldn't go if I wasn't sure."
"Have you ever thought about spending your whole life with me?"
"I've thought about it."
"That's enough." Yu Chengbai held his hands on both sides of his cheeks, looked at his dazed expression, lowered his eyes very gently, and asked him: "Ayan, you have been rejecting me, running away from me, and trying to draw a clear line between us. Are you worried that I won't get the same love from you and will be disappointed?"
Ning Yan thought for a moment and frowned, "Maybe. I also feel a little sorry for you. It feels like you've put so much thought into loving a fool. I used to think I was the fool."
"What if I say I don't care?"
"But you just asked me if I was willing to die for you." Ning Yan said immediately.
"Desire is endless, but bottom lines can be changed. If you love me eight points, I want ten points. If you love me six points, then I can only desire eight points. If you say you can only give me three points, then my expectations will be lowered to five points."
Yu Chengbai reached out and hugged him, holding him in his arms.
One hand supported the back of Ning Yan's head, tilted his head, kissed his hair, and whispered: "It doesn't matter if you give me little, I just ask for you to be my only one, that's enough."
Even if it doesn't disturb his heart, it's good enough to make him promiscuous in bed.
Even though he coveted beauty and bodies, Yu Chengbai was now just thankful that he was born with a good appearance.
After they separated, Ning Yan tiptoed back to his room to rest.
I washed up first, then went to bed. Before falling asleep, I lay in bed and thought carefully about Yu Chengbai's words. Suddenly, I tossed and turned.
I wanted to wake Yu Li up and ask him to analyze for me whether his brother was joking or serious.
He threw back the quilt and was about to get up——
Someone knocked on the window from outside.
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